My name is Jordan, i am a 25 year old multidiscipline writer and artist based in California who is trying to write more. I am Black, Mexican, Non-binary, Queer, Trans, and Chronically-ill/Disabled.Â
This is my public account, if you want to see more of me or touch base go my instagram @ jordangaonawilson. This blog will mostly have poetry, some essays, and reposts of things I like.Â
linktree/jordangaona is where you can find all my other things, including my patreon and youtube.Â
someone: hey I noticed this thing you did in your writing!
me, kicking my feet up flirtatiously: oh??? do you want to hear my thoughts on why I did that? do you want a play-by-play of the language choices in every related sentence? do you want an exhaustive breakdown of The Themes???
[Image ID: a list titled âColor Codes for Fags & Dykesâ, written in black text on a light yellow background, reading:
Red..... Left (pocket): âGay Revolutionaryâ; Right: âGay Guerillaâ
Burgundy..... Left: âI kill straightsâ; Right: âI only maim themâ
Salmon..... Left: âWanted by F.B.I.â; Right: âNot wanted now, but possibly in the futureâ
Pink..... Left: âWitchâ; Right: Warlock
Orange..... DELETED!!!
Purple..... Left: âBorn of Gay parentsâ; Right: âOnly one parent was Gayâ
Lavender..... Left: âUnderground. Just out for a breath of airâ; Right: âPrefer using grenadesâ
Aqua..... Left: âDyke Squadâ; Right: âHet patrolâ
Black..... Left: âI manufacture machine gunsâ; Right: âBullets onlyâ
Gray..... Left: âFaggot is the most beautiful word Iâve ever heardâ; Right: âDyke is the most beautiful word Iâve ever heardâ
Green..... Left: âSpecial Anita Brigadeâ; Right: âBob Green Brigadeâ
Gold..... Left: âForget about where you put your lousy genitalsâwhat about freedom?â; RIght: âSpirit of Stonewallâ
Yellow..... Left: âOutta my way, straight pestsâ; Right: âMake âem get off the sidewalksâ]
Love how tumblr has its own folk stories. Yeah the God of Arepo weâve all heard the story and we all still cry about it. Yeah that one about the woman locked up for centuries finally getting free. That one about the witch who would marry anyone who could get her house key from her cat and itâs revealed she IS the cat after the narrator befriends the cat.
She walked into my office with the swagger of a racecar pit crew boss. From her steel toed boots to her safety glasses, this dame was giving me forklift certified vibes strong enough to shake me loose from my classic depression laced with alcoholism.
not to derail the low income writer thing, but Iâve actually had this discussion before, many times, in smaller writing circles, with how so much of the current writing and publishing âclimateâ does not adhere nor even acknowledge how difficult writing (or any creative outlet tbh) can be for people to pursue - even as a hobby - when your energies are sapped into simply surviving, into struggling through life, working full-time, perhaps even balancing multiple jobs, or care-giving children, elderly or sick family, with little to show for it beyond the absolute minimum. how the current economic living crisis has been inevitably crushing creatives, and potential creatives, when there are so many limitations, not just financially, but in time and in energy
advice akin to âthose who want to write will find the timeâ is insulting to those who are already running ragged just trying to get by, whether due to jobs, brain fog, illness or a combination of all the above and more. âget up earlier or stay up laterâ doesnât take into consideration how much people are already sacrificing everywhere else. how out of touch a lot of it is, mostly offered by those who are already successful, or from those who have the luxury of time
most low income writers are self-publishing their work already prepared for a significant loss, after cover art, marketing budgets, editing etc, and so, some low income writers will never be able to justify self-publishing at all. and money aside, other avenues arenât exactly easy either, patreon subscribers, for example, look for discord access, social media presence, weekly or bi-weekly updates, asking for more time and more energy from the author.
simply the way readers engage now, expecting immediate sequels, long series, multiple books published a year, constant engagement, this entire set-up is making it almost impossible for low income writers to keep up, and it goes way beyond the monetary limitations.Â
a collection of emails from 2019-2021 between dozens of anti-trans expert witnesses, US right-wing lawmakers and conservative legal groups
description:
a tweet by @JUNlPER on twitter saying: ''the same person who leaked the no fly list published email communications of conservatives intentional efforts to ramp up their anti-LGBTQ hate. as was incredibly obvious, the moral panic is intentional and planned out''
followed by a screenshot of the hacker website, named maia with the text:
this file ("Deutsch emails") contains the complete source of email threads for the 2023-03-08 Mother Jones story âInside the Secret Working Group That Helped Push Anti-Trans Laws Across the Countryâ. the emails are comprised of communications spanning 2019-2021 principally regarding an attempt to pass a trans youth transition treatment ban in south dakota in 2019, spearheaded by republican rep. fred deutsch and sen. lee schoenbeck.
there are extensive discussions between deutsch and notorious anti-gay and anti-trans âexpertsâ associated with known hate groups targeting transgender healthcare in the united states, including dr. quentin l. van meter and dr. michelle cretella of the catholic medical association, dr. andre van mol of the christian medical & dental associations and american college of pediatricians, dr. michael k. laidlaw of the kelsey coalition, dr. william j. malone of the society for evidence-based gender medicine, dr. paul w. hruz of the national catholic bioethics center, laura haynes of narth, and deacon dr. patrick w. lappert of catholic reparative therapy group courage international. participants discuss crafting their language to avoid acknowledging that transgender people exist, constructing new ways to define doctors as criminals for providing gender-affirming care, and targeting a federal agency publication that correctly points out the dangers of anti-gay conversion therapy. their emails frequently digress into personal vendettas and ambitions of destroying established professional groups such as the endocrine society, and they typically celebrate their anti-trans legal and political achievements as a victory of the christian god.
the emails describe a wider national effort against transition treatment for minors, which included discussions with idaho rep. julianne young and sen. steve vick, georgia rep. ginny earhart, and florida rep. anthony sabatini. several anti-lgbt conservative legal groups are intimately involved in the discussion, including alliance defending freedom, adf-affiliated detransitioners hacsi horvath and walt heyer, eunie smith of eagle forum, adf-linked attorney vernadette r. broyles of the child & parental rights campaign, jane robbins of the american principles project, kara dansky and natasha chart of womenâs liberation front, richard mast of liberty counsel, and emily zinos of minnesota family council and hands across the aisle. more recently, the transphobia-captured state of alabama harassed the endocrine society and wpath with subpoenas for their internal communications regarding hate groups and individuals participating in the deutsch emails, including segm, the american college of pediatricians, michael laidlaw, william malone, andre van mol, michelle cretella, and quentin van meter. the release of the deutsch emails is in the public interest and brings an equivalent level of transparency to the internal work of these major anti-trans advocacy and lobbying groups.
CLARIFICATION: i, maia, am not the source of this email leak, merely a publisher, since i feel that this should be more widely available than just to selected journalists''
and finally a link to maia website with the emails
asking myself "why continue" & finding the answer is always, in some form, "i want to know what happens next", even if that want is tired or detached or outright morbid
"God blessed me by making me transsexual for the same reason God made wheat but not bread and fruit but not wine, so that humanity might share in the act of creation.â - Julian K. Jarboe
âHere, the unemployed person is ashamed of his condition. In the country of âboundless opportunitiesâ a jobless person must be inept, or, at best, a man with rotten luck. He sees only his personal case. [âŠ] To accept a cash unemployment benefit is to admit that one is inept. This mind set is starting to disappear, at least among the unemployed. But what years of misery itâs taken for people to comprehend that twelve million cases of bad luck and ineptitude is due to something other than sheer coincidence.â
â Vladimir Pozner, Notebook, January 1936, The Disunited States
