Headcanon/Preference # 37
Reading time (roughly) - 12 minutes
So yeah I totally killed the reader off in this one... Wanted this one to be angsty. Enjoy.
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• Obi-wan knew he shouldn't have let you join him on this particular mission.
• He knew something was off about this mission, he had sensed it in the Force.
• But he'd let you join regardless, and now you lay at his feet, bleeding out.
• He quickly dispatched of the enemy, and pulled you into his arms.
• "My love stay with me, you're going to be okay."
• He cradled your head in his free hand, trying desperately to assure you that everything will be okay.
• While also trying to fool himself into thinking you'll be able to pull through.
• As your breathing turned shallow, he kissed your forehead, smiling through the pain.
• He needed to be strong for you.
• And as your eyes fluttered closed, and your chest stilled, Obi-wan felt as if a part of himself had died with you.
• Only then did he allow himself to cry, and Obi-wan Kenobi was never the same.
• Becoming a shell of the man he once was, he eventually leaves the Jedi and roams the galaxy, feeling utterly lost without you by his side.
• Anikin thought he could protect you from anything.
• His one truest love, the one person he would have done anything for.
• This is the most dramatic turn of events for Anikin, the moment when he gave into the dark side.
• Cradling your lifeless body in his arms, Anikin screamed and cried.
• "You can't leave me (Y/n), you can't!"
• And with the aggressive flick of his wrist, he killed those that had taken you from him.
• He was merciless, unforgiving, and beyond angry.
• Anikin felt as if he'd died alongside you, and in many ways he did.
• Alone he laid you to rest.
• His once beautiful blue eyes turned to yellow as he watched you disappear from his life.
• Anikin felt as if your blood was on his hands, as if he failed to protect you.
• He also felt as if he failed you, because if you hadn't loved him as deeply as you did, maybe then you wouldn't have given your life for his.
• The day you died, was the very same day Darth Vader was born.
• Qui-Gon knew he shouldn't have grown attached to you, he knew it wouldn't end well.
• The rules about attachments, about love, were in place for this very reason.
• Quickly he took care of the man that had fatally wounded you, and held you close.
• Try as he might with the help of the force he attempted to heal your wounds, unable to do so he tried his best to be strong for you.
• He pecked your lips, and brushed back your hair.
• "You're going to be alright darling, just breath. That's it, just keep breathing."
• His hands shook as he placed his free hand over your wound, trying weakly to stop the bleeding.
• Again he tried using the Force to at least try to ease your pain, to make this easier for you.
• "Just relax my darling, we'll see eachother again."
• Qui-Gon promised you with a weak smile, his heart breaking at the sight of your own equally weak smile.
• His heart breaking further as he felt your breathing slow down considerably, the light in your eyes fading with every shallow breath.
• If there was anything Qui-Gon was grateful for, it was getting to hold you in his arms one last time.
• Maul was foolish enough to think you were untouchable, that you were both untouchable.
• And his world crashed around him as you collapsed to the ground.
• Maul thought he knew pain, but all that he's been through, all that he's done. It was nothing compared to losing you.
• Maul growled at the man that was daring enough to hurt you.
• Ruthlessly he slashed at the man, cutting him limb from limb, and keeping him alive until he was satisfied.
• His rage blinded him, and only subsidied when he heard you wheezing in pain.
• Without another thought he dropped his saber, and rushed to your side, cradling you against his chest.
• He was unfazed by your blood seeping into his robes, firmly placing his hand against your wound, desperately trying to at least slow the bleeding.
• "I'll find you again my star, nothing can keep me from you, nothing."
• Maul promised as he rest his forehead against your own, the connection between you both through the Force, assuring him that he could keep that promise.
• He also swore to take down anyone and everyone that was involved in your demise, whoever that man worked for was as good as dead, and anyone else Maul deemed guilty.
• Maul will destroy worlds to avenge you if he must.
• He kept his eyes locked with yours as you slowly slipped away, his hearts thundering with heartache.
• "We will be together again."
• Maul promised before you gave your final breath, a rage filled scream escaping him as you died.
• And all who knew of Darth Maul, learned that after your demise, the Sith could be far crueler, far darker than he had been when you were still alive.
• Maul eventually turns to the traditions of the Zabrak, and finds a way to reunite with you through the magick of his people.
• It isn't enough, and it'll never be enough, because it is simply a ghost of you.
• But until his demise it is all he can manage, and he will accept that while he cannot hold you anymore, he can at least still see you and speak with you.
• Feral is heartbroken beyond belief.
• You were the only truly good thing in his life, you were his and he was yours.
• Savage had witnessed the whole thing unfold, and for the sake of his brother, he struck down the man that dared to harm you.
• Feral wasn't sure what to do, so he acted on instinct, and laid beside you, pulling you into his arms.
• You had once said laying in his embrace was your favorite thing, the thing that brought you the most comfort.
• And he knew that's all he could do for you, comfort you as you slowly succumbed to your wounds.
• "Sh sh my sweet, just relax, I'm here, I've got you."
• He brushed your hair back in a soothing way, ignoring how much it hurt him to feel your blood painting his skin.
• He peppered kisses across your paling face, his hearts breaking with every kiss.
• You giggled in a pitiful way, coughing a moment later, blood oozed from your mouth.
• And Feral, delicately, lovingly wiped it away.
• "It's okay my sweet, look at me."
• His lip quivered a little as your glossy eyes peered into his own.
• "I love you, don't you ever forget that."
• He pecked your lips, tears escaping him when your final breath wheezed out from your lungs.
• Savage instantly saw red, his hearts filled with rage, and regret.
• He ripped the man who hurt you limb from limb with his bare hands. The man's blood only cooling his temper a little.
• Dropping the carcass carelessly to the ground, he rushed back to your side, and as gently as he could he picked you up and cradled you against his chest.
• With you in his arms, Savage walked carefully across the tundra of the desolate planet you were on, unable, unwilling to just leave you on this wasteland of a planet.
• "Oh little one, my sweet stupid girl. You should have just let me handle him."
• He meant well, he really did. But he was hurt that you would do something so reckless, so selfless.
• You had once promised him forever.
• You giggled weakly, reaching up to caress his handsome face. And Savage melted into your touch.
• His hearts broke, knowing he couldn't save you, not this time.
• His blazing eyes locked onto your pale face, he wanted to commit your face to memory, despite the fact that he already has every part of you committed to memory.
• "I'll see you again little one, through the magick, the Force, I will see you again."
• He promised as he cradled you close, the chill of your skin finally breaking his resolve.
• Savage cried as he held you close, falling to his knees as you struggled to breathe.
• He grew darker that day, much darker. Swearing to fight to the bitter end, until he could be reunited with you once more.
• The moment you collapsed before his eyes, Kylo felt as if he would die alongside you.
• With a rage filled cry, Kylo cut down the man that hurt you, and threw the rest over a nearby cliff with the Force.
• He fell to his knees beside you, watching helplessly as your blood stained the snow around you.
• "Starlight what have you done?"
• He breathed out as he pulled you into his arms, tears of heartache and rage streaming down his face, his helmet long since abandoned.
• "I couldn't- couldn't let you get hurt."
• You had wheezed out, desperately clutching the deep gash at your side. Kylo's hand rest over yours, desperately hoping to stop the bleeding.
• "I can't live without you."
• Kylo whispered in a broken voice, burying his face into the crook of your neck.
• He squeezed you tighter, as you grew colder and colder in his arms.
• "Don't leave me, please, I can't go on without you."
• Kylo shook in his sorrow and rage, as your breathing became shallow.
• Despite the fact that you were literally dying, you still tried to comfort him, brushing his hair back weakly, your blood staining his pale skin.
• This only served to break his heart further, how can he possibly go on without you?
• Kylo is the most likely to rage an all out war, in hopes of getting himself killed so he could be reunited with you.
• But that's not to say he won't fight to the bitter end.
• It took everything in Armitage to stay standing, to not collapse and cradle you in his arms.
• If he had done so, he knew your sacrifice would have been in vain.
• But the moment the man is killed by his troopers, he's falling to his knees and pulling you into his arms.
• "GET A MEDICAL DROID NOW!"
• He barks at his men, who rush to follow out his order.
• But it's too late, your once bright eyes are dull and lifeless, having died on impact.
• That doesn't stop Armitage from deluding himself into thinking you'll be okay.
• He's crying, and begging you to wake up, but you don't respond to any of his attempts to stir you.
• "Please angel, wake up, come on."
• He's shaking you, kissing you, and eventually in his desperation he's beating on your chest in an attempt to get your heart pumping again.
• By the time a medical droid comes, he refuses to let you go. His troopers eventually have to tear him away from your body.
• He's kicking and screaming, red in the face as he fights them. But it's no good, they are to strong.
• Armitage has to control himself during your funeral, every instinct in him screaming to not let you go, to fight to bring you back.
• He is much harsher after this, starting arguments more and more with Kylo, and taking every ounce of pain when Kylo throws him across the room with the Force, as if he deserves to be punished.
• He's even trying to goad Kylo into killing him, but the man has a little more restraint than the General had thought.
• Armitage is the most likely to give into his dark depressive thoughts, and take his own life.
• His final thoughts are of you and you alone.
• You were his most prized "possession" so to speak, nothing in all of the galaxy meant as much to Grievous as you did.
• "My treasure, no you can't do this, you can't leave me I forbid it!"
• He's killed the man before you even hit the ground, where you lay for mere moments before he's cradling you in his arms.
• He's gentle with you, as he quite literally sprints you to the nearest medical bay.
• He barks at the droids, not trusting them to fix what cannot be undone. Certain that he'll be able to save you.
• He's frantic in his attempts to patch you up, almost unaware of the way you gently touch his arm.
• Grievous froze in an instant when you weakly called out his name, his attention now solely on your face, cupping your hand in two of his.
• "What do you need treasure?"
• He asked in a soft voice, ignoring how his voice shook with emotion.
• You simply smiled at him, as if taking in the sight of him was all you cared about in that moment.
• You tried croaking out, only for your breath to be stolen as you slipped away, dying before his very eyes, trying to declare your love one last time.
• The very ground shook with his scream of despair and heart retching agony.
• From that moment on he took out every ounce of pain and anger at losing you on anyone he deemed a threat.
• Sometimes even on innocent people, who would unknowingly remind him of you.
• He fought dirty and ruthlessly, uncaring if he would get himself killed, or if he would even succeed.
• Grievous also travelled far and wide across the galaxy in an attempt to find some way to bring you back to life.
• He cared not for whatever it might cost, or what he might have to do, who he would have to kill.
• If there is a way he can bring you back, he'll find a way, not matter how long it takes.
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