[lolwishiwasdead]

oh and before I forget liking someone is the absolute worst cause idk if im crushing this guy or not but I think I am and he spoke to my friend who's the definition of white blonde mc she's literally all of that except blonde and anyways cue feeling like heather 

[lolwishiwasdead]

its getting so hard and idk who to approach anymore. idk what to do anymore. I feel like im so alone and worst is I talk to so many people and the only thing I think is that this is all fake. they're all fake and no ones real because the someone who was real I fucked up and hurt her and left her (again) and pretended I didnt care and maybe I dont but I feel so alone all the time. All I want is a sense of belonging somewhere thats all. 

[lolwishiwasdead]

TW

no cause my mum asking me what the hell is wrong with me and not in the good “I care about you” kind of way but in the “I dont like your behaviour because you are not smiling at us and have a frowning face and you look dead all the time, youre sleeping a lot and eating a lot and oh im now going to make fun of your weight and give you shit for it because how fucked up is that you aren't perfect. Idc that youre displaying pure signs of being in depressions but I cannot tolerate you being on your phone and no one asked you to be a position holder in the committee you so dearly love and its all your fault idc” way which lead to me telling her its actually nothing to do with me being a committee president but our professors are shit and im trying so hard but I cannot seems to be good enough for anything at this point. I always seem to be lacking something and its all fucked and its just my academics are getting too much and I need a fucking break cause my own professors dont know what they're teaching us  which lead to her telling me its all my fault and I need to do this better like do you really think im not fucking trying? im sorry for not giving you a fucking smile and idc how prepared I am I have a fucking anxiety disorder and I need help for that. you have no idea how many times ive considered doing something to myself because it just gets loud. and you think its because I just watch my favourite variety show at all times? well thats the only thing making me happy lately. I need a break from you and everyone and im seriously having a sensory overload trying to live up to everyones expectations of me and im scared of judgment to which she yelled and pointed out all my physical flaws saying how im so fat or im so ugly or how im so lazy idk why she needs to point that out. like ik this you aren't helping me she really just stood up and said “id say try harder” and then went to sleep like lol thanks for nothing I guess. 

[romcommunist]

people are saying everything is a love language nowadays. and they right. love is in everything u fucking geniuses

[kvrs-deactivated20220420]

do not fix your dark circles let the world know youre tired of its shit and ready to kill a man

[meangirlnurse]

anyone else remember being a child and seeing the very neat handwriting of other little girls and somehow knowing that you were a different genre of person than they were

[adhighdefinition]

no one ever talks about the part of adhd where everyone in your class has got their group of friends and you’re just there, mindlessly tagging along with anyone who is willing to put up with you for a few minutes. either you’re too loud or too quiet. if you’re lucky, it won’t affect you much. you’re a loner, so what? but then the moments come around where you find yourself yearning to be like the others. you’re not depressed, why would you be? you’re a child who just happens to be a little different. sure, you’re usually the last choice when it comes to groups and you’re rarely, if ever, invited to birthday parties but… it’s alright. everything is fine. or is it?

[adhighdefinition]

for the people questioning whether this really is part of adhd or not

[skipinouterspace]

…..

[lolwishiwasdead]

I-

[soracities]

How will the world end?

it’s genuinely not something i think too much about. there are people to love and dishes to do in the meantime.

[abnormall]

[lolwishiwasdead]

I was genuinely so happy and did not rant here about depressing shitty stuff of my life for I think a year?? idk but literally one fucking sentence threw away all the work I did on myself and shits bad again.

Seriously its so fucked up how one statement or one conversation can throw you back to square one

[identifiedasawhat]

why the fuck do i keep trying to be human

[lolwishiwasdead]

lol not me going back to my suicid*l ways haha

[writing-prompt-s]

A dating service where matching is based on people’s search history exists. You’re a serial killer. You go on a date with a writer.

[endreams-s]

Serial Killer: metaphorically, if you were to kill someone, how would you do it?

Writer: Air shot between the toes, it’ll look like a heart attack.

Serial Killer who is obviously in love already: *sucks in a breath* ok

[honeypressed]

Writer: how long would it take to die if you were to potentially stab someone in the guts

Serial killer: anywhere from 2 to 30 minutes

Writer, already bringing a ring out: *shaking* thanks

[moonreflectioninthefragglepond]

A++ addition

[tetsuskitten]

Writer: *shows the serial killer the murder scene they’re writing* babe, i’m not sure if this would actually work?

Serial killer: *kisses writer on the forehead and leaves, comes back later, a suspicious scent of blood coming off them* it works baby, you’re doing great

[tigerliliesandcherryblossoms]

I LOVE THIS

[vmohlere]

Oh no, murder comedy is my jam

[laziestofthedreamers]

I love this, I love all of this, but quick question, does the author know? Like are they aware that their significant other is a serial killer or do they just think that they have a morbid sense of humor? It’d be even funnier if the author had no fucking clue, like how Aurthur Conan Doyle was apparently stupidly gullible, and on top of it they’re a horror or crime novelist. Like the serial killer works at a butcher shop or something so it’s completely normal for them to come home smelling like blood, no murders going on here, no sirey. Just my darling coming back home from a long day at work.

Now fast forward a bit and the author has managed to get their first book published, with loving support from the serial killer who helped them fine tune all the murder scenes, and it’s a big hit. Enough so that a detective with the local police department has noticed some disturbing similarities to several active cases, including details that were never released to the press. Obviously he brings this up to his superior and convinces him that there’s something to the theory, but it’s all circumstantial right now. He stakes out the author’s home and is super convinced that the author is the murderer, but they don’t seem to do anything??? Like they literally are at the house all day, that’s it. Most they do is leave for groceries.

So you get this dynamic of the serial killer mining the author for creative murder schemes, the author being lovingly encouraged by the serial killer, and finally the detective who is just so sure that the author is the killer and that if he sticks it out long enough he’ll FINALLY have proof.

[pamgkrthwrites]

Plot twist, The serial killer and detective use to go out so it gets sub what personal. 

“You need to stop seeing them. I think they are a serial killer.”

Serial killer breaths in. “Look-”

[ladyhavilliard]

…perfect

[outerspacekake]

I don’t like actual murder mysteries, but this is perfect

[yourpotatotwiceremooved]

THE ORIGINAL POST HOW DID I GET SO LUCKY

[serpant-of-heaven-deactivated20]

Oh my god I would watch/read the hell out of this shit

[anthoniejcrowley]

hey what is buzzfeed unsolved about?

[lolwishiwasdead]

okay rant time. so in my programming class today, I prof asked me to sent her the program I wrote and ME like an idiot who read stuff I found interesting because ooooh. also someone told me its better to be ahead of class. now she asked me to explain this one program function I uses and I am about to answer and my mics gives up :D and because anxiety is a bitch I went to rewatch the recorded lecture off drive and when I left the meet to fix my mic she straight up said “no because when yall google a program this is what shows up. however the normal way is *proceeds to give answer to the class* “ BUT I DID REJOIN and then I explain her (whatever I understood of the term) and she said yes but do we have to use it? and I said no we can work with *some other function* and then I said “actually ma'am I had read a few books on C and this was mentioned there thats why” now idk she said okay alright but im dying of anxiety idk idk idk idk I hate it here holy fucking hell I cant wait until tomorrow to notice her undertone when I present my assignment but I really dont wanna fail programming because she might be mad at me ive worked too hard for this fuck fuck fuck pls stab me it would be better thanks I fucking hate anxiety I hate everything

[deadbyinsidee]

by: @desnos

[lolwishiwasdead]

the way this has happened more than once this week itself lol

[slxxpycrybxby]

I feel like I can't stay strong for much longer and that scares me.