everyday i wake up and choose violence

“but he knew well enough”

[meetmeintheflowers]

what a lot of people on here don’t seem to understand is that shane is going to outfreak ilya every single time. I’m rewatching ep 1 and five (5) seconds into his very first gay experience ever shane hollander is on his knees hob slobbering. ilya puts his thumb near (near) shane’s mouth and shane is swallowing that thing. like yes ilya has more experience but shane has the vision

[littlegirlinvisible]

HEATED RIVALRY 1.05: I’LL BELIEVE IN ANYTHING + HRTwT VERSION

[beemovieerotica]

[beefsleaf]

"I asked chatgpt" "i asked grok" yeah well I asked nie huaisang and he doesn't know, he really doesn't know

[scarefox]

[catgirl-catboy]

I think polyamory should be used to make romance subplots even more convoluted, actually. Sure, it could theoretically solve a love triangle- but it could also make things infinitely more chaotic and that's way better.

[littleblackraincloudofcourse]

they get it

[spoopdeedoop]

petition to bring back saying "huzzah!" when something goes your way and "alas." when it doesn't

[spoopdeedoop]

in hindsight, pitching something that would be deemed a fair bit strange by some standards to a site teeming with already incredibly strange people was a mistake. apologies tumblr users i’d forgotten where i was

[jungcougar]

guo chengyu the man that you are

[therapeutic-dose]

I yapped about it in tags but what a phenomenal episode for AouBoom. GreatInn ofc always delivering, but the escalating story for MekDech gave both Boom and Aou together and individually time to shine.

Dech is this... he's kind of a ditzy character. Not so much stupid, but maybe trouble grasping certain things, probably daydreams a bit. He certainly understands Big Consequences and makes good decisions like telling his grandfather about his father being a grade-A DickHole, but he still got a 7/20 on his French exam and generally has a beautiful "Head empty, 1 thought and it's Mek" vibe about him which I adore. And his heart is so big, and all of that adds up to this character who simply does not give a Fuck (positive) and Boom absolutely NAILS it. Also praise kink? Forever. That man went so mushy and soft and hard when Mek said his pouch had brought him luck. I love that for me and the fanfic I will write.

And Mek. Mischievous but sweet and caring, but also wily cuz that man is not about to see no doctor. But after that last fight that he throws, when he can't hear anything? Damn. Aou really got me there. I was tearing up and terrified that the'd lost that sense. He acted it SO well, she sheer panic of it all. And also... earlier in the episode, can we talk about the soft, comfortable way he looks and and interacts with Dech? Cuz I'm fuckin' dying over it. His eyes are so bright and gentle and I perished on my couch and ascended.

And the two of them together were perfect. AouBoom ofc know how to play off each other well, but seeing MekDech's banter and care was just so beautiful. Their affection is so simple, which is a great juxtaposition to TheeRati which has so many complex layers to it. MekDech are such a refreshing element to the show.

Alight I'm done lol

[stuckinapril]

[softwaring]

[scarefox]

The problem with these chinese BLs is that they put straight up cocaine in it and then you have to wait and hope for the next hit.

[dramacraycray]

American viewers:

[silverquillsideas]

GOD. this scene. I just need to talk about this scene.

Chi Cheng takes a drunk Suo Wei to his home, not suo wei's room at the clinic, but his own personal sanctuary. He clearly wanted to spend the night with SW, not to sleep with him, but just to take care of him. He's so gentle with SW, taking off his shoes, kneeling down and talking so softly, asking if he's okay, if he's drunk.

and suo wei, even though he's quite drunk, isn't completely unaware of what's happening. he sees what chi cheng is doing for him, sees the care in his eyes and the gentleness of his actions, and he asks an honest, vulnerable question, "why are you so nice to me?" because for all his rough moods and brash manners and biting words, chi cheng has been nothing but nice to him till now, in so many ways.

and this time, when all his walls are lowered, and his guards aren't up anymore, suo wei's subconscious, his heart, that has already caught upto what his logical side isn't prepared to acknowledge yet- gives in. he grabs chi cheng by the front of his shirt and he initiates the kiss-

well, almost a kiss.... because of course, yue yue, with her perfectly infuriating timing, interrupts with a call.

when the call ends, chi cheng comes back to inform him that yue yue, his girlfriend, is coming over, and doesn't elaborate more. but suo wei gets the silent message- he needs to disappear before that happens. and the look that suo wei gives chi cheng is devastating.

that subtle mix of longing and betrayal, laced with anger and frustration and hurt- because while suo wei is mad at chi cheng, at this whole messy circumstance, he is mad at himself too- because just for once, he'd let himself be vulnerable, let himself indulge in this little moment. For just once, he thought he had chi cheng all for himself. and that's why the rude awakening hurts for him even more. (props to zi yu for nailing the heck out of this scene, this single look hit me like a punch to the gut)

he gets up to leave and chi cheng's face here. god. he knows he has hurt suo wei badly, even though suo wei never protests, never says a single word to stake his claim.

so he grabs suo wei for one last hug, before they have to part ways, and he says "I'll surely pay back, what I owe you."

and that's such an interesting choice of words, because he isn't talking about any monetary exchanges at all (because up until now, it was he who paid suo wei those absurd sums of money as part of their little games, gifted a shit ton of stuff to SW just to make him smile), but no. he's talking about the emotional debt that he owes- the debt of gratitude and respect and time that he owes suo wei- for all the times when his hands were tied by his family's expectations and he has had to blow off and sideline suo wei in favor of being at his girlfriend's side, at her beck and call.

and suo wei understands him, even if he's still hurting from it- from being cast aside yet again, being reminded that his and chi cheng's relationship- whatever convoluted, messy thing had grown between them over weeks- their feelings and emotions, was something to be hidden, something that will never be approved by chi cheng's family.

and then he leaves- still inebriated, stumbling in his steps, hurting and all alone, late in the night. and what's worse, chi cheng watches him leave, and for once, he's powerless to stop it.

this last shot of chi cheng is equally devastating, because he's framed behind the blinds of the window like the bars of a cage- and the metaphor is clear, that no matter how much chi cheng schemes and plans, he's still bound by his family's power, who are manipulating him at every step of the way, to get him to behave exactly how they want.

chi cheng was powerless to choose the boy he loved that night, and it was incredible to see the fallout of something seemingly so little and ordinary on the surface gut us all like a knife wound 😭

[fluffy-lynx20]

Can't wait when they finally go all-in

[sunshinechay]

Fang: full on punches Tan because he thinks he’s being an asshole

Tan: 300K slow burn, enemies to lovers, low angst, happy ending

[crudenezz]

Pretty much how my week has been going in the lead up to release

[ealeczander]

What I love about forthbeam is that Forth has a tattoo on his neck, always wears black clothes with chains and rides a motorcycle but the moment Beam goes rough and bites him a little while they kiss Forth pulls away and with the saddest doggy eyes and asks him why did he do that.