You know a bunch of people always calling me a ghost, right? Ya know how they say, ‘she's just a ghost, she doesn't reply, she responds like two weeks later. Worst part about this situation is that they take it personally. I never usually leave people on read necessarily, because I never even opened the message.
There are many reasons as to why I don't want to respond to you. It's me looking out for me. Not in a selfish way, but self-care type of way alright.
*Internal thought, R.I.P Mac Miller*
a. One that has no intention to actually listening to the thoughts behind my brain. Only interested in the way I look, the way I appear, and the way I behave.
b. I don't want to engage in that conversation, like that's not fun for me. Fun for you, but not fun for me because I am NOT a casual person.
a. I have to dedicate my own energy, time & effort. Because when I am dedicating my energy to conversate with people, I want it to be meaningful.
b. Not into surface level conversation where they go 'Hey, what's up?' 'Nothing much man, just chillin'.
c. If I'm checking in, which I often do with people from years and years ago, we check in with one another every 8 or 9 months. Saying 'you good?' or 'congratulations' on their life update.
d. Opposite which is where people go 'Come to Cali, ya know' 'Come hang out with me!'. No, no I'm not going to respond to you.
a. New mantra is that I value my time & energy so much, that I'm only going to dedicate a certain period of time for that anyway in my life. Not personal, it has nothing to do with you.
b. A lot of things on my plate I'm dealing with, that I don't want to involve another...unless I'm ready for it.
a. If it's friendship you're after you're going to get a lot of quality from conversating back and forth, but you're not going to get a lot of it.
b. Understand people who chose to go the more artificial/surface level route, for distributing time & effort sake. I'm not one of those people.
c. I'd rather have a few good pals throughout my lifespan that I really know I connected with than having like a thousand friends or thousand followers on Instagram. At the end of the day, nobody even cares about that.
I just miss the older times where letter writing was just how you communicated over long distances. Simpler time.
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