hewwo there, i’m a ‘02 liner and you can call me seong (성). you can use any pronouns you want with me because my preferences literally change every few days - but I do prefer they/them over all of them. pansexual, ot8 stan, i love all of them but occasionally minho and chan jumps out of line and takes over my life
correction :: seungmin has now officially taken over my life and I’m ghosting minho on bubble more than chan has been ghosting us, so suffice to say my relationship with skz is going extremely well
this blog is my contribution to stayblr and is largely skz-centric, though occasionally I might write for other groups as well, because if there’s one mark of a multi-fandom fan is that we’re fickle :’). skz is literally the only 4th gen kpop group I’m familiar with, so if you don’t want to see any 3rd gen group content floating around just tell me and,,,i’ll move them elsewhere.
what i mostly do in this blog ::
post about stray kids and how wonderful they are, i.e. just screaming over them, rambling etc :> I occasionally write. only occasionally.
also because I,,,do sadly have a life I only get my news about skz on this hellsite and possibly on ig, so yeah. pls don’t count on my blog as a reliable source of news because it really isn’t :’)
feel free to send in asks about literally anything! I promise I don’t bite (unless you violate my dni list) - it’ll be great to interact more with this community :D
(I also dabble infrequently in astrology so feel free to ask me about that too, I guess :p)
COME JOIN MY 100 FOLLOWERS ASK GAME HERE!!
dni list ::
— racists, islamphobes, anyone who believes that china is to blame for covid
— homophobes, transphobes, terfs, literally if you’re anti-lgbtqa+ please get out
— conservatives, trump supporters
— misogynists
— minors pls don’t interact with my 18+ posts, focus on school,,, (by minors I mean under the age of 18, even if your country’s age of consent might be 16)
— STRAY KIDS (스트레이 키즈)
SONG SERIES :: these are oneshots/drabbles inspired by skz’s lyrics or MVs, and are not entirely focused on relationships with the members. the reader may be present as the member’s partner, but only as a background or supporting character. the focus is on the member and the linkage with the song/MV.
#4 :: angst | in which chan is there for you, despite it all | TW: depression
lee minho
seo changbin
hwang hyunjin
#2 :: angst | in which hyunjin helps you through your worst nightmare of losing him
han jisung
kim seungmin
#1 :: angst | in which seungmin finds you and lifts you up, even in your darkest moments | TW :: suicidal thoughts, depression
#5 :: fluff | in which seungmin gets jealous of you having fun with your friends, but makes up at the end
yang jeongin
#3 :: angst | in which jeongin loses himself and you help him regain himself
SERIES ::
MISFITS (reader x lee know)
— historical au! | enemies to lovers | adventure
— rating :: pg (as of yet)
— summary :: in which you and minho are travelling bandits who steal things for a living, but he has an uncanny talent for getting in your way and finding where you are. also known as me speed-running the enemies to lovers trope and squeezing it into the span of god knows how many chapters.
— schedule :: updates every tuesday
— chapter 1 | chapter 2 | chapter 3 | chapter 4 | chapter 5 | chapter 6
idek if you use tumblr anymore. personally i only used it in like 2020-2021 during my early kpop phases but maybe people still do
anyways i’ll start off by saying that i hope you’re doing good! (can’t believe it’s already 2023) i also hope you’re feeling better mentally, physically, spiritually, and in any other way possible. these past few years have really been tough. idk what it is but after covid everything’s just sped up. life is just going by so fast and let’s be honest, it’s incredibly overwhelming. that’s why i think it’s so important to take time for ourselves and really understand what’s going on in our minds.
i have no idea why i wrote this as if you know who i am and as if we’ve been friends for years. i just happen to come back onto tumblr today and remembered about your story misfits (which i absolutely adore btw it’s the literal embodiment of gold) and wanted to vomit my thoughts out to a stranger
in any case maybe you’ll see this maybe you won’t but thanks for having this page as an outlet for strangers to vent <3
— a random person who had a lot of her mind (and is also kinda wondering about an update regarding misfits now that she thinks about it)
heyyy!! I'm really sorry I haven't replied to this - I feel like I should've earlier lmao but I've been kind of gatekeeping this ask in my inbox because it made me feel warm and fuzzy all over :)
I hope you're doing well in all the ways possible too - covid really has turned the world upside down twice over and it hasn't been easy for any of us, I'm sure. a lot has happened in the time that passed and honestly I don't think I would've turned out the way that I am if it hasn't happened - but I don't regret it, tbh.
don't stress about suddenly popping into my inbox without warning - I've said multiple times that it's open for anything you want to send in and honestly your ask has made my day multiple times over when I log back onto tumblr to read it, whenever my mental health is hitting rock bottom again :)) I'm glad you decided to take time out of your day to send it in hehe. feel free to chat me up over dms, honestly, because I feel like having an extra friend makes our lives better - but I do want to say I'm using tumblr less and less nowadays
an update about my life? maybe? idk if anyone's interested but essentially I started this blog when I was 18 and now I'm nearly done with university. it's kind of insane thinking about how fast the years have gone by - it almost feels like yesterday when I started this blog in quarantine out of boredom, and now it's two years down the line haha
as for misfits, first of all, thank you for thinking about it and I'm really happy that you still remember the story :) I wrote it when I was chilling around and posted it after a tumblr mutual I made after I created this blog told me to - she's no longer on tumblr or skzblr(?) for personal reasons but I look back on that fondly
about updates, I do intend to continue the story just because so many people enjoyed it, even though I'd admit I don't think it's my best work. I still have my old notebook full of notes and ideas for future skz-centric works, but I guess the reason why I stopped was because I don't really pay attention to skz that much anymore. I admire them as a fledgling artist myself, but I haven't been keeping tabs on them now that I'm starting to explore my own artistic ventures (!!). that said, I still have the plot of misfits in my head, but I guess that having started and continued the story with numerous historical footnotes, I feel like I have to continue doing that and keeping everything as historically accurate as possible haha
but yeah, that's pretty much about it, if I'm posting works here, consider it as writing practice rather than excited squeals about skz. again, I really admire them as people, but it's also because of that that I feel kind of weird writing fanfiction about them. I'm not opposed to the idea of it or other people doing it, I personally just feel more comfortable writing filth about 2D characters (and I do have a sideblog for anime-centric works if you're interested!) I don't think I'll shut this blog down ever because I am proud of what I've created here - and I'm really happy that you view it safe enough to send in a ramble. my inbox is always open if you want to talk more :)) hope you're doing well!
so many ppl say that they can’t see seungmin as an extrovert but i think it’s so obvious. when he’s around others, the way he just lights up is absolutely breathtaking; he shines like the sun on a cloudy morning, clearing away the dense fog of dawn. his smile is dew drops reflecting against the grass and his laugh mirrors a birdsong that so many people can take comfort in.
he also brings out the best in the people around him. there is no lack of happiness and love when seungmin is around; he always manages to spread joy, no matter the place or situation. the sight of skz laughing so hard at seungmin’s antics that they double over warms my heart to the point where i can’t even help but smile to myself. but, the way seungmin looks upon them afterwards, so tender and kind, is saccharine like candied fruit.
seungmin has such a gentle soul, too. the way he never wants to bring down the group’s atmosphere. him turning away after tearing up at the concert will always tug on my heartstrings because he didn’t want stay or the others to see him cry, he didn’t want to make anyone worry.
seungmin teases and makes jokes, but he is always sour before he is sweet. he truly cares for the people he loves, and when he’s with them, he is the most beautifully exuberant, stunningly extroverted person. in every iteration of my life after this one, i think i will adore him just the same.
hihii, i hope you feel better after writing your emotions and situation out like that!! we really appreciate the hard work that went into it, thank you for being comfortable enough with us to share :D also im not sure if this is what you meant by wanting us reply so sorry if ive been mistaken- either way tho, i wouldve said this coz i feel you should know.
what i wanted to say tho, is that if you need to take a super long break from writing or even arent planning on writing skz/kpop related things anymore, thats completely fine. its not selfish or anything, as time goes on youll move on from people and things and find new interests. if you stop writing, it doesnt mean youre being selfish and didnt value our relationship and just easily left. we still have memories together no matter how indirect some were, meaning both sides will cherish it and feel grateful for everything that has been done. i dont wanna sound cheesy or dramatic or anything but thats just how i feel. so go on, do what you love or even just like temporarily, just whatever makes you happy. have fun and live your best life and we'll do the same while still being appreciative of each other.
its obviously not that easy to just stop because theres a fear of disappointment from everyone right? but in the end, youre gonna have to do what makes you happy so you can go through everything and because its your own life and you deserve it. the people who dont have a real "relationship" with you (if you know what i mean? like a connection sort of-) are the ones who may be disappointed for like half a day or even less. then theyll just go on and read other peoples stories like they do. but the people who really feel connected with you and feel grateful for your work will respect your decision and feel happy for you
i know it feels good to make others happy, (even when you have to sacrifice your own things) but thats only a temporary happiness. like doing whatever you like with writing (stopping temporarily, forever or only updating occasionally, etc) wont give you a guaranteed, forever happiness but its the right thing to do and will make life a lot easier
in the end, the choice is yours and your supporters will be happy with whatever you do. also about what you said earlier, whether you are achieving milestones or not, we are proud of you. like ofc it must feel good and being happiness but what do you think is for important in the end? achieving _ amount of followers, updating _ times in a month and getting _ much compliments or working hard, having a good relationship with your followers, both sides loving, caring and encouraging each other? im not saying its a bad thing to update a lot because its hard and stressfull. a lot of effort is needed. but then is it really worth it if youre not doing it for yourself? in my opinion not, but whatever your decision is, i will fully respect and support it :)) im so sorry for this being long or if i sounded rude or passive aggressive or something but i hope you can figure things out and be happy <33
Ahhhh nonnie!! I'm absolutely obsessed with long asks thank you for sending a LITERAL essay in 😫 and no don't apologise for it being long or being rude!! I really love long asks and I absolutely appreciate them <3
I don't think it's less selfishness and more a sense of responsibility to things. Personally (at least that's what I feel) I feel like I've started this project, I should at least have the responsibility to see it through. Of course what it really means to see it through depends on definition, but that's the major reason why I'm not deactivating and just leaving my blog on - so I kind of am still here and my works are still here for whoever wants to read them. That part about being appreciative of each other is really sweet though 🥺🥺 and I appreciate it because I do feel worried sometimes about my content and just kind of screaming into an empty void when there isn't really much reception (yes this is about that attention issue again) I guess I'm still not mature enough to appreciate that relationship where we're just kind of chilling together, but I do think that's a concept to think about so thank you for that :)
Hmhm I do get your point about the connection stuff, except I don't really feel like I've built much of a community here. But I do understand what you're trying to get at! It's just that what you're talking about hasn't really happened for me, so I just feel like I'm leaving an empty nest behind. I don't know if this metaphor makes sense, but it's like this - imagine a bird nest and you keep filling it with things, treasures maybe. Maybe there's even baby birds you've helped raised. But they've all flown away and there's a hole in the middle of it, and you just keep feeling like things are constantly slipping through. I don't know if this even makes sense but that's the image I feel can best describe my feelings about...not just this blog? But my current state as well. Sed hours :(
But of course I'm grateful for anyone and everyone who've felt a connection with whatever I've written or even, god forbid, me :') I know there are people who aren't comfortable sending in asks or anything so my heart and love goes out to everyone who likes my blog 💕
Also I might just be seriously considering turning this blog into an 18+ only thing, only because I've seen people doing hard asks and such and I do want to,,,,try it,,,,haha. But we'll see
And yes! I hope I can figure things out as well but that goes for you too nonnie 😤 take care of yourself and that's a threat
Heyy how have you been lately? You havent posted for a while so i was wondering how you were? Dont feel pressured to write anything tho, if youre not in the mood coz thats completely understandable. Just prioritise your mental and physical health and thats enough to make us happy >:) i hope ur doing well tho!! Good luck for whatever youre doing and eat n sleep well <33
Hi nonnie <3
First of all merry Christmas and happy new year :)) I hope you have a good holiday or at least had a good time with family or friends!
Second of all thank you so so much for sending this <3 I really really needed this message and it came at the best possible time so thank you 😭
The reason why I was putting off answering this ask for so long was because I was thinking about how to go around it exactly. It crossed my mind briefly to do the 'I'm okay and there'll be updates soon!' thing but I know that's not going to be true and I'll just disappoint. So here's a breakdown of what's in my thought process and why I haven't really been writing anything for the past few months :) anyways this is going to be long so take a seat
The major, main reason that I haven't really written anything is life. I've just started my first year at university and while I have studied abroad before, uni is something I really need to get used to because time management is not my forte I tell you ☠️☠️ all academic things aside I'm just operating on a really bad life schedule at the moment which consists of sleeping at 3~5am, not having a social life and trying to make dysfunctionality an art form. Which is not healthy and please don't do this.
However, uni means that I'm also in a really fortunate position to explore some of my other interests, like writing in another medium and performing. Three months into tertiary education and I've already written and assistant directed a play and I really hope to keep going at this, which is why writing on Tumblr is taking a back seat on my priority list at the moment.
That said my creativity hasn't taken a blow (too big of one, anyways) so these are really just excuses tbh. But they do explain my chaotic lifestyle I call a schedule so yeah
Regarding this blog specifically though, I fully intend to get back to writing. I don't want to make any promises because I might just disappoint people anyways, but I do want to continue writing again :) there are just a few things that's stopping me from doing it.
The first is the reception. I know this is going to sound really bad/shallow but I do want to receive recognition for my work. Not even like followers or anything but notes or reblogs or even comments!! I can't reply to comments because this is a side blog but I love them. But yeah. Like obviously I know not posting for a long time and suddenly coming back is not a good equation to have notes all over your work, but the last time I took a break just kind of led to fewer and fewer reception on my blog until it kind of just flatlines. I know there are some of you guys out there who keep coming back and I really appreciate it <3 and I love you guys so much!! Whenever I see your username on my notifs it warms my heart 💕💕 But what I'm saying is I do need those breaks sometimes and when I do feel the motivation to continue writing again then it just gets like a note or two it just sucks :') especially when I look at my mutuals and they're celebrating a milestone - which is great for them and I'm happy they achieved so much!! - but personally it does sting a little. It's kind of trying to not get disappointed by not doing anything, which is a sucky attitude to have but that's one way I'm protecting myself.
Leading onto the reception thing is an...Interaction thing? I don't know if this even makes sense. But essentially I love how content creators keep their blogs going by interacting with followers and answering asks and stuff and I really want to do that too!! But maybe I just don't have enough stuff published or I don't seem as into skz as others do? There aren't many asks in my inbox and it's just sad for me personally :') Anyways yes hi this is seong self pitying hours what's new
My mental health also plays into this a little. I've been struggling with...A lot of issues and this also means that yes, sometimes I'm not in a headspace to write :') However it's not really the writing process so much as a combination of the two mentioned above. Yes, it's tough to write sometimes but when you see people liking your work it pays off. But without the reception or whatever the drain just keeps...going if you know what I mean? Like you don't get what you think you might get and it just sucks, a little. Obviously I don't write for attention - I write for the fandom and for skz but it's just nice to be acknowledged sometimes.
Going into more specific things - the first thing is about my feelings with skz. To clarify I have absolutely nothing against skz, it's just that I've kind of moved on about them. I haven't watched their videos for a long time and what I've heard about Christmas Evel is from that tiktok trend blasting itself all over my ig feed. I'm still in love with those guys, but it's more of a fond reminiscence rather than trying to get into whatever they're doing?? If that makes sense?? I know a lot of creators have continued to create for them in spite of this, but I feel like I might be unable to capture their actual personality in my works if I start writing now. I know it's technically fanfiction anyways but I just feel like I'm not doing them justice. Or maybe I have a perfect grasp of their personalities and my self esteem is just beating me over the head with a stick again. I don't know. But yeah, I still love skz. I saw Felix's purple hair and Hyunjin's very appropriate interaction with Changbin involving his ass *ahem* so I'm not entirely out of the loop. Just kind of distancing myself a lil
I guess this also involves my general attitude towards kpop now? For one thing it's not an active part of my life rn, and I don't really know much about other 4th gen groups like txt or enhyphen that I know other skz creators tend to write about adjacent to skz. This means that I don't really have much to write about other than skz on this, very skz-centred blog. And the thing about me is that I'm very actively interest-hopping around life right now. Currently I'm into Legend of Zelda, Andrew Garfield and astrology which doesn't really make much for content on this very kpop blog so I guess that's also why I'm so quiet. It's just my interests aren't really aligning with the content I usually produce so I'm just sat here ._.
Another thing also is the direction of this blog and the content I make. I know there's a mix of sfw and nsfw work here, and I've allowed minors onto this blog because of this reason. However I've also seen quite a number of minors interact with my nsfw posts even though I've specifically told y'all not to (just to clarify, you're allowed to consume my content. Just don't let me know you're doing it because I'm an adult now and the fact that you reblog it or like it makes me uncomfortable. That's literally it), and I'm hesitant to make this entirely 18+ and publish entirely 18+ work because I do want to include everyone in the fandom!! And also the fact that it's way more effort to write sexy stuff so sometimes the sfw stuff just lets me write without cringing at myself too much :) the angst also makes for a good outlet. But I guess the fact that I lean towards creating sfw content would mean less reception because most people on this site is horny :')
Anyways this has been a really really long post and there's no tldr for this, I'm sorry but you have to read it in full. But yes, thank you so so much for this ask nonnie you have no idea how much this means to me. I'm not doing too well at the moment but I fully intend to get my shit together sometime so hopefully I'll be able to write properly! And I hope you're eating and sleeping well too <3 also please someone reply to this long ass post haha haha I need attention :(
(I also didn't proofread this so if it sounds a bit wonky or it comes off the wrong way I'm so sorry :')
I just want to also add that I'm actually on Tumblr 24/7. I go onto this goddamn website for so long it's not even funny anymore, so in terms of physically being here I am in fact, here all the time. It's just that I sometimes come here to dissociate and send hard asks to my moots to thirst together then literally write nothing.
That said it's also a perfect opportunity to talk to me if you want to so :D
Heyy how have you been lately? You havent posted for a while so i was wondering how you were? Dont feel pressured to write anything tho, if youre not in the mood coz thats completely understandable. Just prioritise your mental and physical health and thats enough to make us happy >:) i hope ur doing well tho!! Good luck for whatever youre doing and eat n sleep well <33
Hi nonnie <3
First of all merry Christmas and happy new year :)) I hope you have a good holiday or at least had a good time with family or friends!
Second of all thank you so so much for sending this <3 I really really needed this message and it came at the best possible time so thank you 😭
The reason why I was putting off answering this ask for so long was because I was thinking about how to go around it exactly. It crossed my mind briefly to do the 'I'm okay and there'll be updates soon!' thing but I know that's not going to be true and I'll just disappoint. So here's a breakdown of what's in my thought process and why I haven't really been writing anything for the past few months :) anyways this is going to be long so take a seat
The major, main reason that I haven't really written anything is life. I've just started my first year at university and while I have studied abroad before, uni is something I really need to get used to because time management is not my forte I tell you ☠️☠️ all academic things aside I'm just operating on a really bad life schedule at the moment which consists of sleeping at 3~5am, not having a social life and trying to make dysfunctionality an art form. Which is not healthy and please don't do this.
However, uni means that I'm also in a really fortunate position to explore some of my other interests, like writing in another medium and performing. Three months into tertiary education and I've already written and assistant directed a play and I really hope to keep going at this, which is why writing on Tumblr is taking a back seat on my priority list at the moment.
That said my creativity hasn't taken a blow (too big of one, anyways) so these are really just excuses tbh. But they do explain my chaotic lifestyle I call a schedule so yeah
Regarding this blog specifically though, I fully intend to get back to writing. I don't want to make any promises because I might just disappoint people anyways, but I do want to continue writing again :) there are just a few things that's stopping me from doing it.
The first is the reception. I know this is going to sound really bad/shallow but I do want to receive recognition for my work. Not even like followers or anything but notes or reblogs or even comments!! I can't reply to comments because this is a side blog but I love them. But yeah. Like obviously I know not posting for a long time and suddenly coming back is not a good equation to have notes all over your work, but the last time I took a break just kind of led to fewer and fewer reception on my blog until it kind of just flatlines. I know there are some of you guys out there who keep coming back and I really appreciate it <3 and I love you guys so much!! Whenever I see your username on my notifs it warms my heart 💕💕 But what I'm saying is I do need those breaks sometimes and when I do feel the motivation to continue writing again then it just gets like a note or two it just sucks :') especially when I look at my mutuals and they're celebrating a milestone - which is great for them and I'm happy they achieved so much!! - but personally it does sting a little. It's kind of trying to not get disappointed by not doing anything, which is a sucky attitude to have but that's one way I'm protecting myself.
Leading onto the reception thing is an...Interaction thing? I don't know if this even makes sense. But essentially I love how content creators keep their blogs going by interacting with followers and answering asks and stuff and I really want to do that too!! But maybe I just don't have enough stuff published or I don't seem as into skz as others do? There aren't many asks in my inbox and it's just sad for me personally :') Anyways yes hi this is seong self pitying hours what's new
My mental health also plays into this a little. I've been struggling with...A lot of issues and this also means that yes, sometimes I'm not in a headspace to write :') However it's not really the writing process so much as a combination of the two mentioned above. Yes, it's tough to write sometimes but when you see people liking your work it pays off. But without the reception or whatever the drain just keeps...going if you know what I mean? Like you don't get what you think you might get and it just sucks, a little. Obviously I don't write for attention - I write for the fandom and for skz but it's just nice to be acknowledged sometimes.
Going into more specific things - the first thing is about my feelings with skz. To clarify I have absolutely nothing against skz, it's just that I've kind of moved on about them. I haven't watched their videos for a long time and what I've heard about Christmas Evel is from that tiktok trend blasting itself all over my ig feed. I'm still in love with those guys, but it's more of a fond reminiscence rather than trying to get into whatever they're doing?? If that makes sense?? I know a lot of creators have continued to create for them in spite of this, but I feel like I might be unable to capture their actual personality in my works if I start writing now. I know it's technically fanfiction anyways but I just feel like I'm not doing them justice. Or maybe I have a perfect grasp of their personalities and my self esteem is just beating me over the head with a stick again. I don't know. But yeah, I still love skz. I saw Felix's purple hair and Hyunjin's very appropriate interaction with Changbin involving his ass *ahem* so I'm not entirely out of the loop. Just kind of distancing myself a lil
I guess this also involves my general attitude towards kpop now? For one thing it's not an active part of my life rn, and I don't really know much about other 4th gen groups like txt or enhyphen that I know other skz creators tend to write about adjacent to skz. This means that I don't really have much to write about other than skz on this, very skz-centred blog. And the thing about me is that I'm very actively interest-hopping around life right now. Currently I'm into Legend of Zelda, Andrew Garfield and astrology which doesn't really make much for content on this very kpop blog so I guess that's also why I'm so quiet. It's just my interests aren't really aligning with the content I usually produce so I'm just sat here ._.
Another thing also is the direction of this blog and the content I make. I know there's a mix of sfw and nsfw work here, and I've allowed minors onto this blog because of this reason. However I've also seen quite a number of minors interact with my nsfw posts even though I've specifically told y'all not to (just to clarify, you're allowed to consume my content. Just don't let me know you're doing it because I'm an adult now and the fact that you reblog it or like it makes me uncomfortable. That's literally it), and I'm hesitant to make this entirely 18+ and publish entirely 18+ work because I do want to include everyone in the fandom!! And also the fact that it's way more effort to write sexy stuff so sometimes the sfw stuff just lets me write without cringing at myself too much :) the angst also makes for a good outlet. But I guess the fact that I lean towards creating sfw content would mean less reception because most people on this site is horny :')
Anyways this has been a really really long post and there's no tldr for this, I'm sorry but you have to read it in full. But yes, thank you so so much for this ask nonnie you have no idea how much this means to me. I'm not doing too well at the moment but I fully intend to get my shit together sometime so hopefully I'll be able to write properly! And I hope you're eating and sleeping well too <3 also please someone reply to this long ass post haha haha I need attention :(
(I also didn't proofread this so if it sounds a bit wonky or it comes off the wrong way I'm so sorry :')
Okay guys I know this is literally so irresponsible of me but I really wanted to share this joy since my life has been a constant trainwreck and nothing seemed to be going smooth but
So there's a kpop society at my university. And they have a showcase coming up.
And I, naturally, signed up to lead a piece.
I pitched skz's 'I'll be your man' (because kingdom, and because I love btob and I actually can sing that song)
And I got called in for an interview tomorrow.
I'M LITERALLY SO EXCITED LIKE I WAS LIKE OKAY I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT AND THEN THIS EMAIL CAME OUT OF THE BLUE AND HOLY SHIT THEY WANT A TASTER OF WHAT IT'S GONNA BE LIKE AND FUCK IF I HAVEN'T SANG FOR LITERAL MONTHS
Shotgunning jisung's and seungmin's lines here we go!!!!
But to be fair, they did say there’s only like 10 vocalists in the society and it’s a really hard song for people with no prior vocal training to sing so I did expect to get rejected
And I checked the lineup list and all of them are dances
But honestly
AnYwAAys I’ll try again next term with Never Ending Story. I think that’s easy enough, right, kids?
Okay guys I know this is literally so irresponsible of me but I really wanted to share this joy since my life has been a constant trainwreck and nothing seemed to be going smooth but
So there's a kpop society at my university. And they have a showcase coming up.
And I, naturally, signed up to lead a piece.
I pitched skz's 'I'll be your man' (because kingdom, and because I love btob and I actually can sing that song)
And I got called in for an interview tomorrow.
I'M LITERALLY SO EXCITED LIKE I WAS LIKE OKAY I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT AND THEN THIS EMAIL CAME OUT OF THE BLUE AND HOLY SHIT THEY WANT A TASTER OF WHAT IT'S GONNA BE LIKE AND FUCK IF I HAVEN'T SANG FOR LITERAL MONTHS
Shotgunning jisung's and seungmin's lines here we go!!!!
19) when it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, ect.?
okay first of all BOLD of you to assume I keep track of all these things because I generally don't on most occasions :D
on a more serious note though, it really depends on the nature of the work - whether it's planned before I start writing, or whether I do the planning after I started. it also depends on how complicated the plot is, and how many characters are in the story.
usually, for stories that have a simple plot - which more or less can be contributed to the small cast of characters - I tend to just have a general idea before just winging it. for example, with 'misfits', I started with 'oh I want to write an enemies to lovers story with minho set in a historical au'. When I started I have a general idea of how it goes - the reader and Minho are thieves (because it's exciting and gives more wriggle room for where events take place plus it gives me an excuse to write fight scenes even though I'm terrible at them), they hate each other because of petty reasons, then something happens (I know what that something is, but I won't say it because spoilers) which gets them back together, and happily ever after. For example. This plot is relatively easy to maneuver around because there are only two main characters - the reader and Minho. And both are relatively easy to write because the 'reader' character is what I make of it - as long as they're not too boring or too perfect, it's generally alright because it's meant to have people see themselves in the character, a blank slate if you will. As for Minho, readers have a general idea of what he's like. And even if I have to think about what he does or what he doesn't do, I can just shape the plot according to him - since he's the central figure of the story and the reason that people read the work.
In this case, when we have such a simple plot, it allows me to twist and turn it however I like. While keeping track of the main plot in my head, I can add random things without being lost because I don't have to think about how it affects other characters (since in larger stories/plots the main cast usually consist of three or more characters, alongside side characters who also impact the plot). For example, the scene where the reader and Minho banters in the marketplace, trying to 'up-trade' each other to show their dynamic, didn't actually exist in my first draft. I'd planned for the reader to be upset about their verbal assault on Minho, but after revising it I decided to add it in. In 'misfits', this doesn't really have much of a consequence on the general plot because it doesn't affect other characters. But in a larger story it does, especially depending on whether there are side characters present in the scene and their reaction to it. For example, if there's a third character in the story - a girl, say, who's in love with Minho and hates the reader - the shift in scenes causes a complexity in the plot. If the reader leaves Sabi without bantering with Minho, the girl will have a chance at being with him, even if he doesn't want to. And if he doesn't want to, he might reveal something about his possible feelings for the reader, albeit unwillingly. But if the reader stayed, the girl will feel jealous and that's more character development. Going back to the original question, it asks the author how one keeps track of the complicated narratives. In the case of a simple narrative, especially when there isn't much foreshadowing being done, it's relatively easy to just develop the plot as it goes. But with a more diverse cast, it's more difficult, and one tends to keep the events as simple as it is so we don't mess up both the character development and the plot. Basically, it unfolds as it goes, without need for remembering.
However, in the case of a more complicated narrative, it makes things more difficult. I'm currently working on a story with fifteen main characters, plus a very complicated plot. This is one of the examples where I have to write stuff down and plan it before I dive into it - in the case of that story, I actually have a notebook dedicated exclusively to it. Character files, plotlines, ideas, everything - I put everything in it, even timelines. But this story is a bit unique because it started with me winging it - which means I need to plan as I go. For example, the plot was initially about the characters needing to find seven treasures that'll give them untold powers, with the fifteen split into two opposing camps. Then I thought it might be a good idea to reunite them behind a shared cause in the future, so I have to think about twisting the story that way. In the case of this story, I divided the plotlines into two categories - the main plot, and the subplots. If you've ever played Breath of the Wild (a Nintendo Switch game), it's the same thing - basically the main character Link has a few categories of quests; main quests, shrine quests and side quests. Ignoring shrine quests because that's not important to our example here, the main quest leads him to defeating the monster and saving the princess, which also helps him complete the game. However, in the process, he also gets side quests, which makes the game more fun for players - side quests make no contribution to the main quest whatsoever, and are initiated by NPCs (non-playable characters) who asks Link to do stuff for them like finding mushrooms or whatever.
Using this example on our story, the main quest is the main plot - the plot of the book, and what the characters have to do in order to solve the central problem of the book to resolve conflict. In the case of the story I've mentioned, the main plot is to find the treasures. In 'Misfits', the main plot is Minho and the reader falling in love. Now, the main plot is the easy thing to keep track of, because it's essentially the soul of your story. It's also the thing that you need to be careful about not tangling into a mess, because once it's messy and incoherent people lose interest. Same if it's too difficult. You want to feed your readers just the right amount of plot to keep them interested, but keep enough back to make them want for more. Which means that everything done to the main plot needs to be simple. That's why you always have to have the main plot in mind when you're thinking of doing things to the subplots, because the main plot is the most important thing in mind. For me, I always have it in my head regardless of what I do. When I change the main plot or when I decide to, it's forever hammered into my head - even the dystopia fic I wrote like three years ago.
Now, the subplots are the stuff that's difficult to keep in mind about, not only because they're related to the characters and there are lots of them, but also because not all of them are actively changing or developing. This is particularly true about a character's back story, because it happens before the main story takes place.
So how do you keep track of the subplots? The simplest and most efficient way is obviously, to write them down but I don’t think you’d like that answer. But that’s really the way to do it, the most easy way. You write down the narratives and make sure each of them lines up. I usually do a graph because it’s much easier.
So yeah, at the end of the day it really depends on how complicated the narrative is, and how many actors/characters are in the cast. Also depends on the changes you’re making - the easiest one to keep track of are changes to the main plot, because you’re manipulating characters to the plotline. But if you’re making changes to the characters it’s much more difficult. Backstory changes are relatively easier because they don’t really...impact the main story much? For example, if I make Minho a prince in ‘Misifts’ (for example), then it doesn’t really affect the main story of falling in love with the reader, but it helps to give depth to his character.
Anyways I’m probably tangling my words but this is generally the gist of it - make small changes and you’ll remember, bigger changes will mean you need to write it down. Hope it answers your question!
me, a science kid, suddenly wanting to take up arts just to write assignments because somehow that seems better than studying 15h+ a day and still not being enough
hyunjin turns, staring at your sleepy figure leaning against the doorway, having gotten up at the hour of 3am. “I woke up, and you weren’t there.”
his heart tightens a little at your words, but he says nothing. you yawn, rubbing your eyes blearily, before your vision clears and focuses. “are you painting?”
“I’m making memories,” he corrects, turning back to his work. hyunjin knows that the moment you saw, you’d understand. indeed, there are no further questions, and the sound of light footfalls alerts him to the fact that you are walking closer, trying to observe. to the normal observer, there’s nothing special - an eye painting, with various tones of purples, blues, and the occasional yellow, barely even a masterpiece, but he knows you’d be able to grasp the full meaning. “I’m worried…” hyunjin struggles to find the correct word, to choose the right phrase to get his ideas across, as his brush stops in its tracks, the periwinkle still hanging off the bristles. “I’m worried I’d forget.”
“oh, hyunjin.” the soft exhale of his name makes him feel warm inside. “this is beautiful.” the lump in his throat doesn’t go away. he tries to articulate an answer, but it dies halfway through. nonetheless, you know. as you always do.
going back to your shared room, you emerge dragging one of the blankets with you, and wrap it around yourself before making yourself comfortable at the foot of his chair. looking up with a small smile, you say, “I’ll keep you company.”
hyunjin returns it with one of his own, the softness in his gaze never wavering. he knows that, with your company, as he journeys through the night recollecting and finding his way through the treasures he has amassed throughout the years, he’ll definitely make it to the end, filling his painting with everything precious close to him, everything he’d held close to his heart and never let go.
@chaninfused thanks for your literal ESSAY in the tags you cannot fanthom the happiness that floods my heart with that little notif on my upper right corner and seeing so much feedback :’)
this is gonna sound a bit sadistic but I’M GLAD YOUR HEART HURTS because that’s the effect I was aiming for!! all the stories in my ‘oh’ series (which, btw, I still need to write for jeongin, felix and jisung) are meant to be bittersweet in nature - I say bittersweet but it’s really more of tugging on your heartstrings kind of thing and leaving you with a sweet sense of sadness??? if that even makes sense?
(anyways yeah if this isn’t a sneaky promo of my other ‘oh’ fics - )
this was also the first work I posted on this site so I’m surprised (but pleased hehe) that you managed to find it!!
but yesh simple -> bittersweet is what I’m aiming for :3 you’re totally not reading too deep into this
