kitcat’s chilling place

its kitcat! (ृʾ́꒳ʿ̀ ृ )ु Current interests: sfth, hazbin, succession

[kitcats-kards]

i need to do my homework. i just need to do my homework. why cant i do my homework. DO YOUR HOMEWORK KITCAT DO IT NOW DO IT DO IT

[kitcats-kards]

i hate writing because then i have to use my brain.

i love writing because then i get to use my brain.

[kitcats-kards]

sometimes i just look at myself in the mirror, but its like im putting on three different glasses on at once because then im ugly and kinda distorted and i want to look away but i really cant can someone take these glasses away from me pleaes

[kitcats-kards]

college admissions are weird. because its like, for the better part of my existence, i have been assigned since birth, determined by circumstances outside of my control, to be the one to "go to an ivy league".

and so ive been like taking these advanced classes in elementary and taking ap tests in high school and im going to these precollege summer programs, but it's clear--I'm no exceptional genius.

im not a super passionate high iq or eq once in a century student, and the thought of that terrifies me, to be frank.

because like if im bad at the one thing in life i've been raised to do, then who am i?

who am i beyond the grades and the numbers? im no master of the words poet or child prodigy artist.

but now that like ive proven to just be unable to meet expectations, and its become patently obvious to everyone, that pressure to be incredible is just suddenly gone.

and i have nothing left. and now i have to confront my own normalcy

[kitcats-kards]

“Care for a sip?”

[tenderhungering]

TW: discussion of sexual abuse for roman roy

It is implied throughout the series that Roman was someone who suffered from a form of sexual abuse whenever he was younger, though this comes mostly from smaller comments he makes throughout and his reaction to physical intimacy. For one, wetting the bed at the age that Roman has mentioned is a sign of sexual abuse having occurred, more specifically his mention of starting to wet the bed, suggesting that he hadn't before. Another example is when he goes into the bathroom with a potential business partner, he states to him, "So, I can't piss near other men due to...we don't know what reason", as though positions in which he is vulnerable in front of others comes as a discomfort to him. At the root of it all however, that is what makes him be such a foul mouthed man. He is unable to ever let himself be vulnerable, never able to let his guard down as if doing so is exposing his soft flesh for an apex predator to sink his teeth into, as if the mere thought of it would be asking to be hunted down.

He flirts with his trainer that has to physically move him and force him to be vulnerable — and Gerri, an older women who has been present to him all his life but he seeks out sexually, is in a position of power over him. If the action is wrong enough, Roman can distance himself from the action of sex so much that it no longer has to feel like sex. His girlfriend often tried to initiate intimacy with him and he would reject her, noticeably uncomfortable with the prospect of ever having sex. At one point, he says that they can have sex but only if she pretends to be dead. I know a lot of people were uncomfortable with this thinking that this was just Roman being strange (because he's such a little gremlin throughout the series and does/says things just to get a reaction out of people!) but this was a huge indicator of how his logic revolving around sex seemed. He backs away from her once she begins to start talking or tries to turn on the lights, murmuring something about how "Dead people don't get wet." Dead people don't provide a reaction, they don't touch him back or make sex feel like...well, sex.

Men are often portrayed as sexual subjects, they are an active role in sex. Some people go as far as to claiming that men need sex, which has only made it so that any man who does not meet this standard of wanting to have sex are somehow "broken", there is something "wrong" with them that is making them unable to perform what they have been born to do. Roman, unable to be someone who ever wants to engage in sexual activities, is seen as being inadequate. There is something missing in Roman that ever other man (in his father's eyes) has. It's also no surprise that so much of the business conversation that is had in Succession is reminiscent of sex. "Did you bend for him?" "We're fucking you." "I'm not going to let you rape my company." "I'll even throw in a blowjob in there." etc. Roman cannot perform well in business, he cannot perform in the bedroom. Power and sex are intertwined with one another and Roman has never had either.

[romanslut]

i find it so interesting when people only like tomgreg because it's "cute", because even if it can be, the reason i like it is because it's so terrible. it couldn't be more toxic or convoluted and it's fascinating.

a self absorbed business man clinging to an assistant because he's the only man below him in rank he can push around, can feel some sort of power over. a man he clings to even harder when his marriage starts to fall apart. a man he becomes so obsessed with it almost feels sexual. a man who doesn't realize he's destroying tom when the words "business open relationship" leaves his lips because it seems like he just can't catch a fucking break, and no matter how hard he clings no one ever wants to stay.

greg admits he has a crush and tom's knee-jerk reaction is to claim she's out of greg's league, not because it's true, but because he needs to make greg feel like it's impossible. don't leave me, don't look at anyone else, pay attention to me. roping greg into illegal business practices because he's an easy target to push that onto, but then using it as a link between them. i won't let you leave, we're in this together, we're both fucking awful.

"Tom is staring at Greg. Pride, envy, love, hate, everything."

they are literally everything, including all of the worst things!!!

[kencoded-kengirl]

the thing about logan and his abuse and the cages he built around the things he loved and the dogs he kicked is that it wasn’t just about his children, not by a long shot. of course kendall and roman and siobhan are doomed, but that makes sense, it’s obvious, the poison was in their blood from the second they were born. what about frank and karl, who can’t answer ‘how bad was dad’ honestly, even when logan is literally entombed within their line of sight? what about gerri, who ‘could have gotten you there,’ who has to be chased away not just by logan but by his son, and even then couldn’t stay gone? what about tom, who kept fighting his wife, her brothers, who kept scrabbling tooth and nail, who shook matsson’s hand with a smile because he did what none of them could do, who won? what about stewy, who was ‘team ken, baby’ with nothing in it at all for him, with nothing to lose from walking? what about greg, a penciled addendum with a question mark that maybe ties him to kendall, that maybe means he always should have been second-in-command? what about karolina and hugo, always belittled, always insulted, and always ripping tearing backstabbing desperately trying to be more important to the roys than the other? what about rava, always reaching back for kendall, always going to weddings and thanksgivings and waiting for her ex-husband by the phone?

forget about the siblings. forget them. all of the cages are open. why are all of you still in there?

[bbutterguns]

that stitches scene. his birthright. Kendall has always been unable to stomach violence against Roman. he flipped out at Logan in s2 even while he was in robot mode. he wouldn’t hit Roman at the party; even when they’re fighting feral for Roman’s phone in boar on the floor he doesn’t hit him. he yells at Logan for it in their last ever conversation (“everyone hit me”). but now he’s Logan and he hugs Roman until his stitches pop. and when Roman baits him (in an unfathomably cruel way to be clear) he hits him. Kendall wasn’t going to be protector anymore. he was going to be dad, and dad dismisses Shiv, forgets Connor (“i’m the eldest boy!”), and wrings beaten dog loyalty out of Roman. fuck.

[its-fucking-tangerine]

kenstewy the type of couple that no one ever knows is together or broken up. schrodinger’s relationship status really they could be yelling “fuck you, dude” at each other and it’s just their to do list for the day. they could be crying saying I love you and rather than a heartfelt moment theyre in the midst of the worst argument ever. who the fuck knows

[toocabaret]

I’ve been having some Thoughts™️ about the weird meta paradox of gerri kellman’s sexuality. as basically The Older Woman on the executive floor she’s trying as much as is possible to blend in with her male colleagues while also not being perceived to be doing so. muted colours and understated makeup. a competent filing cabinet. her husband is dead and her daughters are nameless. she was sexual once but that’s out of sight out of mind and now it’s just the work. it must be a relief in some ways to become finally unfuckable because you’re over 40. she can finally be taken seriously, but only if she toes the line between being too female and not female enough. trying but not too hard. desirable in the past tense only. an honorary man but still in a skirt. and while the men around her can fuck their much younger assistants and get sports massages and run a sex trafficking ring on a cruise ship, she is the job and only the job and that keeps her safe. for a bit anyway.

the irony of gerri saving the company from the full legal extent of a sex scandal by dating someone from the DOJ??? like i’ll never be over it. even filing cabinets have to flatter and please and fuck when called upon. i genuinely don’t believe any of the other execs could have swung it because they’re not women. she dated laurie (generally unseen unless framed from another man’s possessive perspective) to save the men from going to jail for covering up rape allegations. the irony is delicious. and even though she did that, she’s discarded once she’s framed sexually. Dick Pic Gate was out of her control and yet when confronted with any element of gerri’s sexuality (even her PASSIVE sexuality, even after using it to save his company), logan dismisses her as weak or impractical or failing or whatever other excuse he uses to justify his disgust.

i would argue that roman’s interest in gerri is not in spite of but BECAUSE of her asexual framing. it’s a challenge that he’s never going to win which is ideal for his impotency issues; he can push and push and get the thrill out of it, out of the fucked up power dynamic, but he knows he’ll never have to actually fuck her. it’s all hypothetical: down a phone, through a door, half-joking, covered in sensible skirt suits. gerri’s deliberate lack of sexualizing is counterintuitively a turn-on for roman. and i bet the game of chicken they play is freeing for her too because the fact that she has to be professional and cannot be sensual is part of the fun of it. “roman is weird about gerri”. “it’s fucking disgusting”. not because of their family history, or their professional positions, but because she’s old. because the absence of her sexuality is enough of a presence to be off-putting. shiv patronising her about it as a power play is so weird because she’s talking to her simultaneously like a child and like an old woman, and gerri, agency-less, just has to keep reassuring her “i can cope”.

BUT it’s worse than that because it’s so meta. Because gerri is hot. her actor is attractive and like roman, many people watching find her sexless, no-nonsense framing to be titillating. me included. what if roman likes gerri not because of oedipal issues but just because she’s hot and god forbid we find a woman over 50 hot? but whether or not gerri is hot in the context of the show shouldn’t be a big deal, she should have been able to escape this by now!!! she’s in her 60s she’s a widow she’s tired stop sexualizing her!!! but don’t NOT sexualize her either because that’s problematic too and old women can be hot and old women shouldn’t have to be hot and suddenly i’m making gerri do what waystar does and exist as something sexual and non-sexual at the same time. she has a huge plotline in which she’s essentially a sex object. whether or not gerri is fuckable is talked about as much in the show with mildly-disgusted fascination as it is in the real world!!! she can’t win she’s hot she’s old she’s sexually framed she’s deliberately trying not to be she wants sex she doesn’t want sex she’s covering sex with sex and she’s telling roman to leave her alone so she can just do her damn job because she knows that this is what will bring her down!!! sex scandals historically don’t get men fired but an unsolicited dick pic knocks gerri off her podium in logan’s head forever. even now i’m talking about it at such length because i’ve given it so much thought!!! she’s the only woman in the old guard and she’s one of the most sexualized characters in succession. but only as a joke. in the abstract. never actually. because that would be weird. right?

[molotovgrifter]

succession as onion headlines

[weakling-grace]

Presidential labubu

[livelaughlothcat]

Succession pilot is crazy cause everyone is just so (relatively) functional. Logan and Marcia’s relationship is stable and they seem genuinely in love. Kendall is clean, sober and at least trying to be present in his children’s lives. Roman is out of Waystar, in a long-term relationship and basically a step-dad. Shiv is also out of Waystar and has a real job that she’s competent at. Connor is in his lane and is not experiencing as extreme delusions of grandeur. Like, damn, those two years really broke everything

[ftro]

siblings cute

[theladydi]

succession nation we are so back!!!!

[sporsq]

greg is the funniest guy ever bcs this mf went from puking from inside a fursuit to getting net paid 16k/month just bcs tom thinks he has pretty eyes