You know, I was re-watching that scene in 6x07, where Kurt and Blaine are talking about the time they did Baby It's Cold Outside. Kurt mentions that all through the song, all he wanted was to kiss Blaine. And Blaine responds by asking, "Why didn't you?" To which Kurt says, "I didn't know if you felt the same. And you didn't." To which Blaine doesn't give a verbal answer, but his face does.
It seems to me, that Blaine doesn't agree with Kurt's assessment of his feelings during that time of their relationship. And I don't either.
We know from Silly Love Songs, that Blaine wasn't aware of Kurt's feelings for him up until that point. (I think he might have known Kurt was attracted to him, but that's different to actual emotional feelings) As he says, "Wow. I really am clueless."
But at no point does Blaine say that he doesn't reciprocate. Instead, he goes out of his way, to make sure that Kurt understands that isn't the reason they can't be together at that moment. "I don't know what I'm doing...I know how to act it out...I'm no good at romance...I don't want to screw this up." Meaning of course the relationship they already had, "I really really care about you."
Blaine has just been through a rejection, realising he had made the whole thing up in his head. And now, here is his best friend, telling him that he wants to be in a romantic relationship with him. This same best friend who he started off as a sort of mentor/defender to. Blaine recognises this later on in s5. And I can't help but think that that is what caused Blaine's confusion so early on.
Right from the beginning he showed signs of attraction to Kurt.
He sang Teenage Dream to Kurt. Directing the rather sexual lines at him. Like, it becomes obvious as the song progresses that the lyrics are meant for Kurt and him alone.
He is constantly flirting with him and Blaine doesn't even deny it when Kurt calls him out on it.
I mean, what even is this Blaine? He's literally staring at Kurt's lap as he moves in.
I think it's fair to say, Blaine fancied Kurt from the beginning.
Look at his little smile here after they've sung their flirty duet...
The only other time I can recall a smile like that from him, is right after he kisses Kurt for the first time. He's shy, embarrassed. Because he likes him.
However, he didn't think Kurt wanted more from him than what they already had. He was afterall aware that Kurt had been through a traumatic experience with Karofsky.
So he backtracks a little, he flirts with him, but doesn't expect anything in return.
And by the time Kurt acknowledges his own feelings to Blaine, Blaine panics. He doesn't want to mess up this good thing they have going. But he seems to know that they will get together at some point.
"Don't they get together in the end?" He says this after Kurt's comment regarding how they are like the plot of When Harry Met Sally. He's basically confirming to himself, Kurt and us, that he would like to try for something more in the future. But they both needed time to sort their heads out.
And it's during Blackbird that Blaine realises his mistake. He looks at Kurt during the boy's grief, and sees that stuff is always going to happen. There was never going to be a perfect moment, in which they would both be miracleously healed in themselves. It's about grasping the opportunity as it arises. Despite what hurt might follow.
Blackbird, was for Blaine, that moment of understanding that he and Kurt already had everything they needed for a romantic relationship.
"Oh there you are. I've been looking for you forever."
He's not saying that he's only just realised he likes Kurt that way. He's saying, "What is it we are actually waiting for? I'm here, you're here. Let's just do this. To hell with waiting for everything to be alright."
Blaine always had romantic feelings for Kurt. It wasn't until Blackbird that he realised it was actually okay to act on them.
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