I'm goth now but in an uwu kinda way

Jasper | He/They | Genderqueer | Ace | Art Blog @indylemon | Used to be the-ford-twin | Queer | I like Gravity Falls, Speed Racer, The Legend of Zelda, and D&D

[jheselbraum]

My other social media sites:

Hi everyone, I'm tumblr user jheselbraum, formerly known as the-ford-twin. Things on tumblr aren't looking so great, between the current transphobia from staff and rumors of a pending deal with midjourney, I think this might finally kill the site. So, I will be slowly taking down my findable art from my sideblogs and main (my artblog only has a handful of posts, but my main is huge and I don't expect to find or export much) and in the event that tumblr does go tits up (or I just decide to stop using it, which I might) here's some other places you can find me.

Bluesky: @indylemon.bsky.social Pillowfort: indylemon Dreamwidth: jheselbraum

AO3: jheselbraum (not social media I know but this is where I put my writing so)

I'm not yet active on most of these sites, I'm testing the waters, but I'll be sure to update this post with my more active social media accounts later.

[mumblesplash]

‘project hail mary is about the power of friendship’ ‘project hail mary is about hope’ ‘project hail mary is about accidentally becoming too important at work’ wrong wrong wrong you’re all wrong. project hail mary is about what it would take for a single man in his 30s to own a fully paid off beachfront property in today’s economy

[great-and-small]

A tragic scene:

My turtle notices the blueberry I put out for him but in his excitement he drops it into his pond. He considers a recovery mission on his own, then turns to me for assistance instead.

Fear not- the berry was retrieved and the turtle was able to enjoy it as intended

[fishing-princess]

I Defeated the Demon Lord but it Turns Out the Demon Army was Largely Unaffected and I Fell Victim to a Flawed Belief in Great Man Theory

[leftcosine]

I Executed The Demon Lord With One Flawless Strike And After A Brief Power Struggle The New Demon Government Is Substantially More Committed To The War Because Of Some Reason I Don't Know

[jheselbraum]

Tumblr give me back my draft post about how the hopecore in phm is effective because Grace is neither a cynic nor a naive optimist challenge

[parkchanwoohoo]

I love how clearly impressed his friends are at this dkhdkfkd "start the frogs"

[planet-motherfucker]

[countessravengrey]

Andre the Giant should be the metric by which we measure all people's shittiness. If he didn't like you AND bothered to break his own rule to say so...?

[jheselbraum]

Saw a post the other day that was like "all the Mulan type characters are transfem to me" and like. It's not that I don't see why someone looking for transfem representation would do a transfem reading of a given character, even, say, Naoto Persona 4, but uh. That narrative is a transmasc stereotype for a reason and the reason is the same reason we get erased from history and, best case scenario, remembered only as hashtag girlbosses??? "xyz only did this because passing as male gets you places in society" is a transphobic excuse to harm trans men, adding "it's just like being transfem and going stealth" doesn't change that??? "Oh but they always go back to identifying as a woman and they always think it sucks having to pretend to be a man" that's because the story is written and/or produced by people who don't want trans people to exist, not by someone who's secretly adding trans rep to "I Got Trapped In Another World: Haha Look How Silly This Woman Is, Wanting To Be a Man, There Must Be Something Wrong With Her"

[jheselbraum]

Andy Weir: yeah the Eridians don't really do physical contact

Me: bullshit they bonk carapaces to show affection and no one can convince me otherwise

[jheselbraum]

It look like this btw. Do you see it. Do you see the vision.

[sammypog]

why is no one talking about the book reunion scene. did you know when grace explains that he’s going to die of starvation, rocky immediately tells him to leave and go back home, that he’ll just keep waiting, that erid might send another ship someday. i’m going crazy. rocky had probably completely accepted his fate and then grace miraculously appeared and gave him back his life and his home. and he was instantly willing to give it all up again just so grace could survive. can anyone hear me. this is insane. i’m insane

[dyke-parade]

the fact that grace has to CONVINCE ROCKY not to do this by arguing that grace isn't worth risking the entirety of erid for????

[jheselbraum]

Andy Weir: yeah the Eridians don't really do physical contact

Me: bullshit they bonk carapaces to show affection and no one can convince me otherwise

[kidzbopdeathgrips]

following people who are into wrestling is just like "holy shit johnny appleseed just hit burner hurtzog (evil artfilm director-themed wrestler) with the Prostate Puncher 5000! can't fucking stand that guy!" like all day long

[wunderwirker]

[orange-catsidy]

[brxdyking]

[iskander-tm]

Rocky's ptsd makes him stupid as hell, but no worries, Adrian would still listen and console to the best of their abilities

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the doctor down the street who gives me my T shots in a clinic so small that it's just two rooms was excited for me when she said my voice had dropped yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the receptionist who could see that I was a man didn't bat an eyelash when I asked to see the gynecologist and called me sir when he asked how I wanted to pay yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the barber cuts my hair exactly how I want it and never gave me strange looks for being in a men's salon not even back when I didn't pass as one

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but my friends have always gendered me correctly and stick to it even when it confuses other people and my friend's little sibling calls me older brother in Kannada yes, India made legal gender change impossible but my dog learned my new name quicker than the humans and she runs to give me a kiss when she's told to without being confused about who's being referred to

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but I can feel the Adam's apple growing in my throat and my muscles getting stronger, and my smile more real and I'm growing a beard, and I talk more freely

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but I'm here, and I'm alive, and so are you and there are good people, people who care and don't let them make you forget that-- you are not alone.

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

So I just got another shot from the doctor down the street, and she noticed that my voice has dropped even further, and when she mentioned it she sort of gestured to me, like all of me in general, and said, "It's a wonder, no?"

Like holy fuck that was such a Moment. Yes the world is going to shit but she's right. It's a wonder. I'm becoming more happy, more myself, and I'm able to.

It's a wonder. We are wonders.

[hailed-marys]

i got maybe the most darling comic commission request from @castielrisingabove, who wanted to see grace failing to do pushups under the combined weight of some very enthusiastic pebbles! he's okay guys, don't worry, he's just... taking a break

[tweetsongs]

i agree so much about making your blorbos pathetic but i do fear that many take this to mean 'make them more traditionally feminine/submissive' which genuinely hurts my soul. make your blorbos pathetic in interesting character-oriented ways. understand their neuroses and turn the dials up to eleven. juxtapose the parts of life they handle extremely well with the parts of their lives that make them eat shit. make them angry. make them cold. make them pave their own way to hell while building walls preventing them from seeing any other way. please i'm begging you no more pathetic as an euphemism for bottoming im gonna mclose it.

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

not to be a joyless hag but I've started seeing genderbent "yuri" shipping Markiplier and Ryan Gosling and I can't help but think of someone I recently I unfollowed for posting that they have an easier time caring about genderbent versions of boy characters than regular fictional women

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

and I'm also building some connections to that post I made about reading books by Black women (you know the one) and the people who would respond by saying something akin to "joke's on you, I only read fanfic 😜" as if that were some kind of clever loophole and not a demonstration of the exact thing I was talking about

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

like yes fandom is about fun or whatever but idk man at what point has your desire for no thoughts head empty uncritical consumption left you splashing around in something that's been blended down to an indistinguishable goo for the sake of avoiding anything remotely challenging. with the thing that's "challenging" here being. you know. giving a shit about women and Black people and like frankly anyone but your shippable white men (and honorary Markiplier).

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

don't make me tap the five year old teen vogue article, etc

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