11/25/2015 2:26 PM] Luna:
all jokes aside i think him and i /would/ be good together but idek what that means really
and idk that he sees the same thing that i see
[11/25/2015 2:28 PM] "J":
if that is the case, then you should really take a look at it from afar
put your scared feelings away and really think if you actually feel super romantic love feelings for him
because with him, that is what you are asking for
[11/25/2015 2:29 PM] Luna:
I honestly don't know how to do that haha
and idk what i want with him...
i think it's a crush that went on for too long
[11/25/2015 2:29 PM] "J":
haha you're trying to search for what you actually want with him
i get it, it can be hard because it's been so long since you've had a bf
but honestly crushes are so elementary
and they just become obsessive things. and then when things get real, you're actually not interested
and that is actually the worst because then you really did just eff your friend over
[11/25/2015 2:31 PM] Luna:
exactly so in order to not mess anything up
since IDEK what i want...
it's a win~ no one gets hurt!
[11/25/2015 2:31 PM] "J":
do you actually like him enough to tell him one day, any day, maybe even on your deathbed day. or do you actually not like him?
[11/25/2015 2:32 PM] Luna:
he wouldn't be good for me
everyone thinks it's a really bad idea
[11/25/2015 2:32 PM] "J":
why are you saying this now?
[11/25/2015 2:33 PM] Luna:
[11/25/2015 2:33 PM] "J":
[11/25/2015 2:33 PM] Luna:
say that he doesn't see me that way and that i need to let it go
i'm gonna be honest...idk what i'm saying right now
because the answer is somewhere deep within me
and it's refusing to come out
I've been hurt a lot by falling for the wrong guy
so my heart is closed off to telling me the real answer
i think i was heading towards revealing something but my heart/mind stopped me
it's gonna stay there for a while
i know the answer...i just can't say it
[11/25/2015 2:40 PM] "J":
haha you're just typing it
[11/25/2015 2:41 PM] Luna:
lol deep down i'm a helpless romantic so i think both you and i know what my heart thinks is the answer
whether that's real or a fantasy i can't tell
[11/25/2015 2:41 PM] "J":
[11/25/2015 2:41 PM] Luna:
which is why it's better to just keep it a secret from him
[11/25/2015 2:42 PM] "J":
[11/25/2015 2:42 PM] Luna:
the fact that i really like him
and i've been trying to fight it basically ever since i met him
ever since he told me he wasn't interested in me
because i took that for what it was...which is how i should take it
because if a guy /actually/ wants to be with you he will tell you he does and won't hide it from you
and won't treat you like a friend.
and thinking otherwise is not listening to all the signs that point at the fact that he doesn't really see you that way
and like the movie says "he's just not that into you"
because real life isn't like a rom-com where he'll wake up suddenly missing me, wanting to be with me
because in real life he'll probably never wake up to realize that maybe we would have been good together
or maybe not...but we never gave each other the chance
[11/25/2015 2:46 PM] "J":
... that sounded exactly like a commentary excerpt.. from a romcom. like that opening line of a really great romcom movie