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[oncelerfucker]

About 📌

call me seven // 28 // it/its

Trying and failing to run mostly on a queue. Expect One Piece, Dropout, Smosh, and Glitch shows among other things. I also yap a lot sometimes.

I don't owe you shit about myself ✌️

I'm marked red on Shinigami Eyes because I give a fuck about nonbinary and intersex people and trans men :P

[dovesndecay]

Microaggressions against polyamory in interpersonal interactions are important and should be discussed, but I do wish more of the conversation focused on the ways that systemic amatonormativity impact things like family units, taxes, healthcare, inheritances, housing, childcare, etc.

I'm not dating or married or related to anyone I live with, and our household of four adults can't get any kind of financial or food or housing aid because we count as three separate households despite our semi-blended finances and living together for a decade. There are laws that have been proposed (at least, I don't know if any passed) that limit housing to nuclear families.

Amatonormativity and polyphobia are not just theoretical "people are kinda mean about this sometimes" -- they are real and materially impactful systemic issues, and they affect all of us.

[anistarrose]

if you are a parent, or may become one, or you are otherwise likely to arrive in the situation of caring for a child while they eat, promise me this: if a child doesn't like a certain food or food group, you will ask them WHY. and specifically, you will pay attention to either confirming or ruling out "it makes my mouth itch" or "it makes my stomach hurt," both of which are medically important info that children may not provide unprompted. which i know because this PSA has been brought to you by "i spent my entire childhood and much of my early teens eating peas and lentils while wondering why everyone else liked the Violently Itchy Mouth Sensation so much, like were they a bunch of legume masochists or something, before i finally realized that Violently Itchy Mouth Sensation was in fact a sinister demon appearing only to me, and her true demonic name was: Legume Allergy"

[brainrockets]

Do not let your child suffer from spicy bananas!

[mackerelllll]

from @/vero_muerte on tiktok!!

found this video at <2000 likes and i NEED more people to see this because. yeah.

[positivelyqueer]

Transcript:

“Maybe I like looking trans "oh your voice is too deep" Maybe I like having a deep voice. Maybe I'm not your femme fantasy. Maybe I'm my own fantasy. I love looking trans. I fucking hope that when I walk down the street, they say, "look at that transsexual!" And just maybe someone will see me and think, "hey, I can live that way, too."”

[zmpl]

even if bioessentialism was real and all trans women had some inherent advantage over cis women in sports you could not pay me to give a fuck because sports are made up. they are games people play for fun. even though we as a society invented careers around sport it is still boiled down to the fun made up game where you kick a ball. or dribble a ball. or swim in a pool. or show people how fast you can run. it’s for leisure. fun. not serious. who gives a fuck. fun. #mygame⚽️🏀🏈⚾️

[intersexcat-tboy]

I feel like sports are also a mix of inherent bodily advantages and practice/work. Some people are physically going to be better at certain sports no matter what, some people are going to be better because they've put a lot of work into it. It's like banning tall people from basketball bc it's where they thrive

[fencecollapsed]

before the wish, Nikki was already trapped in her relationship with Bear, in a way. stuck in this shifting dynamic with a guy she loved, who loved her in a different way. wanted her in a way she couldn't live up to. who started seeing her differently and acting differently around her - always a little nervous and tense because of his crush on her, making their interactions a little awkward and uncomfortable. stuck in the uncertainty of it because he never confessed. stuck between wanting him to just say something and clear the air, and dreading his confession, because if she turned him down he would probably resent her. their relationship would never be the same. even if she did have feelings for him too, she was stuck. she gave him an easy in, she took as much pressure off him as she could by asking the question herself, the initiative was no longer on him. "do you like me?" all he had to do was answer the question but he didn't even respect her enough to be honest with her. leaving her stuck in the confusion of why he's acting like this, why he won't just talk to her. it didn't matter how SHE felt, not really.

then she's literally trapped, crowded out of her own body as something else takes over. something that can't be without Bear, trapping her with him as a passenger to everything. experiencing every touch and affection she didn't say yes to, hearing her voice speak words she would never say about this guy she sees as a brother. watching helplessly as their relationship distorts into something unnatural and wrong. watching him brush off her distressing behavior. watching him refuse to acknowledge how WRONG this all is, or even worse, refuse to care. stuck with the realization that her friend who she loved and trusted is not the person she thought he was. stuck with him. stuck with this entity that cannot be without him. stuck with her when he sleeps and when he's gone. firsthand witness to her response to Bear's rejection.

did Nikki know, on some level, that wish!Nikki was just as trapped as she was? a being born only to love Bear, not capable of anything else. she can't have other interests, any interiority, she has to love Bear more than anything else in the fucking world. it's what he wished for. all she knows is overwhelming, all-consuming love, and she doesn't know what to do with it. she can't emotionally regulate, it just explodes out of her, and that makes Bear not love her, and the pain of that is just as overwhelming and all-consuming. the pain explodes out of her too. it makes Bear love her even less. she doesn't know what to do. she's just a raw, primal feeling, a roiling ball of desperate need and want and adoration trying to cram herself into the shape of a human. she can't be a human. she can't be Nikki. she can't be someone Bear will love. but she's stuck with him too. stuck with him loving her differently than she loves him.

when Nikki begged Bear to kill her she was begging for freedom, to be released from this hell. did any part of her hope that wish!Nikki would find peace in death, too?

[silverscore]

As terrible as I feel for Nikki throughout obsession (a different, not better or worse but different, movie would have the movie told by her, flashes in and out of consciousness, taken over by one entity and under the will of somebody she trusted and loved), I also feel so so bad for the other Nikki. She’s born to love Bear, but she isn’t born to actually like him - she can’t even say that she likes him! She loves him but has to change him: has to cut his hair, has to protect him from other women and not let him have friends, can’t leave him for a second. She loves him more than he loves her because that's how she was made and all he does is ask her to change when he made her that way. She doesn’t even know who Nikki IS. She's trying so hard but she doesnt know how to be human, never mind be Nikki. Even if it wasn’t his initial intention, even if he didn’t mean to make her that way, he fucking did it to her! And knows it isn’t her!!! He begs her to be a different person, the person he wants, but he refuses to let her go when he cant even love her!!

There’s multiple parts in the movie where I can’t tell which Nikki is which - which Nikki wrote that story? Which Nikki cooked the cat? Which Nikki cowers from him in the bedroom? They all seem like the Other Nikki in some ways but like - why would she do that? Why would she feed him his cat if not just malice? Why is she writing incest if not as an outlet to how she considered Bear a brother? why does she run scared from him and refuse to look at him, covering up with a vase (i do think this example isnt the strongest tbf bc i can understand another motivation but still)? Is other Nikki threatening to kill herself when he tries to sleep at Ian's so he doesnt leave or does she know that the other Nikki will try to kill herself if she's alone? Is that why she’s paralysed when he leaves?? can't go to the bathroom where the medication is? Is that's what's happening to her body??

Anyway I really liked obsession but i don’t think I’ll ever be able to rewatch it fully

[dracoj]

the thing is bear doesn’t even really know nikki. they’ve been “friends” for a long time but he barely even listens to her, he didn’t even question her concern for her dad’s cancer when Ian and Sarah both immediately poked holes in not!Nikki’s story. all the shots of Nikki obscured in darkness showing not only is she Not there but also she’s never been there, bear has never seen her. only the silhouette of her life on his. and if the one wish willow could puppeteer her husk more seamlessly, he’d be satisfied with the shell of her…

[keresofdeath]

Bear saying that Nikki would "hate" citrine. Citrine, which is sunshine and remarkable healing. Citrine, which supports emotional well-being, stimulates clarity, and promotes creativity. A crystal which is believed to dispel negative energies. To replace them with joy and optimism. Balance. Harmony. Vitality. Everything he refused to give her.

[officialdietcoke]

one of the things i admire most about obsession is the deliberate denial of any kind of optimistic ending, as well as the method by which that is executed. i’m thinking, specifically, of how the musical cues are utilized to pull multiple bait-and-switches on the audience: the way the music swells when bear is explaining the wish to ian and asking for his help; when bear puts the gun in his mouth; and when he takes the oxycodone.

obviously, if ian wishes away bear’s initial wish, that’s a happy ending! if bear dies in the bathroom and we cut to black, the audience can hold onto the hope that the wish breaking allows nikki to go back to her life before!

but those endings, especially the latter, would be dishonest. i appreciate that the film makes us sit in nikki’s anguish instead, bc i appreciate that it understands that she was equally affected by this, if not more so! an ending that bleak is honest to the concept and to the consequences inherent to the concept and i think it shows a great deal of respect for nikki. it’s an acknowledgement that nikki experienced something deeply violating and now has to somehow learn how to cope with it.

[nerves-nebula]

went to see obsession today here's my review

[ofswordsandpens]

I need to see it again to pinpoint the details but I really like how the opening scene of obsession (2026) is Bear practicing his confession with a diner waitress... like already you have a woman (who is not Nikki) fulfilling the role for her, saying the response she thinks Bear would like to hear, but the moment this woman gives her own opinion, offering genuine advice to Bear (something along the lines of buying Nikki something she likes, like her favorite candy, flowers, etc)... Bear disregards it... but then ends up using Ian's recommendation from this same conversation (calling Nikki "Freaky Nikki")... like god its all already right there

[fantasypeasantgirl]

OBSESSION (2026) SPOILERS

I've heard a lot of comments talking about when Bear truly becomes irredeemable. The "what's so bad about being with me?" line, asking to alter the wish instead of cancel it outright, his "as a friend" wish attempt still invalidating Nikki's free will, the sex scene that was bluntly just rape, there's many options to choose from.

But honestly, I think he becomes irredeemable the second he snaps that Willow.

Sure, there's an argument to be had: "He didn't know it'd actually work", but like, what did he think was gonna happen? There's one of two outcomes: either it doesn't work and nothing happens or it works and he forces her into the relationship. Clearly you don't just do something like that knowing it won't work, so he must've been aiming for the latter, which ended up happening.

Also, when Ian makes his wish later in the film, he does it dismissively and bluntly, clearly thinking there's no way that it'd actually work. Meanwhile, Bear says it in this frantic, almost desperate tone. There's desperation there. He WANTED it to work.

Also, let's not ignore that he does this immediately after rejecting the chance to open up to Nikki. He has the choice to be open with her, to actually ask her out, but he doesn't. Why? Whilst it's partially his cowardice and fear of rejection, I think there's also a part of him that knows Nikki's never gonna like him back.

She's moving away, she sees him as a brother and he just avoided his chance to shoot his shot. To Bear, there's no way he asks out Nikki successfully, so he resorts to a bizzare, last-ditch attempt to force her consent, snapping the Willow.

[skullvis]

First time watching Obsession 2026 (dir. Curry Barker) moodboard

[hithewalls]

INDE NAVARRETTE obsession (2026)

[sonofcelluloid]

IT’S NOT ME! IT’S NOT ME!

Homage to Girls Trapped in Photographs: Abigail Hobbs, The Vampire Claudia, & Nikki Freeman

[acefuruya]

thinking about post-movie nikki who will forever be terrified of losing her autonomy again. nikki who will forever doubt every thought that crosses her mind, every emotion she feels, because is she sure she's the one in control? what if the entity is still there, lurking, puppeteering her to think these things, say these things, do these things? nikki, who will forever question if anything is real. if she is real.