ich bin leßbisch. btw.

James/Fridolin/Cosmo; 🐌 pronouns; white; 20s; All of my icons are free to use! also icon requests are open forever ❤️

[liebelesbe]

abortion blackberry!!

[frogmoss1]

me: *trying to take my socks off but they keep getting stuck on my heel* oh fuck. goddamnit.

the extractor fan in a bathroom in Norway that has an intrinsic link to my spirit: *momentarily whirs louder*

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

my 5 year plan is to get back my joy

[aberrantemotion]

Always funny to me when indie devs who already sell games for dirt cheap participate in steam sales with like 90 percent off. Like. "Yeah this game is three dollars but you can have it for one right now." Like your game costs as much as a pack of m&ms and youre selling it for the cost of a pack of m&ms in the 1950s now? Okay

[liebelesbe]

actually the main reason i could never be the Doctors companion is that the Tardis isn't exact enough usually. or the Doctor isn't when flying her. bc if i was traveling for, let's say 2 days, 13 hours and 16 minutes, I would like to return back to earth exactly 2 days, 13 hours and 16 minutes (and however many seconds) later than we started. bc otherwise that would fuck with my birthday. ok not with my birthday, I'd still have been born on the same day, but then my birthday would no longer correlate with me actually being a year older. and that would fuck me up.

[liebelesbe]

why is vanilla jogurt a waste of jogurt AND a waste of vanilla, whereas vanilla pudding is heaven on earth. what's that about. scientists explain.

[liebelesbe]

I think I've said this before but even if the Doctor was real and I somehow met them, I wouldn't be a companion. At most my brother would be a companion and I would get to hear so many outrageous stories about adventures he went on while I'm chilling at home like. Ok. Cool. Not quite sure you're not making this all up but also there's no reason for you to be making this up so um. Yeah. Cool. Maybe I would get to go on one pity adventure or accidental adventure though.

[liebelesbe]

Do you think you would be a companion in a universe where Doctor Who is real AND you meet the Doctor?

yes!

no, but I might know one of the companions

no.

nuance?

Remaining time: 1 day 19 hours

doesn't matter how realistic it is, but what do you feel deep in your soul?

[liebelesbe]

Would you want to be a companion?

yes

no

Remaining time: 5 days 23 hours

[assassinbugs]

anyways

Do you always count the number of steps when walking up/down stairs?

yes

no, only if there's a good reason for it

not always, but most of the time

not always, sometimes

not always, rarely

Remaining time: 3 days 17 hours

[assassinbugs]

ok I've already made polls about whether you think you would be a companion and if you'd even want to be a companion (here), but

If you had to be a companion, which Doctor would you be traveling with?

8

9

10 / 14

11

12

13

15

other (look at the rb)

Remaining time: 5 days 23 hours

idc if you're choosing this by who you would want the most or who you feel like would make the most sense to randomly show up in your life. choose with your heart or your brain or whatever you want.

[assassinbugs]

more Doctors, same question

1

2

3

4

5

6

7

war doctor

fugitive doctor

new/different doctor we haven't met yet

um actually I'd travel with a completely different time lord...

already voted in previous poll

Remaining time: 5 days 23 hours

[liebelesbe]

i had a dream about getting kissed and i'm making it everyone's problem

[relelvance]

At night before bed let's all brush our teeth it will be epic

[marwyn]

Is your first name canon in asoiaf

Yes

No

Sort of (spelled differently, etc.)

Remaining time: 5 days 4 hours

Here’s the character list on the wiki for reference

[philcollinsenjoyer]

i think i'd be checking my phone in the cuck chair to be honest

[official-lauchzwiebel]

es regnet einfach.... [turns mysteriously Elternteil-shaped] Das hat die Natur gebraucht. 😃

[liebelesbe]

I'm just saying it's so evil for kissing to exist and look so fun and then at the same time be so unavailable. Where tf am I going to get a kiss from!!

[wheremermaidsdwell]

I've been meaning to make a post talking about my stroke because y'all got bits and pieces of the recovery but I never actually told the story of HOW it went down and the thing is the type of stroke I had is usually the type young people have and since having mine i've now heard multiple stories of people under 40 having very similar strokes and the scary thing is, is that they didn't get help right away. Because you're young and healthy and sure you feel weird but it'll pass right? but it doesn't, and it gets worse, and by the time you get to the hospital (some people literally take days to go) the deficits are worse and recovery is harder.

so here's a super long post about strokes in general, and mine in particular/what I went through.

So for strokes the signs are abbreviated BE FAST. Balance loss, Eyesight changes, Face drooping, Arm weakness, Speech difficulty, -> Time to call 911.

Had I known those MAYBE I would have figured it out but my symptoms were a little mixed. I was reading (fanfic!) in bed because it was a sunday morning and i had nothing pressing to do and suddenly got dizzy. I put my laptop aside because my eyes were blurring (Eyesight changes - symptom #1), and laid down, thinking it would pass, it didn't, it's a little vague how it progressed because I'd been having headaches and neckpain for about 3 weeks leading up to it so I was like 'idk is this a migraine?' (headaches can be a stroke symptom so symptom #2) but i got nauseous and eventually got up and to my utmost surprise I immediately fell over as if I was the drunkest of frat bros. The room literally spun before my eyes as I fell to the floor (Balance loss - symptom #3). I have had some Nights and I had never been that unsteady before. I crawled my way to the bathroom, threw up (nausea - not a common stroke symptom) , took 800mg of ibuprofen, and crawled back to bed.

if you know anything about ibuprofen you might know it's a mild blood thinner and that's a high dose. I may have inadvertently helped myself with that one. I was just feeling like shit and thinking 'idk this might help'

At this point I still thought we were still in Normal Land. Sure, it was a weird morning, but Surely There Was A Reason. (Yes There Was) Anyway, as I'm lying there willing my body to stop suffering I realize my arm is going numb (stroke symptom #4) and I switch positions, because weird, but it doesn't go away, and I gave it a good little while. I'm on a medication that can make my limbs tingle but it usually just does it to my fingers and it dissipates quickly but this wasn't dissipating, and then I realized one of my legs was also going numb. Then one side of my face is going numb.

(at the time I did not look in the mirror but I had a drooping eyelid - symptom #5)

Those all seem bad. I grab my computer and google 'when to go to the hospital for dizzyness' as that felt like the worst of my problems. and indeed the list I found highlighted that if you are also experiencing loss of balance, blurred vision, nausea, and limb numbness, you should see a doctor. That seems like far too many symptoms to be having all to be listed. I grab my phone (thankfully plugged in and by my bed), and start layering on more clothing because it's about 10 degrees out and i'm in a pajama dress. The very nice man at 911 talks with me and sends an ambulance, I tell him I don't think I can get out the front door of my building on my own and he asks if I can get to MY apartment door to which I say yes and he assures me that's fine they will have keys to my building.

(I have been since informed they love to chop down doors but no, I could get that far)

I wait by my door laying down on the ground and they arrive pretty quickly. They see to me in the hallway, which is more of a lobby in my building and the only place with room for me to lie down (I cannot stand unassisted at this point) they ask me a bunch of questions, take vitals, and ask me where I would like to be taken. Me, having never had to go to the fucking hospital in an emergency before, simply go 'wherever is close' because I again, I am having a stroke and do not have the wherewithal to think through these things.

A big firefighter helps me down the stairs (it's only a half flight and I still almost did not make it) and we get underway.

At the hospital they wheel me into triage and I mostly lie there gratefully and answer some questions and respond to some tests (grip strength, following a pen with my eyes, that sort of thing) and then I hear what is great when you've been at urgent care for two hours but what is Very Bad when you just arrived in an ambulance and that's 'She's next'. I jumped the line for a CT scan and an MRI. I was there less than ten minutes before I was actively being scanned. honestly closer to five.

my active symptoms seem to have been worse than some of the stories I've heard, not being able to walk AT ALL in particular, although some other are pretty equal (Footless Jo on youtube had a stroke around the same time I did of the same type and has discussed hers, she delayed going in despite the severity for a variety of reasons and it sounds like her recovery has been difficult) My recovery was pretty easy because i was actively being cared for and on blood thinners right away. My stroke was caused by an vertebral arterial tear, aka the inner part of an artery tore which can cause a clot. This tends to be the type of stroke young people have although I'm sure it's possible to have a different type.

I was pretty out of it in the beginning, but I was only in the hospital for 6 days and then in a rehab for another 4 to relearn how to walk and balance, then i was released unto the world and just spent time going to physical therapy and recovering for awhile. I was out of work for about 8 weeks total. I basically had the best outcome for a stroke. I recovered almost fully back to 100% (I'm about 2% less sure footed than I used to be, but it's rarely noticeable), my face still feels a little weird but has markedly improved so I live in hope it will eventually get back to normal. It massively sucked. But strokes can fuck you up for life and I came out a weird medical story to tell and have to take some extra medication now/precautions to take (i cannot do certain types of yoga, no weightlifting, no push ups, no going on rollercoasters.... things that could strain my neck essentially) but overall I escaped very lucky.

[liebelesbe]

there has to be an easier way of transferring songs than to look at what's in my likes on spotify, switch to my music app, type in the name to see if i have it downloaded, then switch to my downloading app if i haven't downloaded it yet, type in the name again to download it and then start all over again for the second song. ugh.