Neil Summers

my eyes are always dry

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Honestly, the Internet has really fucked us up. I saw a guy turn into meat by getting his entire torso get blown off on r/combatfootage and then after a bit of dissociation went back into r/kitchencels to comment "ayy fellow genshin player" on a post.

I need some sleep. This is just too fucked.

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FUCK MODERN STANDBY WHY DOES IT EXIST FOR ANYTHING OTHER THAN ENSHITTIFICATION IT'S RUINING MY ENTIRE FUCKING COMPUTER FUCK MODERN STANDBY HOW HARD IS IT TO GIVE US THE OLD AND EXISTING OPTIONS THAT ACTUALLY WORK AND DON'T FUCK UP YOUR COMPUTER WHY IS IT IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE A FUNCTIONING COMPUTER IN 2026 FUCK WINDOWS 11 FUCK WINDOWS 11 FUCK WINDOWS 11 FUCK WINDOWS 11 WHOEVER MADE THIS FUCKING SYSTEM SHOULD HANG THEMSELVES WHOEVER MADE THIS SYSTEM SHOULD HANG THEMSELVES FUCK MODERN STANDBY FUCK WINDOWS 11

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I'm binding with KT Tape for the first time. It's a lackluster job, but it works for now. I heard that you're supposed to cover your nipples and remove it with oil but I deserve pain.

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Ooh I found this on Pinterest and now I gotta ask my moots

@lizbizeeee @frikeyway @michael-mcromance @ozzy-iz-a-phreak-xp @prettyinpunnk @shallowsenjoyer @vel-veteen-rabbit @stabbythebosscat

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b, 3, *,@=

@krusty-28-28 @chud-lover @herbert-the-herb

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a2*$ (I know nothing abt mcr besides like frank iero and Gerard way are gay or something???)

@stinkeroo-72 @onionflavoredbread @geniusmember83 @keratoconjunctivitis-sicca

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I hate reblogs but I'm kinda curious about what vibes I give off. I'd say krusty is a E1!$

No idea what the things in the top row are.

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I forgot to practice piano today, and I'm terrified that I'll have no motivation tomorrow. This is my first time playing the piano in years, after terrible and arguably traumatic experiences in the past. I've been trying to do some exposure therapy by playing some OSTs from Genshin, and it's working. I was so inspired by Sandrone's performance in the event that I decided to pick it up again. It was kinda also to flex on my online friend who just started learning. I'll record a good attempt in 2 weeks or something when I master this short piece.

Thanks to this guy for making sheet music. https://youtu.be/04JEX55hv8Q?si=gSUiZIRJmxqp-7Yt

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IPSYO comprehensive test in half an hour. It doesn't matter what I get on this test, and I signed up for free and for fun, so I didn't study at all. I'm gonna go ice skating tomorrow and get frozen custard or something.

Edited. It was fun, and I'm kinda good at this. The frozen custard was mid and overpriced. I thought it would taste like custard.

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How it feels to be in your own peaceful little corner of the internet with no transfem/transmasc discourse

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I'm happy I'm not screaming into the void with this post. Just comment something like "Keep going champ 👍" and that would be great.

My parents both came out as transphobic. I'm so happy for them. Started out with me talking about how I wanted a binder. My mom supports me if I don't transition or even wear anything. I asked her for proof, since everyone knows binders are safe if they aren't work for too long. Nothing. Just some bullshit about how she's my mother and that I basically have no bodily autonomy. Then I told her to fuck off (not actually) and that I'll be getting top surgery the second I turned 18. This made her very upset. She didn't understand nonbinary people, so I just told her I was a boy. Then, she asked how I was going to get a dick, to which I answered that I don't care about that. Then she said that because of that, I would always be a fake man. Alright, I guess. I found out the reason for this was because she was somehow jealous of my youth, like some fairytale villain. Then she went to my MAGA dad for other things to yell at me about, and there comes the good old "How are you gonna change your chromosomes?" My father also thinks that it's because I'm taking medicine for my allergies. My mother thinks it's because the people I hang out with are queer and neurodivergent. I told her that it's because I already unconsciously related to those people before I came out, which I think is a pretty good reason, but you can't really argue with transphobes. Anyways, I took a nap and woke up to my mother touching all over my hair and face, and I wanted to rip off my skin. Disgusting. I am disconnected from my physical body. I am disconnected from my physical body. I am disconnected from my physical body. I am disconnected from my physical body. I am disconnected from my physical body. I am disconnected from my physical body. I am disconnected from my physical body. I am disconnected from my physical body. I am disconnected from my physical body also I wrote this all in one sitting without editing because this post is cringe as hell. Sorry if it's clunky to read.

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Had to talk to the person in charge of the summer job program because "certain parts of my anatomy are exposed when I wear thin shirts"

I knew they were visible but just didn't care. Guess I really should invest in a binder. Fuck this. I am a genderless entity and I am separate from my physical form. I am a genderless entity and I am separate from my physical form. I am a genderless entity and I am separate from my physical form. I am a genderless entity and I am separate from my physical form

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I saw a squirrel's nuts today. Not the edible kind, but his balls. I didn't get a picture of them but here's the squirrel.

They were pretty big.

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How can anyone ever have a "go-to" order at a restaurant? No one goes to restaurants that often, and don't you want to try something different each time? I'm perfectly fine eating the same thing at home for months, but the second I eat out I require variety.

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My mother called me a biggie and said the food looked mid, so I'm alone at a restaurant today.

First impressions: the restaurant is completely empty, and the music is too loud. There's a TV and the interior looks clean enough. Tables and chairs are a bit sticky, but that's fine because of the stuff everyone uses to clean.

The bathroom is gender neutral and has a based sign.

Some people came in while I was waiting for my order, but they all ordered takeout. I asked the staff to turn down the music and they did. Nice.

I ordered two dishes. I think I ordered the wrong one, but they were both good. The wrong dish was slightly too sweet, but the right dish was perfect. To the average American, it might be too spicy and not salty enough.

Prices were mid, which is expected. That meal cost a whole Minecraft (about $30).

A family came in to dine while I was about halfway finished eating. They were not too loud.

The staff gave me a box and a plastic bag when I asked. I should have asked for a plastic container instead, because one of the dishes was kind of soupy and it spilled everywhere. Walking home in blazing hot heat carrying a plastic bag with soup in it is not the best experience.

There has been some road repairing project on a large street near my house, and it has messed with the traffic terribly. I had to take the long route. Because I had just finished eating, my stomach kinda cramped.

The restaurant was overall good, but there's not much else on the menu that I want to try.

I'll edit this and add pictures later. My phone is upstairs and I'm so lazy.

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I just went though my friend's entire Tumblr account liking embarrassing things so that they'll get a notification and remember that post. That's why my likes are full of MartinFreemanslop now. My recommended posts are going to be so cooked, but I think it's worth it.

I'm scared to put Martin Freeman in the tags because you guys scare me with your thirst. He's a pretty good actor, though.

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"Nothing can come out of ashes. They're trash, left behind after a fire consumes everything in its path. Still, you never know if there are embers buried beneath."

The yoriki said this once, to the fledgeling who could not even recall its own name.

Years later, it would emerge out of a blazing furnace, its snow-white wings tainted black from ashes and red from a friend's blood.

There would be no embers, and the already dim moon would be obscured by suffocating smoke. Not even a crackle of electricity would be seen.

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Stupid, stupid nausea. Something is wrong with my intestines for sure.

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I miss my old summer job. It was more awkward but I got free food every day and could help out with serving lunch. There was also another teenager there.

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I really hope Alyosha doesn't have a personality too similar to Illuga. I love Illuga, but we need variety. Anything interesting will do. I don't want Hoyo to go the safe route. After all, a character's personality also factors in whether or not I pull.

We've gotten 3 short male characters recently and they all kinda look the same, so Alyosha better not have anything else in common with them.