Call me Sushi

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[justasushi]

Lil intro posty!

We are The Ambrosia System!

We're 23 Years Old

We're an Artist! We have a whole art blog you can follow. @ambrosiaartistry

AuDHD, BPD, BP1, OCD, GAD, MDD and of course DID. We're Polyfragmented and masc heavy.

They/He Pronouns collectively! Transmasc nonbinary bodily.

We are Disabled. Ambulatory wheelchair user and cane user. Scoliosis, POTS, CFS/Chronic Pain, and Dyslexia.

We're an Omnist/Polythiestic Bhuddist Pagan and Lokean (Lord Loki Beloved) as well as a Satanist.

Bodily, we are Indigenous/Lakota, Polynesian (Samoan/Hawaiian), Celtic, and ofc white (English and French)

In love with the handsome @awestruck-atrophy

Current Interests!

- Geography/Countries/Maps/Cultures (Special Interest!)

- Psychology

- DND / Critical Role C1 and C2

- Leftist Activism

- Gaming (MC, Skyrim, BG3, FPS, etc)

- MY LOVER ❤️

[awestruck-atrophy]

burn the quiet light is live on AO3! Come read the first 10 chapters of an extremely self indulgent bloodymary fic written by me and @justasushi

https://archiveofourown.org/works/88520301/chapters/234817076

Summary: Ryland Grace is shot into space on the Hail Mary against his will. What he doesn't expect is a garbled radio transmission from a mysterious man who's been welded into a submarine. What follows is the closest thing to fate that the universe still has to offer.

[awestruck-atrophy]

burn the quiet light is live on AO3! Come read the first 10 chapters of an extremely self indulgent bloodymary fic written by me and @justasushi

https://archiveofourown.org/works/88520301/chapters/234817076

Summary: Ryland Grace is shot into space on the Hail Mary against his will. What he doesn't expect is a garbled radio transmission from a mysterious man who's been welded into a submarine. What follows is the closest thing to fate that the universe still has to offer.

[justasushi]

I love baby, I love space gays, I love writing, I love writing space gays WITH BABY!?!?!

[apricotsndots]

Widogast's family BBQ, tiefling edition

[awestruck-atrophy]

substance abuse doesn’t appear to be cutting it anymore my liege. have we tried resetting the timeline. oh we have. oh. I see.

[awestruck-atrophy]

ten thousand times you say. isn’t there any hope

[justasushi]

What the fuck

[justasushi]

The sun must too believe that she is ugly, for no one will even look at her.

Yet her beauty is simply too magnificent to behold.

[justasushi]

I was getting wood for my fireplace today. As I did, I broke off pieces for kindling. Within one of the logs, rested a beetle. Hunkered down, staying warm.

As I put the wood into the fire, I thought about that beetle. He lived only because I saw him. How many beetles and spiders are engulfed in flames as I watch? The ones that I didn't see.

Then, I realized, that even if I said sorry, it wouldn't change anything. They would still be gone. I could apologize, but it wouldn't bring them back. They simply died, snuggled up to stay warm for the winter, in a place they thought was safe.

I did not mean to, and yet I did. They do not blame me for needing to stay warm. I do not blame myself for not seeing them, or being unable to hear them.

In my mind, I did no wrong. In their mind, I took away their life. In the eyes of the universe, nothing even happened. Perhaps they don't blame me, but the fire. Or maybe even the cold, the reason the fire was necessary. Maybe, they're just bugs, and it doesn't matter at all.

I am the person. Doing what I need to to stay comfortable and safe, even if it means I harm others.

I am the beetle. Alive because someone chose to keep me that way.

I am the fire. Alive because someone allowed me fuel to burn.

I am the wood. Burning because someone decided I needed to. For their own sake.

I am the fireplace. Offering warmth and comfort to all who extend their hands towards me. Without a drop of discrimination or hate.

I am the cold. Unmoving, unbroken, a simple fact of life.

I am the ones that went unseen. Hurt by another for being small, and unable to get out of the way. Hurt by many because they do not even consider me.

I am the universe. Acknowledging that nothing matters equally. Even the smallest life is important, but everything gets snuffed out.

I am everything.

[justasushi]

Perhaps I am sunshine

To be the sun in someones life

It is to provide warmth, growth, safety, and sight.

It creates beauty when passed through glass and water.

I can create life with my light.

It is also to burn.

You cannot look for too long,

Or I may make you blind.

You cannot hold me, for I am made from fires and heat.

My rays may touch you

But only from a distance.

Not for too long, or else

You will blister, and peel.

Too much of me, and you disintegrate.

I may bring you joy,

but I am simply a star.

And stars do not care that they burn you

When you fly too close to them.

For if I am sunshine,

I am also fire.

If I am sight,

I am also blind.

If I am too far, you freeze

If I am too close, you burn.

I am better

At the perfect medium.

Small doses, gentle touches,

Nothing too much,

Nothing too little.

[awestruck-atrophy]

partner and I have developed this thing called “evil meow” wherein when one of us (usually me) gets disproportionately angry or upset over something that Does Not Matter (thanks BPD!) they get to yell or growl “evil meow” in a scary voice. this works great as this is both a) a release of the yelling/anger spike that I so desperately want to do and simultaneously b) silly and absurd and hurts no one’s feelings.

so this leads to me very frequently just standing in the kitchen going “evil meow!!!:.. gr………Evil Meow…. “

[justasushi]

If this isnt how you and your partner(s) are resolving issues I fear it may not truly be healthy /hj

Bb has had long week

Not enough sleeps

Stressed baby

Baby didnt have therapy all week

Baby is still working on communication but is pretty good

Baby just wants to bed

And Baby has PMDD

I am hypomanic

My RSD got triggered earlier

Chronic pain makes me even more sad

DND got canceled twice, so autism mad

I try be patient, feels so hard

Haven't gone to gym since a tiny bit on Tuesday :(((

I want to draw for self cares and to make my autism chill tf out

Baby kicks me off IPad (drawing) so they can sleep. This make me sad and upset >:c but not angry. I am even sadder and upsetter than earlier.

Bb go cuddle in bed

I give bb water even tho I am upset

I turn on fan for bb

I tell bb plans for tomorrow

I say ok got to go bathroom

I walk aways

they yells "I LOVE YOU!"

I say "I LOVE YOU!"

They say "i AM NOT MAD AT YOU I AM JUST ANGRY!"

I say "I KNOW BUT RSD GO aaaa!"

They say "EVIL MEOWWWW!"

I say "EVIL MEOOOOOOOOOOW"

They say "YEAHHH!"

Pause...

I say "okay goodnight"

They say "okay goodnight"

Patient is worth it

Also C) Its cute so it makes me go

When baby is upset

[awestruck-atrophy]

if we lived 2 hundred years ago what would we even be able to do. there would be no evil meow. only something equally absurd like “insidious neigh” and we would be horses instead. “sinister mew” perhaps

[justasushi]

Obviously, my love, I would still be autistic, and therefore, Evel meow would still have taken place. For Evel was around in middle English, and Meow can be recorded back to the fuckin 1630's

EVIL MEOW REIGNS SUPREME

[awestruck-atrophy]

partner and I have developed this thing called “evil meow” wherein when one of us (usually me) gets disproportionately angry or upset over something that Does Not Matter (thanks BPD!) they get to yell or growl “evil meow” in a scary voice. this works great as this is both a) a release of the yelling/anger spike that I so desperately want to do and simultaneously b) silly and absurd and hurts no one’s feelings.

so this leads to me very frequently just standing in the kitchen going “evil meow!!!:.. gr………Evil Meow…. “

[justasushi]

If this isnt how you and your partner(s) are resolving issues I fear it may not truly be healthy /hj

Bb has had long week

Not enough sleeps

Stressed baby

Baby didnt have therapy all week

Baby is still working on communication but is pretty good

Baby just wants to bed

And Baby has PMDD

I am hypomanic

My RSD got triggered earlier

Chronic pain makes me even more sad

DND got canceled twice, so autism mad

I try be patient, feels so hard

Haven't gone to gym since a tiny bit on Tuesday :(((

I want to draw for self cares and to make my autism chill tf out

Baby kicks me off IPad (drawing) so they can sleep. This make me sad and upset >:c but not angry. I am even sadder and upsetter than earlier.

Bb go cuddle in bed

I give bb water even tho I am upset

I turn on fan for bb

I tell bb plans for tomorrow

I say ok got to go bathroom

I walk aways

they yells "I LOVE YOU!"

I say "I LOVE YOU!"

They say "i AM NOT MAD AT YOU I AM JUST ANGRY!"

I say "I KNOW BUT RSD GO aaaa!"

They say "EVIL MEOWWWW!"

I say "EVIL MEOOOOOOOOOOW"

They say "YEAHHH!"

Pause...

I say "okay goodnight"

They say "okay goodnight"

Patient is worth it

Also C) Its cute so it makes me go

When baby is upset

[justasushi]

"To love a monster,

is to love humanity.

To love humanity,

is to love life itself.

So to love life itself,

is to love who you are.

To love who you are,

is to love a monster."

- Ambrosia Brooks, 2025

[justasushi]

Sometimes I wonder if my lover remembers I can see their Tumblr, or if they, quite simply, live without shame in their heart.

[justasushi]

Hey guys PLEASE remember that the meedia pushes stuff that is upsetting about the world on PURPOSE.

It is what gets REACTIONS. It feeds VIEWS. It is what gets people TALKING. It is NOT because the bad is the ONLY thing happening in the world right now.

What you see on the news is not, and NEVER has been all there is happening. There is infact ALOT OF GOOD THINGS.

PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND WHEN DOOM SCROLLING OR SEEING WHAT'S GOING ON IN THE WORLD.

Not everything is terrible, not everything is broken, they WANT YOU TO THINK IT IS SO THEY KEEP MAKING MONEY

Thats all thanks

[justasushi]

DONT SHOVE IT DOWN MY THROAT

They shout, while simultaneously, attempting to force silence into mine.

Say a word, they say it louder. Yell a word, and then they cower.

I will not allow you to fill my mouth with polyester so that you may sew my lips. I will not watch as my tongue is removed so that my heart may not scream. I won't allow you to make me eat glass while you eat cake. I refuse to stand while my eyes are replaced with plastic so I cannot see. I shall never lie down and allow myself to bleed for someone's comfort.

[edmond-monet]

transcripts of prayers left on god’s answering machine

-

holy, holy, holy.

praise be to the god of Silence,

of missed calls, of texts left on read.

you might want to pick up your phone once in a while, you know? sometimes it’s urgent. anyway, call me back as soon as you can. bye.

-

You didn’t hear me then,

when I was a small girl,

praying with silent, desperate tears streaming down her face as she pleaded with the only Father she could fathom to save her.

I doubt You’ll get this now. Probably have my number blocked. Heh.

I never could scream loud enough for You to hear.

-

you were supposed to protect me, you know?

you said you would.

you promised.

was I not good enough? jesus was, and you killed him anyway. did you want to crucify me, too?

-

hey, Man! listen, I’ve got those files for You. I’ll drop them right off. want me to leave the door unlocked?

-

it’s me, your mother. I miss You.

-

for all I know; i’m talking to an empty house. you’re probably not even home. i’m always sure the voicemail box has to be full by now, but there always seems to be space. wonder how much you paid in advance for the latest model, way back before everything. must’ve cost a fortune. anyway, I—

-

our father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. thy kingdom come, thy will be done: on earth, as it is in heaven.

-

we are calling about a problem with your car’s extended warranty—

-

what was that for, huh? You just let her die? what the hell! I asked You. I asked You to save her. You owe me!

-

bring him peace. don’t let anyone bother him anymore. give him what he wanted. give him rest. please.

-

do you think jesus felt loved? how could anyone, when your own father wants you dead? could you trick yourself into thinking that’s love? could you make yourself believe it?

-

this is an appointment reminder for—

-

—can You hear me, dad? am I coming through? anyway. just wanted to call and say I love You. okay. see you later. bye.

[awestruck-atrophy]

watched everything everywhere all at once finally and partner’s reaction to jobu was “she’s got Kayne vibes.” and then we figured out that they were correct. spot on actually. jobu is a kayne variant. thank you and goodnight.

[justasushi]

:]

[tchaikovskaya]

my mom (went to catholic schools her whole life, graduated in the late 70s) just tried to argue that since jesus died in the afternoon on good friday that you can eat meat for dinner. “he is already gone,” she said.

[awestruck-atrophy]

obsessed with the implications that god dies every year. doctor who ass fucking christ

@broadacre

[justasushi]

The messiah? The messiah who?