Family Rant
so this past week I've been doing a lot of thinking and i come to realize that two of my older sisters are actually kinda toxic... so lets start with the oldest she constantly is thinking my other sister who lives out of state is ruining her life because she didn't move home after an intense break up with a boy, i feel as those she wants everyone in her life to be this perfect version of themselves that she thinks they should be, I will say no many times to something and she will try to guilt trip or try to bribe me into doing it and then their are the things she says like 'oh look you're alive'(as someone who has wanted to die in the past this is super triggering), her asking 'oh do you have a crush on anyone at work'(i got a new job a few months ago and she has asked this twice all because I've talked out a few people that i work with, like not everything is about love). The other sister(second oldest) also believes that our out of state sister is ruining her life, and acts super manipulative like for example she was like you should go with us(her and her husband) to the car show with our father this weekend and when i said 'no i wanna stay home cause its been a long week with work' she was all like 'you really should come it will be good for you'. thankfully her husband was like 'they said no and they get to choose what they wanna do on their off days' but of course her and my oldest sister were like 'well then what are you going to do' 'I've been telling you that you need to do more things' (i apparently need to go out and be around people because being an introvert is very much frowned upon in their eyes) so i was like 'i could go to the library if that would make you happy' and was greeted with 'you should really be outside and not in a building' .... so then today(the day of the car show) she sent a text to the family group chat that said what's natalie's missing out on and some pictures. and the worst thing is that i live in a house that my oldest sister and i bought together and I'm super jealous of my one sister out of state cause she got away from them.
