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𝔚𝔢𝔩𝔠𝔬𝔪𝔢!

Hi everyone! It's been a while!

tags: #Koi's babbling, #Koi's art and stuff, #Koi's rants,

#Koi's Reblogs,

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Welcome to my blog! I go by Koi here. I'm 21 years old and mentally ill.

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My main DNI request is that I don’t want bigoted creeps and proshitters on my page cuz some of y’all really do excuse real child molestation without even realising it.

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I love all kinds of music, so feel free to drop me an artist you like! I also love animated shows, I read from time to time and I also occasionally paint and draw ((I'm mustering up the courage to post my own stuff)). I also enjoy cooking and baking!

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There might be more to add to this intro but I can't think of much right now. I'll maybe add fandoms I lurk in at some point. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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#New Introduction <3 #intro post #guess who's back :p

the-muppet-joker

Tump dies tonight while giving his speech in the hot hot sun. Like to charge, reblog to cast

calciferous-kelpie

Hello, and thank you for looking at this GoFundMe! My name is Simon, and I’m makin… Simon Grindland needs your support for Help Dorka Escape

MY BEST FRIEND NEEDS OUR HELP!

Many of you might know Dorka. She is a beloved member of our fandom communities, and her art has inspired many people. She has been especially influential in the OK KO fandom, and she used to host Voxman Week every year before I stepped in to help out.

All this time that my friend has been sharing her art with the world, she has been quietly suffering through some of the worst conditions I have ever seen. She is grossly mistreated by her family members, and her apartment is a cramped nightmare of junk and grime she cannot escape.

I'm calling on all of you now - please rally with me around Dorka so that she may finally begin to live an acceptable, peaceful life like she deserves! 🙏

$0 / $15,000

calciferous-kelpie

A big loving thank you to everyone who has donated and shared so far! 🥺 We still have a long way to go, but it's beautiful to be reminded that human kindness still exists in this world!

Please, let's keep the momentum going! Even just reblogging makes a huge difference! You never know who might end up seeing this because of YOUR reblog chain! 💕💕💕

$315 / $15,000

For anyone who would prefer other methods of donating, I have Paypal, Venmo, and Cashapp set up to receive for this fundraiser! Everything donated will be directly used to help my friend!

Paypal: paypal.me/SGrindland Venmo: venmo.com/u/simon-grindland CashApp: cash.app/$SimonGrindland

calciferous-kelpie

Dorka and I met through the OK KO fandom 4 years ago, and since then, she has gradually become one of the most important people in my life. She is such a sweet and creative person - a surprising treasure in this messy world. And I'm terrified that her situation will actually kill her if she isn't helped soon.

She deserves to smile. She deserves to be healthy. She deserves to finally feel like she can breathe (metaphorically and LITERALLY).

I know we're all going through a lot these days but that is all the more reason for us to look out for one another.

Your small act of kindness can save her life! 🙏

$584 / $15,000

calciferous-kelpie

My best friend is still in desperate need of help, and progress on the fundraiser has slowed down immensely within the past month! 😣

PLEASE help Dorka escape her abusive living situation! Every reblog and every donation make a difference in the fight for her safety! Please give her a chance at a real life!

$835 / $15,000

calciferous-kelpie

DECEMBER UPDATE!

After two months of hard work, we have reached the $1,000 mark! While this is a great milestone, the battle is far from over. Dorka CANNOT escape on this much alone!

Dorka's humanity is not only being violated by her family on a daily basis, but by her country as well—which has failed so many of its citizens, especially the impoverished ones. She now needs OUR HELP to receive the humane treatment she rightfully deserves!

Please. 🙏 I don't normally beg like this, but because Dorka has touched my life in so many meaningful ways over the years, I just can't sit idly by while she continues to suffer every day. PLEASE help me help her! 🥹💗

$1,059 / $15,000

dorkafricska

HI EVERYONE, PLEASE READ!! This fundraiser is for me. Christmas is in a day and I would like to ask for your help! I'm doing my very best to make a lot of drawings and post them for fandoms (currently Black Butler, but I'm in a lot of fandoms), but it's extremely hard to even function in the situation I'm in. Christmas doesn't mean much to my family, so the bad feelings stay, and every day it takes an immense effort to push myself to make art and post them because I can't afford to eat well, or to get away from the constant family arguments and dirty environment. If you ever enjoyed any of my artworks, please share this with a few words and I'm extremely happy for every donations. My situation is even more serious than the document shows and it would mean the world for me if it was visible for more people. fundraiser

calciferous-kelpie

$3,685 / $15,000

‼️Progress has really stalled, so this is an important reminder to everyone that my friend Dorka DESPERATELY needs help! 😟 She has been fighting with all she has to get out of her situation—pushing herself to the point of breaking over and over—but she cannot do this alone. She NEEDS outside support to get over these major hurdles.‼️

calciferous-kelpie

$3,690 / $15,000

Someone, anyone, please help my friend. She is full-on suicidal at this point. I'm shattered. I don't know what else to do. 💔

#reblog #please at least share if you cannot donate at this moment #emergency #koi's reblogs #Fundraiser

cosy-cosmic

I think it’s more important now than ever to start learning how to regulate and manage your emotions, especially if you are organising protests and other events. They want us scared and scattered, so it’s important to also take care of yourself so you can fight for your rights.

When we are frightened, the part of our brain responsible for planning and reasoning shuts down to make way for fight or flight. I honestly think this isn’t stressed enough and we need to start having more conversations about this so we can find ways to keep fighting for a brighter future without burning out.

Remember that it isn’t selfish to take time to rest. A good recharge means you’ll have a clearer head and more energy to organise.

koi-kosmic

This is my mental health blog btw. I've made a separate blog so I can also add some info for things I've learned from years of therapy

#koi's reblogs

When u got horrible emetophobia but also any strong emotion u have makes u throw up

#koi’s babbling #tw emetophobia #too happy? I throw up #too sad? also throw up #too angry? also throw up #too flustered? you guessed it #it’s grown up stuff

koi-kosmic

“If you can’t handle me at my hairiest, then you don’t deserve me at my smoothest.” - Koi 2026

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To add to the hashtags, my fam are that desperate for me to get married and have kids that they frequently accuse me of having a secret boyfriend. I’m literally an adult, why the fuck would I be sneaking around with a partner?

“If you can’t handle me at my hairiest, then you don’t deserve me at my smoothest.” - Koi 2026

#koi’s babbling #‘koi stop letting yourself go hairy like that! it’s scaring away the future imaginary husband that might want kids one day’#my fam are desperate for me to have a kid but 1. I do not have a partner and refuse to raise a child by myself #and 2. I don’t even want children and there’s a possibility I may never be able to have them anyway #obvs adopting is an option but my fam have made it clear they dont want me to adopt #so like #where the fuck am I getting the partner from?#do I just pull one out of my ass?

Holy hay fever batman

#koi’s babbling #i can’t stop sneezing #help #my eyes are burning #i cant breathe through my nose anymore #WHERE ARE THE FUCKING ANTIHISTAMINES WHEN U NEED EM

Had an encounter with a cunt today. I was looking at CDs and I was trying to reach for one cuz the store I went to put them on a high rack and this guy was next to me and he also wanted the same CD. Instead of waiting like a normal person or just asking if he could grab it, HE PICKED ME UP AND FUCKING MOVED ME OUT OF THE WAY.

Bro is lucky I was too stunned otherwise I would’ve fucking decked him or at least died trying.

#Koi’s rants #this happens a lot more often than you think #for some reason people nowadays think they have the audacity to either push me out of the way or move me like a sack of potatoes #I’m honestly getting sick of it

xxgrassdemonxx

Happy pride to the least canon lesbians I know.

You’re real to me and that’s what counts

#koi’s reblogs #ok ko foxtail #foxtail x sunshine #ok ko professor sunshine #ok ko let’s be heroes

Y’all I just tried to come out and it did NOT go well. I’m safe but I feel like moving out ASAP would benefit me greatly but I don’t really have a lot of money

#koi’s babbling

I love my new doctor cuz not only am I finally being taken seriously for chronic pain and other stuff but I also had a really bad panic attack last visit so they gave me a lollipop to make me feel better once they managed to calm me down. WHY CANT ALL DOCTORS BE LIKE THIS????

#koi’s babbling #so much medical trauma could’ve been prevented if all doctors were like this from the start #i don’t even fucking care that i’m in my 20s and im given candy by my doctor #i never got that experience as a kid #anywho #it’s grown-up stuff

bovid-beauty

The rule could have heavy impacts towards trans people across society.

Last week, the Trump administration quietly released a sweeping new federal rule that would use funding threats to force institutions across the country to reject transgender people. The 400-page proposed regulation would codify the administration's anti-trans executive orders into binding federal policy, imposing a blanket prohibition on federal funds going toward "gender ideology"

The proposed rule, formally titled "Regulation for Federal Financial Assistance," rewrites the government-wide framework governing all federal grants across every agency. Among its most consequential provisions, it requires that before a federal grant recipient can receive money, the award must pass a "pre-issuance review" conducted by a political appointee—not a career expert or peer reviewer—to ensure it is "consistent with applicable law, Federal agency priorities, and the national interest." The regulation explicitly instructs these appointees to screen for "denial by the recipient of the sex binary in humans or the notion that sex is a chosen or mutable characteristic." [...] An institution that acknowledges transgender people exist—through its policies, its training, its healthcare, its bathroom access, its HR procedures, its name-change processes—could be deemed to "deny the sex binary" or to “support the notion that sex is mutable” and have its federal funding blocked.

Importantly, the gender ideology prohibition has no age limitation—hospitals could be targeted not just for providing care to minors but for providing gender-affirming care to adults, because prescribing hormone therapy to a transgender patient of any age could be deemed promoting the belief that "sex is a chosen or mutable characteristic."

junequeer

THIS IS OPEN TO COMMENT UNTIL JULY 13, 2026

featherandstorm

This is all very bad and horrible, but I want to be clear that it’s worse and more sweeping than just eliminating trans research.

This torches everything. And I do mean everything.

A very abbreviated list of its ramifications include (but are not limited to):

ending funding for ALL DEI related initiatives

allowing the government to terminate grants at any point for any reason

preventing researchers from publishing, going to conferences, and being part of academic societies

requiring that topics must support the president’s agenda.

What this means, and if anything I’m under selling it, is the death of science and research in America. It allows the government to restrict any topic they please at a whims notice, putting officials who have no background in the topic in charge of deciding funding continuity. It controls what gets researched and if/how researchers are allowed to share their discoveries. There are no books to burn if the government never allows them to be written. This is fascism plain and simple.

Please, if you only ever write one public comment, this is the one to do.

genderkoolaid

Bringing back this guide to writing an effective public comment. This gives you the basics you need to know, what you need to include, a basic outline you can follow, etc.

Public comments are not a vote, it is a chance for you to say "here is an issue with this law I think you need to address" and provide justification for legal challenges if it goes forward:

"Comments raise the bar that agencies have to meet when making a rule; “if an agency fails to adequately respond to significant, relevant comments in a final rule, members of the public may seek to challenge the rule in court on that basis and claim it could be struck down.ˮ"

But also, if possible, don't stop at writing a comment. Don't stop at calling your representatives. You should ideally be talking to people in your community about this and organizing resistance on-the-ground; there is a good chance people are already doing that even if you aren't hearing about it.

#what the fuck #us politics #this sounds familiar #koi’s reblogs

Bit of a vent but here we go. I lost my therapist to ChatGPT and I feel awful.

Around the end of last year, I started therapy again after years of having terrible experiences and it started off really well. My therapist would notify me what time our appointments were the day before just to remind me and she would offer to make me a warm drink before we started. She was really good honestly.

We made quite a lot of progress and for a moment, I genuinely felt like I could trust her with my life. She was the best therapist I ever had. The work she gave me after the sessions helped a lot, until it didn’t.

I think I was like 2 or 3 months in when I noticed that there was a change in the sessions and the worksheets. It was subtle at first, some would just go through basic breathwork while others would talk about “talking to your therapist”. I brought it up and she sorta just waved me off at first. “Sometimes we gotta go back to the basics”.

Well, the worksheets and sessions were starting to become more pseudosciency. Like it was similar to what scientologists believe and I called it out at one point in a session. I was like “why the fuck are my worksheets going on about this shit?” And she was like “oh my bad, I probably should’ve checked it before printing it out. I’ve been using chatGPT, you see?”.

What.

FUCKING WHAT.

I probably should’ve called it quits with her the moment she told me, but I thought that maybe we’ve just done a lot of work and maybe she just ran out of ideas and wanted to give it a try. Yea that was a big fucking mistake because every session after that was LITERALLY JUST HER WORSHIPPING THE FUCKING THING

“ChatGPT is so great! You should try it! Maybe it could help you with other unresolved stuff!” GURL THATS UR JOB! I’m not fucking kidding when I say EVERY SESSION was like that afterwards.

The last session I had, I told her what I thought about the situation. “You are a LICENSED THERAPIST. Why do you need a bot to tell you how to do your job?” She exploded.

She told me that I had no idea how hard it was for her to do her job everyday. I was apparently selfish and narrow-minded for even suggesting that she didn’t need “a little help from an outside source”. She told me one last time that the stupid fucking bot would help me unpack what I just said before I walked out.

I never went back and she never let me know when my next appointment was.

#koi’s rants #fuck ai #fuck chat gpt #anti ai