non sum qualis eram

twenty-seven || non sum qualis eram

[shesnake]

We Are Lady Parts season 1 episode 6 “Sparta” (2021) dir. Nida Manzoor

[anderwater]

i can't stop thinking about momtaz fits in the walp s2 trailer

[lesvegas]

passing in public makes me feel like white shrek

[lesvegas]

literally how it feels

[welpnotagain]

[meanbuddhist]

i’m hiding worse, more secret emotions behind my big and obvious ones

[helianthyme]

this has been in my reminders since may. i don’t know what i meant by this. i haven’t cleared it out because i’m scared it’s important

[sapphicdroid]

can you please return my fucking creepy witch finger man

[helianthyme]

fuuuuuuuck that was yours???? i literally already fed it to my many ghouls and other beasts….

[sapphicdroid]

no goddamn laughing matter. Gruntilda is going to get my ass

[cuntygrunty]

SAPPHIC DROID MY FINGER LOST, MY SINISTER MAGICS WILL BE YOUR COST

[sapphicdroid]

ALL YOUR FAULT MAN. ALL YOUR FUCKING FAU⚡⚡⚡L⚡⚡⚡⚡⚡🔥⚡🔥🔥⚡🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 💀

[redstonedust]

its probably a normal sign for the economy that all of my adulthood fantasies are like "imagine having your own kitchen living room and bathroom to decorate" "what if i could get on a train" "maybe one day i could purchase a sturdy pair of shoes" "i should save and invest in a single bicycle"

[spidergirl-fibula]

thin veil today isnt it

[dykecinema]

there should be a jesus on the cross emoji. not for any religious reasons. just so I can use it for every slight inconvenience.

[lidsel]

In my quest to beat Skyrim after all these years I finally played through the Dawnguard DLC. Which... I kinda hated TBH. (Perhaps stacking the two worst areas in the game - Blackreach and Soul Cairn - back to back in the quest chain just wasn't the best choice, idk.)

But I can understand all the Serana love. She is cute and certainly among the most likeable characters in the game. She was my sole companion in my pain and I'm glad to have had her around for the ride.

[beguilingcorpse]

mercymorn the first character of all FUCKING time. what if your god was also your best friend and your emperor king and your husband and your father and your brother. what if your entire identity depended on this one guy you’ve known for 10,000 years. what if everything you are was only determined by a man whom you must love completely and whom you’ve wished was dead more times than you can count. and what if every time you spoke this man traded glances with every other man in the room. but it used to not be this way!! you used to be your own person!!! dear god there used to be other women here!!!! what if your whole lot in life was decided because you had a best friend and she made the decision to die for you. what then

[onwardpasserine]

you ate my mother whole, downed her / with the quilt and the bed, try and gulp me next

let me shred your gut with / my silver-necklace-filled intestines

i'll hack you raw

i haven't drawn anything fic-related in so long so here's my version of serana 🙏🙏 i love her so much

[kata4a]

Ye knowe eek, that in forme of speche is chaunge With-inne a thousand yeer, and wordes tho That hadden prys, now wonder nyce and straunge Us thinketh hem; and yet they spake hem so, And spedde as wel in love as men now do.

chaucer, Troilus and Criseyde c. 1380

[youzicha]

glossary: eek also and even tho at the time prys great value wonder a cause for astonishment nyce stupid spedde succeeded

You know the form of language, too, can change. Within a thousand years, even the words that were most precious then, seem strange and foolish to us; yet they spoke them so and did no worse in love than we now do.

[theswampghost]

ok but when ghost quartet said i will try to forgive myself for living in the dark, for my loss of wonder, for forgetting how to play, i will try to forgive myself for being absent in public and bored before stars, for not remembering, for not being in my body, for not starting right now. i will try to see myself as i am.

[999999999999996-deactivated2023]

[thunder-fuck]

Cryptid sighting

[thekanucklehead-deactivated2025]

Baby Yaga

[tattahitotsunosaetayarikata-dea]

as much as I lovve “…hand in unlovable hand.” where is the appreciation for

- “…twin high-maintenance machines.” - “On the day that I forget you, I hope my heart explodes.” - “…friends who don’t have a clue, well-meaning teachers / but down in your arms, in your arms, I am a wild creature.” - “I loved you before I even ever knew what love was like.” - “Held you in my arms for the first time, that day / Felt like God’s anointed when you didn’t push me away.” - “I will walk down to the end with you, if you will come all the way down with me.” - “You can look, but you won’t find another love like ours / Collapsing stars.” - “On the day that I become so forgetful that all of this melts away / I will burn all the calendars that counted the years down to such a worthless day.” - “Cast of thousands / But we were the real two, and when I’m alone before a mirror late at night / I will reveal you…” - “I wish you had a number where you are; it’s hard with no one here to help me through it / But I can see you in my sleep, playing the points for all you’re worth / Walking gingerly across the bruised earth.” - “…and I know that you’re wearing a wire, but as the sun becomes a blazing orange ball of fire / I lose interest in this, and other such inconsequential questions.” - “…we were the one thing in the galaxy God didn’t have his eyes on.” - “…and things are happening here as we speak / I can feel it in my boiling brain / And I am dreaming, in blood red color, when I see the Stolypin car, driving through the light rain / They’ll have to carry me out on my back / They’ll have to tear me to pieces, alright / We are safe in our hidden home down here - we’ve got stars in our eyes tonight!”

…and so many others?? like there are scores more I could list, these are just off the top of my head. Anyways, listen to ..mountains goat songs .

[lyricposting]

- “i will do what you ask me to do because of how i feel about you” - “… and realize i’ve told you everything/ even the parts i meant to leave out” - “i am coming home to you with my own blood in my mouth/ and i am coming home to you if it’s the last thing that i do” - “what did i come down here for? you.” - “and the sand shifting underneath your feet softened for you, and incredibly, the sun went through from the sky/ i was certain i was going to cry” - “i felt so desperate in your arms” - “living in fear until you come back/ sound of the key like an orchestral cue/ into the daylight/ thank god it’s you”

[tattahitotsunosaetayarikata-dea]

“And I told you the one thing that I knew how to say / To the bright ringing drone of 8-bit choirs. / Yeah, when you came in / I could breathe again….”

[lyricposting]

- “the only thing i know is that i love you/ and i’m holding on” - “we were newly alive and i felt your hand on my arm/ i was awake to the sensation and immune from all harm/ you pressed your soft cheek up against my gut/ pure gold, nothing but gold” - “we had hot caramel sticking to our teeth and the only love i’ve ever known burning underneath” - “the cold came on with a new found intensity and you pressed your warm body against me and i loved you so much it was making me sick”

[windsroad]

“I saw you in the blazing light / When the lotus caught fire in the middle of the night / It froze me / It froze me”

“If I ever want to drive myself insane / All I have to do is watch you breathing”

[jiubilant]

possible post-solstheim side effects of reading black books / spending too much time in apocrypha:

nightmares

mildew-like eye discoloration; neloth mentions this as a common symptom in skyrim (describes "black spots in the whites of the eyes" as a documented indication of hermaeus mora's influence)

strange visions

veins darken and discolor, looking almost like trails of ink

a "phantom-limb" sort of sense; an eerie feeling that the reader once had more than two eyes

overwhelming urge to hoard some books, destroy others

book-eating (recorded in an eso lorebook as part of a mora-summoning ritual)

"remembering" knowledge that the reader couldn't possibly have known

food now tastes like ink or rotting paper, without exception

[mukuroom]

Oh boy, a complex character who's a woman! I love messy characters who hurt everyone around them and continue the cycles that hurt them!! Can't wait to share this joy with fellow fans– why's everyone calling her a bitch