korzina's magical forest

i love cats and flowers and i think you'll like this blog.

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this is what it’s like trying to piss in peace but u have pets

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clarification

i use tags like pro anx to make my positive posts show up in these tags. i am not pro anything but recovery, aftercare, and prevention. thanks!

- korzina

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i am so happy for you if all you did today was not lapse or relapse. shit’s hard, but you aren’t weak enough for it to be impossible. 

love you.

keep at it, pal.

- korzina

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updates/i’m back!/ramble 1?

hi! haven’t posted for a minute. sorry. i understand that my posts help a lot of you so i’m determined to get back on track soon. here is a blog post-style kind of post because i’ve been wanting to blog for a while. 

cw: very brief mention of grief, no specific details

losing a friend

every time i lose a friend, whether i cut it off or not, it always feels almost identical to grieving a death. it’s the same feeling for me. surely not as strong as experiencing death, but still very strong. even when i know for a fact that the friend wasn’t super good for me. i think this is how it is for everyone else??? i’m not really sure. i haven’t met everyone else. i cut off one of my friends recently, a couple months ago, and even though i needed to, i felt like i was hollowed out. i had started noticing that the way that they and their friends talked to me was anything but sweet about six months prior, so this wasn’t an impulsive decision. i had piles of evidence against this person, yet i still felt like i made the wrong decision or that i was just being a pansy about the way that they were treating me. the only way i can describe that is a heaviness on your back, but not a calming one. one that means you’ve made a huge mistake. in my life, i have kind of taught myself to shut up and take it so that other people don’t get mad or sad, and this experience has shown me to unlearn this. for that, i am pretty thankful i guess. 

anxieties regarding new carpeting

i’m getting my carpet in my room replaced soon, and something about that makes me so nervous??? i really don’t know why, i have nothing to worry about, other than moving stuff around. i guess i’m worried about the hassle it’ll be, shoving all that shit in the guest room and then shoving all that shit back into my room. i don’t know where i’m gonna sleep when the carpet guys are here, either. carpeting doesn’t usually take a super long time, right? ah, i’ll figure it out. 

that’s it! i don’t know how to end these so i’m ending it like this.

i love you! - mf

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momentary alleviation - NOT BY ME

and so i ask,

little metal one,

give me the taste of death that we all have longed for since childhood. 

for, my dear little metal one,

you are hidden. 

you create immaculate chaos for me and only me. 

you are a dream and a nightmare. 

you are a love spell 

and you are a curse.

and you are compliant. 

you do whatever i tell you. 

i tell you to be a curse,

and you deliver. 

you have such a way with actions. 

so, my dearest little metal one,

be a curse for me tonight. 

be a curse for me and only me tonight. 

be such a violent nightmare that i can finally awaken. 

and never lure me into your trap again.

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harlem-style poetry for my english class that i liked

What happens to a night sky unwitnessed?

Does it tuck away underneath the mountains and hills?

Or does it scamper away for the bustling cityscapes?

Or maybe it’s shy.

Like a swift house cat.

Does it play tag with the daylight-

with two broken legs?

Maybe it’s just tired 

like the rest of us

Or is it a silent curse

waiting for its subject?

M.F.

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i am famous. one of my last posts got 200+ notes

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ive been more and more scared of people lately. people are violent creatures. whoever created them must have been on black tar heroin.

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it’s ok if you cried today

it’s ok if you messed up today

it’s ok if you did poorly today

it’s ok if you hurt yourself today

it’s ok if you starved yourself today

it’s ok if you binged today

it’s ok if you purged today

it’s ok if you couldn’t get out of bed today

what’s done is done, and you are going to do amazing tomorrow. i have faith in you. fighting mental illness is terrifying, but it’s so rewarding once you win.

[korsmagicalforest]

even if you did something bad this year,

i’m very happy you stuck around.

love,

mountain-froggy

[retronator]

Norma2D (@norma2d​) has been one of my favorite artists to watch in 2020, so it’s fitting to end the year with a post of her wallpaper pack she released 2 days ago on itch.

It’s been a highly prolific year for Norma2D, further evolving her style of thinly hatched cluster transitions, a stylized dithering aesthetic I closely associate with her works. The atmospheric sci-fi setting further brings her works together, making this wallpaper pack a must-have.

[korsmagicalforest]

hey you!

you’re invited to a really important party im throwing soon. it’s called “tomorrow.”

i best see you then, my guy

love,

mountain-froggy

[sunsbleeding]

The dark days don’t last forever // https://www.instagram.com/sunlightafterdark/?hl=en

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maybe earth isn’t that bad

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Titkle

ifif spe\\\

gehllop: crazy weather we're having

yobler: football

gehllop: yes, i agree.

yobler: so thats where we'll go

gehllop: you all have guns

yobler: and you never put the safety on

gehllop: i'm trying

yobler: i'm trying to sleep

gehllop: da da da da dum

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when to call an ambulance for self-harm.

DISCLAIMER: this is not a pro self-harm blog. i believe that prevention is as important as aftercare. i am also not a doctor. if you are self-harming, please seek help from a real mental health professional and take everything i say with a grain of salt.

1. if you can see fat, bone, or muscle. this means that the wound is far too deep and extremely dangerous.

2. if the wound is pulsating blood, it probably means that you have punctured an artery. this could become fatal very quickly.

3. if the burn is severe (2nd or 3rd degree)

4. sudden blindness or vision change

5. if bleeding will not stop after direct pressure.

6. if you’re not sure that you should call an ambulance or not.

love,

mountain-froggy

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things to do after a self-harm slip-up.

DISCLAIMER: this is not a pro self-harm blog, and i am not a doctor. if you are self-harming, please seek help from a real mental health professional.

1. clean wounds with water and toilet paper/rags ONLY. do NOT use soap, alcohol, or anything other than water. call emergency services if needed.

2. when the bleeding stops, bandage the wound if needed.

3. know that it’s okay that it happened. the damage is done and you have prevented even more damage from being done.

4. take some time to care for yourself. i liked to put effort into making my skin look healthy so that i would want to hurt myself less.

love,

mountain-froggy