ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย if you could only be what you pretend you are.ย
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if i look back, i am lost

blake kathryn
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
YOU ARE THE REASON

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macklin celebrini has autism
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@litteredcosmos
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย if you could only be what you pretend you are.ย
โง โโโโโ โย โย you ย wait ย for ย the ย lady ย to ย be ย out ย of ย her ย office. ย ย you ย follow ย her ย footsteps ย in ย your ย mind ย ย (you've ย been ย here ย before, ย ย both ย with ย ย && ย ย without ย intention) ย ย halfway ย to ย the ย waiting ย room ย when ย you ย slip ย inside. ย ย the ย room ย is ย so ย quiet, ย ย echoing ย timelines ย of ย ruin. ย ย without ย a ย word, ย ย you ย unzip ย your ย spacesuit ย ย && ย ย remove ย something ย from ย within ย its ย depths.ย a ย vented ย cube ย of ย plastic, ย ย with ย a ย wheel ย that ย turns ย ย && ย ย a ย small ย mammal ย that ย peers ย up ย at ย you ย as ย you ย place ย it ย with ย uncharacteristic ย care ย on ย her ย desk.ย โย ใ@etvidentium
nothing quite feels right anymore .ย
thereโs a saying among her kind that nothing remembers better than glass . usually in reference to the sprawling estates her species inhabits , those of incredibly lengthy lives and embarassingly short recollection times , zaura feels she understands the meaning more than ever . her office is now a wasteland . the trenches have been filled seamlessly ; thereโs no crumbling drywall , no splintered wood , no electrical wires bared to the world . her remotes are all tucked neatly in her righthand drawer , her chair tucked perfectly in place . every last piece of candy is accounted for , with not a crack to be found in its dish .ย
but the land holds the score . it knows something happened here . she can feel it hum and crackle around her , an unearthly aura posessing her better sense to remind her that she has been here far too many times , no matter what the physical evidence may show.ย >her space begs for her memory , desperate to know it too isnโt insane for feeling like itโs no longer whole . her pristine office , her pride and joy , is now as bloated and artificial as a missing hikerโs casket.ย
three weeks ago , she defiantly and discretely stuck a thumbtack into the wall beside her lightswitch ; every morning , she turns on the lights , and lets her fingers brush over the slightly raised surface beside it . nothing has changed in three weeks.ย
nothing had changed in three weeks .ย
the hairs on the back of her neck prickle as soon as she places her hand on the doorknob . something is off - the lights hum residually above her head before she even flips the switch , the air feels freshly turned , and zaura feels the clammy hand of fear wrap firmly around her middle . the room wouldnโt feel like this , she reminds herself sternly , if theyโd reset again . the room would feel new , not refreshed . nothing is different about the room .ย
a squeak of metal from her desk makes her scream , but sheโs fine .ย
zaura studies her new roommate with barely concealed glee the whole day . her inital fear was gotten over almost instantly , replaced with an unsettling amount of joy for an unknown , live package . the hamster has been manhandled , pet , observed intently , and very well fed throughout the remainder of her workday by both herself and her coworkers , and was now crawling around happily within a small maze of old books and office supplies . with no gift label , and no return address , zaura had left the hamster to its cage and own devices overnight , quietly hoping no one would come back to claim it.ย
she checked the thumbtack in the morning , then the hamster . both seemed in good shape , and no one returned to take away the latter. nothingโd changed .ย
she brought a bigger cage in the second day , and it was still there when she returned on the third . it was much easier , she realized , to make sure a hamster was the same than to scan her office every morning .ย
two months into owning the hamster , she took the thumbtack from the wall .ย
she did , however , add a sticky note under her nameplate , bearing the title of puffle , senior lead hamster .ย
if the walls insist on remembering , she hopes they will take as much comfort in him as she does .ย
@litteredcosmos liked for a random shippy starter! โฅ๏ธ
EVER SINCE LADY HAD MOVED IN on Earth IIโs first colony, Mark had put himself in charge of making sure she was as welcomed as possible. He provided for her every need, real and imagined, inviting her to all the game nights and festivals and training exercises her schedule could handle. He thought she loved it. Except โฆ she hadnโt been coming out to anything for almost three days now. Which could mean only one thing. Lady was sick. Shut up in her quarters bored and alone. Unacceptable! So of course Mark had put a little tray together and knocked on her door. When she opened it, he felt stupid just standing there with his dumb tray. โI made your favorite food because you werenโt feeling well,โ he said sheepishly. โUm. I think itโs your favorite. I didnโt do a good job of cooking it but I tried.โ
nearly four days ago , zaura had laid down to sleep and woken up well past nightfall of the following. at first sheโd thought the uncomfortably thick atmosphere around the planet was what was dragging her down ; but body aches and shivers soon followed , little bouts of dizziness and an unpleasantly stuffy face slowing her efforts to a crawlย
leave it to a pack of humans to get one of the most resiliant species sick.ย
it wasnโt unheard of , of course - that wouldโve made this whole ordeal much scarier - just ... rare . zaura and her kind were made to last , through all sorts of icky things . the one and only thing proven to knock down her kin was stress , and anyone who knew zaura knew she was a master at keeping her cool .ย
this kind of stress , sheโd figured , was new . having to , for the first time , mix business and pleasure had become a full time job in itself ; having to spend days mingling and learning all the little quirks of humankind and nights full of paperwork and progress repots left her burning her candle from any place the wax dripped . and , of course , there was the very appreciated stress of learning to wrangle ... advanced feelings for someone . mark , zaura had decided , was the sweetest human in the world . she wished she knew what to do about it .ย
all zaura could do , for the moment , was catch up on rest , alternating eons of sleep with boiling showers and daytime television.
she hadnโt realized how rough she looked ( or sounded ) until sheโd opened up for mark on the third day . she also realized that she hadnโt eaten anything more than the saltine crackers and peanut butter she had smuggled away in her room for quite some time , hence the hungry growl from her middle . lady looked down sheepishly , shuffling her fuzzy-socked feet , and rubbed a tickle from her nose with the sleeve of her robe.ย โ oh . um , i mean - ... you remembered correct , yeah !ย โ her voice cracked uncomfortably . an embarrassed glow was slowly seeping across her face .ย โ itโs , um , itโs okay - iโm not deathly ill or anything . i think . do you ... want to come inside ?ย โย
[ me: Ladyโs clearly inspired at least partway by v / ulcans, why not steal some of their lore for herย
Star t///rek: po///n far..r
me: well no
โง โโโโโ โ ย H E Y ย , ย L A D Y !!
Water Fairy Moon ( g a l e n ย t i p t o n ) ย โง ย instrumental .
Hello Earth ( k a t e ย b u s h ) ย โง ย hello , earth / with just one hand held up high / i can blot you out of sight / peek - a - boo , little earth .
missing home ( n i n e i s h u m a n ) ย โง ย i hope you donโt forget me when youโre traveling the world / youโre a superstar inside my heart and youโre about to blow .
Plastic Love ( m a r i y a ย t a k e u c h i ) ย โง ย when i fall asleep by the highway at dawn / only halogen lights are mysteriously shining / though somebody is whispering iโm an icy cold woman / donโt worry !
I Had Too Much To Dream Last Night ( t h e ย s p a c e ย l a d y ) ย โง ย i had too much to dream last night / ย iโm not ready to face the light .
return trip ( a e r o x o n e ) ย โง ย instrumental .
[ ALU MINIUM MY ASS
Call my muse by their full name, see how they respond.
โง โโโโโ โย โย I know you can manage it, you just donโt have to. โย ใ@theauthorlives
โ well , except , i do . so ... thank you , โ she huffs ,ย โ but i need to get going . like , now . right now .ย โย
except she canโt . and she isnโt . lady stands , and wobbles , and falls right back down onto her bottom . she isnโt in agony , she thinks , just ... off kilter . the pain in her head has spread behind her eyes , her teeth , the bridge of her nose - her ears hum unpleasantly, and twitch at the internal sensation . how hard had she hit her head this time ? it wasnโt the first , nor the last , or even the most recent injury sheโd sustained ( candy red blood still oozed sluggishly under the bandages around her thigh , and had dried to a rusty hue in patches on her shirt ) but it certainly seemed to be giving her the most grief.ย
the words plastered in badges along the manโs clothing swam . even if she could read clearly , this was , in fact , just a human . just an ordinary human , trapped in this godforsaken loop just like her . being cruel didnโt suit her ; so she sighed , dropped her head into one hand , and holstered her blaster with the other. maybe she just ... needed a break , like he was suggesting . ten minutes . what harm could ten minutes do in a land without time ?ย
lady looked up to him , gave him the barest smile , then closed her eyes .ย โ ... maybe not ... right now . is there any way i could get a glass of water ... ?ย โ
โง โโโโโ โย โย yes i love you. iโll get over it.ย โย ใ@jumpinagain
that couldnโt be what he meant . could it ? lady massaged her temple with two spare fingers, expression an amalgamate of confusion and pain . not that any of it mattered now , but she had , at one point , been top of her class for earth language studies . sheโd won the translation bowl biannual six times consecutively . she knew , instantly , what love meant ; what mark meant . she still gave the translation filter at her hip a few solid pats , just in case it needed some sense knocked into it .ย
love . what a deceptively massive word .ย
with a small shake of her head , ladyโs eyes fluttered closed , both hands dropping to her lap . she was so ... tired . not even the disgustingly strong coffee at her elbow was enough to lift her headache - there was nothing that could . not anywhere in the universe ; not even at this diner on the edge of everything . lady lifted her hands , hovered them above the table , clasped them nervously ; she shifted in her seat , tried to say something , said nothing , stared in contempt at the coffee and sweet rolls between them ( mentally decided that next time , sheโd ask for whipped cream on hers ).ย
lady stood , with an amount of awkward scooting out of her booth , and sat beside mark in his . some part of her wanted to lean her head against his shoulder - despite the dust and the years that surrounded them , mark still smelled good somehow , like spice and starlight . she wavered ( nearly surrendered ) , then pulled her coffee across to her . she was exhausted .ย
โ ... mark ,ย โ she speaks , as gently as she can.ย โ you donโt even know my name , do you ?ย โย itโs a fairly low bar for loving someone , she thinks , knowing their name . knowing their story . knowing ... anything .ย โ i ... if anything , you know , itโs more likely that i love you . just - meeting all the technical descriptors , you know , i - i do . i love you . but i donโt ... i canโt believe that you love me .ย โย
send โ to pick up/carry my muse
If a multimuse, specify which muse
๐ต๐พ๐๐ด๐ท๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ ๐๐พ๐๐ฒ๐ท ๐ฟ๐๐พ๐ผ๐ฟ๐๐.
i saw a post. i got excited. i got soft. i got inspired. bon appetit! ( P.S. as always, please do not add more content to this list!!! tell me and i will gladly add more and credit you for them!! )
[ KISS ]:ย ย ย after having kissed the receiver, the sender gently rests their forehead against theirs, still holding them as they do so.
[ HUG ]:ย ย ย having just hugged the receiver after some time apart, the sender touches their foreheads together as a sign of affection.
[ LOVE ]:ย ย ย overcome with their love for the receiver, the sender touches their foreheads together.
[ GREETING ]:ย ย ย the sender brings their forehead to rest against the receiversย in a gesture of greeting.
[ GOODBYE ]:ย ย ย as theyโre bidding each other farewell for the foreseeable future, the sender gently touches their forehead against the receivers.
[ LISTEN ]:ย ย ย in a bid to get the receiver to pay attention to them, the sender brings them close and presses their forehead against theirs.
[ RELIEF ]:ย ย ย having lost sight of the receiver in an intense moment of danger, the sender spots them in the distance, and rushes to them, embracing them and resting their foreheads together out of sheer relief.
[ SAFE ]:ย ย ย in an effort to prove to the receiver that theyโre safe after a particularly traumatic incident, the sender gently rests their foreheads together in a gesture designed to be soothing and reassuring.
[ REAL ]:ย ย ย after believing the receiver to be dead, the sender reunites with them, reaching out in disbelief, then touching their foreheads together to make sure that theyโre real, and not a figment of their grief-stricken imagination.
[ ANCHOR ]:ย ย ย in a moment where stress and anxiety are running high, the sender tries to ground the receiver by gently guiding them into a hug, resting their foreheads together to steady them.
[ COMFORT ]:ย ย ย in a gesture designed to comfort the receiver after an emotional blow, the sender gently closes the distance between them, and touches their forehead against the receivers.
[ STUBBORN ]:ย ย ย thoroughly exasperated by the receiverโs stubbornness, the sender exasperatedly, but fondly, pulls them in for a good old forehead touch.
[ AFFECTION ]:ย ย ย as a fondly affectionate gesture, the sender brings the receiver forward and rests their foreheads together.
[ INTENSE ]:ย ย ย in a moment where romantic tensions are running high, the sender leans forward to kiss the receiver for the first time, then changes their mind, and rests their foreheads together to disguise their original intentions.
[ EXHAUSTION ]:ย ย ย having just overcome a massive obstacle (e.g. using a massive display of their powers, fighting through a sizable army, embarking on a perilous journey, writing up a PhD thesis etc.) the sender and receiver reunite, and the sender drops their head forward to rest against the receivers, thoroughly exhausted but glad to be reunited at last.
UNREQUITED,ย FALSE ASSUMPTIONSย &ย PININGย PROMPTSย
TO EACH OTHER
โย i love you.ย and i know you donโt feel that way about me and thatโs okay i just.ย i wanted to get to say it at least once.ย โ
โย what are you talking aboutโย ย of course i love you?ย โ
โย but i do love you.ย i always have.ย i just thought you didnโt feel that way so i never said anything.ย โ
โย look iโฆi do care about you.ย a lot.ย and i wish i could love you that way.ย i really do but i just,ย iโve never seen you like that.ย โย
โย โฆyou love me?ย โย
โย why didnโt you ever say anything?ย ย โ
โย i did!ย i loved you.ย and i thought you didnโt feel that way so i moved on.ย iโm with someone now.ย whyโฆwhy did you wait so long?ย โ
โย why did you wait so long to tell me how you feel?ย โ
โย i love you!ย ย okay?ย ย iโve been so fucking in love with you for longer than i can remember.ย โ
โย you should have told me how you felt.ย โ
โย actually iโฆthere was a little while there where i had this horrible crush on you.ย if iโd known this was how you were feeling i wouldโve gone for it.ย โ
โย please donโt say it.ย i know you donโt love me.ย i donโt expect you to,ย but just.ย donโt make me have to hear you say it.ย โ
โย iโve loved you for so longโฆi donโt remember what it was like to not be in love with you.ย โ
โย i canโt say no to you.ย and itโs just not fair.ย ย โ
โย please,ย donโt be cruel.ย i love you.ย like really love you.ย so if iโm just some passing curiosity for youโฆdonโt.ย donโt say anything at all. โ
โย you donโt get it.ย i want the whole package with you. i donโt wanna be some fling you forget about in a few months.ย โ
โย do you know how long iโve waited for you?ย โ
โย i donโt need you to love me back.ย i just want you to be able to accept that this is how i feel.ย โ
โย why did you think i wouldnโt love you back?ย โ
โย will you just slow down a minute!ย iโm trying to tell you i love you too.ย โ
โย i wouldnโt have been messing around with anyone else if i knew about this sooner.ย โ
โย will you stop crying so i can kiss you already?ย โ
โย honestly iโd never thought about itโฆi just need time to think it over.ย โ
โย i hadnโt ever taken the time to think about it.ย butโฆthat doesnโt mean i couldnโt love you.ย โ
โย i just need to know.ย do you love me?ย or have i just been making this all in my head?ย โ
โย i love you.ย please donโt say anything yet.ย you donโt need to say anything. โ
โย noโย they werenโt lying.ย i do.ย i love you.ย but i didnโt want you to find out like that.ย i didnโt want you find out at all,ย actually.ย โ
โย look can you just forget about it?ย okay?ย yeah iโm in love with you.ย big deal.ย it happens.ย โ
โย yes i love you.ย iโll get over it.ย โ
โย are youโฆare you really over me?ย cause,ย thatโd actually really suck because iโm not over you.ย โ
โย look,ย i know you love me.ย but you shouldnโt.ย โ
โย you are far too good to love someone like me.ย youโll find someone better.ย โ
TO/FROM A THIRD PARTY
โย if thatโs how you feel about them why not just say it?ย take a chance.ย wouldnโt you rather know one way or the other?ย โ
โย this whole time i didnโt see themโฆi didnโt see what was right in front of me and now it might be too late.ย ย โ
โย i love them so much it hurts.ย โ
โย love shouldnโt hurt this much.ย this whole thing is just consuming you in a way that isnโt healthy.ย โ
โย you either need to make a move or let them go.ย โ
โย this isnโt good for you.ย you canโt keep pouring yourself into someone who doesnโt even know you exist.ย โ
โย you do see how they look at you,ย right?ย โ
โย donโt you realize theyโve been in love with you for years?ย โ
โย they love you,ย dumbass.ย โ
โย look iโm so fed up with everyone knowing you two love each other except you.ย go kiss them or shut the fuck up about it.ย โ
โย just take a chance.ย you might be surprised.ย โ
ACTIONS/SCENARIOS
[ CONFESSION ]ย for sender to interrupt receiverโs confession of love by kissing them.ย
[ CONFESSED ]ย for receiver to interrupt senderโs confession of love by kissing them.ย
[ STOP ]ย for sender to try and walk away,ย afraid theyโre going to get their heart broken but receiver grabs their wrist and pulls them back in for a kiss.ย
[ STOPPING ]ย for receiver to try and walk away,ย afraid theyโre going to get their heart broken but sender grabs their wrist and pulls them back in for a kiss.ย
[ CONFRONTING ]ย for receiver to confront sender after a third party told receiver that sender is in love with them.ย
[ DRAMATICS ]ย for a near death experience to drive receiver to confess their feelings to sender.ย
[ SEE ]ย for receiver to be hurt and realize sender loves them because of the way theyโre taking care of them.ย
[ EAVESDROP ]ย for receiver to overhear a conversation where sender talks about their feelings for them.ย
[ HUSH ]ย for sender to ramble about their feelings and how they know it isnโt requited only for receiver to put a hand over their mouth so theyโll be quiet long enough for them to explain they love them too.ย
[ AWAKEN ]ย for receiver to not think they feel the same way but realize after a simple hookup with sender that theyโre in love with them to.ย
[ CASUAL ]ย for sender to want to sleep with receiver to get it out of their system.ย but receiver winds up catching feelings to because of it.ย
[ TENSION ]ย for muses who have been pining for each other to finally have sex for the first time.ย
[ BREAK ]ย sender canโt take it anymore and kisses receiver out of nowhere.ย
[ FREE ]ย receiver canโt take it anymore and kisses sender out of nowhere.ย
[ TRY ]ย sender has confessed their feelings and receiver tries kissing them to see how they feel.ย ย
[ TRYING ]ย receiver has confessed their feelings and sender tries kissing them to see how they feel.ย
Sorry i havent been able to draw anything when it dame out I was pooped but I DID make art for this occasion
โค๏ธ๐งจReblogs are highly appreciated :]๐งจโค๏ธ
Itโs a pleasure to meet you! ~
the idea of picking up a man taller and stronger than me and spinning him around like he weighs nothing.... immaculate
But I don't want to see the stars if they're just one more piece of land For us to colonize, for us to turn to sand
high pain tolerance starters
โ[Name], youโre bleeding.โ
โHow long has it been like that?โ
โDid you dislocate a finger?โ
โYouโre slurring.โ
โThey say you almost died. You left it that late.โ
โYouโre snapping. Headache again?โ
โYouโre in a bad mood. Are you in pain?โ
โWhy didnโt you say anything?โ
โHey, why are you walking like that?โ
โThatโs a lot of swelling.โ
โWhere did you get that bruise?โ
โWhose blood is that?โ
โWhen you say your painโs โ4 out of 10โฒ, thatโs a normal personโs โ8 out of 10โฒ. Weโre going to the hospital.โ
โHow did you not notice?!โ
โIf it hurts, it hurts.โ
โI know you can manage it, you just donโt *have* to.โ
โHoly shit, how long have you had this?!โ
โ[Name]? [Name]! Hey!โ
โWeโre a team. You need to tell me about this sort of thing.โ
โThatโs โฆ a lot of blood, is that - oh, fuck.โ
โHey! Hey! Stay awake, okay? Stay awake.โ
โIt would have been a lot easier to treat if youโd mentioned it sooner.โ
โYou canโt keep hiding this stuff.โ
โI need to be able to trust you to tell me when youโre hurt.โ