[jesusaintreal]

The B12/MICC shots came in. The clinic tried to upsell me on this a while ago. Originally I said no, but I’ve been so fucking tired lately, I said fuck it maybe it’ll help. The gf is going to do the injections for me since she’s done B12 shots before.

[jesusaintreal]

GLP-1 Week 9

(long and boring)

Wed (June 3, took 5 mg at 7:30pm)

Effects - Heartburn, apathy, anhedonia, insomnia. I'm just listing things, dunno which ones are related to tirzepatide.

Food - Steak salad from Beef O Brady's. I might have had something else at some point, but I don't remember having anything else.

Sleep - Took a nap during the afternoon because I'd been up since 3am. Slept 6.5 hours that night after taking a Benadryl.

Exercise: Ran 1 mile.

Weigh in - Weight was 240.1 lbs compared to last week's 241.2. The week before that was 240.4. So basically weight has plateaued.

Thu

Effects - Heartburn, lethargy, anhedonia.

Food - It was a food truck day. Had food truck buffalo chicken nachos for lunch. For dinner, I went to the Nicaraguan food truck and got cerdo asado with gallopinto and queso frito. Ate 1/2 of it.

Sleep - Took 2 MagPlus+. Slept 6 hours.

Fri

Effects - Tired, heartburn.

Food - Had blackberries with oatmeal for breakfast. I had leftover Nicaraguan for lunch. For dinner, the gf came over and I cooked egg poha. We both had a small amount.

Sleep - Took 2 MagPlus+ and 1 melatonin and slept 7 hours.

Sat

Effects - Mildly muted appetite, tired.

Food - Introduced the gf to the Nicaraguan food truck. We both had Gallopinto with carne asada and queso frito. Had roughly half for lunch and the rest for dinner.

Exercise: Ran 1 mile.

Sleep - Took 1 melatonin and 2 MagPlus+. Slept around 6 hours.

Sun

Effects - Tired

Food - Had leftover poha for breakfast. A few bite size cookies :( Had some beef sticks for a snack/lunch. Made Indian chai. Healthy Choice chicken pot pie for dinner.

Sleep - Took 2 MagPlus+ and a melatonin. Slept 6.5 hours.

Mon

Effects - Tired

Food - Oatmeal with blackberries, beef sticks, nachos, chicken strips, onion rings.

Sleep - 2 MagPlus+ and a melatonin. Slept 6 hours (9pm-3am).

Tue

Effects - None

Food - Beef stick, blackened chicken Caesar wrap, pho, cheesecake roll x2, gỏi cuốn x2.

Sleep - Pretty much the same as yesterday, up at 3am again.

Thoughts on the week: Ate too much. Not too many side effects this week but also not much appetite suppression. I was incredibly tired the first 2-3 days after the shot and ordered B12 shots to hopefully counteract that.

.:.

[jesusaintreal]

GLP-1 Week 8

(long and boring)

Wed (May 27, took 5 mg at 8pm)

Effects - Low energy.

Food - Went to a new brunch place. Had eggs, bacon, cheese grits, chicken fried steak and an English muffin. For dinner, I made egg poha.

Sleep - Slept 6 hours after taking a Benadryl.

Weigh in - Weight went up for the first time since I started taking the GLP-1. it is up 0.8 lbs from last week.

Thu

Effects - Heartburn, acid reflux, muted appetite, lethargy. I had major acid reflux while at lunch with coworkers and wasn't able to finish my meal.

Food - Had arroz con pollo for lunch. Went to SP's place after work to have a couple beers and say goodbye since he is leaving in the morning. Ate a candy bar on the way home (Twix snickerdoodle!).

Sleep - Took a Benadryl and melatonin. Slept 5.5 hours. Heartburn throughout the night.

Fri

Effects - Tired, heartburn.

Food - I had leftover egg poha for breakfast and lunch. For dinner, a bit of a binge from Walk-Ons: chicken tenders, hush puppies and beans & rice. I also ordered a cookie with ice cream for dessert but either they didn't put it in the bag or the delivery guy ate it.

Sleep - Took a Benadryl and melatonin and slept 7 hours.

Sat

Effects - Mildly muted appetite, tired. Sweat my ass off trying to digest food.

Food - Cream of wheat with pumpkin and brown sugar for breakfast. Dinner: Gallopinto carne asada and queso frito (didn’t finish).

Sleep - Took 2 melatonin. Had a verrry hard time falling asleep and kept waking up alternating between pouring sweat and freezing cold.

Sun

Effects - Curbed appetite.

Food - had a couple vegetable samosas for lunch and one baklava slice. Had leftover Nicaraguan for dinner.

Sleep - Took 2 melatonin. Was unable to sleep at all.

Mon

Effects - Suppressed appetite, exhausted from not sleeping, mild heartburn.

Food - Had egg bhurji for breakfast (which I had time to make because I didn’t sleep). Got Culver’s for dinner: 4 spicy tenders and a side of fried cheese curd.

Sleep - Tried a new sleep supplement: Magplus+ [1050mg Liposomal Magnesium Complex (Magnesium L-Threonate + Phosphatidylserine), 200mg L-Theanine, 100mg Chamomile Extract (10:1), 100mg Valerian Root Extract (10:1), 50mg Apigenin]. Slept for 7.5 hours.

Tue

Effects - Regular appetite, mild heartburn.

Food - A leftover baklava slice for breakfast. Egg bhurji x2 for lunch. Culver’s for dinner again—same thing as yesterday but today I added a medium shake.

Sleep - Took the new MagPlus+ sleep supplement. Woke up around 3am with heartburn and couldn't fall back to sleep.

Thoughts on the week: I haven’t added up the kcals, but I think without SP around I am eating less. Trying to get off Benadryl is painful, I’m sleeping like shit, but I read that long term Benadryl use increases your chances of dementia by 50%!

.:.

[jesusaintreal]

My work has decided to torture us with AI Voice training videos. What do you bet the script was written by AI too?

[jesusaintreal]

Made Indian chai (loose tea, cardamom, cloves, ginger, water, whole milk, sugar)

[scorpionlafemme]

[jesusaintreal]

It was sad saying goodbye to SP. I doubt I will see or hear from him much. I am supposed to go to India in December for his brother's wedding, but we will see if that happens. He and MK lived through something very traumatic last year. MK moved away a month later. I haven't heard from him and SP refuses to speak with him. Since then, SP is always saying how much he hates being here. He has PTSD and doesn't want any reminders of Tallahassee. He even gave away possessions before he left so he wouldn't have anything to remind him of this place. I can't help but think I would be a reminder.

[jesusaintreal]

Pretty much on here to play the merge game ads at this point tbh

[jesusaintreal]

GLP-1 Week 7

(long and boring)

Wed (May 20, took 5 mg at 8pm)

Effects - Low energy, mildly muted appetite

Food - Spent most of the day with SP. Had a couple beers with him then lunch at a Mexican place where we both got arroz con pollo. For dinner, I made black beans and rice.

Sleep - Slept 5 hours after taking a Benadryl.

Weigh in - Down 14.4 lbs since April 8th.

Thu

Effects - Mildly muted appetite, tired.

Food - Got enchiladas from the Nicaraguan food truck. They looked small in the menu photo but were huge. I ate one. It was ok. There was cinnamon and sugar on the shell which I didn't like.

Sleep - Took a Benadryl and melatonin. Slept 4.5 hours.

Fri

Effects - Mildly muted appetite, headachy/flu-like symptoms.

Food - For lunch, I got red beans and rice with con carne from the Nicaraguan food truck. Ate it all but did not eat the sides (some kind of coleslaw salad and fried plantains). For dinner, I had cream of wheat with brown sugar and blue berries.

Sleep - Took a Benadryl and slept 6.5 hours.

Sat

Effects - Mildly muted appetite, tired.

Food - Oatmeal and blueberries for breakfast. Had Achari Paneer Tikka Kebab from Maa Kitcheb for lunch and dinner, added rice.

Sleep - Took two Benadryl. Slept well for 7 hours.

Sun

Effects - Mildly muted appetite, tired.

Food - Kinda binged for breakfast: eggs, bacon, cheese grits and two pancakes with syrup. Chicken 65 with rice for dinner.

Sleep - Took a Benadryl. Stayed up after 4am.

Mon

Effects - Regular appetite, very tired.

Food - "Butterfly Drink" from Starbucks and a couple almond cookies from the Indian store for breakfast. Had a couple beers with SP in the afternoon. He made some unnamed dish his gf taught him that involves green chilis, garlic, onion, curry leaves, cooking oil, carrots, eggs, rice and Chick-fil-A chicken nuggets. It was pretty good. Had chicken 65 with rice for dinner.

Sleep - Took a Benadryl and melatonin. Slept for 6 hours.

Tue

Effects - Regular appetite, tired.

Food - Oatmeal and blueberries for breakfast. Had chicken 65 with rice for lunch. Beef pho, goi cuon, and cheesecake spring rolls for dinner.

Sleep - Took a Benadryl. Woke up around 3am and couldn't fall back to sleep.

Thoughts on the week: I drank too much and ate too much and slept like shit. I'm sad SP moves to California Friday, but it's also an opportunity for me to indulge less. Looking at the side effects list above, I realize heartburn is slowly disappearing from the list (knock on wood). That used to be a big part of my sleeping problems. Now that I'm losing weight, I get up to pee a lot which I think is replacing heartburn as the new sleep disrupter. I've been leaving that effect off the list because it feels like TMI. I really want to go back to taking a weed gummy to help me sleep but have to wait until I find a new full-time job.

.:.

[sandmandaddy69]

[jesusaintreal]

Why is the #glp1 tag full of people like this shitting on “diet culture?” idgi. This particular person is a fat fetishist/feeder, but a lot of people use the tag to post articles about worst case scenario side effects. It's like they're trying to scare random strangers out of doing something they disapprove of.

[jesusaintreal]

Going on browser tumblr and discovering your most problematic mutual doesn’t use dark mode

[funeral]

In melancholia, the body loses the lightness, fluidity, and mobility of a medium and turns into a heavy, solid body that puts up resistance to the subject's intentions and impulses. Its materiality, density, and weight, otherwise suspended and unnoticed in everyday performance, now come to the fore and are felt painfully. Thus, melancholia may be described as a reification or corporealization of the lived body. The melancholic patient experiences a local or general oppression, anxiety, and rigidity (e.g., a feeling of an armor vest or tire around the chest, lump in the throat, or pressure in the head). Sense perception and movement are weakened and finally walled in by this rigidity, which is visible in the patient's gaze, face, or gestures. To act, patients have to overcome their psychomotor inhibition and push themselves to even minor tasks, compensating by an effort of will what the body does not have by itself any more. With growing inhibition, their sensorimotor space is restricted to the nearest environment, culminating in depressive stupor.

Thomas Fuchs, "Corporealized and Disembodied Minds: A Phenomenological View of the Body in Melancholia and Schizophrenia"

[jesusaintreal]

Got this for brunch, had around 5 spoonfuls and was full. Got the rest to go. Had the remainder around 3pm. Realized afterward that eating a few bites and stopping when full tasted 10x better than eating the majority of it in one sitting.

The gf and I have been sharing a plate at restaurants lately, but this one charges a $3 fee when you do that, so we each ordered our own thing.

.:.

[jesusaintreal]

[funeral]

In this environment where time is transformed into abstract, exactly measurable, physical space, an environment at once the cause and effect of the scientifically and mechanically fragmented and specialised production of the object of labour, the subjects of labour must likewise be rationally fragmented. On the one hand, the objectification of their labour-power into something opposed to their total personality (a process already accomplished with the sale of that labour-power as a commodity) is now made into the permanent ineluctable reality of their daily life. Here, too, the personality can do no more than look on helplessly while its own existence is reduced to an isolated particle and fed into an alien system. On the other hand, the mechanical disintegration of the process of production into its components also destroys those bonds that had bound individuals to a community in the days when production was still "organic." In this respect, too, mechanisation makes of them isolated abstract atoms whose work no longer brings them together directly and organically; it becomes mediated to an increasing extent exclusively by the abstract laws of the mechanism which imprisons them.

György Lukács, "Reification and the Consciousness of the Proletariat" in History and Class Consciousness

[jesusaintreal]

I am practicing for my new vocation as a competitive non-eater.