So I think my response can tell you what happen with J at our first meeting since graduation 8yrs ago....this is what I should have said in the moment but I was so thrown back that all I could say was I'm not a pimp and my friends are not party favors.... I came to Nola for my own selfish reason, I wanted to see the great and mighty city everyone talks about...but my main reason was to see you get married, something I thought never would happen in my lifetime...I wanted to meet the girl was finally able to tame you...but what I got was nothing I was expecting...Let me first state, I'm not saying this to put more salt in the wound, but I don't care if this hurts you and I could give one flying fuck, I'm being selfish this time! I walked in with my friends to find a broken, hurt guy (which was expected), surrounded by the love of his family that he could not even see through his own pain. I saw a bitter man who lashed out on me, something I never thought would happen. I should have know better, history always repeats itself. You told me- you only talk back to me because I'm persistently texting you, like I'm some type of needy girl who can't take a hint. You said you just sent me a invitation to be nice, like I was not wanted. Well, fuck you! Then to top it off, You ask me to choose with one of my best friends, who have been with me since childhood, so you can use them as a fuck hole to stick your dick in, like I'm a fucking pimp and brought you hoes as a party favor. The only reason, I even continued to text you this weekend was because my friends wanted to make sure you were okay. Personally, I was done with you. I know you were drunk, but a drunken tongue tells the truth. I don't get hurt feeling ever over anything- I usually just strike back with something equally as harsh, making you feels less than a man, but I didn't say anything because I actually cared about your feelings and thought stupidly he's just drunk. Fuck that shit! Have you ever thought maybe I thought of you as my friend, even through I had to work hard to keep you engaged, but it has always been that way, even when you were just sitting next to me. I felt so unwanted and didn't wanna put myself nor my friends in that situation again. When Norina and I came up to room to see you, it was because of norina's pushing, you would have never saw me again, hence why I stayed quiet and let her talk. Because what you would have heard-Your selfish fuck and that reason you have no friends! You find these girls who are broken like you and try to fix them...but maybe you need to fix you, so the right women not the chick for right now, would complete whatever your trying to create. You run from place to place looking for something, who knows what, your not going to find it until you fix you! I saw a worried mother and a son who was so hugely fucked up, couldn't even see it! She was pleading with you to go to bed and you just drank more. I get it happen that day and you didn't expect that...but doesn't give you the right to be a fucking douche. I'm not blaming completely you for what happen with your wedding, but you play a part it's not all her fault. Yes, I don't know everything that happened in your relationship but it's very easy to see just from the small bit you have told me about her (which should have been another clue for me) that you we're looking to make her what you wanted instead of being happy with what she is. And if you didn't like that person, she wasn't the right person for you. Getting drunk and reckless don't make you feel better just worst. I know your broken and just processing this situation but your an asshole. The reason I care is because that what I do for my so called friends. We text each other (my first mistake) we care about what's going on in each other's life even 100+ miles away. We don't do things just to be nice, we do it because you really want the other person to be part of what happens in your life. I have never been demonized as a stalker or a annoying girl by any of my friends. Which proves to me that you were never my friend, just an associate for a season that passed many years ago. And you never have to worry about me- caring or as you look at it bothering you again. Good luck with you next step and the rest of your life.
