Do we hit the heavens? [Katsuki x Reader: Songfic!]
A/n: this was requested by @mik-kie and this is a good one!!(also ur my very first fanfic related ask so I was very happy when I saw that! Congrats and thank you!) However this is my first songfic and I wasn’t fully aware of what they were so I just gonna take a shot okay plz be gentle lol
Song: Pretty little birds by SZA (this piece will be more enjoyable if you listen to it while reading I swear!!)
-I came up with this: the song seems to be describing a love that was innocent and pure in the beginning but then began to turn a bit sour. After falling apart, the lovers seem to crave each other more and more and kind of become different people after losing each other.
Also, i wrote this over a period of like 2 months (sorry) so the first part had lyrics but the second part doesn’t just because i didn’t feel like doing the lyric thing anymore.
SO! Without further ado, enjoy this ! (Sorry for the long authors note btw)
“pretty little bird, pretty little bird,
you’ve hit the window a few times.”
When you first started high school, you were a shy mess, which caused you to quickly become best friends with Izuku Midoriya, Uraraka, and Tenya Lida. You clicked with Deku the most due to you both being fans of the same pro hero’s and even having a series of similar hero analysis notebooks just like him.
You managed to make it into the hero course at UA with your quirk of telekinesis, which kinda made you a bit overpowered when you thought about it.
Meeting and mingling with your classmates was surprisingly easy. Everyone was so welcoming and sweet.
When you first tried speaking with him, he obviously didn't seem to like you very much. He blew up in your face a lot or simply told you to leave him alone or ”fuck off”. But every day when you came to class, you observed him- not in a creepy stalker way- but just out of interest. There had to be a reason for his cold attitude. What drives him to go this hard? We're all here for the same reason. What were his morals? Was he damaged in some kind of way? Past trauma? Behind all that toughness and raging fire, there had to be some kind of soft, sweet pit right?
As time went on, you pushed yourself onto Bakugo every day. Always attempting to start a conversation, offering to walk home or partner up for projects. Granted, none of that happened in the beginning, but this time he couldn't escape you. Aizawa had paired everyone up together with a partner to complete a research project on what makes a good hero- but to go deep with it, not just your usual- ”oh they save people!”- bull crap.
The first time you went to Bakugo’s house, everything was awkward and weird. His parents weren’t home and he barely spoke to you.
As time went on though, the more and more you came to his house and interacted with him, he began to grow accustom to you. There were people who he talked to and hung out with sometimes, sure. But you were different. You were interested in him. And you were always smiling. That damn smile.. At this point, you two were pretty close. You’d crack jokes, eat lunch together sometimes at school, and he’d walk you home after working at his place if it were dark because he wanted to make sure you were safe. He‘d never admit that though.
Bakugo grew into liking you, and eventually, he realized that he had a crush on you. Denying it at first, it kept him awake at night contemplating on wether or not he was supposed to be feeling these things.
“told you I like gentle giants so you softened up.”
Your first kiss was magical. Well, that’s how it felt. It took place in his room, —after you asked if you could wear one of his hoodies because you were cold and were obviously too big and fit like a dress— he couldn’t take it anymore so he made the first move and then ended the kiss adruptly. His cheeks were dusted red as he looked away from you. You could read his eyes and tell he was internally conflicted. He was confused, yet happy. Ashamed, yet proud of himself. He couldn’t describe what was going on inside of him.
“Hey..” You cupped your hand on his cheek and guided his face to look at yours. “It’s okay.” You said quietly, giving him a sweet smile. God that smile..
Without hesitation he leaned back into you, kissing you again, causing you to stumble back a bit. His hands gripped your waist and yours rested around his neck as you enjoyed each others warmth and overall prescence.
Pure happiness bubbalating within you, you smiled into the kiss. A bit too much that it ended up breaking the connection and you giggling in Bakugo’s face.
“Shut up, your giggling too much. I can’t kiss you like that..~”
After that, you two were inseparable. Even after the projects were over, you still went to his house for study sessions. Granted, most of those “study sessions” were used as make-out sessions but sometimes you just hung out. You would lay in his lap while he played with your hair while watching a movie or vise versa.
After graduation, both you and Bakugo got recognized by different agencies, though you still lived together and grew closer.
But recently, due to being away all the time and training to become #1 Hero’s, you two have grown distant. Sometimes Bakugo would come home and barely say hello when walking in the door. It was frustrating. You would sit there worrying for hours about him and then he just comes home and says not a word, walking right past you acting as if you didn’t exist.
“do you mean every word you mean, every word?
we hit the window a few times (the wall)”
“Where the fuck have you been?” You stood up from your cozy chair in the living room, putting your book down, as the front door closed and the kitchen light switched on. Bakugo continued to take off his shoes, not listening to you. You walked over to him and saw him in the light which illuminated the scratches and scars that were along his face and his torn clothing.
You felt tears sting your eyes. You lifted your hand up to his chest and let your fingers drift above where his wound was, not touching it directly. “Wha-... Katsuki what happened??” He looked at you and you noticed something different in his eyes. They weren’t his usual soft Bakugo eyes that he gave you most of the time. They weren’t filled with love and compassion. They were filled with anger... and hate? He began walking away from you.
“H-hey! Katsuki I asked you a question!” No response. You sighed and walked up to him. You grabbed his hands, taking them in yours.
“Katsuki please, talk to me. I understand that we’ve both been busy with our agencies but we’ve barely spoken to each other! I... don’t want us to fall apart.” You said the last part quietly. “I’m really worried about you y’know? I try to call you but you never answer, I try to talk to you when you come home but you don’t answer.. Katsu you haven’t been yourself lately-“ He finally spoke but cut you off.
“Shit, will you stop it already?” He said coldly.
You looked up at him out of surprise, your brows furrowed. “...Stop what?”
“All of your whining and shit! It’s annoying and I’m fine.” He said with attitude. You dropped your hands from his and let them hang at your sides.
“Are you serious?” You spat. “So you want me to sit here for hours and NOT worry about you?? Katsuki we’ve known each other for long enough for me to know that your reckless and for you to know that I worry easily.”
“Why do you care so damn much?” He said again, still glaring at you.
“Because I love you you dumbass!” that was rly cliche im sorry
Bakugo stared at the floor for a moment and then took a deep breath. He looked at you and said words that you’d never forget. “I don’t love you anymore,”
Your eyes widened. “I can’t. Your in the way of my career. You’ve blinded me from my goals all this time,” You furrowed your brows. “At this rate I’ll never become the best with you leeching onto me.” You couldn’t believe what he was saying. His tone was so unforgiving and cold. It stung.
You stepped closer to him and let tears fall out of your eyes. Instead of sobbing you gave him a good, hard slap across his face. “You egotistical bastard!”
You could tell that anger began to build up within him, more than what was already there. He wouldn’t do anything to you though even if we wanted to, he wasn’t that kind of guy.
“when hating you feels good for the night,
when the morning comes I hope your still mine.”
When you woke up the next morning he was gone. He never came back. He never answered your calls, your messages or anything. You even asked Kirishima if you could talk to Bakugo through him but Kirishima said that Bakugo never wanted to talk or he pretended he wasn’t there.
The next few years you spent alone occasionaly. Attempting to feel the same happiness that Bakugo gave you, you forced yourself into relationships with other people which you ended up breaking off. Nothing felt the same anymore.
The sounds of a sweet bell inside the cafe you worked at trickled in your ears. Your eyes lit up hoping to greet the next customer with the best smile you could give them. “Welcome to Beans n’ Creme cafe what-“ Your face fell. You sighed and looked down at the cash register where you placed orders. ”Your usual right?”
”Mm.” He hummed in response.
”5.84.” You swiped the debit card and watched as he took a seat next to the window and opened his laptop.
”Yo Y/n!” Your best friend coworker called from the back. ”What?” You turned around and snapped a bit more aggressively than you wanted to sound.
”Boss said you're on break.”
”Thank God..” You murmured to yourself as you removed your brown apron, grabbing your cigarette and lighter before you walked out.
You leaned against the wall in the alleyway that separated the cafe and another building and took a long drag on the cigarette in your mouth. As you exhaled you closed your eyes and let your body solemnly sink into the wall. Thinking about him..
Footsteps broke you out of your trance. You looked over, took another drag, and threw it on the ground, putting it out. ”How many more times are you gonna come here and act like I don't exist?” You spat out.
He stopped in his tracks and hesitantly turned towards you. No response. You sighed, “You know what Katsuki I’ve gotten really sick of the silent treatment from you.” You stepped closer to him, the evening light illuminating your features. His eyes were focused on you and they weren't the same ones you saw before. The ones that were filled with anger were filled with... Something else? He wanted to tell you something. Desperately.
”Come to my place.” He spat. Your brows furrowed. ”Excuse me?”
”I-I mean.. Damn it..” You could tell his head was spinning and that he was thinking about everything.
You folded your arms, impatiently waiting for a response. He looked down at the ground and kept his hands shoved in his pockets. ”I have... Things I wanna.. Clear up with.. You..”
You scoffed and unfolded your arms. ”Oh really??-”
”Look this is hard enough as it is!! Let me... try to fix... this, ” He voice grew soft and you tell he was being genuine. And that he really was sorry. You couldn't deny it, you wanted ”this” back too. But after what he did, and what he said to you, that hurt. And you've been angry over the last few years.
You folded your arms again and looked away from him. ”...Okay.”
He hesitantly took a step back from you as if he didn't want to. ”T-tonight. My place. And you better not be late damn it!”
You chuckled, it was nice to see him somewhat be his old self again with such tsundere remarks. You tucked your lose hairs behind your ear and regained your composure as you headed back inside to continue your shift at work.
You stood in front of your ex-boyfriends house. Anxious. Very very anxious. You stood out there for so long, contemplating all possible outcomes and conversations that could happen.
Was your outfit too flashy? What were you even gonna say? What was he gonna say? What if-
“Get. Your ass. inside all ready.” You looked up and saw Bakugo standing at his door, already a bit pisssd off. “Wha-??! How did you know I’ve been out here?!” You cheeks dusted pink.
Bakugo looked you up and down. “I saw you from the window and waited for you to knock on the door. But you never did. You’ve been standing outside for 15 minutes Y/n, get inside it’s cold.” He stood to the side so you could get in the house. You looked at the ground and hesitantly stepped inside his place as you heard the door close behind you.
Still staring at the ground lost in space, you felt two large hands on your shoulders, making you jump. “Holy fuck- god you scared me...” You brushed a piece of hair out of your face as Bakugo removed your jacket. “Your so jumpy..” He told you before removing it completely. His husky voice pressing up against your ear causing you to blush a bit.
After he threw your jacket onto the couch, you walked into the kitchen and took a seat. “It smells good in here. As always.” You told him while the last part you said quietly.
“Of course it does,” He chuckled. He brought over a plate of chicken Alfredo and sat it in front of you at the table. “Why wouldn’t it?” You began to eat and eventually Bakugo sat down in front of you with his own plate of food. After sitting in silence for a while you found your mind wandering back to what he said a few years ago. You grew angry.
“Yknow I’ve seen you and Midoriya on the news a lot,” you chuckled. “It’s like you two are neck to neck for the #1 hero spot with every crime that appears in the city... You seem to be happy.” You stabbed your fork into your plate of pasta and let the fork fall.
He felt bad. He could tell how your expression had changed and how much you missed him.
and how much of an ass he’d been.
“Why am I here Bakugo? What were your plans tonight?” You looked at him with a bit of sorrow, dead in his eyes.
Honestly, he didn’t even know. He just wanted to fix things between the both of you. Somehow.
He put his hands in his hair with his elbows on the table. “I don’t know okay!! I-... I’m sorry..”
“I... I don’t know how this relationship stuff works and.. I’m not.. that good with handling my emotions-“ You cut him off.
“Yeah I think I’ve concluded that-“
“But, please! I know what I did was wrong ok?.. It was a dick move of me and my head wasn’t in the right place and I know I hurt you and I’m sorry..”
“Truth is I still love you Y/n.” Your heart fluttered.
“Wha-“ He cut you off. “I always have...” He looked at you. “I honestly don’t know what.. demon came over me and made me treat you like that, but that wasn’t me... Trust me, hurting you is the last thing I want..”
You felt your heart do summersaults in your chest but you also felt it wedge in your throat. You were really happy but you didn’t know what to say or do. Those are the exact words that you’ve wanted to hear for so long. But now that you heard them, you didn’t know what to do with yourself. You both sat there in silence as Bakugou impatiently waited for your response. After a moment he sighed and frustratedly got up from the table taking both his and your plate and washed them off in the kitchen.
You sat there. And sat there. Until you got overwhelmed with your own emotions. You stood up from the table and practically slammed your body into the back of Bakugous, embracing him in a tight hug from behind as he was washing the dishes. You felt his body tense up as he stopped moving from your sudden movements onto him.
You buried your face in the back of his shirt and let your tears stain his shirt. “..God you don’t know how long I’ve wanted to hear you say that..” You voice was soft.
When he felt your body heave from your quiet sobs, he turned around and took your face in his hands looking really worried. “Hey hey.. stop that.. quit crying..-“ His voice was soft and gentle, a tone you hadn’t heard from him in a long time. You sniffed and shook your head as you placed your hand ontop of his, letting your thumb smooth over the back of his hand. “It’s okay..,” You managed to get out. “These are happy tears..” You gave him a soft smile as you watched his expression loosen from being so worried.
He smiled and let his thumb smooth over your check and wipe a fresh tear away. “..Your damn smile.”
With that your faces became inches away from each other. Bakugou’s crimson eyes stared into yours and you watched as they softened and began to flutter closed.
Next thing you knew you felt Bakugous warm lips on top of yours, slowly pressing into them. You could practically feel the heat radiating between your two bodies.
Your hands dropped from his and slowly wrapped around his neck, attempting to pull your bodies closer. After a hesitant pull away, Bakugou pulled you back in. He bent down a bit and placed his hands under your theigh to pick you up and wrap your legs around his waist.
You let out a small yelp by his sudden movements which led to you uncontrollably giggling as he walked the two of you over to the couch. Once you plopped down, you laid on top of Bakugou and curled into a little ball as you laid on his chest. He let his fingers roam through your hair as you closed your eyes and relaxed, finally feeling content and happy after all this time.
i really enjoyed writing this! (even though it took like two months *cough* sorry) but this was a really good request and i hope you liked it!!
