k.g.j. bean

just another queer putzing around on the interwebs. what do i cultivate here? who even knows anymore. i do not have my shit together.

[shutyourmoustache]

Making exercises more accessible to the disabled? Fuck yeah!

[42starsintheuniverse]

When Grace dies he asks for his body to be turned to ashes, and then into a statue. The statue has him sitting, legs crossed, arms curled slightly, with his palms on his knees. He says in his final message there is a reason for this very specific positioning, but that he can't say what it is.

Time continues forward. Rocky and Adrian grow and change. They move house a couple of times. Rocky changes career from engineer, to inventor, to scientist, to diplomat, to teacher. Adrian picks up a new hobby every few decades. They explore other parts of Erid they've never seen. They meet humans on more than one occasion, but there's something about it... Something not quite right. The Eridian mind can never forget, and no matter how much time passes, Rocky feels it. Missing Grace. His human.

And then time really does move on. Rocky walks stiffly, Adrian sleeps for weeks at a time, they both eat less often due to how draining it is.

And one day, the temperature is perfect. Adrian wakes earlier than they have in years. The warmth loosens Rocky's arthritis, the wind is quiet that day, and sound can carry for miles because of it. The soil is quiet, ready, resonant. And they both know.

They go for a walk, take a dip in the sea, attend a choir in a crystal cave. And then, without fanfare, when no one else is around, they visit Grace. And Rocky climbs into his stone lap. And Adrian curls their body around Grace too. Just like Grace did hundreds of years ago, they let go, no scream, no pain, just peace and togetherness. Too beautifully intertwined to ever untangle.

And there they sit, three stones, for the rest of time.

[hometoursandotherstuff]

I can't believe the little goth house hasn't sold yet. It's been removed from the market again. The 1940 Cape Cod cottage in Baltimore, MD has 1bd, 1ba, 1,540sqft. Asking $295k. The broker told the owner to neutralize the decor a little, b/c it would scare some buyers, so he removed about 25 mannequins in the basement and some upstairs. I beg to differ. I would've liked to have seen them.

His thing is horror movies. It’s not a cult thing. Some of the pictures are fastened to the wall, and he said he’ll have to tear them out and plaster and paint. 

He never planned to move, but something changed in his life.

This area is probably supposed to be the dining room.

The kitchen & dining area is pretty roomy.

Lots of storage space.

Small 3pc. bath.

The 2nd fl. was remodeled to make it roomier.

And, the open area is easier to get furniture in.

Actually, if you put up walls, this could be 2 bedrooms.

The basement isn't finished, but the walls are painted, and I think that's carpet on the floor.

The owner did the yard himself.

It's very neatly done.

Back here there's a firepit and a garage.

Looks like he made a table here.

Garden shed.

There's a large bar. He made the wallhanging, too.

6,098sqft lot.

https://www.zillow.com/homedetails/228-Townsend-Ave-Baltimore-MD-21225/36117572_zpid/?

[figuraine]

phm cursors in the works...

edit: you can get the full bundle here!!!

[lindseymcdonaldseyelashes]

Fascinated by the contrast between these two undressing scenes in "The Cross My Heart Job"...

[devondespresso]

i think one huge huge part of Grace choosing bravery more as the film goes on that (from what little ive seen on tumblr in 2026) not many people talk about when bringing up the "finding soneone to be brave for" parallels is that selflessness doesn't come out of just liking someone else enough. Grace seeks friendship and connection pretty consistently through the film, but aside from maybe his students, Grace doesn't get that connection back seriously until Rocky. He tries to connect deeply with Stratt, hell, tries to talk hard decisions and the toll the situation takes on everyone, but it doesn't work (not anti stratt btw, she basically *can't* connect the way hes wanting to because this world isnt his school or even a lab, its a military mission with planet-ending stakes). He had a great shallow connection with Carl, but it never veered deeper, it was a hanging-out connection more than a strong friendship, and thats proven when Carl stands and watches Grace get tackled to the ground (again not anti, its just a different environment). and i personally like to think that the whole reason he asks to think about it instead of just doubling down on his "no" is because of his students, because of their worry over the end of the world that we see in the beginning. he wanted to help, he *did* help so much, he just also didn't want to die, and to him he was not the only possible option on earth.

So when Grace makes decisions to be brave later, decisions where he actually has a choice, i think they didn't come from learning to toughen up or because he learned to like other people enough, but because someone finally cared about Grace as an individual. I don't think its a coincidence that Rocky's big feat to save Grace by risking his life comes before Grace decides to give up Earth for Rocky. I think its telling that the narrative frames Grace's risky decisions saving the sample from Adrian as more uncertain than it does when he's deciding if he'll give up Earth for Rocky. Hell in general just the fact that Rocky reaches out first, sends messages and adapts to Grace so much and so willingly helps Grace be so much braver that he felt on Earth, not because Grace was inheritly weaker or worse on Earth but because, ironically, in space with Rocky became a world he could get deeply connected to, and that deep reciprocated connection is what prompts bravery. Its very hard to be brave, to find bravery worth it, if you feel the majority of the people around you dont value your life. You cant afford to be selfless because your self is the only thing invested in keeping you alive. And if you wanna view it tragically, then really everyone around Grace on Earth refusing to get attached to the guy they're dooming so it hurts them less inadvertently offloads their pain onto him, making him feel alone and overpowered because even if we know or believe people cared and hated hurting him, what he experiences is mostly detachment, surface friendship, then his death sentence. Logic says they cared, they had little choice, they were stuck in a trolley problem and luck gave him the short stick, but feeling and experience struggle to take that into account.

So yeah, Grace is brave in space, so admirably brave Rocky struggles to understand why Grace thinks otherwise, but Rocky is the reason that bravery came out. He made Grace feel safe and loved enough that Grace didn't have to be the only person concerned about his wellbeing. He made it possible for Grace's big heart to leave self-preservation mode and sacrifice for others because he knew with certainty that it'd matter to someone if he was okay. That if someone else was given the choice to save him, they'd try their damnedest to keep him alive too.

[annabelle--cane]

there's this ridiculously soulmatey line in the phm book when grace is just kinda idly wondering aloud about why human and eridian technology are at such similar phases of development, and without thinking about it much rocky responds "has to be, or you and I would not meet." which he goes on to explain as (paraphrasing here) "if either planet were less advanced then we couldn't have built interstellar ships, but if either were more advanced then we could have dealt with the astrophage problem from home, so we'd have to be at around the same level to both be here, that's the only way it would make sense." what it sounds like though is "oh, that's easy: the two of us had to meet so the history of both of our entire species lined up in preparation to make it possible." what kind of tau-ceti-crossed red-petrova-line-of-fate nonsense is this.

[kiapet2]

It's commonly accepted in this fandom that humans have extremely fragile bodies in comparison to Eridians, but I think that's actually an oversimplification.

Because while Eridians are incredibly strong and tough on the outside, on the inside they are actually quite fragile:

They have no immune system, so anything that makes it past their enclosed carapace and internal heating will pretty much kill them

They have no natural defenses to radiation of any kind

In general they have very little organic matter so anything that targets their cells directly is quickly lethal

They are partially cold-blooded and live at a very narrow temperature range (about 20 degrees C)

They rely almost entirely on one, highly developed sense and are helpless if deafened (can't even remember the layout of a room)

They are completely helpless while asleep and can't control when that happens

They will forcibly become dormant after eating AND when badly hurt enough (their equivalent of going into shock)

They require more energy to function than humans do, and have very little organic matter to burn in the case of starvation

In contrast, humans:

Have an aggressive immune system and internal mechanisms for dealing with cell damage

Have adrenaline which allows them to temporarily ignore injuries and perform abnormal feats of strength

Are persistence hunters built for economy of movement and capable of extreme levels of endurance

Exist in a very wide range of habitats and on a diverse diet

Are very hardy in general, able to survive massive injuries, lack of sleep, prolonged starvation, and intense environmental conditions if given proper care

The quintessential example of this dichotomy between strength and endurance is the Going Fishing incident in the book: Rocky is able to survive and move in G forces that are killing Grace and to physically wrestle off the chair crushing him, but he collapses from his injuries almost immediately after. Despite being injured himself Grace then carries his 400lb friend up a ladder, is badly burned returning him to his atmosphere, and then proceeds to get some basic medical care, hype himself up on pain meds and keep working (albeit rather badly, lol) while Rocky forcibly sleeps.

The TL:DR is that Eridians are harder to damage, but easier to kill. They're like an rpg character with high armor and low health. I think Rocky would consider Grace to be very delicate at first, only to be blown away by how deceptively tough his friend can be.

[vesper-potato]

[loving-jack-kelly]

grace and rocky get to erid and both of them are hitting every eridian squarely in the uncanny valley because they've both absorbed so much of each other that they feel both too eridian and not eridian enogh. rocky faces in the direction he's paying attention to and it feels like he's trying to hide something, the way he and only he of the eridians seems to always be showing the same face of his carapace when he speaks to somebody. he speaks in metaphors that only make sense to somebody who understands light-based vision. his intonations are funny, rising on questions when they otherwise wouldn't, falling flat, his sarcasm goes to space dry and restrained and comes back with such force it almost feels like he's lying instead of joking sometimes.

and grace who is so alien, but reflects eridian mannerisms that they've never considered strange before but coming from a creature so soft and strange, it just doesn't feel right. grace who stomps his foot twice when he asks a question, and it rings out flat and dull instead of the strong, sharp sound of an eridian hand on the ground. grace whose voice is so alien, so one-note, so full of articulations that are sharp and round and everywhere in between, but who echoes the melodies of eridian poetry and music, sometimes on accident but sometimes perfectly in time with what rocky translates him as saying, and later, perfectly in time with his keyboard.

rocky and grace who mirror each other more similarly than they mirror their own cultures. who speak to each other in a strange pidgin eridian that nobody else quite understands fluently. who share jokes from movie and tv shows from earth filtered through eridian folktales, plays, and musicals until they only make sense to the two people who know both cultures. they're not strange to each other, but it puts other eridians on edge. even adrian, at first. they've changed each other, you see.

[phmthoughts]

good tags from @raythefairy

[autumngracy]

Saw this twitter post and instantly started looking for pictures of Stratt to use it with

[lostsometime]

I am SCREAMING abt Murderbot’s Bad First Impression on Amena in Network Effect.

murderbot: I have identified that my friend’s teenage daughter is dating a Creep, based on these provable facts:

Lied to her about his age, telling her he’s close to her age when he’s actually much older (which I know because I ran a background check on him)

encourages her to lie to her family about where she is when she’s with him

isolates her from friends

convinces her to become intoxicated (when he himself is not, btw, which I know because I can do scans on things like that)

stares at her breasts

me: okay, some of that monitoring is probably over the top but you are absolutely correct that this is a Creep, your caution is appropriate.

Murderbot: anyway she doesn’t like me…

me: Oh, because you told her mom about the creep thing?

Murderbot: …because instead of telling her mom about the creep, I snuck inTO HIS HOUSE AND HID THERE (?!???!?)

IN THE DARK

WAITING

TO INTIMIDATE HIM WHEN HE TRIED TO BRING HER BACK THERE ALONE

and then when she was like WTF you were just standing in his house??? For hours??? Waiting???

I told her that yes, I was, and nobody came by in all that time, which means that when he told her he was taking her to hang out with “some friends” he was LYING and trying to get her ALONE

[idontwanttobeapetrobot]

okay so the reasoning it gives in its internal monologue for not telling mensah about this incident is that "If there was one thing I understood, it was the difference between proprietary and non-proprietary data " and then says no more about it. that sounds like corporate speak and it is, but what's IMPLIED there is that mb is very conscious of the desire for personal privacy. the thing is, being mensah's kid and a minor, makes mensah (and farai and tano) her legal guardian. you know who else mensah is legal guardian of in the preservation system? murderbot. and yeah almost certainly these don't mean the exact same thing legally, not least of which because there seems to be no expiry date for bots when they are allowed to be guardian-less, but I still think the comparison is apt. murderbot notices amena's distaste for authority figures and a desire to be independent and prove herself. telling mensah about the incident would not only be tattling, but it would undermine her independence and right to privacy. it's the exact kind of thing murderbot would be furious about if it happened to it. it would also reinforce the idea that "you are not a person, you are owned, and your transgressions must be reported to your owner" that haunts mb's narrative. I think if amena had similar repeated scenarios where she kept being in danger from the people she chooses to spend time with, and if murderbot couldn't be certain that it could always be there to stop it before anything happened, then I do think it would report it to mensah. but murderbot doesn't think amena's stupid, and now she has a better idea of what red flags to look for. so it stops the encounter, makes sure that even if amena doesn't listen to it, then the creep in question will be too scared to contact her again, and it informs her how she's been lied to.

honestly it is really funny, but also I kinda really respect the way it chose to protect amena's privacy??

[ghostlyarchaeologist]

"Okay, people, hacking into the imaging computer is simple enough, but I’ve run some simulations, and I don't think I can ghost an image that will pass a doctor's inspection."

Leverage S01E04 The Snow Job.

[pankendev]

i should be nicer to anons calling me an egg maybe it's their first time seeing someone even slightly gnc

[pankendev]

i have to ask actually. what happens when you go in someone's inbox and go "omg you should try being a girl i bet you're actually a closeted girl" and it's a trans man. does that ever happen. what then

[pankendev]

auaahhauhghhh awful awful awful

[can-i-make-image-descriptions]

[Image ID: Anonymous Tumblr ask reading: I'm a trans guy who dresses goth and slutty and i get "omg estrogen would save her" like at least once a week. And when I complain about it people tell me I'm being transmisogynistic for not wanting people to misgender me and tell me to detransition. so yeah I don't talk about it but it fucking sucks /End ID]

[pineappical]

thinking about statues of Grace being built all around Erid years after his passing so he can continue to watch over Eridians as they sleep

[theinsaneum]

Pusteblume

https://www.patreon.com/TheInsaneum

[mahawavy]

[dykearchived]

Chloe Atkins’ portraits of lesbians at San Francisco’s Club Q featured in her published collection Girls Night Out (1998)

[queer-joy-detector]

Queer joy detected!