Shhh...

This is my fannish mental illness blather/fanfiction blog. Not always fannish, not always mental. Possible triggers, be aware, but mainly a lot of sadstuck and other fandom's character's profiling and headcanons. (Loiat was formerly a contentless fanfic blog)

[eclectic-bass]

When your friends are savage @loiat

[abandonedloveseries]

[loiat]

"See you..." He'd said it incredibly quietly, still standing sheepishly in the kitchen, feeling giddy like a fool. She was nice, Equius, and it meant nothing. She would likely call the police in the morning. Still, he let himself have hope as he trailed back into his own dark bedroom, taking his glasses off and setting them on the empty nightstand, then closing the door. Encased in blackness, he felt his way over to the bed and climbed on top of the covers as he always did, curling up to lay there and think. It had been the first time in months that he had something happy to think about, and he smiled to himself as he laid there, thinking childishly of her pretty face, her long hair, and her graceful step. Steadily, he gathered the towel that laid in his bed with a sigh, and pressed it to his face, mumbling something to it before pushing it away. He may have even slept a few hours, but not long enough. Still, something.

“04280F74-35A0-4C26-A0E2-9E6818948695″ Cherubplay

[khakisnorgle-deactivated2016072]

Do you think (or headcanon) anyone in dn with mental disorders? (despite light's obvious initial depression). I saw something somewhere about Misa having an eating disorder since in one episode she eats a strawberry sundae and then she says later that cake makes you fat. And what about L? i can't see anything on him, but it would be interesting... i'm sorry if this is a silly question, and if i used any inappropriate terms by the way!

in-depth discussion of mental illness under the cut.

Keep reading

[screeches]

[darkhist]

glow blog

[loiat]

Guess who is requesting the saddest, most heart wrenching Sollux+Feferi+Eridan polyamory where Feferi drowned and died and its just Sollux and Eridan

I need an Answer.

Breakfast had become a ritual between them all, at Feferi’s request, even though the magic had died and the dust had settled down to it just being Eridan and Sollux, at a table like two gay lovers with insatiable hatred for each other in the most sitcom, harmless way possible. Feferi really was what made it special, being the food on the table, now replaced by Eridan’s cartoned latte mix and milk and Sollux’s microwaveable sausage biscuit that always smelled pungently of mustard that was never applied to it.

The silence was noisy, and even the air vents in the house emitted no breath, everything held at a standstill. Formaldehyde kept the corpse from rotting, her beautiful face still laying in that silk-lined box, her lips painted pink, her face blushed for her. Her mom took time off of business fully, finally; her sister wore a skirt. Feferi could have made anything possible. Hell, she made these two buffoons cohabitate with her in her polyamoric triangle that took years of talking about, thinking about, and building to, just to keep Sollux and Eridan from immediately cutting each other to ribbons.

“So…” Eridan began, after a sip of the warmed drink in the mug from the marina he visited with his father in middle school.

“So what, asshat?” Sollux snapped back at him, hardly entertaining the moment with as much sorrowful submission as Eridan seemed to be satisfied with.

“Jesus Christ, Sol. I’m just tryin’ to be civil. Neither of us really w-wants ta move out, and I don’t feel like movin’ quickly. If we gotta live together, I wanna talk.”

“I don’t, dipshit. Don’t try. Let’s eat our food and go to work and do all that other shit without you trying to talk to me and pissing me right the fuck off. I don’t care what you want. I’m not here because of you.”

“Shut up. Just shut up.”

“You know what? No. I’m not going to shut up. We’re gonna talk to each other if that’s what you want so bad, and we’re going to get along so Feferi doesn’t feel stressed out and go back to that little campground on the lake she used to love as a kid and-”

“Sol, I swear to God-”

“-break her fucking neck on a fish habitat beside a fucking fishing dock and go missing for a whole day before kayakers find her body. I don’t want to know how the mortician got that bloat off of her-”

“Stop it! Sol, I’m not going to make you talk and I don’t want to talk about Fef today.”

“So sensitive! Oh! Woe is me! Eridan Ampora needing more pampering!”

“Fuck you. Fuck you.”

“Wouldn’t you love to?”

[postitforward]

World Suicide Prevention Day 2016

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day.

No matter what you are going through, you don’t have to go through it alone. There are resources available to help.

Please don’t hesitate to reach out if you need it, Tumblr.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Available 24/7 at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

Crisis Text Line: Free, 24/7 support for anyone in need. Text START to 741741.

IMALIVE: Chat confidentially with a volunteer trained in crisis intervention.

7 Cups of Tea: Speak anonymously with a trained active listener.

American Psychological Association: A resource for finding mental health care in your area.

NEDA: Help and support for people struggling with eating disorders. You can call 1-800-931-2237 or chat with them online.

To Write Love On Her Arms (@twloha): Dedicated to helping people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide.

You Matter (@youmatterlifeline): You Matter was created to let people know that suicide is preventable.

NAMI (@namiorg): Dedicated to improving the lives of anyone living with mental illness. Free to chat at 1-800-950-6264.

The Trevor Project (@thetrevorproject): Confidential suicide hotline for LGBTQ+ young people. Available 24/7 at 1-866-488-7386.

It Gets Better Project (@itgetsbetterproject): Communicating to LGBTQ+ youth around the world that it gets better.

[lem0urohasmoved-deactivated2022]

I’m on Patreon!

So, as most of you know, my father recently lost his job, and will likely be no longer able to support me or my college education.

So, in light of this, I’ve just launched my own Patreon Page! Ta-dahhhh look at dat ish omg kafhafhaklhfdasf (I had planned on launching it later, but  because of recent events, now seems to be the best time)

There are a lot of comics and projects I have planned to share with you all, but without support, none of them will become a reality. So here’s where you can help!

Supporting me on Patreon will not only allow me fund my art and let me continue doing the thing I love, but it will also help me to continue my education! Your pledges will help me afford art supplies, allow me to move out of my parents house, pay rent and buy food, and most importantly, let me keep creating content for you to enjoy!

HOW PATREON WORKS:

Below I have a run down of all the pledge rewards. If you decide to pledge, then your pledge will be processed during the first week of the NEXT MONTH (thats how Patreon works at the moment) Once your pledge is processed, you get access to everything listed in your pledge tier for as long as you pledge! :D

Here are the different Pledge Tiers:

You’re supporting me, and that’s a big deal.

You’ll get:

Access to the Patreon activity feed Here you can more actively engage with myself, view some patron-only rough sketches and doodles, as well as get early info on new and up-coming projects!

Hi-Res JPGs Download the latest finished works in their original dimensions.

You’re supporting me even more, and that’s AMAZING!

You’ll get access to:

Monthly Sketchbook PDF Every month you’ll get a PDF download of the latest digital and traditional sketches, doodles, drawings, & studies!

Works-In-Progress Preview WIPS of illustrations, concept art for comics, WIP comic pages, & more.

PLUS all previous pledge rewards:

Access to the Patreon activity feed

Hi-Res JPGs

You’re supporting me a LOT, which makes YOU awesome!

You’ll get access to:

Comic PDFs Whenever a comic is completed, you will get to download it a day before it’s put up on Gumroadand at no extra cost!

Videos & Tutorials Get to view time-lapse videos of my art processes as well as step-by-step tutorials of how I draw things.

Poll Privileges Vote on topics that you want me to make tutorials or videos about and more!

NSFW Art PDFs Lucky you! You get to view the latest NSFW sketches and drawings all together in a monthly downloadable PDF!

PLUS previous pledge rewards:

Access to the Patreon activity feed

Hi-Res JPGs

Monthly Sketchbook PDF

Works-In-Progress

You’re supporting me a TON, and that makes you incredibly cool.

You’ll get access to:

Monthly Drawing Request Livestream Every month for an hour and a half I’ll be taking your drawing requests live! Request the thing, I’ll draw the thing before your very eyes. (Will be scheduled once or twice a month)

PSD Layered Files Download layered files to get a closer look at how I put my art together!

PLUS previous pledge rewards

Access to the Patreon activity feed

Hi-Res JPGs

Monthly Sketchbook PDF

Works-In-Progress

Comic PDFs

Videos & Tutorials

Poll Privileges

NSFW Art PDFs

This is a HUGE amount to be supporting me every month, and for you to do so shows some serious love. Thank you so much! You’ll get:

EARLY ACCESS TO COMICS You get to view finished comic pages and immediately read and download fully finished comics at no extra cost a WEEK before they are put onGumroad.

Name will be featured in all projects You will be credited in every comic and major project released.

Option to have OC’s featured in projects Some comics will need crowds or lots of background characters; how would you like it to be your OC’s? Whenever I need to put in extra characters, you have the option to have it be one of your OC’s!

Monthly Google Hangouts w/ Q & A Twice every month for 45 minutes each  come chill with me in an invite only Google Hangout and ask me anything that you wanna know!

PLUS previous pledge rewards:

Access to the Patreon activity feed

Hi-Res JPGs

Monthly Sketchbook PDF

Works-In-Progress

Comic PDFs

Videos & Tutorials

Poll Privileges

NSFW Art PDFs

Monthly Drawing Request Livestreams

PSD Layered Files

—

So there you have it! If you decide to pledge, thank you so much! This really helps me a lot, more than you can understand. ;_;

I’ll see you on Patreon! <- (click to head to my Patreon Page)

If you decide not to (and I completely understand) then please signal boost this! i appreciate it a lot TT^TT

[lora-mathis]

Emotional abuse works like this: You are screamed at, and then, not knowing any better, you stand up for yourself. You think this is a way of being strong. You think this is a defense tactic.But this only provokes more screaming. Going silent provokes more screaming too, but usually it keeps the threats to the minimum. It keeps it just at screaming and not: a shove down the stairs, or order to pack your stuff and get out. So you learn how to go silent. How to play dead. How to cry without making a noise. How to swallow noise. How to wipe your cheeks, get out of the car, and go about your day. You learn. And when the screaming has stopped, when the two of you are in the car or out to dinner and they’re all smiles, all asking for favors, all questions, you are still hurt and annoyed and want to ask them, how? How can you speak to me like that? How can you pretend you did not say those things? How can you have forgotten? But you’ve learned. So you listen to, “Can I borrow your key”s and “how was your day”s and you play dead. You swallow the noise. And sometimes it doesn’t matter who is speaking to you, it doesn’t matter if they’re a friend, it doesn’t matter if their criticism is constructive, it doesn’t matter. You’ve learned. Any sort of speaking, any raising of the voice, any insult and you play dead.

Good Girl, Lora Mathis (via cylon)

[s3xnoise]

are u ever simultaneously having a good time and on the verge of an extreme mental breakdown 

[world-abyss-pit]

Reblog Money Pidgey within 30 seconds and you will be blessed with all the rare Pokémon for the next seven days.

[oshihidra-deactivated20181203]

update: I opened Go after reblogging this and there was a fucking cp362 Venomoth in my front yard. thank you money pidgey.

[resintears]

I ONLY LIKED THIS AND I OPENED GO AFTER CLOSING TUMBLR AND I CAUGHT A CP350 EEVEE IN MY YARD NOW IM BACK TO REBLOG MONEY PIDGEY

[feralcroissant]

Sure why not? Let’s do this

[probably-dissociating-again]

Holy shit I caught a CP588 Golem

[ichorx]

[thoughts-memories]

[hsdatingsim]

Reblog if you’re a Homestuck!

Hey there Homestucks. 

We at this blog are creating a Homestuck Dating Simulator, free to play. I would like to ask you if you could do us the honor of reblogging this post when you see it and also follow this blog. That would be very much appreciated. 

I would like to see this become a huge project with a lot of people playing the game when it’s released. The demo we hope will be released sometime during this summer while the full game will follow after that. 

The game is where you, the Homestucks, are put into the world of Homestuck and get to date any of the 8 characters that were chosen by the people who knew about this. Subsequently, after the original full game is released, there is a possibility, depending on the reception of the game, of more routes being added for the other characters that weren’t chosen. 

What I want you the Homestucks to do is to reblog this to signal boost and then follow this blog so you can get updates for the game as well as links to download the game when it comes out. 

tl;dr: Please Signal Boost. Homestuck Dating Simulator. Reblog if your a Homestuck. Spread the word. 

[sometipsygnostalgic]

A note about projecting:

It’s no secret that, with fictional characters, writers and readers alike project themselves onto their problems. Whether this is the “sensible” thing to do is up for debate, but it is a fact of society right now. Especially for those who feel down about IRL situations and use fiction as an escape.

Both the writer and the consumer, under this scenario, hand each other a piece of themselves. The writer trusts the reader not to mock their work, the reader trusts the writer not to mess up their character.

The question is, should they be trusted? Can we rely on writers to handle the viewer’s emotions with care? Or will they take advantage of the connection to actively wound the viewer? Or will they just… not notice?

Perhaps I’ll talk more about author projection some day soon, maybe when I have more experience of my own. For now, let’s focus on viewer projection.

Keep reading

[loiat]

I will not say I agree with all of these points, but this is an interesting facet of the relationship between psychology and artistry, to say the least. It certainly exists to a point, no matter to what extent a person realizes projecting and fiction kinship.

[loiat]

[Let's play a game: Guess which Character] Insomnia eats again in currents kept live, the only lever controlling it hopelessly stuck in activation. Never in flux, never fading; I reach no state of slumber and no chances to ever become all deaf, blind, and dumb to the path my reality has taken. I do not mind it, but the realm around it grows all the more irrational by day. It is a wonder it had not reverted to instability much earlier. It is times like these that I am truly small, without the boost of bodies below or important figures to please to gain my fame. I am small, singular, and solitary, alone in a sea of expansive nothing.

[ask-centaurstesticle]

D –> Yes but imagine D –> Narupeta and Sasukequius