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positivity train!

if you see this or are tagged in it, tag a couple of your favorite mutuals/blogs and let them know you appreciate seeing them on your dash!

@h0neysugarfree @blueberrylovv @bequiteanddriveeeeeee @cherri-bomb-bomb @eg0mechan1c @fatrexicisback

l0okingupatheaven

WAIT STOP TY DUDE ILY 🥹🥹🥹🥹

@marvel-posts @fnafsmosh @jupiter-does-things @cigarettesndkisses @ribey3 @sorenistuff @girlwithaflamingheart @houseplant-number701 @wasteland-b4by @myblo0dispurple @sillygoobernuts

sillygoobernuts

MWWWWWWAH

@igbrotein @cleradin7 @mikewheelerisaqueerler @mikes-orange-mohawk @nicointhecloset @i-say-kickawayygothacked @goaskurmombyler @getweezeredtwink @hanjiiscake @prollycryingoverbyler @stargazingthemoooon @victorxvignette @vampybyers @andywrittes

cleradin7

AWWW TYSMM!!!

@el7the7wise @lycheeeejelly @figzzst4r @funkopop547 @landofeternalsummer @stargazingthemoooon @crzytgther @crunchie-morris @pendragonstarz @who-me-never14 @mikeandwillsweddingofficiant @andywrittes @everythingismadeofclouds @isawyourgreenhair @cybrbat @q4martheleastwise @the-most-random-stuff @iluvstrawberriessomuch @i-say-kickawayygothackedsaykickawayygothacked @dustineila @viciousdeliciousketchup @bylerbohneeee @yoursleepdemon @ellietalkswaytoomuch @sammiiiithedummest

dustineila

AHHHH THANK U U TOO 🥹🥹

@cleradin7 @paws-in-snow @wheelrsgrl @sweetstatic @munsonsbunni @bandagedthoughtsblog @0nlybitt3r4may @danielleluv @urmamasmatcha @marinapunkrocker @pinkolve

ty for either ur support, friendship, or lovely blogs 😇

0nlybitt3r4may

OMG??? THATS SO NICE!!

i genuinely love my moots SO much

@vlarrtrgryn , @dontmentionitseriouslyy , @teacup-thoughts , @sweetestgrace , @fireandcxnt , @theantsareafterme , @caramelieee , @fallenangelkay , @targ4ryens , @violained , @bandagedthoughtsblog , @bitterswtdvll , @megumisbnuuy , @loveloveloveldr , @itneverrainsinsoutherncalineverarain , @dreamyysouls , @vitya3 , @starstruckedtidalwavetiger

dontmentionitseriouslyy

oh STAWP it you're too nice :((

@wheelrsgrl @vurbenaa @quoththewarlock @0nlybitt3r4may @gleekluver @voidreynolds @teacup-thoughts @cocteaucicochico @zombiegrains @byleriskillingme @mythicstargirl @ghits-and-shiggles @notthesharpesttoolxo @lilyyyyy08 @secretlifeofsombr @babybyers08132 @lynn-is-definitely-sane @carameliee

i love you all so much! please always remember that you are amazing <33

teacup-thoughts

Stawppp Ilyyyyy

@dontmentionitseriouslyy @starcrossedl0vv @secretlifeofsombr @0nlybitt3r4may @counterstr1ke @disiscami @wolfhardzzlxt @wheelersbinder @ela2sombr @thequeerlerfamily @uyucream @imonsomanylists @ibarelyknowval @ibarelyknower @oohgeminii @prnztar @printer-reads-505 @pissylivvie @aubreylovesombr @abigailistuck @doublewheelrr @dustymerlin @flutteringfluttershy @freaksombussy @geminizmoonz @gyattmaster2002 @k-a-n65 @lettersfromtheocean @lynn-is-definitely-sane @zombiejuuls @xo-zozo @vurbenaa @babybyers08132 @brunettebombshell72 @badomensgoodomens @muchlovemads @mikes-sorcerer

The people who have been so kind and amazing to me while I talk shit and sometimes write I love you all so much

imonsomanylists

OML THANK YOU GIRL ILYSM ❤️🥹

@bonniestxrniolo @americanadolls @teacup-thoughts @grandioseviolence @bonniestxrniolo @euaphoricdollie @sacrificemelamb @bunnymoser @reidloverr @h0lym01y @alishifter @fawnacrossthemultiverse @hotchnerss @juicyfinetree @unevensosa

Hms for moots I don't really know lol: @peacetothe-empire @salemsturniolo @vows4vinyls @raekelly13 @cabecademiojo @eunicedemi @novaacalloway @gorillazareawesome2320

sacrificemelamb

THANK YOU FOR THE TAG 😭 BUT ALSO IF I MISS SOMEONE ITS CAUSE I NEVER REMEMBER YALLS USERS OK.

-> also might tag some people i follow that don’t follow me cause istg i always think everyone already follows me ok. so treat this as blog appreciation even if you don’t follow me i see you on my dash A LOTTT.

@phoneymedic @marvelfanlife @mxmmyprentiss @danascullyswindbreaker @jareaussy @jareauiisms @quanticohome @rosenkranz-isnt-dead @tenaciousarcadeexpert @youngnnaiive @undercoverscrabbler @ultraviolet-ray29 @ohlittlebluebell @asleepingtiger @baunitchief @ascendesuperiousworld @actual-changeling @dollkillsworld @five-bi-five-main @glittersa1nts @hoe4hotchner @kristenslullaby @kenna-prentiss @lesbiantaylorswiftstan @mortalscience @secretgardenzinmymind @jennywtheglock @angelicjjareau @garcialuvr @garciaasfluffypen

danascullyswindbreaker

AH! Thank you!! i love and appreciate seeing so many of you on my dash; apologies if i forget anyone, there’s so many! 🥰🌻

@bonito-79 @rosenkranz-does-things @rosenkranz-isnt-dead @actual-changeling @scullee @thatsoverkill @wicked-96 @mulders-slutty-black-turtleneck @sculderand-mully @mulderandscullbag @sacrificemelamb @scullysflannel @scullyitsme @scullysversion @thatonerubberduck @theehighwarlock @laurencem @spookymulderjr @glimmerscully @mulders-too-large-shirt @aphrostiel @scullysprettysuits @sertraline-daydream @dartmoorpixie @h0lywaters @bookishscully @shimmeringlesbian

thatonerubberduck

Oh my gosh I wasn’t expecting this!! Thank you so much!! I love seeing y’all’s posts, you’re so creative and funny!! @mulders-slutty-black-turtleneck @thatgirlintheleatherjacket @totesnotanalien @prentisswh0re @scullinski @foxmulderamuppettedman @feral-asexual-possum @fb1sm0stunwant3d @legendofsofi @mulderscreek

finnickodairaverymanlymuppet

Love my moots 😘

@raccoonalienthief @fabulousrat7 @larameansxf @kal-el-girlblunder

fabulousrat7

@theflyingrhubarb @mychanceasastar @canadiankakashi @thekittyburger @shapezncolourz @calcium-rods

thekittyburger

im going to bed rn so extremely liable to forget someone but

@spider-swift @mystrothedefender @polka-dot-pond @spirking-and-sparkling @yaminerua @pingintech @chickenwaffles17 @citrusinicake @a-literal-toaster-wtf @harvestar @scr4phie + anyone else ive forgotten!

chickenwaffles17

AHHHHHH TYYY

@andietries @raysramblings @therealcrowjane @appleberry--blast @polka-dot-pond @soxinthesun @theroadtoindigo-go @reelingmirror @x-creature-feature-x + anyone else I didn't add you guys rock!!

reelingmirror

wgshdgajsgah thank youuu!!!!!!!!sends blown kisses ur way

@appleberry--blast @marsupialmartini @dradapaige i dont have too many moots i remember lol sry if i missed u…

marsupialmartini

yayy thanks!!!!

@awsomeliez @c-sssick @jinglyjangly-theclowm these r the first 3 people that popped up on the thing but I LOVE U ALL SMILES

puksomething-ing123

well in that case........

@wundermunches @marsupialmartini @iamanewvagina101 @transfemme-shelterdog @theresnodoh

thx for being here chat!!

wundermunches

ong thanks blushes

@jazzythesilly @thatfangirlwiththeglasses

@phalaropus-lobatus @tuckmaster3000

@awsomeliez @puksomething-ing123

phalaropus-lobatus

omg thank you,,,, my eyes start to sparkle and a single tear runs down my face

@spongeboblvr-32 @rocket-proxy @viansparkles @loser-37 @onionpaws @telephonetical @iminbetweenyourcouchcushions @zuzizazezo @justnobodyx3 @pupfettipaws @m1cahx3 @gmtgab and SO SO SO many other folks but these are just a few off the top of my head I LOVE EVERYBODY ❤️

iminbetweenyourcouchcushions

I WAS AT THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD?!?!?! backflips

Ok I'm genuinely gonna try to tag everyone I'm moots with (that I interact with) (and if I'm not scared of tagging them)

@itsindeedarid @my-shlong-long-like-a-bong @botflylarvaa @drrwsy @deathcastlvr2 @qtiepiez @poniesdontdie @bigfartypoopoo @koh6ftu @poke-the-veil @flowerlynights @efajdiyefeb123 @fear0fdying @sneakyserpentsilvy @containsmouldspores @hi-mynameisjeff @evilsocksanon @secretlygingernerd @ale-bale

Okay yeah nevermind I'm terrified of tagging 20 or more people so no that's not everyone, so open tags yeah

flowerlynights

Thank you ^^ heheh @angryclitspazm @mercuryconfetti @unicmagicalkunt @oddfuturesundays

@acebutsignificantlyworse @imactuallydivine42 @kennyissilly

kennyissilly

thanks

@strwberrysl4shed @fetus-e4ter @trinketman

And all my other friends:)

strwberrysl4shed

YEAHHH THANK U THANK U<3

@aedynlikesgreen @ohmxbeliever @capetown-devotee @m1dnightdancer @optimalwizard @efajdiyefeb123 @0range0szkar @cat-found-in-an-allie

+ the rest of my mutuals//friends <3

aedynlikesgreen

:33333

@itsaboon @annoying--moth @v1-bestmachineever @jamezplayzmc @jaedyn-here @texaschef-offical @queenofsoggydrownedapes @ourabsentlord @idontwant2bhereijustwant2lookart @cutesygamerava @gmtgab @justanxiousandcaffeinated @sora6920 @jaxxy-girl @calstronaut @vaguelyhumorousbeans @chocorolleta @angeygirl @dusalex

+ Beans and Charlie who don't like rb chains

+ Reverie....

+ Open tags!!!!!

sora6920

holy moly lol

@meandmymadness12 @dont-let-me-kms @alessandra-b3 @angelscryaboutmaria @aerienchanted @allie7 @atetheluck @br0ken-silenc3 @bangchanssecondtoenail @bananagirl222 @bunnykao @chargebolt-jirai @cutz-and-bruizezz @camkity @decomposedchucklefuck @doradoro101 @d1g1tal-d3ath @deim0s-drawings @dani-byrd @digitaldollipop @emmaarts991 @estelles-diary @gooseworx @gigizetz @hellengomes @hornofopium @hanfocus @jirai-geto @jiraizaiiii @jirai-h4n4k0 @laraghty @lavenderedkat @mydesiresangel @maggotsfbrain @official-jirai-toga @pikapipipu @quokki @redriot-jirai @riothedunce @starrykittyxo @th3-s0l4rsyst3m @too-deep-for-moss @victoriagranxo @v1-bestmachineever @vinnythefrog @w4t3r-w1gg73r @zippycupp @4evrnocturnal

dora-e-mon

aww thank you so much I love my moots!!

@juhoon99 @haneurin @jjumars @annalushy @asaoj @heartz4seungminnie @sonomartin @faeruth @mydesiresangel @lee-fryer @ebi-heartsalltheway @ranboos-lesbian-memory-book + all my moots (I can't tag you all my arms hurt already but I love all of you!!)

heartz4seungminnie

YALL ARE ALL AMAZING REMWMBER RHAT MWAAA

@somethingsomethingsparkles @cloudyminni @doradoro101

And my other moots these are just the ones I interact with the most atp!

cloudyminni

AAAAH TY <333

@multi-stays @h-dw @cosmicluvrrrrr @emsdevs @amipng @jiniret143 @diannedecomposed @seungminsnewcoffeemachine0801 (tagging everyone cuz everyone here is amazing)

jiniret143

AWW TY!!!

@the-whimsical-wizard @biggestbigbackever @stargazin-on-mars @hyacinthusflowernymph @rivknows @gracelikesmusic

(all my mutuals lol)

Are we sure we aren’t the same person-

I just read your intro post and I’m not entirely sure of that-

*le dramatic gasp* OH?!

I just read your intro post lol and now I realize that.

Now I'm not sure of that myself!

Am you me or am I you or are you I and Me is you?!

*le dramatic gasp x2*

so. I realize I've had an account for quite a while but I also realize that I NEVER INTRODUCED MYSELF.

So:

Name's Elina

She/Her

Taken by my lovely girlfriend <3

HUGE STAY

Bias: Hyunjin

Bias wrecker: All of em-

Engene

Bias: Sunoo

Bias wrecker: Jungwon

I love the color blue

Hobbies: crochet, reading, painting, sketching

I LOVE MUSICALS ESPECIALLY HAMILTON.

Fandoms: STAY, Hamilton, PJO, HOO, (basically the Riordanverse-), EPIC the musical, Greek Mythology

I write mainly for Stray Kids, Riordanverse, and Enhypen :D (no smut tho-)

Requests are open!!

Fallen Stars...

Burntout&depressed!reader x Han Jisung

Summary: What happens when you start feeling too exhausted of pretending everything is fine, of keeping up the flawless and perfect act to keep your bf from worrying about you?

Warnings: burnout??? Depression, angst (I'M NEW TO THIS IDK WHAT TO PUT HERE SOMEONE HELP MEH)

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You knew it was getting worse. You weren’t even there right now, and yet you could tell. Jisung had been the love of your life, and now what? He always told you to keep shining since you were his light and his star. Now what?

You’d shone too bright and you’d burnt out.

You still remember what it was like.

The apartment smelled faintly of vanilla and cinnamon since you’d baked some cookies and muffins for him. There was still a smudge of flour on your cheek. But you’d been quieter than normal that day. He’d walked in, and you greeted him with a smile. You wore sweatpants and his hoodie despite the oven's heat. He pressed a soft kiss to the top of your head and then went to your shared bedroom to change into more comfy clothes.

You sat on the freshly washed counter, leaning against the fridge, lost in thought. Jisung then came out and then came over to the counter she was sitting at, wrapping an arm around your waist. “y/n/n” He said, looking at you, while you were still zoned out. “y/n?” he called again, panic creeping into his voice, it wasn’t like you at all to not respond. He tucked a stray strand of hair behind your ear, then cupped your cheek, trying to get you to look at him.

“Yeah, Jisungie?” You said as you snapped back to focus. “Sorry, just got a little lost in thought, love,” you said softly with that tone you usually used to calm him when he got worried. And he got worried a lot.

“You scared me,” He pouted, looking at you with those big dark orbs he has for eyes. You once said that it was like a void of darkness that you could lose yourself in, because honestly? You could spend ages just staring into his eyes, even though at first you might see a reflection of yourself looking back.

“Aww. Sorry, love! Here, have a cookie. This was the batch I made last, so the freshest yet, and it’s still warm! Well, all of them are, but never mind that.” You said, grinning as you gave him the cookie. You watched his face light up in real time. He loved the cookies you made, mostly because it was made by you. Honestly? He loved all the treats and stuff you made, even when it sucked. And not just with food.

Your first crochet project? It was supposed to be a bucket hat. It looked very cursed. You then made a cursed-looking scarf to go with it, saying, “It looks ugly, but honestly? Why the heck not, and what in the world does single crochet and double crochet even mean? AND WHY DOES HALF DOUBLE EXIST?”

He’d watched you grimace at the odd projects and smile at you and say, “Hey, star, it’s not ugly, it just has character development.”

How you wished he’d said that about you, to you, when you broke down one day when he was at work.

Since that fateful day, you’d pushed yourself to be the best you could, no cracks, no mistakes. You didn’t want to ruin his life with your problems.

Because you didn’t want to be a problem for him.

That meant you couldn’t handle things, that you were weak. You wanted to prove life otherwise. You struggled through everything to keep Jisung’s life happy, to keep problems to yourself.

“You have that look. The look you get when you feel like the world is against you and you feel utterly betrayed.” He said. “Sleep. Or eat first?”

“Sleep. I had lunch really late, so I’m still full.” You sighed, and he had a late lunch, so he wasn’t hungry either. Then, without warning, he just- LIFTED YOU (the audacity of this man- trying to lift you when you were having a dramatic moment-) AND THAT TOO LIKE YOU WEIGHED NOTHING. (You did have weight to you. You weren't air you were just kinda lighter-ish though since you didn’t eat much since you ate when you were hungry and due to back in middle school, having horrible lunch patterns, waiting till what felt like 4 PM for your study hall/ homeroom to start, and even after all that, YOU STILL HAD TO WAIT FOR OVER HALF THE PERIOD TO PASS SINCE YOUR CLASS HAD SECOND LUNCH SINCE THE CAFETERIA WAS ‘too small’. Since middle school, your hunger levels have been just odd. The day before, you could be eating a whole batch of cookies, and the next day, you wouldn't eat ANYTHING.)

Han thought he knew what was going on. That you did have a late lunch, that you did eat. Little did he know how wrong he was. You hadn’t eaten anything in a while. You’d be done for if he did know, not because you two would fight, but because he would blame himself the second he found out.

But you knew that it wouldn’t be long till he found out. And you were getting more exhausted by the day. Exhausted of having to keep smiling and pretending. Acting like there's nothing wrong when it feels like something, you're not even sure what. Likely a year for the meaning of your existence or something dramatic like that.

He set you down on the bed and flopped down next to you, tugging the blanket over you two, forehead pressed against your, looking at you with his big eyes.

His arms were wrapped around your waist and stomach, and you immediately clung onto him, one hand tangling in his hair. You felt the way he leaned into your touch. Gods, you loved this man. You two lay there awake for a while, not saying anything, just staring, giggling now and then, even though you two were doing utterly nothing, but soon you two fell asleep pressed against each other.

The next morning? You’d woken up before him. You sat at your desk for a while, the one you wrote your stories and poems at, and you set down your binder with all the poems you’d written to or about him, but couldn’t ever get the courage to give it to him. “To: Jisung Han, the one who brings my light.” Then, at the end, there was only one blank page left. It broke your heart, but you knew it was the only way to keep your dread out of his life.

“

Dear Jisungie,

Love, you’re probably wondering where I am, and why I’ve left you this. Though you may know what's going on. I’m sorry, I really am. But we shouldn’t be together. I love you with all my heart and every bit of my soul, but I’m sorry.

-With Love, Y/N L/N

”

You slid off your own ring which you'd worn since like highschool, the couple's ring He’d gifted you on your 5th date, and then put it on the paper and closed the folder. You then packed all your stuff, and after one final murmured goodbye, you left. You stepped outside, and immediately you wanted to go back in, unpack, put the ring back on, and rip the note apart, but you knew that if you truly wanted to keep your problems from him, this was what you had to do. Sometimes protecting people doesn’t mean being there with them; it means leaving them. But some part of you screamed that this probably wasn’t one of those sometimes, and you then muffled out that thought.

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Jisung woke up and immediately registered the lack of the entity next to him that usually smelled like vanilla bean and cinnamon, peppering his face with kisses and humming a soft melody.

The lack of you in his arms.

He immediately shot up, wide awake, already starting to panic. He didn’t notice the lack of your stuff and some of his hoodies in his panic.

He got up, calling you a name, no response. Called again, still nothing. He walked into the living room, and you weren’t there, or in the kitchen, or anywhere.

But then he found the folder. He then sat down and read through all of the poems; some were about him, some were to him, some were actually letters to him, not poems, and some were drawings and artwork. Also, not poems.

But the second he found the note to him at the end, he started crying as he realized you were gone. He held the folder close to his chest and just cried as he realized you were gone.

Gone from your shared apartment.

Gone from your shared chaos.

Gone from his life.

Gone from him.

As the last thought hit him, that brought a new wave of grief. You were gone, and now this was all he had to remember you. He wanted you back already. To hold him and whisper softly in his ear, “shh, it’s okay, you love, I’m right here,” the way you always did when he got upset. He missed your light. Now it was replaced by a void. He’d always called you ‘star’ because the full thing was ‘fallen star’ because he always told you, after each time you comforted him, that you were one of the bright stars in the night sky, who came down and decided to have pity on him and fill his life with your life, that you were his fallen star.

That you were his.

But now you weren't.

A/N: Wow. I did NOT know I could do this. I bias Hyunjin and so usually I write fanfics with hyunjin x reader (not on here) so this was my first ff with a different member! And also my first ff on tumblr!! I… I have no clue what to say about this fanfic other than to thank for helping me out so many times though this whole thing (though i did keep nagging her a lot.) sorry bestie- another thing is she is not a STAY and so often she gets so disappointed when I start yapping on and on, but surprisingly this got positive feedback from her (maybe because in the ff skz aren’t idols-) and so she encouraged me to put it up here so shout out to her! Yes, I am already drafting a pt.2.

#stray kids #skz #han jisung #han jisung x reader

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