A Freak Who Never Shuts His Mouth @gayserblast - Tumblr Blog

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[Updated 8/9/25]

I'm 28, tumblr won't let me update my about without completely reformatting it.

I moved here from turnabouttroubadour. Other old URLS include obiwhinekenobi, willgrahamofficial, and awkwardkarkat. If I seem familiar you're welcome to drop me a DM and ask if I had a certain URL.

I was once active in fandoms for The Hobbit, Hannibal, Homestuck, Raúl Esparza, and Star Wars. You won't find much of those here anymore, so only follow if interested in content outside of that.

I'm a past-life fictionkin.

It's perfectly okay for you to not share my beliefs regarding fictionkin and past lives. But kinning is a spiritual and deeply important experience for me. I won't ask you to believe me, but I ask that you respect that I believe what I say is true and genuine.

>> I may have been reccomended to you for a Hannibal post. I am no longer a Hannibal blog. Fannibals are discouraged from following.

I will block you if you are:

- A proshipper or a shota/lolicon

- Extends to 1nc3st/p3do shippers

- Posting/Creating NSFW of minors

- MAP or pro MAP

- anti-ace

- TERF, SWERF

- Posting guro/excessive gore/real crime scenes/real killer fanposting

Otherwise, it's a public blog, can't stop you from scrolling. Just know if you match the criteria and like/reblog/reply to a post of mine, you'll likely get blocked. Okay peace out ✌️

#personal #whine.txt #the will to live #this is not the post you're looking for #before you follow #byf #anyway yah

depsidase

inkskinned

y'okay can we stop pretending yet. like can we all acknowledge that eating disorders are chic again, and it's going to kill someone.

and like. do we have to keep gently phrasing things to protect naturally-thin people's feelings. in my life it has never been fashionable to be fat. "fat" is still a bad word. there has never been institutional power pushing people to gain weight; no trillion-dollar industry to "fix" skinny people. a larger body type has never been over-represented in models, influencers, celebrities. sure, people might say "i'm worried for your health," but they do it with respect and gentleness, like they're talking to a scared deer.

every single fucking time i talk about this, i have to be so careful with what i say, in case i offend even one skinny person. it is just true that skinny people have social capital across many cultures. there is a reason you almost never hear someone say "i wish i was fat," but you will constantly see people say "I wish i was thin." and yet inevitably some skinny person will tell me: i thought you wanted body positivity. it is the same fucking attitude as when a cis man says "when you say men have power, well, i've been bullied for being a man. i thought you believe in mental health awareness. don't you know men have a higher suicide rate?"

two things can be true at once: your experience being bullied for being thin was terrible. and people with larger bodies probably have it worse.

i have been big and small. i know many other people who have been big and small. trust what i'm about to tell you: being small is much easier. the world is kinder to you. people treat you better. honestly, this pattern occurs pretty much regardless of gender - my guy friends have confided that they'd rather be bullied for being thin than be bullied for being fat. if you're skinny, the pressure might be to gain weight, sure, but it's often to do so in a way that keeps you skinny - to gain muscle, specifically.

thinness is seen as innate and natural, genetic. whereas carrying any fat - that is a moral failing. it is assumed to be related to your character, your personality. i have seen people equate it to discipline, to hygiene. that bias is why we need to talk about this.

of course i want nobody to make a comment about anyone's bodies. and i think that hyper-thinness and an obsession with weight loss and a recession and a rise of conservative values... all of this is very fucking concerning. we are watching a return of "pro-ana" content, reframed as choice feminism, "health-conscious" behavior, "looksmaxxing". it's fucking terrifying.

So turns out some kid shoving me in a pool and making me hit my tailbone as a child may have left me crippled for life. Like. Dislodged it slightly but enough so that when I hit puberty a few years later it wouldn't be super obvious, but it would slowly mess up the way my body grew?

And because I kept growing but the tether never got fixed I started hunching over and eventually got pulled into my own hips, causing me to twist inward and my muscles to develop in the wrong places. And pulled the skin from my back up and forward as my neck strained. Which is probably the cause of the migraines and CSF leaks. The constant dislocations are my body trying to put my hips where they should be while my spine can't keep me upright and pulls me down. And nobody noticed it because for every scan I've been laying down flat in a position that doesn't show the tether

I have a neuro referral I need to schedule for but if I can get surgery to have it fully corrected and endure the physical therapy I might like. Actually get a life back

#the will to live #im probably going to gain several inches too #bc my hips have basically been folded in vertically #and femurs grew to adjust to the dislocation #crossed fingers this is the answer #also it was folding breast tissue into my arms so im coming out of this with unwanted assets

nocturnaltigerrevelation

>have problem

>recognize it as part of my divine punishment

>no problem

#been using a phrase lately.#this will do wonders for my karmic debt #both reducing bad and adding good

avi-mation

Earth’s Scapegoat and her Sacrificial Lamb

#phm #ougohigohuh....

clementine-kesh

call me terminally academia-brained but i do think a lot of the fun of character analysis is figuring out how to build a compelling argument for a particular reading using lines of evidence from canon as well as meta/intertextual support

clementine-kesh

and you could say that what i’m saying here is basically “a lot of the fun of doing character analysis is doing character analysis” but let’s be real a lot of fandom character analysis is pretty heavily vibes-based. and i think that’s where i really chafe up against the traditional thought-terminating fandom attitude of like, everyone’s opinions hold equal weight and any interrogation of that is inherently hostile. because i think it’s fascinating to dig into where others are coming from in terms of their views on characters or dynamics or whatever, especially when they differ significantly from more commonly expressed views, and part of that digging is asking people okay what parts of canon are you drawing from to support your opinion? what parts of canon are you disregarding or downplaying? how does this argument hold up in the light of how race, gender, class, ability, etc. operate both in the piece’s in-fiction and real world contexts?

dailycatsblog

#the mirrorer is happy to bond with you with their fake keyboard #i want one of those cattops (fake laptop that has a scratching pad instead of a screen) for mine

jovishark

some advice for people entering their 20s:

-dont go to the emergency room with dental problems. go to the dentist

-bagged greens are cheaper than pre-made salads

-taco bell is NOT worth the money anymore. 1/4 cup mayo, 1/4 cup sour cream, 3 tblspoons pickled jalapenos+2tblspoons of the jar liquid, 2 tsp paprika 1 tsp cumin 1 tsp garlic powder 1 tsp onion powder salt+pepper. all in your blender. creamy jalapeno sauce

-dont quit your job unless you have a bunch of job interviews lined up immediately after

-use resources. food bank, unemployment, housing assistance, financial aid, etc. yes there will be paperwork. but Do It

-dont stay awake longer than 20 hours. you Will start to become impulsive and cranky. resting for 20 minutes is better than trying to stay awake

-for every 2 hours you spend looking up close at screens, spend 20 minutes looking at something far away from you. stretch your wrists a lot

-dont do that yoga stretch where you roll your head around your shoulders. youre grinding down the joints in your neck

-be nice to your friends, bullying them as a joke gets old. if you need a ride somewhere at least offer them gas money

-brush your teeth at any time of the day but especially before you sleep. dont snack in bed if you can help it. make your bed the Clean Teeth Zone. keep floss picks by your bed

-dont tell your boss youre adhd/autism/depression/suicidal. dont trust your coworkers with that. you NEVER know how people will take it and its none of their business

-train your pets to go to the front door when they hear a fire alarm

-get regular oil changes

depsidase

do-not-u-dare

Stole this from somewhere but i think it’s appropriate

the-big-mood

In 1997, local television in Kharkiv accidentally filmed one of the most iconic rave moments in history.

ruinedchildhood

#tumblr classic

razielim

that's it that's the nutshell genai is in

melodiblues

Scylla - Epic: The Musical

Lord of Heroes

I think this is a good idea and something fun to do, I have some things more defined (The saga of the underworld was born to Kartis) but I wanted an opinion. Should I treat this as a crossover or as game edits?

#loh #kin tag #i say treat as an edit but THIS GOES HARD