LORD★EVREN @lordevren - Tumblr Blog

copy paste of my links so it's more accessible for mobile users ->

#been meaning to do this #I don't use mobile tumblr that much so lemme know if I did something wrong lol

turns out "confidence" gained by going "look how much of a problem I can be, I love being bad & evil!!" has no solid foundations and eventually comes crashing down, leaving you just a confused and wounded creature that has spent years perpetuating the cycle of its own ostracisation when in fact it wanted to be loved. who woulda thought

#roar of the evren #it was my coping mechanism since my earliest memories and idk how to form an idenity outside of it..#like the thing is.. it feels good to be viewed as bad #trying to find actual value in myself is entirely foreign and I don't know how #it's like I have to start building something most people form in childhood #except I'm nearly 30

thepantyraids

One of my favorite thrift finds ever for 50 cents

my journey with lucid dreaming is a weird one because I did genuinely spend a good while in 2011/2012 trying all these different methods and guides on how to do it, like I was reallly really trying and it never worked. I couldn't get one lucid dream out of my actual honest attempts

then a few years later I had a massive mental break, developed dpdr and suddenly started having lucid dreams out of nowhere. I didn't have to try or do anything & it's been a regular thing that just happens ever since. I can't decide to stop having them anymore than I could decide to start lmao

#roar of the evren #kinda nice that I got this one cool thing out of all that mess

the-wolf-and-moon

Venus and the Pleiades

#space #queue

pato-rengo

#pretty pictures #queue

deepseasmetro

yknow im sick of acting like there isnt actual structural violence in place against polyam people. any person who has to keep their romantic life completely secret out of fear of employment loss, housing discrimination, harrassment, social alienation, etc is like. materially speaking facing structural violence. polyamorous couples dont get access to the same legal protections (marriage being the big one), theres no laws in place prohibiting any kind of discrimination against somebody based on having multiple partners, its more than socially acceptable to call us ugly, fat, undesirable, all secretly sex pests or freaks or abusers, etc.... like can we be real here lmao

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