Hiii this is mostly a writing blog to focus on my fics and stuff. Mostly durge and Bhaal family stuff and bg3 fics at the moment. I may also share some of my art from time to time but who knows <3
Tagged by the lovely @dynamicducks <33 and inspired by them i decided to do one for both pre tadpole Vitoria and Post tadpole Vitoria (Created by @idolkilling , Template here )
She's very well adjusted. I also decided to color them in in accordance to their severity and how often it is a problem (Mostly for everyone else. Mostly for Helena and Orin) :3
Vitoria does change a lot durring her redemption arc but there are a lot of things she still struggles with. A lot of these she does unconsciously or heavily represses.
No pressure, lovingly tagging @gortashsrighthand since i haven't seen her version of it <3
Finally getting around to the asks I left in my inbox for WAY too long :D so sorry for the wait, thanks a bunch for the asks <3.
(Questions for this ask game :3)
5.Regardless of their feelings on her betrayal, did your Durge think Orin would make a good Chosen of Bhaal?
I think Pre tadpole Vitoria puts a lot of effort into minimizing the scope of what she thinks Orin is capable of.
Her list of reasons as to why Orin would do a bad job running things sounds sensible and rational to her only because she delibarately ignores the fact that all the arguments either depend on Orin not fallowing the doctrine she introduced to the cult, or on some deficiency that Vitoria is (directly or indirectly) responsible for in the first place.
Firstly, she clings to the classic argument that Orin can't effectively bring about the end of Toril like Bhaal wants when shes too busy fixating on making flesh art of her victims to be efficient like Vitoria is. Can't pull off "death in numbers, death in droves" when Orin is too busy playing with her dolls, you understand. She's okay with Orin's art projects for what they are, but if she truly was to be Bhaal's Chosen it would mean for her to stop playing around and Do Good Old Respectable Murder Like Durge Bhaal Intended!
Secondly, theres the fact that the cultists themselves wouldn't see Orin as a stable enough leader. Vitoria had been painting her as an irrational child prone to "temper tantrums out of nothing" and herself as the doting guardian keeping her unpredictable ward in check for far too long for that to happen. Plus, a lot of those people have watched Orin be Vitoria's obedient lapdog for her entire life and have seen that woman bend over backwards for even a drop of approval, which doesn't exactly inspire much respect in the avarage murder-hobo that attends Bhaal Church.
Thirdly, Vitoria also knows from her own experience that you need a certain amount of people skills to run a cult. People skills that, unlike Helena before her, Orin does not posses (thanks to all the delibarate isolation and neglect Durge put her through). Vitoria herself is not exactly brimming with charisma, but unlike her, Orin doesn't have a mythologised backstory and a reputation for being mysterious and elusive to cover for it.
Lastly, Orin may be good at stabbing but is she good at handling the temple's administration? Vitoria is convinced that the answer is no and the bhaalist finances would be in shambles smh.
12. Does the text of Blood-Envy for the Unworthy and Concerning Orin the Red match the way Durge and Orin feel about each other, in your personal canon? Did you specifically try to keep to game canon, or develop your own dynamic for them? If you were writing the journal entries yourself, what would they say about each other?
I might have mentioned this before in another ask, but I think the entries we have in game are accurate to my canon, with the caveat that the letters and diary entries still available about eachother have been carefully curated by Orin.
Orin has a very black and white view of Vitoria, seeing her in extremes where either she loves and idolizes her or hates her to the point of dehumanization. That proves to be very inconvenient after her betrayal, when those periods of intenselove and guilt still plague her despite how much Orin just wants to Hate Her.
So besides the fact that she's riding the high of Having Enough Power To Destroy Durge's Stuff, shes also making it a little easier for herself by destroying every piece of writing that Vitoria might have left behind that was not outright patronizing and cruel. Orin tears out and burns entire chunks from her own journals and diaries for the same reason
I really wanted to keep the texts canon because they were what inspired me to make Vitoria like that in the first place, so they're very dear to me <3. I saw the "Little sister, whatever in the Grey Wastes are we going to do with you? Bhaal will never care that you waste your time, posing your corpse-dollies" and "I will accept no challenge from you, until you show some damned respect." And the infantilizing, misogynistic undertones of it instantly made me realize why Orin might have wanted Durge dead, besides being constantly compared to them.
That being said, i do think that Vitoria's usual letters to Orin tend to lean on the warmer side . She doesn't need to Write to her often considering that Orin is almost never too far behind (whether she wants to be or not), so when she does need to write its usually to describe a list of tasks for her to do in her absence. Or an "We'll talk about this when I get home" letter. She starts them all with "My dear girl" and thats enough for Orin to consider them fire kindling.
15. Does your Durge keep anything to remember Orin by, after her death? Did she keep anything to remember them, after her betrayal?
I personally do like actually exploring The Dark Urge having brain damage. Like yea they're sort of a demigod and thats how they survived at all but its repeatedly brought up how damaged the brain is from Orin's attack, and the game repeatedly frames it as brain damage, so there would most certainly be symptoms beyond just the long term memory loss.
Tremors, headaches, aphasia, continual short term memory loss, etc. any number of symptoms from a TBI. i think it adds to the layers of their struggles not just from the Urges, but the severity of what happen to them. And the difficulty in realizing what things are symptoms and disability vs things inflicted on them, yknow?
bringing out my own experience w having brain damage and the laughably high number of concussions and blows to the head ive gotten in my life to lovingly bestow all my symptoms to Vitoria <3
You say I mean the world to you to keep me on my knees
Then dig the knife in deeper just to watch how much I bleed
I'm stripped to the bone, I don't wanna be alone
No matter how I plead
You do it 'cause you know you can
Turn around and bite the hand that feeds
Hand That Feeds - Amy Lee and Halsey
Ref
Drawing something cathartic. An allegory on how Bhaal violates Durge's autonomy.
Didn't draw her too big in this one. It's a reflection of her own inner strength against Bhaal.
I am once again begging people to realize that AI checker doesn’t work. it’s never worked. it’s notoriously known to have flagged human-made works as AI and AI-generated works as human-made. and by feeding it people’s works, you are feeding more works to AI, because apparently the machine itself is AI.
the only thing AI checker does is harm genuine artists and people in general too.
Also all of these sites are trying to sell you a subscription to their shitty ai humanizer by telling you that your work flags as ai no matter what. You can literally type "how are you" into one of these and it will tell you that its 99% ai.
(in the middle of a heartfelt conversation, with concerning sincerity) and dont forget that I am evil, and that my death will be announced with singing in the streets
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