Somethign I've been thinking about a lot are the comparrisions between Jax and I saw the tv glow. But honestly, one is a lot better than the other. Both deal with the theme of hiding something within yourself, until its too late, and then regretting it. But I think I saw the tv glow did a much better job of that message.
(although I am not a trans woman, I'm trans masc) I relate more to Owen in I saw the Tv Glow than Jax. Because while Owen is also hurting and repressed, she doesn't take it out on others.
And I'm not saying that Jax's story isn't something that trans women can go through, the narative makes it feel like we should just forgive her because of that pain. While in I saw the Tv Glow Maddy also snaps at Owen, in a very similar way, but Maddy after they get better realizes what they did.
Back to Owen, she goes through the same thing Jax did, by making it to the end of her life without transitioning, hiding in the closet, while time moves around her. they were both deeply unhappy, but I think I saw the Tv glow did it better by showing the monotony of life, and how you just get stuck in the movie theater or how she slowly ages through the film. And the constant reminders that its not too late, she can still save herself. But she doesn't because she's grown used to this life.
Jax feels like she's just taking out her pain onto others. And the narrative never really punishes her for it. She's literally the reason Ribbit abstracted but its okay, because she's trans.
It feels like the narrative is trying to excuse her actions because of her home life and gender, while in I saw the Tv Glow you know Owen is running out of time and if she took that step she could be happy. She also didn't have the greatest home life, which probably attributes to why she couldn't accept herself, but Owen is still viewed as the problem.
In Jax's story it feels almost as if we're placing the blame onto Jax's mom, when its really up to you if you never come out of the closet. (I know its more difficult than that, and I don't want anyone to put themselves in dangerous situations. But I'm saying in Jax's case it isn't anyone's fault but her own.)
Also it feels as if Owen doesn't come out more for others than herself. Yes she's afraid, but she's more afraid of how others will feel about her. And by the time she's old, she has a wife and kids and she can't escape the cage she trapped herself in.
While Jax feels more that she's afraid of her own self. She is deeply insecure but the hiding her feelings doesn't come out of a place of love, but rather of pain and envy.
I also feel that I saw the Tv glow did a better job at showing what not being yourself does to a person over time. Like the lines on the road, the ending scene where she's in the bathroom, and rips her own skin out, that scared the living shit out of me. Although I was already out at the time, I understood that if I had never come out, I would've been stifled.
While Jax's stuff mostly comes in the form of her bullying others, and the flashback. And I feel that it was just rushed towards the end with how much time was focused on Jax when this was the last time we would be seeing these characters. Honestly I would've perfered that Jax's backstory stuff be it's own ep and in the end of the ep she dies.
I know I saw the tv glow came out in 2024 and Goose 'apparently' had the whole story written by 2023, but it really does feel like she watched ISTTG and said "what if I made this white and worse."