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That's me, your big fat hero! | Kamryn | He/Him | 22 | | Vent sideblog ~ @Rabies-mp3 |

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Fellas, is it gay to keep your lab partners consciousness intact in a world designed to mesh all beings into one?

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ARTFIGHT 2026!! 🎭💧🌀

Can’t believe it’s already time for another Art Fight; all profile information is in my bio! Here's to our fourth year together--come get me! •｡🌀* ☆

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Fell in Love With a Girl

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Just booked my first HRT appointment for the morning I leave for the My Chemical Romance concert…. We are the kids from yesterday <3

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ART FIGHT YEAR THREE! WOO!

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"Dennis?" "It's a long story, but actually I prefer Denise if you don't mind." "Okay."

It's called Twin Peaks for a reason, because it's PEAK.

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The worst part of "Mickey 17" was the drive home, when my mother asked me to tell her my favorite part.

The only two viable options bouncing around in my head were "Robert Pattinson self-cest" and "Robert Pattinson looking deliciously pathetic"; neither of which can be said to your own mother.

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The first band I ever listened to of my own volition was Radiohead, and I was thirteen years old.

This sums up just about every peculiarity about me.

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I fear I may be a bit too multifaceted. Perhaps only one or two facets would serve me just as well.

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For those following along at home, here's the score:

My mother has been rushed to the emergency room twice in two months, and has three scheduled surgeries on the docket. I am acting as her primary support and caregiver during this time.

My car has broken down a dozen times. The mechanic has sworn they cannot find anything wrong with it.

My older brother has advised that it may be time to purchase a new vehicle entirely.

I was notified last week that my job will be shutting down at the end of this month.

Said job just had its roof cave in, putting me out of work for the next week. Half of my final paycheck will be lost.

My older sister will be giving birth to her sixth child this week. She has requested my assistance in caring for her other children during her recovery.

Valentine's Day is on the horizon, and I must once again perform my annual tradition of sending personalized cards and gifts to all my immediate friends.

I am currently working through exam season. Exams for a college education that I am putting myself through.

This is not to mention the average day-to-day monotony I must attend to; in regards to both my own personal care and hygiene *and* my performance of social relationships.

And, though I know it's hard to forget, I am still very much autistic - and very much suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder and an eating disorder.

If you see me on the street this month, please, put a bullet through my brain. I fear it is the only way to swiftly solve all my problems at once.

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Spoiler warning for Severance season 2 episode 4

So, can we all agree that Helly R. was effectively raped?

Yes, Mark S. was lied to by Helena and used as a vehicle to fulfill her desire for affection and intimacy. He was very much sexually assaulted by Helena; he was coerced under false pretenses to have sex with her.

But Helly R. is Helena, she was part of that interaction too. That is Helly's body too. Helly R. was forced to have sex with Mark S. through the actions and abuse of power from Helena.

Helena Eagen managed to orchestrate the simultaneous sexual assault of two separate individuals. Even with the vulnerability we saw from her throughout this episode, she still benefits from the control granted from being an Eagen. She benefits from the power she denies and resents.

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What if your mom was in and out of the hospital for months [with you acting as her primary support], your car was constantly breaking down [with mechanics insisting nothing is wrong], your job was shutting down [which you've been at for the past two years], and you were putting yourself through college...

...and your brain decides to say "Hey! We should look into getting on hormone therapy. :-)"

SILENCE, BEAST!

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What if you were just trying to make it through the day, and then your subconscious decides to hit you with --- "Hey, remember when your dad died in a horrific motorcycle accident? Remember how you were only freshly nineteen when it happened? How you gave the eulogy at his funeral? Remember all that?"

Awesome. If you come by my coffee shop this morning, feel free to punch me in the face.

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Had the most horrible dream last night.

I was standing in the hallway outside my bedroom with my mother and dog. My dog, Milo, was begging for me to play with him. So, I reached down and scooped him up into my arms.

What happened next is hard to explain. Essentially, I started using my dog as a hula-hoop; whipping him around my body at various heights and speeds. I can't provide any further clarity as to what had happened, as it was just one big blur of motion.

When I set Milo down, he was completely disfigured. It looked as though his spine had twisted around itself. He was a mess of exposed muscle and organs - a bundle of bloody fur on shaking paws.

His face was horrible. He looked like that one atrocious taxidermied lion, from Gripsholm Castle. His breathing was exceptionally labored, he sounded like he was in agony. A cacophony of death rattle and agonal breathing.

I was mortified. I stood in shock staring at my beloved Milo, reduced to a distorted mass of a creature. All the while my mother is laughing hysterically.

I desperately tried to communicate with her, to convince her that we needed to get him to the Emergency Room; we needed to save him from this horrible sin I had committed. But she was too busy laughing to listen to me.

The dream ended when she finally calmed down enough to assure me he would return to normal with time. I was so shocked by her response that I woke up. It was just past midnight. I still needed to sleep for five more hours.

If anyone is into dream analysis, feel free to drop your interpretation below! As far as I can tell, no one on the internet has experienced anything remotely similar to "Dog hula-hoop disfigurement". Milo, I love you. I would never do that to you. :-(

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I’m losing my mind. I want to reach out to someone, but it will just drive me further away from them if they offer advice. I *hate* being given advice about my troubles.

I know what to do to make things better, I just want someone to reassure me that I’m on the right path. Someone giving me advice feels like the highest degree of condescention; like they believe I’m the biggest, most incompetent imbecile on the planet.

I also don’t want to have to *say* that I don’t want advice, because it feels like I’m wedging a massive stone between both parties. Like they’ll halt from helping me altogether if I clarify my precise needs.

AUUUGHHHHH. AAAAAGHHH…. Bury me in a far off land where I might find an ounce of reprieve from this miserable world. Turn my bones to sand and gift them to the Heavens, and I’ll tell you what I find. Ashes to ashes.

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The Toast of Mayfair, Fräulein Sally Bowles!

I have been obsessed with the 1993 production of 'Cabaret' recently. As someone pursuing a degree in religious and political studies, the implications it has on contemporary America has me bewitched.

I wanted to juxtapose the vibrant party life of Berlin, represented here in her sultry pose and flashing lights, with the reality of an ever-present Nazi regime, shown through her pained expression.

The "ich liebe dich" tattoo on her arm is a reference to the 1993 depiction of Sally Bowles, during which her performance of "Don't Tell Mama" showcases her licking the very same lollipop.

The mascara dripping from her eyes is meant not only to symbolize the horrors of Nazi Germany, but to call upon the pain she experiences from undergoing an abortion.

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It's Brookie!

I have been fanatically following an "OC's but poorly explained" series on TikTok recently, and felt called to draw one of the characters! The series is by @/jvrozx on TikTok, and @jvrozx here on Tumblr. Go check them out; their series makes me smile.

I hope you like it! I don't typically draw male characters - and certainly not characters with short hair - so it was a bit of a fun challenge for me.

(If you can see the smudge from my scanner, no you can't :3)