Late Night Oatmeal

My Temporary Escape From Reality

[lengthofropes]

when you’re differrent, sometimes you feel like a mistake.

[blooming-anna-rose]

“and sometimes

I forget how to be me

the puzzle solver

the problem fixer

the glue

because it is exhausting

to make it easier for everyone

to love one another.”

- n.c. // i don’t want to always be me

[fox-party]

We found this in an abandoned parking lot today

[dankmemeuniversity]

[ojibwa]

[moonblacckkk]

[literary-connection]

“Mental illness has ruined my fucking life, don’t ever tell me that it’s a choice.”

—

[blooming-anna-rose]

“And I think.. I think I’d do just about anything if someone asked me. If I believed it would make them happy, or leave a smile on their face, or have their laughter echo in the air… I would kill myself to make it happen. The way I am, the person I was raised to be, can be defined in a string of words that would look like ‘I will make the people around me feel loved, and then they will love me.’ I believe, sometimes, my only purpose is to help others, to fix others. And that might be the flaw. I think I have more power than the world, I think I am stronger than any force of nature because I can fix people, I can solve any problem. Inevitably, that plan fails and then I feel like a failure. I forget some days, that my sole identity is not to make life easier for others.”

- n.c. // more than most days

[neckkiss]

“Happiness is only real when shared”

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[beautifuldarkmind]

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

[perfectfeelings]

“Sometimes they don’t love you, they just love how you love them.”

—

[wishing-for-deathx]

I never relate to the being loved part of the songs. But I relate so fucking hard to the part where they talk about loving someone

[sa-dnesss]

“my life is literally one huge question mark”

—

[deadbyinsidee]

[causeimfiftyshadesoffuckedup]

I have just come to the conclusion that no matter how hard I try, it just isn’t enough.

I am not enough.

[lostindarknessss-deactivated202]

I am not the kind of a person who will be missed by anyone.