The Musings Of Me

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How do you get past feeling like a disappointment when the only person you have ever disappointed is yourself and somehow that is the only person you can’t stand to fail?

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Not going to lie, there was a period of time when I didn’t like or trust TS after being an avid fan since I was a teen. While this completely had to do with my own jealousy because she was dating my future husband (Tom Hiddleston), I definitely posted words about her that were undeserved and unkind. I know not to trust K*nye W*st. I stand with Taylor Swift, because she has shown me the strength of a woman stays true to her values despite being challenged every step of the way and as someone who will move stones to be the person that she wants to be.

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To Him

I love you. I love you so much that it is a struggle to breathe without you. I want you to give me the chance to show you that love can be lasting. I want you to give me the chance to show you that happy endings are realistic endings. I want to show you how much I can love you. Please, just give me the chance.

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My love

My love may or may not love me. He may think of the future or be running from it. He may believe in us; he may not believe in anything anymore. I honestly don’t know because he seems like he is two people at once. It drives me mad, but that hasn’t stopped my feelings for growing. I’m doomed.

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Since I take most of my advice from @thatsthat24, how have you gotten over a broken heart? I’m absolutely lost and I don’t want to let go.

To anybody else, what advice have you gotten to help?

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Dear Followers

To the random new Trump supporters following me - don’t. Please. I do not suppport that man or what he stands for, so you won’t like what I have to say, and I won’t be quiet about that. We can disagree, but you are not going to follow me simply to harass me. Goodbye and have a happy holiday season.

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My life has become a vine

Do you know that vine by Thomas Sanders where a girl thinks she’s in love with him before realizing that what she is actually feeling is friendly interest? That is now my life. What is this nonsense!!

@thatsthat24 Keep being you, you wonderful human being and continue to inspire people to be the best they can.

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The state of today

I never thought that it would be impossible to be a decent - not good, just decent - person was so impossible. Unfortunately, I just saw the side of Tumblr that scared me. How can nazis simply post whatever they want? Insults? Death threats? Those posts leave me feeling nauseaous. Why is humanity so unattainable for some humans?

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Brilliant idea - Princess Diaries 3

Someone make this happen ASAP! I need to see Mia and Nicholas being adorable.

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AHS

Michael Langdon aka the literal antichrist:

Me:

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Guys, the madness continues

You would think that after meeting Tom Hiddleston, I would be less attracted. You would think. My dumba** self didn’t quite get that and am more hopelessly in love than ever. FML

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I don’t typically post my poems, but I don’t know if I have ever felt more liberated and I want to share.

Sometimes I fear

-the unknown-

-the darkness-

-the possibilities.

They batter against me in torrents;

It’s like the rain threatening to drown me.

Am I a disappointment?

Do I matter?

The doubts scream relentlessly into my ears:

They are all I hear.

I keep looking for my savior.

Is it that one there with the blue eyes?

The striking smile?

The beautiful dimples?

I search and I search.

I spend my whole life searching and searching,

But am I enough?

Maybe I’m not wanted.

The darkness consumes me again.

The cacophony-

Who am I?

Why am I here?

Am I a waste of space?

Would anybody notice if I disappeared?

I suffocate.

I shrivel.

I cower.

I cry and I want to SCREAM!

And then I stop and I stand.

I am blessed,

Not as you are, but as I am.

I am mighty and equipped to carry my faults and my prides.

I am imperfect.

I err.

I fear,

But I always stand.

I cower and then I rise.

I shrivel and then I blossom.

I suffocate and then I finally...

Breathe,

And the darkness recedes for another day.

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I graduated in 2016 with the conviction that I wanted to be a Physician Assistant. However, I’ve been working in a clinic and seeing how challenging it is emotionally and it has me questioning this decision. My question, then, is how did you know when you found your passion? How did you know that you were suited to be a healthcare provider? I’m worried that I do not love the profession like I should and would not be able to give my patients what they deserve. I would appreciate your input and advise.

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Update

I was doing fine with Tom Obsession 2018, then brother recommends AHS and this happens:

FML. Will it ever end. Will keep everybody updated about new developments.

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Everybody is getting engaged and I’m just like:

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Annoying Post...sorry

Year 5: still in love with Tom Hiddleston.

Prospect of not being in love with him: bleak.

Conviction that this girls gonna get that man: astonishingly too high.

SOS.

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Men 3.0

You know you have it bad when this guy...

somehow makes you crush harder on this freaking adorable nerd.

I am sorry for anyone that is reading this. Blame that damn British hunk of way too damn much.