esaelp em evas

where are you? remember now to save me. multi - fandom / personal . studyblr: studyingeek .

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[furiousgoldfish]

your brain on trauma: how about we only vaguely remember this event, and we can't be sure if we made it up or dreamed it (if we say it out loud other people will accuse us of making it up or dreaming it so better we assume that on our own) or if it was real, but the consequences of this, seemingly made up event, are so severe we can't normally live our life, we feel anxious, ashamed, guilty, paranoid, restless and hurt, but however all these symptoms, they aren't proof enough that this event happened or that it traumatized us, no, maybe we just feel all that, because there's something wrong with us - we're weak, thats it, we made this up and now we feel horrible about it all on our own, there's no way it could have been real--

[infpisme]

[infpisme]

[icantdrawbutdontcare]

I can trust myself. I have been gaslighted, there is nothing wrong with my memory.

[jojostarz]

You are being gaslighted. You are not being over emotional, or “crazy” for being scared out of your skin and wanting to run away only to feel safe the next minute.

Abuse is catch and release over and over again.

Please remember its not your fault.

[meltyparfait]

@milk_escaflowra

[setsmaker]

[julieterbang]

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[letsflytoasiarenata]

- Rumi

happy birthday, dear Iqma @wyndrider

[gifs-kpop]

eight - IU (prod. Suga) (2020)

[depressed-in-hell]

BPD feels: feeling the need to end your therapy while it is the only thing that keeps you going

[toadallybpd]

Everyone always says I’m so strong for being able to control my bpd. Lol I can’t really control it. I just can for a short period of time. Then it gets bad again and I end up over my head all over again. I’m weak. I wish there was a way to make it all disappear.

[sadinternetloser]

Please don’t remind me about what happened because I remember. I didn’t forget. I couldn’t forget. I’ll never forget.

[qveenbpd]

Me: I'm so good at resisting my impulses now. I understand that impulsive and reckless behaviour may be cathartic in the short-term but in the long-term it will only destroy my relationships, my health, and my self-esteem

bpd Urge™: You should-

Me: Okay

[bruisedpeachbaby]

thought abt bpd: maybe the reason some of us are so impulsive is because in our childhood we were constantly under control and even “following the rules” wasn’t enough to keep us out of trouble. so now we’re stuck somewhere in between desperately wanting not to be controlled and not knowing how to make decisions fully on our own. so we keep pushing limits until eventually someone or something stops us and we can feel out of control again bc even though we hate it we aren’t fully sure how else to live.

[bruisedpeachbaby]

impulsive thought of the day: delete all of your social media and stop contacting friends so you can be completely isolated bc you either hurt or annoy other people