Health|Hair|Happiness

God-Fearing Fairytalist who is Energized by God, Sunshine, Health, Fitness, Creativity, & Art. True Heliophilia Individual.🌞🌻 Nutrition & Exercise Addict. This page is only for complete honesty & constant encouragement & motivation for others to know they can catch their dreams & create beauty out of love💛✨. Instagram: JustQueenable Snapchat: Fairytalist Pumpup: justqable

[justqable]

🩻 When your mind has an overcast, you think you don’t know what you did to others to make them act the way they’re acting or why something happened in your life. It gets confusing because some things have an explanation and some things simply don’t. 🌪

🩻 During this overcast I make a lot of excuses for myself, people, circumstances… I don’t know which one stresses me out more, the excuses or doing something about the excuses in order not to make an excuse.🩼🦼

🩻 Me saying that I don’t know why I have friends or family to treat me the way that they do is definitely a lie. The way that close friends treat me are the ways that I have planted some seed of that form into the soil of my life. I take long hiatus from my own self and then get deep in my feelings when people decide not to fuck with me anymore because they haven’t heard from me because I didn’t open up. And to my Beautiful fragile best friends of my soul, I didn’t shut down enough, I didn’t shut up enough. I should’ve done better with creating a hiatus space for them from me. and it’s not that I didn’t know that they were burning every time they gave me their time.🪫

🩻 My soul burns because I know I burned their last bit of sanity and left them searching for sanity for themselves. This is always hurt me the most and is the worst fear of mine. But I run profusely from people like me so how can I be so scorned when people treat me the way I treated many (possibly even them).🦠🧫

🩻 How do people deal with their own shit without transfers? Without running… without reverting? But I’m guessing it all starts with isolation; the 1st stage that I am well acquainted with.

🩻 I miss my soulmate Friendship’s❤️‍🩹. But If people have to run from me to be free in happiness, I would repurchase their running shoes every time their old ones start to fall apart so their heart no longer falls apart 👟 🏃 .

🩹 Help me to learn how to be my own best friend and not let stress and depression run my mouth or my mind. Teach me not to talk so much in my head and don’t let those conversations control lives and lifestyles in me & around me. 📴🆘⚠️

[justqable]

Running away doesn’t always sound like a bad idea but not technically a dream come true🚸🛂

[justqable]

When people ask me to tell them something about me:

I'm infatuated by vibrant colors. I don't think I could ever pick just one. & I love the spicy grilled chicken salad from chic-fil-a 😋 I also love paleo chocolate chip cookies & mellow mushrooms gluten free pizza!🙈🍕🍪🥗

I’m always thinking of food & fascinating colors!🗣😅

[anxietyproblem]

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[justqable]

Daunting 3️⃣.0️⃣

I watch a lot of scary movies in October, like a scary movie per day, 😂. But the way I watch them now is completely different to the way I want to watch them when I was a teenager. First off, disclaimer, I absolutely love scary movies!!! But you talking about somebody that used to be scared AF way after the scary movie was over, yeah that was definitely me, but I still get watching them! 😁

But it’s not the scary movies that scare me anymore, it’s a fact that the things that go on in the scary movie can actually happen or have happened in real life and now turning 30 I know for a fact that real life can be horrifying AF!!!!!!!!

Communicating with a narcissist or a manipulator is probably one of the scariest things for me right now. I shut down every time any confrontation/conflict happens or anytime I’m asked uncomfortable questions where I know I can’t be absolutely honest with them because the only thing that they want to see is their way or they only want validation about their own opinions & feelings. I can talk calmly and say halfway truths to just keep the peace, but I lose A part of my backbone and pieces of my mental sanity every time. It’s vital to know yourself and your boundaries and when to adjust your boundaries & goals or to stand firm on your boundaries in this world, and say that I am walking around like a leaf in the wind in this life is PETRIFYING. 🧛🏾🍃🧟‍♀️🍂

Life is sometimes the real scary movie, and I’m still constantly over here trying to turn it into a sunful fairytale 🧚🏽‍♀️ 🎥 🍿  .

[justqable]

Conversation 3️⃣0️⃣

Talking too much gets annoying even for the person who is talking too much. People think that when you “talk too much” that it always has to deal with verbalization or your lips moving, But I just learned that that’s really is not the case. Although, I definitely do talk too much “physically”, but my biggest thing is that I talk too much mentally. I am constantly talking to myself in my head and subconsciously talking to the people in my life about things I should’ve said in a conversation and a lot of times going off on them and they’re not even there. It’s things that I would never say to people or I’m too afraid of saying in the first place. Honestly, talking isn’t a bad thing, but I watch myself take it to the extreme in my mind. I have watched this be the most draining in my life. I’ve put so much effort into these invisible conversations that I’ve drained my soul of energy that can never be replenished or replaced.

I’ve always felt like the issue was not having enough energy or always being drained of joy, but I was wrong. I was shown that I was making life a whole lot more complicated than what I needed to inside my mind. At age 30, I realized how I wanted to release these topics of conversation that drifted my mind there and here at any point in time. I realize that I still wanted to enjoy my day even when things would come up and make me want to talk more. I was choosing to be miserable inside of my “head home”, and I got fed up & down with it.

So I asked for alarm systems, alerts of when I’m using energy to “talk too much”. Now, I’m just starting off, but I will say it feels amazing to know when you are just getting ready to drain yourself pointlessly or to realize how you’ve drained yourself and watch “bigger hands” replenish you because you’re working with “the hand” and not against it anymore.

Helping the mind to understand That I’m down for the task in order to tame the thoughts that are like darts that once sent me into a spiraling depression or anxiety frenzy, boy, THAT IS AN UNWORLDLY FUNCTION AND THAT FUNCTION HAS BEEN GRANTED TO A ONCE UPON A TIME SUICIDAL THINKER, MEEEEEEE!!!✨📢

Me, myself, & I; WE WINNING 🎰!!!

[justqable]

Newly 3️⃣0️⃣ feelz

Living life on purpose. Letting other people control feelings and emotions and letting feelings and emotion control oneself is such an addiction when you’re in it. See, I’ve done that for about 30 years of my life and on my last month of being 29, I’ve decided I want to live on purpose. I want to live and do things that money can’t buy in the fake smile can’t even come close to. I want my inner child to partner up and be friends with my reality adult me. I realize that the actions of myself reflect in my attitude that I give others and MYSELF. So I’m granting myself joy in creating it in as many moments as I could ever dream of. I’m granting all of my feelings and emotion to God and cease Living like a boat with no sail, no sense of direction; just letting my emotions and other peoples feelings walk all over me while allowing them to walk all over others who have done nothing to cause that issue.

See I’m not just fed up, i’m fed down; so far down that I’ve seen the darkest Areas in the tunnel of depression. But after 30 years I finally woken up and really understand what my mother used to tell me, I am really in charge of my own happiness and I should never rely on my emotions to always make me feel happy nor most importantly people. Honestly life became so much easier the day I didn’t just decide this but, I started to truly act this out! And coming from a suicidal thinker, I FEEL like living life for myself and I actually look forward to just doing life good or challenging. I will succeed and enjoy my life, I give up on pleasing everyone’s feelings or perception on how they feel about me. But I will not get into unhealthy positivity (Denial/cover up feelings) but I will put it in hands greater than mine time and time again, multiple times if I have to because I am determined to defeat this life and not let it defeat me.

Somebody could have told me that you become A WHOLE DIFFERENT CREATURE when you start to PUT YOUR JOY AS A #1 PRIORITY 🗣✨

It is a different type of beauty🐳🌸



[nature-nurturer]

I’m genuinely the healthiest and happiest version of myself that I’ve ever been. I am full of peace and joy and warmth and goodness. I know who I am today and I’m excited about who I’ll become tomorrow. I am confident and comfortable in my boundaries around my needs. I’ve forgiven myself for the harm I’ve caused (including/especially to myself) and forgiven those who have harmed me. I am on the path that is meant for me and will continue with open hands, welcoming what is for me and letting go of what is not. I feel light and I *am* light - I have released what isn’t mine to carry and have stepped into the shining light that is within my soul. I am doing the work and using my privileges to continue to dismantle all systems of white supremacy/the carceral state, including those within myself. I’m fully aware that violence isn’t always the answer, but equally aware that sometimes it is. My time and energy are in complete alignment with my passions. I am whole and I have everything I need.

When I was deep in a valley about two months ago while navigating through deep grief and several losses, I clearly heard the Lord remind me: “My plan is still to prosper; I haven’t forgotten you” and I see and feel that more and more with each day. He has carried me this far and won’t abandon me now.

I know days won’t always feel like this, but today does (largely thanks do @justqable’s phenomenal friendship and her overall existence as a magnificent/miraculous/spectacular gem on this earth 💎) and I will feel this way again, and again, and again. The journey continues and the work is ongoing. Pinning this so that I can always go back and remember today, in this moment, when I’m overflowing with gratitude. 🌻

[justqable]

In love with this glowing soul🔆🤍✨

[anqelek]

[justqable]

reTREAT yourSELF🧞🪐

[justqable]

visiting myself, viewing regrets. Regrets that my life didn’t turn out a little different. Not the people in my life (well maybe just a few people), but more so me within. They say if you hate something change it, but the constant energy that requires depresses me. It’s energy that I never built up. I know we are provided with what we need each day, but sometimes just trusting in yourself tiers me out. I regret that I don’t look fit like the old me or like other girls or other new mom’s. I go in the bathroom and look past any mirror and when I do see me I regret that I caught a glimpse. I regret that I only imagine me as my past self. I don’t FEEL like I know who I am or what I need to be to myself and to the people of the world that I love. I regret not being positive about me, but I also hate lying to me and hiding from where there is pain.

[kushandwizdom]

Go.

[olearypoetry]

“If I can’t sleep at night I listen to you breathe. That’s my lullably.”

— O. Leary

[justqable]

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Easy and beautiful distractions of life can keep one so optimistic. Fairytales and fantasies never seen, told, or understood keep smiles in hearts. Daydreams that don’t align with ones priorities are the exact places which you can find me. Drifting away in a Florida breeze, being overpowered by a captivating Sea, and letting my laughter harmonize with the brushing of the leaves on the trees. Imagining every rainbow never seen and every flower never touched. How blessed I’ll be when my husband touches me like no other being as we form our seed. Pondering on, if love had a taste, how delicious would it be? How much would I drool over it? I’m sure I would never get enough...Simple yet timeless thought makes me Peacefully optimistic with no regrets with wondering away with the distractions of the beauty within my soul-caring heart.💚

Be youthful. Get lost in you. Always.

[justqable]

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