update: I need to sort out this post but havenât had time because of work đ but hello anyways
additional update: itâs been over 6 months and I still havenât sorted this out đ€Ą
further update: itâs March 2022 and I still havenât updated this lmao
well shit fuck-
I should scramble something together for now until I finish uni so hereâs some basics about me and this old ass blog:
- Iâm not a fic writer unfortunately, my brain is a bit frazzled out from being at uni over the years and Iâm super out of touch with creative writing (i doing a maths degree so there you have it)
- I am 25 years old which means FUCK OFF if youâre under the age of 18. Yes, Iâm old. Been on this hell site since I was 14 and all I did was reblog memes, talk about my favourite animeâs and discover kpop. (tbh I think all the followers I have are from over 10years ago so I donât think anyone whoâs following me is under 18 anyway)
- I will be moving to a different page by the end of the year because I made the stupid mistake of letting my irl friends know that I had tumblr when I first got on here in 2010 and now my anxiety is saying that I should fuck off and start over because I hate how judgy people irl are
- if you know me irl, no you donât. go away before I cut off any form of contact to me
I know you JUST posted more to that birthday drabble but I am aching for more omfgg
Your intentions were pure, honest.
...Well, maybe not entirely pure, but you certainly weren't planning on letting your boss' son fuck you.
"Fuck," Katsuki's voice is frayed and loose, tone wavering as he fucks up into you. You're in his lap back pressed against his chest and head thrown back over his shoulder. His forehead is buried into the back of your neck, breath hot against your sweat slicked skin. "You gotta get off, I'm--"
"It's okay," you whisper. His fingers dig into the fat of your breasts greedily. Every inch of your skin buzzes with want and need, that fire in your core boiling through your blood. Tension builds in every muscle and you know you just need a little more before you completely unravel.
The suspension on the car groans as you two move more forcefully, slamming back against his back seat. Steam coats every window, but anyone passing would know what's happening behind the screen.
"I don't have a fucking condom on-" he grits, almost angry.
"Fucking-" you huff, hands flying to the celing to steady yourself. "Cum inside me, idiot. Cum inside me right now-"
the mortal price of crossing twice
levi ackerman/grim reaper!reader (attack on titan)
CROSSPOSTED TO AO3
word count: 8k
tags: 18+ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT, grim reaper reader, soulmates, levi literally flirting with death, canon-typical violence, blood mention, knifeplay, smut, implied loss of virginity, angst with a happy(?) ending
a/n: i wrote this one night and woke up and forgot i wrote it and then spent 10 months translating it into something vaguely readable--hope it was worth it!
The room is silent and still, the air stagnant and reeking of mildew and decay when you arrive.
The place is an absolute hovel.
To call it anything else would be an injustice to the squalor.
Itâs damp, dim, and windowlessâafter all, thereâs little use for windows in a place that sees no sun. The paint on the crumbling walls is cracking and peeling from the yellowing surface in large, unsightly clumps, with piles of plaster and paint collecting on the warped, jagged floorboards underfoot.Â
The only light comes from the sad stub of a misshapen candle, lit on a rickety table on one side of the room. Itâs burned so low that the flame seems sure to flicker out at any moment.
Much like the occupant of this place.
If anything, youâre glad that this woman won't have to stay here any longer.
She lays in the wooden bed, thin and grey and hardly alive at allâyouâre certain that to any human eye, theyâd think she was already dead.Â
But your eyes are not human, and you watch impassively as she draws her final, shuddering breaths.Â
Her soul, you canât help but notice as it becomes more and more visible to your trained eyes, is a lovely shade of periwinkle blue.
âWho are you?âÂ
The voice surprises you, unaware that there was anyone else in the dingy, musty place that reeks of death that has not yet come to it. You cast a fleeting glance in the direction of the noiseâitâs not as if they were talking to you, but itâs more instinct than anything to look towards the sound.
A pitiful creature sits curled in the corner upon itself, withered away to practically nothingâmade up of sharp lines of sinew and bone under paper thin, pallid skin that has taken on a sallow tone.Â
A child, you think to yourself, though given how emaciated and sickly they are, you can tell neither their age nor their gender.
But what shocks you is their eyes.
Wide, glistening with life in spite of the decay of their flesh, and fixed firmly to you.
Can they⊠see you?
You raise a finger, pointing it at yourself.Â
âAre you talking to me?â
The child keeps their gaze on you, hesitating for a moment, and then nods slowly.Â
You pause as you process the realization.Â
Itâs not entirely unheard of for mortals who are close to death to be able to see your kind.Â
The reapers.Â
Those charged to ferry the souls of the dead on, either to reincarnation or to The Voidâto the promise of new life or an eternity of endless darkness.
Itâs your responsibilityâyour dutyâto uphold the balance between the living and the dead. No new soul can enter until another has been reaped, a law of equivalence to maintain a careful stasis all existence must operate within.Â
You do not adjudicate; you play no part in judgement, your role is merely to shepherd. The ruling of any soul comes down to you from a higher power, and it is you who is tasked to see it through to completion once the verdict has been decided.
But this child has not been ruled upon. Their fate not yet pronounced.Â
Their soul is not yours to take.Â
And yet here they are: so pitifully close to death yet still just beyond its grasp. With the equinox only a matter of days awayâthe time when the veil between the mortal world and your own domain is at its thinnestâthis child could see you.Â
What terrible misfortune this wretched soul must have.
âWhatâs your name?â Your voice is quiet when you speak again, slow to form the question that sits awkwardly on your tongue. Youâve never spoken to a living soul beforeâat least not in a lifetime that you can remember.
The child appraises you warily for a moment.Â
âLevi.â
A wisp of periwinkle in the corner of your eye tears your attention away from the boyâat least you think heâs a boy, after having been given his name. You look back to the woman laying in the bed, and the soul that lingers over her: its final earthly tethers severed, ready to be guided on.
âSheâs dead, isnât she?â the child asks, and you glance back towards him.
âYes.â Thereâs no reason for you to lie. You look at him, at the way the light in his eyes dims. âWas she your mother?â
âYes.â The response is weak, breaking in the wake of your use of past tense.Â
But his next words sound even more pained.Â
He looks up at you, fear creeping into his sunken stare.
âAm I going to die too?â
âNo,â you respond immediately, âyouâll live."Â
You have no authority in the matter, and you canât consult the stars so far below the surface. You know only that youâve not been burdened with the weight of his crossingâhis fate is too far for you to see from the depths of the skyless undergroundâbut you canât help but tell the boy what he needs to hear.
âPromise?â the emaciated boy rasps.Â
âI promise,â you say, something twingeing deep in your gut as you force out the words. A feeling, painful and foreign, chokes you.Â
But you arenât supposed to feel.
Not pain.
Not pity.Â
To feelâin all itâs agony and ecstasyâis a privilege reserved for the living.
You depart from that place without saying anything else, leaving the little boy in the dank, dingy room as the candle on the table finally flickers out.
The periwinkle soul is dealt with, and all too soon you find yourself again in Limbo.
You like Limbo.
Neither the world of the living, nor the world of the deadâbut rather somewhere situated halfway between the two.
Much like yourself.Â
You choose to spend your unaccounted for time in this flux, unlike the reapers who prefer to flitter unseen in the land of the living or those with more morose inclinations who linger on the periphery of The Void. You prefer Limbo and itâs constant stasis of non-being.Â
Forever passes faster here. At least until another job comes through.
And it always does. And always will. Because as long as people live, people will die. There will always be a soul to steer through to the other sideâto escort to a perpetuity of nothingness, or guide to a new beginning.
âWhat do we have here?â a voice cajoles from the other end of the bridge you often find yourself loitering on between jobsâbuilt of silvery rope and white birch boards, it stretches across an unmoving river as black as ink and as fathomless as the depths of the sea.
You donât need to look up to know who the voice belongs to.
Zola is like you, only worse. For all the eternity youâve been indentured as a reaper, Zola has been here for double that. For every woebegone moment youâve spent in the liminal space between jobs, sheâs had countless more.Â
The fact that she can still smile so carelessly, carry herself so weightlessly, might amaze you were you not so numbâbut the numbness is the only thing that keeps you from grappling with the fact that eventually youâll be just like her.Â
Zola joins you at the centre of the bridge, skipping along to sidle up beside you. She leans over the roped edged to survey your face curiously as you look out at the still water of the unflowing river. You hold your gaze there, not daring to look up at the stars overhead.
You donât want to know what they might show you if you do.
âOh,â Zola draws out the mono-syllabic word far longer than is necessary. âYouâre even more brooding and sullen than usual. What did you do this time? Donât tell me little miss perfect messed up a job?â
âI didnât do anything,â your words are curt, cool, and dismissive as you respond.
Even if they are a lie.
Zola rolls her eyes, flicking her long hair over her shoulder as she turns and begins to saunter away. She pauses, but doesnât bother to look back as she calls one last taunt flippantly over her shoulder.
âLie to me all you want, but you canât lie to the boss!â
Thereâs always a moment of adjustment when you return to the mortal world from Limbo.Â
You have to take pause to come to terms with where you areâwhen you areâand itâs an uncomfortable sensation. You always find yourself a little disoriented as you meet the ground, but before long you find your footing and youâre off again.
Time in Limbo feels briefâin a tolerable, pacificatory wayâand each time you make the journey back to the mortal world time has slipped by quickly, like grains of sand racing through an hourglass and collecting in the bottom. But so much can reshape itselfâcan grow and shift and changeâduring your time away, to the point that the same streets can be almost unrecognizable from one visit to the next.
Itâs why you like Limbo. Things there stay constant.Â
Still, you canât help but feel drawn back to the mortal world.Â
More so all the time.Â
Specifically to a grimy city under the surface, that sings with souls to be reapedâthose who have died of famine and disease, while others have been ripped from their earthly bodies by violence and bloodshed.
After all, no one in the Underground dies a peaceful death.
But you arenât here for them.
Youâre here for a boyâhe must be 12 or 13-years-old now, though his sickly childhood felt contradictorily as though it had only been moments prior but also a century ago. So many jobs have passed since that night near the equinox, and yet you still think of him all the time.
You size him up appraisingly as you perch atop a tattered awning that hangs above a boarded up window, your legs swinging as you kick them idly below you.
Levi is less scrawny now, though still quite small by most standards for a boy of his age.
And yet here he is, getting the ever-loving shit kicked out of him by a grown man twice his size.Â
You watch impassively as the man towering over him lands a hard kick to the left of Leviâs ribs. Levi drops to the ground and rolls, dirt clinging to him as he pushes himself up unsteadily to his feet again, though you can tell the effort pains him. As he squares himself to face his adversary once more, you catch sight of his eyes.Â
And thatâs when you know he really is no longer the same boy youâd once met.
The light in his slate-grey eyes has dulled to a spiteful glint.
Levi swings, quick but stumbling over his own feet, and a flash of silver catches your eye.Â
The knife clutched in Leviâs hand pierces the mans throat, blood spattering obscenely against the grimy brick wall of the alleyway. Scarlet drips slow as the assailant drops to his knees, falling prone into the filth of the street.
A fitting end for a foul man.
Another reaper, one youâve never met before, appears. The two of you share a brief look before he wisps the ugly, rust coloured soul away and disappears through the veil.
To The Void, youâre certain. Â
If the fellow reaper had wondered why you were there, he hadn't bothered to ask.
Your eyes watch as Levi collapses to the ground in a battered, broken slump.
You drop soundlessly to your feet and approach him.
Heâs in bad shape: bones fractured and face bloodied as he fights to remain conscious, pupils dilating and contracting as his vision comes in and out of focus. He has a large slash down his right arm from the knife the man heâd slain had been wielding, blood staining the tattered material of his shirt as it seeps from the wound steadily. You watch the crimson stain grow with every passing beat of his racing heart, but his pulse weakens as he loses his grip on his consciousness.
He could die. You sense it in the way his soul is squirming inside of him, loosening its moor to the vessel in which it resides.
But itâs not his time yet.
His eyes meet yours briefly before they go unfocused and glassy, and then he passes out completely.
âLook at the state of you,â a voice tuts from the other end of the alley, and your head turns to see a man with long hair slicked back and tucked under a hat sauntering up the unevenly cobbled street. You watch as he kicks the corpse of the man whose soul has just been reaped onto his back, scrutinizing his vacant eyes and gaping jaw for a moment.Â
He crouches down towards the corpse, a hand snaking under the edge of the bloodstained jacket to steal the pouch of coins from the pocket of the dead manâs yellowed shirt. He tuts reproachfully as he tips the meagre lot into his hand, but he pockets them all the same.
âNice one, kid,â the man chuckles a little to himself, leaning over Leviâs unconscious form and scooping him up into his arms.Â
You canât help but follow the two back to a little apartment youâve come to recognize. Itâs as dilapidated as any in the Underground, though marginally better kept than most. You hover near the homeâs solitary window and watch as the man cleans and patches Leviâs wound with a tenderness his gruff exterior doesnât betray.Â
He changes him into another tattered shirt once his injuries have been seen to, and then places the boy atop a lumpy mattress pushed into one corner of the room, pulling a threadbare blanket up overtop of him. He pauses just for a moment, watching the sleeping boyâs face with the same rapt attention that you pay to his.Â
He leaves long before the boy wakes, and you return to Limbo, to languish in the emptiness that stretches between jobs.Â
But you know youâll be back soon.
Perhaps not for him, but for you.
Before you know it the little boy that once was is a manâand it happens so fast it feels like youâve only blinked.
Itâs the equinox again. Twenty mortal years have passed since that first night youâd laid your eyes on himâbut a short eternity has passed for you, countess jobs completed in between.
You find yourself in the subterranean city once more, drawn there like a moth to flame, something treacherous fluttering in your stomach.
Thereâs no breeze in the Undergroundâno current to circulate the air thatâs heavy with the scent of filth and rot that clings to every corner of the place. Itâs cold, and for the first time you can feel the chill on your skin as you travel the streets. Can feel eyes following you as you go from shadowy corners and windows without panes.
The equinox is a funny beast: an occasion, twice a year, where the day and the night are the exact same length.Â
A perfect balance.Â
On the night of the equinox, the reapers can return to the mortal world, granted an earthly body but only until the sun crests.Â
Some reapers see it as a celebration of the hard work they carry outâan opportunity to let loose and indulge in merited hedonismâwhile others regard it only with bitterness. A taste of mortality theyâve abandoned that slips fleetingly through their soul-reaping fingers twice a yearâa reminder of what they once made the choice to eschew.
Itâs the first equinox since all those years ago youâve found yourself without a job and with any desire to leave Limbo. But unlike your fellow reapers who are above the ground in taverns and brothels or wherever else they may be finding their precious vices, you muster your nerve to step back upon those familiar squalid streets.
Thereâs no point in lying and saying you aren't looking for Levi. Youâd not once made a trip below the surfaceâleft the enduring sanctuary of Limboâfor any reason other than to reap a soul or to find him.
You walk and walkâignoring the disconcerting din of the buried city and focusing instead on the sound your footsteps make on the streets littered with gaping holes, cracks, and puddles of murky waterâuntil you find him leaning against a lamp post, the dim gaslight flickering overhead.
His flat grey eyes peer right into your face as you pause, only a few paces between you.
You feel something kindle in the depths of your chest as he appraises you. He holds you firmly in his unimpressed gaze, and you revel in the experience of being seen.
You stand there longer than is natural, or warranted, but you arenât sure what else to do.
âNot safe to be out alone at this time of night,â Levi gruffs derisively, nodding you on as he twirls a pristinely cleaned blade between nimble fingers. Heâs not wrong to say so, but youâre no more a stranger to the violence and brutality of the place you find yourself than he is.
âItâs always night here,â you find your tongue to reply, even-toned but not unfriendly. âAnd never safe.â
Youâre on a corner three streets north of his apartment. The one he shares with his sandy haired friend and the little pig-tailed stray theyâd taken in. Youâd known, of course, that this is where heâd be.
Levi huffs a littleâand you might have even thought it was a laugh if you werenât so familiar with his temperamentâbut he doesnât disagree.Â
âHave we met? You look⊠familiar.â
You bite back a smile. âI donât believe so.â
His stare narrows, like he detects youâre hiding something from him.
âYou look lost,â he says, pushing himself off of the street post and stalking a step closer to you, âand Iâm not about to walk you home like some damsel in distress.â
No, you know he wonât do that. But you also know that when he lets you leave heâll do a thorough search of the immediate area for any signs of danger, and then perch on a rooftop until he sees you get to where you're goingâthe very same thing heâs done for dozens of other women in his lifetime. That youâd seen him do with your own two eyes though he hadnât been able to see you with his.Â
âIâm not lost or going homeâand Iâm certainly not in distress.âÂ
âWell, where are you going?â he demands, still staunch in his skepticism and evident distrust of you and your motives. The knife between his fingers twitches in irritation.
âHmm, not sure,â you remark, lips pursing in consideration. You settle on something half-way to a truth. âI thought Iâd just⊠wander for the night.â
He makes that sound he always does: a hiss of air behind his teeth that sounds neither like a tut nor a click of his tongue, but rather a combination of the two. Thereâs a tick of strain in his jaw.
âDid you break outta somewhere? Because if you have a boss thatâs coming looking for you, youâre moving at an awfully slow pace.â
Your brows lift.
âIâm not running from anyone, and I donât have a boss.âÂ
Well, that last part is a bit of a lieâbut he has no need to know that.Â
He looks like he doesnât believe you.Â
âWhat?â you ask him, noticing the look on his handsome face.Â
Leviâd grown into his looks beyond anything you could have imagined from the gaunt little boy heâd once been.Â
âThere arenât many people in this shithole who look like you do and donât have someone whoâs taking care of themâand itâs rarely charitable.â He tacks the last part on pointedlyâsharp in its implication.
âLook like I do?â You quirk a brow inquisitively. âAnd whatever do you mean by that?âÂ
Leviâs lips part, and then close againâif it wasn't so dim in the Underground, and if your eyes werenât so damn human at the moment, you might believe you see him flush.
âYou look⊠healthy,â he settles on the word after long pause for deliberation.Â
âBe careful, sirâIâm a lady, after all.â
His eyes flicker up to you the minute you say the word sir. Something shifts behind the silver of his eyes, and suddenly he looks every bit as dangerous as you know him to be.
You keep walking at a leisurely pace, and the sound of his boots on the street behind you tell you that heâs following.
âWhatâs your game?â he asks, jaw clenched as he falls into step beside you.Â
âI have no idea what you mean. Iâm just a healthy girl out for an evening stroll,â you flick your skirt a little as you walk, like youâre frolicking through a garden and not a filthy underground street.Â
âYou must have a death wish to wander around like this all night,â he snaps at you. Your eyes search for his, wondering why he cares.
You stop.
Something flutters in the pit of your stomachârippling like a pebble dropped in a still pond, and radiating outwards as it grows inside of you. For a moment you appreciate how deliciously foreign it feels to feel at all, but the reflection is swallowed rapidly by something more desperate. Something more esurient.
âThen why donât you take me home with you,â you say the words quietly, breathy and exhilarated, as your fingers grip the material of your skirt, âif youâre so concerned about me?âÂ
Levi narrows his eyes in disgust, recoiling from you slightly but not stepping away.
âI donât pay for sex.â
Thatâs because you donât get any, you want to add but donât.
âI donât remember asking you to pay me,â you quip instead, inching forward until your noses are practically brushing, wetting your lips with the tip of your tongue.
âYou either want me to pay you outright, or youâll steal my coin purse before you leave,â Levi tries to put bite behind his words, but his eyes follow the gentle sweep of your tongue across your lips too raptly for them to sting. âMaybe both.â
âI donât have any interest in your money,â you breathe, reaching up towards his face. Just before your fingers can graze the smooth skin of his cheek, you feel a hand around your windpipe, and the press of brick against your back.
Levi has you pressed against the wall faster than you see it coming, his blade poised to your throat.
A thrill runs down your spine.
You donât feel fearâhow could you? Itâs not like you can die. Fear is just another honour bestowed upon the living.
No, as the cool metal presses against the hot skin of your neck, you feel only excitement. Itâs as clear an indicator as any that Leviâs careful composure is starting to crack.
You didnât think it would be this easy. Didnât think that after only a few words heâd be so affectedâand you canât help but wonder if he feels it too. That draw. That magnetism that has you constantly coming back to find him in this damp, dark streets so very far from the light of day.
âYouâve lost your mind,â Levi breathes, eyes scanning your face. You can see the fascination in his eyes, the way he canât understand why even with your life in his hands you donât cower or shy away from him. The frustration as he works through why he likes it so much.
You press closer, and without thinking he lifts the pressure of the knife so you donât hurt yourself.
âI suspect you may be right,â you reply airily.Â
Your eyes flicker up, and you realize that youâve come to the staircase of his residence. There are no lights on inside. No one is home.
âYou didnât answer my question you know,â you murmur, eyes watching the way his lips part carefullyâlike you donât want to miss a moment of the sight. âAre you going to take me home, sir?â
The words deliver the final killing blow to his restraint, a hand grasping the back of your neck to pull you close enough that your mouths can meet.
Itâs all so mortal. So biological. From the pulse pounding in your ears and the warmth that swirls through you. Itâs a symphony of sensations, the likes of which you have no memory of ever feeling. You wonder if the euphoria that washes over you is something youâve experienced before, in a lifetime that no longer lives in your memory.Â
You wonder how any force on heaven or earth could have ever made you forget it.
Leviâs hands are steady as they cup your cheeks, but he seems reserved, his initial fervour softening into something more delicate as your lips part against his. Heâs very tender for a man whoâd had a knife on your jugular only a moment prior.
He guides you up the stairs to his apartmentâunlocking the door without having to separate from you for too long, pressing you against the wall just inside once the two of you are safely across the threshold.
âLevi,â you whimper as his bodyâhis solid, sturdy bodyâpresses into yours.
He draws back, his stare dark as he meets your gaze.
âHow do you know my name?â
âEveryone around here knows your name,â you lie, your throat tight, and hope he accepts it.
If he doesnât, he still continues on.
Heâs unpracticed, but earnest. You see it in the way his eyes arenât sure where they want to look as you slip out of your dress, the material pooling on the uneven floorboards at your feet in his bedroom. You feel it when his hands driftâhip to sternum, back to breastâlike he canât decide where he wants to touch you as more and more of your skin is exposed.Â
The cold nips at you, but not for long. Not with Leviâs body joining yours atop the rough weave of his bedsheets.
Levi kisses you like heâs been starved of it.
You feel the same.
Itâs messy and desperateânipping and licking and sucking between your greedy, spit slick lipsâa give and take between whoever wants it more. Needs it more.
You take Leviâs hand in your own, delighting in the weight of itâthe feel of his skin against yours. You guide it down to the dripping wet heat between your legs. Your fingers press his where you need them, you show him how to stoke the flames consuming you.
Your head pushes back into the thin pillow it rests upon as two fingers slip themselves inside of you, curling experimentally.
âYes, yes,â you babble, and your encouragement bolsters him, his confidence building with every word of praise that passes through your swollen lips.Â
But thereâs no time to waste. Every precious second is one you cannot bear to squander.
You reach for him, changing your positions and pressing him down into the mattress as you straddle his waist. Your hand strokes him languidly, thumbing at the sensitive ridge underneath the blushing tip of his cock.
âYouâre good at this,â Levi says mistrustfully, squirming under your attentionâthe motions of your gentle hands almost too much for him to bear.
âItâs because I want you,â you sigh the words out, airy and yet somehow so heavyâanchored down with longing.
You rise to your knees atop him, and his hands settle at your hips.
His fingers tremble as he holds you.
You sink down onto him.
You both moanâyours drawn out and beatific, his quiet and restrained.
You lean down, his grip holding you still as heâs sheathed inside of you, adjusting to the heat and pressure wrapped around him. You slot your mouth to his once more, and delight in the way his lips part so willingly for you when you ease your tongue between them.
You wait a moment, and when youâre sure heâs ready you begin to move, dragging yourself up his length before pressing back down again, your walls clinging desperately every ridge and curve of his cock along the way.Â
Both your breaths are laboured, the quiet room in his empty apartment filled with the sound of panting, the rustling of bedsheets, the slap of skin on skin.
Itâs all so much. You feel so much. So good, so warm, so blissfully full of him. You revel in the way you see perspiration beading on your skin, the slick of his arousal and yours dripping down your thighs, the heartbeat that thunders in your chest.
You feel alive.
Your fingers find the swell of your clit, running them over it in ungraceful swipes as the two of you both race headlong towards your ends.
âWhat are you doing?â Levi asks, watching the way you touch yourself from beneath half-lidded eyes.Â
âFeels good,â you keen, your fingers moving faster after hearing the ragged, rough tone of his voice.Â
Levi pushes your hand away and takes up the task.
A few more careful rolls of your hips, and the press of his thumb against your clit has you tumbling over a precipice to your undoing. You crumple forward into him, your nails digging into the skin of his chest, and he flips the two of you over as he chases his own release.
Leviâs hips jerk against yours, pressing your willing, pliant body down into the sheets as he fucks you once, twice, three times more, and then heâs spilling himself inside of you with a groan so uncharacteristically vocal it makes you keen.
The two of you collapse side-by-side in his narrow bed.
Youâre exhausted, achy, and thoroughly spent.
Itâs unbearable and exquisite all at once.
Itâs warm beside Levi in such confined quarters, but comfortable. The thought of leaving pains you, so you make no move to depart. Your shared breaths even out, a precious, fragile peace settling over the room.
Levi fights the weight of his eyelids for as long as he can, but soon, against his will, he slips away to the call of slumber.
In the quiet of his little room, you canât help but watch him while he sleeps. You commit the lines of his face to your memory as best you can make them out in the dark, along with the feeling of his body curled around yours.
You can hardly believe he fell asleepâthe same young man whoâd been so mistrustful such a short time prior. You suspect, now more than ever, that he must feel it tooâa knot no power could unbind, that could be forced to separate but would never truly be apartâthat tethers the two of you together.
You lay beside him and count out the heartbeats that pass as you feel yourself growing colder, less tangible, as the seconds and the pulse count ticks on. You know that many miles above, on the surface, the sun must be preparing to break the horizon and spill into a new day.
When Levi wakes, he thinks youâre gone, though youâre still there.
He smiles at his coin purse that youâve left beside him on the pillow where your head once rested. He picks it up, wrapping it tightly in his hand.
âI never got your name,â he says quietly into the room thatâs not as empty as he thinks it is.
He looks for you on the same street corner every night for a month, but never finds you there again.
Youâre ripped out of Limbo through no conscious effort of your own. One second youâre dangling your legs off the side of your favourite bridge, and the next youâre knee deep in mud that runs scarlet.
A job?
In the corner of your eye you see that last wisps of two souls, a deep, cobalt blue, and a beautiful shade of purple.
Furlan.
Isabel.
You pass their reapers as you race to find him, but spare them no semblance of recognition.Â
Your eyes alternate between scanning the sky for his fate and searching for him across the trodden, blood soaked earth: even through the clouds of steam and drizzling rain, you can see the distant stars.Â
Theyâve shifted, and you feel nauseated by what you see. Something chokes you.
For the first time in all your memory, you know the iron grip of fear.Â
Fate, in spite of what some may think, is fluid. It ebbs and flows like a tide. Changes course like a river that grows stronger after heavy rain, or dries up to little more than a stream in a withering summer. Fate can be changed by force of will, or when someoneâs will abandons them.Â
The choice to give up can shift the stars.Â
You find Levi alone.
Physically unharmed, but his will broken.
His eyes are a flat, lifeless grey, even though his heart is still hammering in his chest.
âMove, damn it,â you hiss, desperate to grab him by the shoulders and shake him into action. Heâs still in danger. He needs to move. But you canât touch him, and even if you could it would already be too lateâthe cruel reality being that the only time heâd be able to see you would mean that his fate had already been sealed.
He looks crushed. Defeated.
Wholly resigned to his own demise.
A titan is approachingâthe soulless vessel lumbering towards where the two of you stand. A body without a soul, where you are a soul without a body. It can touch him where you canât. It can harm him where you cannot save him.
Panic swells in you like a fire. Itâs not his time. Youâve seen the stars, youâve followed the lines of his path more times than you can count as you lay in Limboâyou know it better than you know anything, could trace it even with your eyes closed.Â
You know that he has more life ahead of him if only he chooses to take it.Â
âLevi, move.âÂ
His eyes lift as if he hears you, staring at you from across the battle ground that has stolen the souls of the two people most precious to him.
Thereâs an intensity burning in his gaze that almost knocks you off your feet, and you stumble back, landing flat on your ass.
Lush grass tickles your palm.
The clouds and the rain are gone.
Above you there are only stars that blaze angrily down at you.
The stars, and Zola.
Sheâd dragged you back into Limbo with her bare hands.
âThis is bad,â she says gently down to you, her glassy vacant eyes glimmering with something youâve never seen before.
âI know.â
âYouâre bound,â she says again, though she really need not.
Itâs a truth youâve long come to accept.
âI know,â you repeat the same words again. âI⊠made him a promise. When he was a child. I think thatâs what did it.â
âYou made a mortal a promise? He saw you?â she asks, incredulity seeping into her usually placid tone.
You nod.
âThis isnât going to end well, you know,â she says, and for the first time in all of the forever that youâve known her, thereâs something close to worry in her tone. âFor either of you.â
She says it as though you havenât already come to the realization that sheâs grappling with, as though you donât understand the weight of what has happened to your soulâthe one that was supposed to be unfettered to anything, not to life, nor to death. To no earthly body. To no other soul.Â
Youâd lived once. Been human once. Had a fate that had been written in the pin-prick lights of the stars, and a soul that had come up for judgement.
Youâd been offered a choice, so very long ago. Become a reaper, or face the tribunal of adjudicators to have the worth of your soul ruled upon.
You donât know why the adjudicators had chosen you, why they had offered you this path. Thereâs so much about reaping thatâs shrouded in mystery, with no threads to pull and unravel into truth. It was a reality that you had never taken issue with, accepted for what it was and never questioned, never searched for why.Â
But itâs different now.
Youâve heard whispersâspeculationâthat reapers are the unlucky souls who merited neither reincarnation nor The Void. Not good nor bad, but the grey area in between. And so the choice to become indentured in the guidance of souls is almost like penanceâpaying into a fund of atonement that will never amount to enough to buy your freedom.
You have no memories of your mortal life, however many you may have lived, but you remember what youâd thought thenâbefore the panel of adjudicators who shone so brightly you could not rest your eyes upon them. A fate you knew was better than one uncertain. An eternity of reaping favourable to the terrifying possibility of The Void.
And it was fine. You were fine.
Until Levi.
Soulmates are rare. Youâve only reaped a true pair in all your eternity of servitudeâtwo souls of the same hue, bound so tightly you were forced to pry them apart with the force of your own two hands.
But youâve also heard of reapers finding their soulmates in the living. Of those, like you, who find themselves shackled to another mortal soul, never able to join them the way every fibre of their beingâthe very essence of what and who they areâbegs them to. And, eventually, theyâre left to reap the soul to which theyâre bound.
Thatâs the fate theyâre forced to bear.Â
Itâs a story circulated among your kind thatâs more like folklore than factâa tale to frighten and to fascinate, but with uncertain origin or basis.
But youâve always wondered, somewhere in the fathomless recesses of your mind when youâve had all eternity to do nothing but ponder, if there was truth to it. And, if so, what happens to those reapers, the ones who were forced to follow the soul to which they were bound through countless lifetimes. To have but never to hold.
And now you wonder if maybe those reapers who linger by The Void between new jobs may not be so different from you after all.
Eldâs soul is a sunny yellow, Guntherâs a deep burgundy, Oluoâs a cool crisp lavender, and Petraâs a sparkling copper.
Kennyâs soul is silver, but it looks more blue in the sunlightâalmost periwinkle if the rays catch it in just the right way. Like his eyes. Like Leviâs.
Erwinâs is a deep, strong greenâlike the cape Levi wraps around him after he makes the difficult choice to let him rest. Your eyes watch the stars as he makes his decision, but truly you know all along what he will chooseâthe lights overhead hardly quiver as he considers his options.
It amazes you.
The way every soul he meets sings for him. Adores him.
Dies for him.
You reap them all.Â
The years continue to pass.
Levi stands upon a bridge, white birch boards underfoot, and a stygian river with no current below that.
You stand before him, a few planks width between you both.
âItâs you,â he says, blinking curiously like he canât quite believe his eyes.
âHm?â you tilt your head to one side, playing coy.
âYears ago,â he breathes, reflecting back upon the memory. âThe working girl from the Underground.â
You scoff, but youâre smiling. âYou didnât pay me for my services, and I didnât rob you.â
âI thought maybe you were just bad at it.â
You laugh.
People think a white soul is desirable, that itâs pure. You donât deny they have their own beauty, but youâve always found them boring to look at, and easy to reap.Â
Leviâs is every colour. An amalgamation of each soul whoâs touched his life. Periwinkle, deep blue, amethyst, silver, emerald. You see every hue in him.Â
Heâs beautiful.Â
âWhy are you here?â he asks you quietly, a pensive furrow in his brow.
His face looks younger here. Less burdened. The weight of the world left behind.
He should be asking why heâs here. Or where here even is. But his attention is only on you.
You keep your eyes on him, though you know the stars are blazing overhead. Shifting into something you do not wish to see.
âI came to say goodbye.â
âGoodbye? What the hell are you talking about?â he asks gruffly. You smile again, but this time itâs rueful.Â
Thereâs a moment of quiet.
Itâs so, so still in Limbo. Youâve never noticed that before.
âWhere are you going?â when Levi speaks again, his tone is almost sheepishâhesitant and shy. The pretence of his bravado has melted, his gruffness gone in place of a more sincere expression.
You sigh. âI guess I got fired.â
Leviâs lips part. âWhat did you do?â
âItâs something I didnât do,â you explain as you take a small step towards him that he matches, both of you tired of resisting the pull you feel to the other. âSomething I refused to do, reallyââ
You and Levi stand toe to toe, so very close together.
Your eyes scan his face: the soft slope of his nose, the gentle curve of his lips, the angular shape of his eyes.Â
You know him so well.Â
You wish you knew him more.
ââAnd Iâm the only one who can. So I quit technically, I think. Not actually quite sure how it works.â
âYou donât make any sense,â he mutters, reaching up towards your cheek. When he first touches you, he draws his hand back slightly, like heâs not expecting you to feel so solid underneath his fingertips.
âI know,â you say, a laugh weaving its way through your words despite the ache in your chest. You lean into his touch and he lets you.
âThis is a dream, right?â Levi asks as he drags his thumb along the apple of your cheek, brushing back towards your temple. His touch is soft and warm.
âDo you dream of me often?â you dare to ask.
He looks at you strangely, but makes no effort to deny it.
âWell, if this is a dream, what will you do?â you ask him.
Leviâs brow furrows.
âDonât say fly.â
âI wasnât going to say fucking fl-â you lean so close to him he falters without completing the thought.
âLevi, can I ask something of you?â
He hesitates in the wake of your unexpected request, and then slowly bobs his head in a nod.
âWill you kiss me goodbye?âÂ
The meeting of your lips is sweet and soft and slow. You want more of it and nothing else. You wish that it could last.
âWhatâs your name?â Levi pulls away and whispers, his breath fanning against your lipsâheâs not far enough to be considered wholly separate from you, but distant enough to miss the taste of him. âI always ask but you never tell me.â
You smile, tracing your finger through the soft strands of his hair, and you tell him.
He repeats it, tests it out as though getting used to the feeling of it on his tongue.Â
You kiss him again, one last time.
âThank you,â you tell him as you take a step back that requires more effort than youâve ever had to expend.
âFor what?â he asks, blinking through a heavy lidded gaze.
You smile, a heat pricking at the back of your eyes.
âFor seeing me.â
âPlease.â Levi seems to sense whatâs coming before it arrives, choking on the plea as it rises in his throat. âDonât g-â
You press two hands against his chest, and push him onto his back.
Levi groans.
The river beside you rushes past relentlessly.
He canât open one eye, a gruesome wound ripped across his face, and the other is mostly shut as he fights to stay conscious.
Thereâs so much blood.
But his heart is beating.
âYou looked better when you were dead,â your words are soft as you crouch over him.
You smile, pressing a kiss to his forehead that you know he cannot feel.
âHi Zo,â you say, looking up and seeing Zola standing above you.
âYou really went and did it, huh?â
Levi murmurs your name.
A soul for a soul.Â
A balance to keep.
âYeah, I guess I did.â
You look up towards the stars, but see only clouds hanging in the sky overhead. His fate is out of your sight now.
Zola holds out her hand to you, a grim, almost watery smile on her face.
You take her hand, and let her reap you.
You donât like it underground.
Itâs dark, and cold, and thereâs always something about being so far below the surface that makes you feel unsettledâthough you canât quite put your finger on why.
Your palm curls into an empty fist, tucked into your pocket.
Shit.
Youâve forgotten your rail pass, and the time on the screen of your cellphone tells you that your train is about to pull into the station. Itâs late, and it's the last train of the night that will get you home.
Your head whips around, scanning the empty underground station. Thereâs no one around, so you hop the barrier without paying.
An angry shout from a passing security guard calls out for you, and it sends you runningâgiggling a little as your pulse pounds in your throat. You make it to your platform and slip onto the last train just in time, stumbling through the closing door, triumph rising in your chest.
Your celebration is short-lived as you crash face fist into something soft, tumbling to the ground of the train as it pulls away from the station.
The lights race past in a blur as the train travels through the tunnels, shadow and light alternating before your eyes.
âAre you insane?â an angry voice snaps, and you pick your head up from where it restsâonly to meet a narrowed grey gaze that belongs to the man whose body you find your own sprawled atop.
âMaybeâ you say with a laugh, pushing yourself up and dusting yourself off.Â
The train is empty this time of nightâit really was terrible luck that this poor guy happened to be on the other side of the door as youâd barrelled your way through it.Â
âSorry about that,â you say, extending your hand towards your unwitting crash-pad to help him up as well.Â
He eyes it skeptically before he takes it. He feels warm.
He rises to his feet.
âI⊠Iâm Levi.â
His hand is still in yours.
You tell him your name, he repeats it back to you.
âHave we met? You look⊠familiar.â
You tilt your head, watching the glimmer in his silver eyes as the lights outside the train windows flicker past.
âNo,â you say, warmth in your words and your cheeks. âI donât think we have.â
BEG, BORROW, & STEAL - levi ackerman/f!reader (aot)
NSFW 18+ MINORS AND AGELESS BLOGS DO NOT INTERACT
wc: 13k
tags: enemies to lovers, neighbours to begrudging friends to lovers, food and wine writer!Levi, catsitter!Levi, Pancakes is the Real Star of this show, frequent and gratuitous descriptions of food and drink, frequent mention and consumption of alcohol, singular mention of loud domestic argument, smut, oral (f!receiving), fingering, sensory deprivation play, blindfolds, hair pulling, no mention of condoms, honestly i'm not sure if fire escapes are actually safe to hang out on so tw for that too
crossposted to ao3
Nestled in a quiet corner of Mitrasâ budding east end, thereâs a little five-storey building.Â
Itâs stout, brick, and decorated with ivy that creeps up along the mortar and underneath its windows. Along the side of the building not facing the two lane street, running just above a narrow back alley, thereâs a labyrinthine set of old metal fire escapesârusted and weathered but still sturdy, a standing testament to bygone craftsmanship. It all comes together in stark juxtaposition to the design of the towering structures of concrete, steel, and glass that have been steadily cropping up in the neighbourhood as of late.Â
The architecture feels almost out of place among these new developments, understated and old among all the shiny and new, but it certainly has a lot of character.
The residents who inhabit the apartments inside are respectful, polite people, who mostly tend to keep to themselvesâthough theyâre as a eclectic of a bunch as any, to be sure. Most have lived in their rent-controlled units for decades, made homes for themselves that they never plan to leave.Â
Since moving into the little brick building two years ago, you havenât had any notable issues with any of your neighbours.
Well, except for one.
The miserable guy in apartment 304âone unit down and slightly to the left of your own, 405. Heâd nearly chewed your god damn head off for using his trash can one time when youâd first moved in. His trash can of all things. It had been an honest mistake on your part, and youâd sincerely apologized for it when he all-but cornered you in the mail room off the lobby a few days after the fact. But after the unpleasant exchange, the curmudgeon bought himself a padlock for his trashcan and has sent withering glares your way ever since.Â
Itâs been well over a year since then, but the chill has never quite broken between the two of you.Â
The dark haired man, who seems to be perpetually suit-cladâor at least he has been in all the times youâve spotted himâis easy enough to avoid given the floorâs difference between your units. But sometimes ill-fated meetings are inevitable in such close quarters.Â
Your building (regrettably) only has one rickety old elevator. Itâs an original feature from when the complex was first built, and itâs undergone minimal maintenance and sum total zero upgrades since it was installed decades prior.Â
All of which is to say: it merits nothing less than being called a complete and utter death trap.Â
And, as though the sluggardly descent from your apartment on the fourth floor down to the lobby isnât harrowing enough, your ill-tempered neighbour standing less than a metre away from you in a tightly confined space surely makes it worse.
The elevator is old enough that it has two doorsâan automatic door that opens on each floor, as well as a manual interior door that the passengers in the elevator are responsible for opening and closing themselves. Initially youâd found the antique system charming, quaint even, but after realizing that the interior door weighs about thirty pounds and only likes to open half of the time, it quickly lost its charm. You stare pointedly at the cursed iron grate of the aforementioned interior door as the elevator makes its slow downward journey to the lobby, cursing yourself for not just taking the fucking stairs.Â
The lights on the side panel tell you youâre only one single floor away from your destination. If you just hold your breath and pray hard enough maybe everything will be fiâ
âIf you and your boyfriend plan to continue going at it like animals until four in the morning without any consideration for your neighbours, you should at least have the basic human decency to close your bedroom window.â
The elevator makes it to the ground floor just as his eviscerating remark draws to a close, the car dipping slightly upon arrival and sending your stomach sinking with it. Without missing a beat, your sour-faced neighbour pulls the confounded metal door open like it weighs nothing. You, in contrast, are frozen stock-still in shock, reeling in the wake of his words with a singeing heat flooding your cheeks. He steps off in the lobby without so much as a momentary glance in your direction, and you watch his back (in a crisp navy blue suit jacket) as he walks away.
Youâre so completely stunned that you almost forget to get out too.Â
Oh, you hate him.
You swear that youâll forsake the cursed elevator entirely for the rest of your life, if only to avoid ever crossing paths with that bastard again.
Or, so you may have thought.
Weeks later, you find yourself on the fire escape outside your living room with tears drying on your cheeks. You sit quietly in the wake of a long, heated argument with your boyfriend. A loud argument. A relationship ending argument.Â
Things have been bad for a few months. Maybe even longer, if youâre being honest. Heâs always been a bit mean, a little careless, a little wrongâand you knew he probably wasnât the one. But that doesnât make the sting of yet another relationship crumbling in your hands any more bearable.
And so, not for the first time, you find yourself drowning your sorrows in a bottle of cheap, overly saccharine white wine and hiccuping in breaths of the fresh air as you try to soothe the ache while the sting of alcohol sears down your throat.
âYour boyfriend sucks.â
You jump a little, looking down the stairs to your right only to see your most loathed neighbour on his own fire escape with a glass of red wine in his hand.Â
Youâre not sure how long heâs been there, but youâre sure he heard most (if not all) of what had transpired in your living room if he had been home at the time. Your windows had been open, you realize too late to do anything about it.
âYeah,â you scrub at your swollen eyes with the back of your knuckles, âhe kinda doesââ
You take a long, inelegant swig from the bottle of wine in your hand at the same time your neighbour lifts his own glass. This mouthful tastes more bitter than the last.
ââand heâs not my boyfriend anymore, in case it needs to be said.â
Your neighbour pauses with his glass at his lips. Based on the fact that your window had been open to the world at large, and your conversation with your now-ex had been less that even-toned, you doubt the point really stands to be highlighted.
âIt doesnât,â he replies, confirming your suspicions. âBut sorry to hear that.âÂ
You snort mirthlessly. âAre you really?â
The man tuts, a little click of his tongue behind his teeth. But itâs not a sound that implies that he cares, just one that says heâs been found out.Â
âNo.â
You canât help but laugh at his candour. Itâs a nice reprieve from the tears.
And, strangely, things are almost⊠amicable after that.Â
Now in the evenings when both of you sit quietly on your fire escapes, where once youâd skitter back inside to avoid his cold glare and oppressive aura, neither of you moves to silently retreat.Â
Sometimes you even chat, as unlikely an occurrence as it once would have seemed to you. You talk about basically nothingâthe weather, a new building thatâs cropped up a few streets away, a noisy neighbour, the moonâand itâs usually just for a few minutes before you head to sleep. You tend to be early to bed and early to rise, but Apartment 304âs lights seem to be on at all hours.
Part of you wonders just how long he stays out on his balcony after you retire for the night. But, itâs sort of niceâthis unlikely armistice you seem to have unspokenly signed.
You stick your head out the window one evening, a few months in to your ill-begotten amity, a little earlier than you normally would since you got home from work ahead of your usual return.
Heâs already there.Â
âHeyââÂ
Your neighbour lifts his head to peer up from the pad of notebook paper heâs scribbling away on. Heâs wearing glasses today. Youâve never seen those before.Â
ââwhat are you having for dinner?âÂ
304 looks at you with a quirk of his brow.Â
âA 2001 Cabernet Sauvignon.âÂ
You lean your elbows on the windowsill, angling yourself a little further out of it. âI just made a fuckload of food. If you split that red with me, Iâve got a plate for you.â
He eyes you, and seems to be considering your proposal.Â
âWhat is it?â
âRoast chicken, some vegetables. Nothing fancy.â
âThis wine pairs better with red meat.â
âYeah? Well my last bottle of wine cost me 8 dollars and a 2-day hangover. Do you want the food or not?â you ask him, rolling your eyes lightly at his comment.
Thereâs a long pause.Â
A sigh.
âFine.â
You meet on the metal stairs halfway between your respective fire escape landings on the third and fourth floor; you're perched a few steps higher than your neighbour closer to your home, and he to his.Â
He pours you a serving of wine into a spotless glass that he must have retrieved while you were inside plating up the meal, having evidently tucked his eyeglasses away at the same time as theyâre nowhere to be seen. He accepts the plate of food you offer him and hands you the drink in exchange. Your plates are mismatched, so is your cutlery, and they clash with the delicate wine glasses heâs brought to your unexpected soiree.Â
You watch cautiously as he takes his first bite, silently scrutinizing the way his brow furrows as he chews. After a moment the crease in his brow softens, and he seems contentâor at the very least not repulsed. You almost laugh into the brim of your wine glass as you quietly read the expressions on his face.Â
You tip your glass back and take your first sip.
âHoly shit, this is great,â you say, the flavour of the wine lingering on your tongue even after youâve swallowed it down. Itâs neither too dry nor too sweet, evenly balanced, and it doesnât have the lingering tannic bitterness of the reds that youâve tried before. Theres something rich but not heavy in the notes that first touch your palate, fruity but on the right side of neutral. You reach a hand out for the bottle and he passes it to youâalbeit hesitantly. Reading the label, all youâre able to surmise is that itâs french. âThis must not be cheap.â
âIt certainly cost more than eight dollars,â your third floor neighbour snorts. He catches the flat look you shoot him, and suddenly is very preoccupied with cutting into his next bite of chicken.
And so from that point on you continue your evening chats, and even eat dinner together on a semi-regular basis. Apartment 304 has yet to turn down your offer of a free mealâand he always supplies the wine.
Youâre not friends per se, but youâre certainly no longer mortal nemeses either.Â
âOi! 405!â
You hear your neighbour call to you late one afternoon, the sun rapidly slipping away along the city skyline outside, and rush towards your open window. You stick your head out onto the fire escape curiously.Â
Your neighbour is standing on his landing, staring up at you with a quirked brow.
âDid you lose something?âÂ
Thatâs when you notice the bra dangling off his outstretched finger. Your eyes shoot to your laundry rack where that very bra had been previously pinned to dry, as though you really need to confirm where it had come from. Thereâs a clothespin resting on the grated metal deck of the fire escape beside the wire rack, having clearly blown off in the wind.Â
You swallow a mortified groan.Â
âHow do you know thatâs not Misses Millerâs from upstairs?â You sniff, unduly defensive. The argument is weak and you know it; Misses Miller occupies apartment 506, the unit at the top of the fire escape stairs connected to your ownâsheâs nearly 80 and likely requires a bit more support than what the dainty lace bra looped around your neighbour's index finger offers.Â
The dark-haired manâs lips quirk into something you might think vaguely reminiscent of a smirk if you believed him capable of it.
âIâm happy to go ask-âÂ
âYouâre a real jerk, yâknow that, Third?â you cut him off before he can finish the thought, pulling yourself out through the window clumsily in your newfound haste.
He seems to be contemplating what youâve said as you make your way down the fire escape stairs towards him, footfalls heavy with your indignation.
âThird?â he asks, peering up at you with his head titled inquisitively to the side.
âThird floor,â you explain, like it should be obvious.
âI donât own the entire third floor.âÂ
You lean down from your place on the stairs and snatch your bra from his hand. âWell you sure act like it.â
You turn and stomp your way back up the fire escape towards your own apartment, bra clutched in a tightly clenched fist.
âSo, should I let Misses Miller know youâre returning that to her, orââ
You slam your window shut behind you before you can hear the end of his comment.
A few nights following The Bra Incidentâor the deBRAcle as youâve come to refer to it in your mortified inner monologueâyou wake to the unpleasant sound of toppling aluminium in the back alley. Sleepily, you shuffle out into your living room and lift your window, peeking your head out into the cool night.
A quick glance to your right tells you that 304âs lights are off. Itâs late, admittedly, and this should be normalâbut you canât recall a night youâve peeked down towards his apartment and seen the window dark. Itâs all a bit unusual.
âYou alright down there?â You approach the railing of the fire escape and lean over the edge to peer down towards the ground.
Below you, beyond all odds or reasonable explanation, is your third floor neighbour. Heâs dressed in a nice suit as usual, with his hair neatly slicked back, and heâs standing beside a knocked over garbage can with trash strewn about.
He blinks up at you owlishly.
Itâs quiet for a moment as the two of you hold eye contact.
He speaks first.
âI forgot my house keys in my office.â
You raise a brow, propping your chin in your hand as you lean against the metal railing. âAnd so you picked a fight with an innocent trash can?âÂ
304 narrows his eyes up at you, a resentful squint. The sharp line of his jaw becomes even more pronounced as he grits his teeth. âIâm trying to reach the fire escape.â
The ladder that connects the fire escape to the ground is retractable, and has to be pulled from the second floor. Heâd clearly been trying to use the garbage cans as leverage to reach the lowest rung of the ladder and yank it downâa security measure that had clearly done its job.
You purse your lips, fighting back a laugh. âAre you drunk?âÂ
Silence befalls the two of you once more, and your neighbours eyes only narrow further.Â
âA bit.â Reluctance weighs heavily in his monotonous words.
You push yourself off from the railing, heading back towards your window.Â
âWhere are you going?â 304 calls indignantly after you, like now that youâve spotted him youâre somehow obligated to come to his aid.
âI gotta grab something!â you chirp dismissively as you crawl back inside over the edge of the frame.
Something being your cellphone. Specifically to take a picture and commemorate the ordeal.
âYouâre cruel,â your neighbour snarls from his place on the ground as you gleefully snap a few photos with flash, quickly turning his back to you in an attempt to preserve whatever remaining shred of pride he has left.
âAnd if you want me to drop this fire escape ladder then youâre at my mercyâso smile!â you cajole with a giggle as you lean precariously over the railing, pinching the screen of your cellphone to zoom in on his figure.
He flips you off over his suit-clad shoulder and it makes you laugh again.Â
Once youâve had your fun, and taken (conservative estimate) 400 photos, you climb down the stairs all the way to the second floor balconyâcreeping across the grated deck as to not startle your unsuspecting lower-level neighboursâand finally push down the fire escape ladder.Â
304 makes short work of clambering up the rungs, pulling himself onto the balcony with a heaving sigh. He stumbles slightly, and you grab him by the lapels of his suit to steady him.
âTake it easy, Third,â you say quietly, letting your hands unfurl from his suit jacket once youâre sure heâs regained his balance.
He rolls his eyes and pulls the creaky fire escape ladder up behind him once more. You both wait with bated breath, pulse spiking, to see if the lights inside the second floor apartment turn on. Mercifully the windows stay dark.
The two of you make your way back up to the third floor, and youâre just about to step onto the stairs towards your own apartment and return to the call of your bed as 304 move towards his window. He places both hands flat against the glass and pushes up.
Nothing happens.
Itâs locked.Â
âOh my god,â your neighbour groans miserably, letting his forehead rest against the fingerprint-smudged glass, his dark hair hanging around his eyes.
âHoly shit, did something just move in there?â You gasp in fright, spotting something streaking through the darkness of his apartment through the pane.
âYes, the fucking beast thatâs taken over my home.â
You tilt your head. âIâm lost.â
The man before you sighs, turning over so instead of resting with his forehead against the glass his shoulders are pressed to the brick just beside the window frame. He tilts his head back, and a strand of hair falls from his slicked back style and curls in front of his eyes. He breathes out frustratedly into the night. âIâm currently babysitting my acquaintanceâs evil cat.â
âYou have a cat?â you ask excitedly.Â
âNo,ââhe shoots you a pointed, irritated lookââitâs my acquaintanceâs cat. And itâs the weirdest creature on earth. She can open windows and eats all of my bread.â
You press a hand to your mouth to try and hold back your giggles.
âBread?â you ask him incredulously.
He nods solemnly.
âWell,ââyou drag the toe of your fluffy slipper idly against the grating beneath your feetââwhatâs her name?â
He stares at you blankly. Utterly unenthused. âPancakes.â
And at that you have no choice but to openly and unreservedly laugh.
When you finally manage to get your giggles in checkâexceedingly conscious of how the sound of your laughter seems to ricochet down the narrow, brick-lined alley you find yourself inâyou manage to ask him a pertinent question.
âDoes anyone have a spare key to your place?â
âMy colleague, Erwin,â the man in front of you mumbles.
Acquaintance. Colleague. Youâre starting to wonder if 304 has no friends, or just refuses to refer to them as such.
âOk, so call him,â you encourage.
He shuts his eyes, his head still pressed back against the wall of brick behind him.
ââŠMy phone is dead.â
You wince.Â
âChrist, third strike youâre out.â
Your neighbour looks ready to pitch himself clear off the edge of the fire escape.Â
âGet it? because youâreââ
âI got it.â 304 finally opens his eyes to shoot you a glare.
You do him the favour of not openly laughing in the face of his misfortune again, wracking your brain for something that may actually be helpful.
âEr, do you wanna come up to my place?â you ask. âI probably have a charger you can use for your phone, or you could just use mine to call. What kind do you have?âÂ
The man in front of you rifles through the inside pocket of his suit jacket and hands you the dead device.Â
You survey it for a moment, turning the bottom of the phone up towards you to squint at the charging port in the dim night. Itâs different from yours but all hope isnât yet lost. âI think that ex of mine you liked so much had the same one, he left a charger up there. Itâs all yours if you want it.â
Itâs not like he really has any other choice.
As 304 follows you up the narrow fire-escape stairs towards your window on the fourth floor, you realize itâs the first time your neighbour has ever been to your apartment. Or even crossed the halfway point on the stairs, for that matter. You turn just before you get to the window, and suddenly realize how close you are on the narrow balcony outside of your home.Â
You pause.
âYou know, I really shouldnât be inviting a stranger into my apartment.â
Third tuts admonishingly. âWe eat dinner together once or twice a week.â
âI donât even know your na-â
âLevi.â
Youâre a little taken aback in the wake of his offering, your eyes widening slightly.
âLevi,â you test the name over in your mouth like the wine the two of you so often share, and then you shrug. âDoesnât quite have the same ring to it as Third, but I guess itâll do.â
âYouâre impossible, you know that?â he huffs.
You turn to crawl through your living room window when you feel a gentle touch on your hip calling for your attention. You look back, and Levi pulls his hand away quickly, like heâs realized what heâs done.
You canât help but think he doesnât need to seem so suddenly abashed.
He clears his throat a little as you look to him inquisitively.Â
âYour name?âÂ
You smile a bit, your nose scrunching up at how shyly he poses the question, and you tell him.
He nods curtly, like he accepts it, and it almost makes you laugh.
You go about making two cups of tea while you wait for the phone to power back on once heâs plugged it into the chargerâwhich you dug out of a box you keep shoved in the back of your coat closet full of things your various exes have left in your apartment over the years. Thankfully it is the right fit for the device.
A quick glance at the time on your stove clock as youâre boiling the kettle tells you itâs already well past two AMâfar later than your usual bedtime, though you donât feel particularly sleepy.
Once the tea has been prepared, you tote the steaming mugs into the living room where Levi is waiting. You sit curled in an armchair, while your unexpected guest rests perched on the very edge of your sofa closer to the outlet where his phone is plugged into the wall.
âSo, what had you out so late tonight, Thir-Levi?â you ask, correcting yourself last minute from using the nickname youâre so used to. You blow over the surface of your very hot tea as you wait for his reply.
âWork thing,â he grunts dismissively, his knee jiggling impatiently while he cradles the still-dark cellphone in his hands. He picks up his own cup of tea and takes a sip. He seems pleasantly surprised by the taste.
âOkay,â you draw out the word, âand what exactly do you do for work?â
Levi looks at you over the brim of his mug, an almost skeptical expression on his face.
âIâm a writer.â
Your eyes widen. âNo shit! Like a novelist?â
âJournalist,â he corrects you, his lips pursing forward like heâs contemplating whether or not to divulge any more. He decides to indulge you, evidently, when he further supplies: âIâm a food and wine writer.â
âReally?â You lean forward in your seat, suddenly very interested. âA critic?â
He looks like he wants to correct you, but doesnât. âI write reviews among other things, yes.â
You slump back in your chair a little bit, kicking your legs up to loop over one armrest.Â
âWow, a guy who writes about food and canât even cook.â
âI can cook, I just choose not to,â Levi says defensively, his tone sharp.
âSounds like something someone who canât cook would say,â you say, punctuating the statement with a long sip of tea.
âIâve eaten at some of the nicest restaurants in the worldâthereâs nothing I can make myself that could compare, so why try?â
âHow fatalistic of you,â you say with a snuffle of a laugh against the edge of your mug. âYou know, if Iâd known you had such a refined palate I might have been a bit more self-conscious about serving you my cooking.â
Levi rolls his eyes. âYouâre a decent cook.â
Your brows lift in surprise. A compliment?
âBut you use too much salt.â
You bark out a defensive laugh. âI do not!â
You hear a subtle buzz of vibration and a soft chime as Leviâs phone, left momentarily forgotten on the arm rest of the couch, powers on. It seems to take you both by surprise.
âWell then, time to call your colleague in shining armour,â you say with an encouraging wave of your hand.
Levi leans forward to set his cup of tea down on the table in front of him.
âCoasters?â He pauses, looking around the room.Â
âI found this coffee table on the curb outside my dorm in college, I promise you itâs seen worse than a hot mug.â
Leviâs face pinches slightly before he sets the mug gently down atop the tableâs edge.
You watch as he picks up his phone, tapping around the lit screen for a moment before holding the device up to his ear. Heâs curved a little awkwardly towards the end of the sofa due to the power cord connecting the phone to the outlet, the material of his dress shirt pulling taught around his frame. His suit jacket hangs on the back of a chair at your kitchen counter, the knot of his tie is loosened at his throat.Â
Itâs quiet for a moment, and then Levi pulls his phone away from his face and ends the call.
âHeâs not answering,â he says with a frustrated huff, as though not answering a phone call in the dead of night is somehow unreasonable. He dials the number again.
âWell,â you say slowly, watching as the same series of events plays out once more, âitâs late. Heâs probably asleep.â
âOh, fuck,â he groans quietly, slumping back into your sofa.Â
âDo you think the building Super would be awake?â you ask. The Superintendent has keys to every unit, so heâs the next most viable option. Heâs a nice, helpful man, and only lives down on the first floor, but you suspect a knock at the door in the dead of night would be worse than an impromptu phone call.
âNo, but heâd probably wake up if I called him,â Levi mumbles. He clicks his tongue behind his teeth in irritation. âHow humiliating.â
He looks miserable at the mere prospect, but still reaches for his phone.
And maybe itâs because of how late it is. Maybe itâs how warm and dozy and pliantly agreeable the tea that youâd prepared for the two of you has made you feel. Maybe itâs just because thereâs something inexplicably comfortable about being around Levi that has your guard lowered.
âYou could always crash on my couch,â you find yourself saying before you really think it through. He looks up at you, clearly taken aback by the offer. âThen you can call your coworker in the morning and get your spare key.â
Levi appears uncertain. âYouâd let a stranger crash on your couch?âÂ
âWe eat dinner together once or twice a week, Levi,â you remind him with a little smirk, using his own words from earlier in your defence.
You bring out a pillow from your own bed covered in a fresh pillow case, and a blanket from your linen closet. You hand them to Levi, still seated in the same place on your sofa though a bit more at ease, and he dips his head in thanks while holding both items atop his lap.
âI have some clothes my ex left here that I would offer you, but he was a bit, uhâŠââyou make a vague gesture in roughly the same stature as your last boyfriendââhe had a different build than you.â
Levi looks at you flatly.Â
âYouâve already done enough,â he says, though not altogether unkindly.Â
âAlright, well⊠gânight,â you say with an awkward little wave, shuffling off in the direction of your bedroom.Â
Levi calls your name just as you step across the threshold, and you peek back through the doorway towards him. His face is illuminated only by the glow of the lamp atop the table next to the sofa, and heâs looking at you with an unexpectedly earnest expression as he undoes the top button of his dress shirt, his tie resting undone around his collar.Â
âThank you.â
You smile, dipping your head in a little nod, and shut your bedroom door behind you.
When you wake the next morning, it takes a few languid blinks against the morning sunlight streaming in through the curtains and a couple moments more of proper consciousness to remember the events that had transpired the night before.
Well, that and the distant shuffling outside your bedroom door.Â
You pull on a sweatshirt, pat your hair down into something you think (hope) is a little less dishevelled, and amble sleepily out to your living room. Itâs empty, but Leviâs suit jacket is still hanging on your counter stool, his tie neatly rolled up on the corner of your coffee table, and your window is open. You can see the edge of his back seated just beyond the open pane.Â
You poke your head out to see Levi on the fire escape. His button up shirt is undone to reveal the tight white t-shirt he wears underneath it, and his slacks are slightly creased from sleeping in them. His hair is messyâa hybrid between the loose hanging style youâre accustomed to, and the slicked back fashion heâd had it in the night before. He must hear you coming, because he turns to face you as you arrive. You look at him curiously as if to ask why heâs sitting outside.
âI didnât want to bother you,â he explains without you even vocalizing the question on your mind. His voice is still a bit hoarse from sleep, deeper and rougher than its usual smooth tone.
You crawl through the window, yawning a little as you take a seat cross-legged on the little balcony behind him. Levi turns to face you properly, shifting his whole body in your direction where he sits at the top of the stairs leading down to his own apartment.Â
âAny word from your spare key courier?â You blink through the tears that sprang to your eyes in your yawn, rubbing them away with your fist.
âHeâll be here in half an hour,â Levi replies.
You nod, a little tug at the corner of your mouth. âThank God. Pancakes must be so worried all alone in there.âÂ
Leviâs lip curls in an unhappy sneer. âI watched her eat half a loaf of three-day-old brioche through the window this morning. Iâm sure sheâs having the time of her life.â
Thereâs no choice but to giggle at the image of a cat ransacking your excessively type-A neighbourâs home, even if he canât see the humour in it.
âDâya want some coffee?â you ask, pushing yourself up towards the window again.
âIâd take another cup of that tea from last night,â Levi replies, his tone almost hopeful, and you nod before pulling yourself back inside.
You return to your place on the fire escape a few minutes later, this time with two mugs in hand.
Itâs quiet while you sip your drinks, listening to the building hum of the city waking up around you.Â
âYou always up this early?â you finally shatter the stillness with a question, but itâs not intrusiveâslipping easily into the comfortable air around you.
âYeah, usually,â Levi says, peeking over at you. He holds his mug a little strangely, you canât help put noticeâfingertips gripping the brim rather than the handle. It seems unduly precarious. âYou wake up early too, huh?âÂ
You tilt your head, wondering how he might know that.Â
âYou sing a lot in the morning,â he explains, looking away by turning his gaze back towards the alley. âYouâve got terrible pitch.â
âHey!â You reach out and swat at his shoulder. Heâs warm to the touch, and even though itâs so basically human it still feels almost unexpected.
He huffs a little, neither a laugh nor far enough from one to discredit it; the sound is smug and indulgent.
âYeah well you stay up too late,â you counter his observation with one of your own.
This time itâs his turn to be curious, lifting a dark brow as he peeks back at you over his shoulder.
âYour lightâs always on,ââyou tilt your head in the direction of his apartment down the stairs heâs seated at the top ofââand I donât really take you for the nightlight type.â
âI donât sleep much,â he admits.
You scoff. âWhat do you to with all those extra hours in the day?âÂ
âWriting, editing, researching, emailing my editor,â he explains with a shrug.
You roll your eyes a bit, taking a sip of your coffee. âSo youâre a real workaholic, huh?âÂ
Levi drains the last mouthful of his tea, setting the mug down with a little clink as the porcelain meets metal. âThere are worse things to spend your time doing.â
âThere are better things too,â you counter.Â
âSuch as?âÂ
âI donât know, socializing? Relaxing? Going out on a date?â You gesticulate with the hand not holding your mug as though to say âso on and so forth.'
âYou think dating in this day and age is a fun way to pass the time?â Levi remarks flatly.
âFine,â you concede, a sudden memory of your last ex coming to mind unwelcomely. You canât help but note he doesnât make mention of any partners of his own. âDonât you have hobbies?â
Levi purses his lips, and seems to be wracking his brain. It takes a while.Â
You stare at him, unimpressed. âWhen was the last time you went to a museum? An art gallery? A play? The movies? Anywhere that wasnât work related?â
âI went to the National Gallery downtown a while ago,â he offers.
âOh yeah?â you ask, disbelievingly. âWhen?âÂ
âA class trip in ninth grade.â
Your laughter echoes through the alley as it spills from your lips.
âYou know theyâve always got new exhibits on display,â you say, gathering your composure. You lean forward, knees pressing into your chest. âYou should visit again, Iâm sure something has changed in the past eighty years since you were there last.â
Levi watches you curiously, a little too intently to be considered casual.
His phone jingles.
He blinks, and thereâs a brief delay before he looks down at the device in his hand.
âThatâs my key,â he says quietly.Â
You nod, standing. Somewhere in the distance, a car horn blares. You hadnât even noticed how noisy itâs gotten in the time the two of you have been sitting together, but the city is well and truly awake now.
One at a time, you both climb back in through the windowâhim letting you go firstâand once you make it back into your living room you take Leviâs empty cup from his hand to take it to your kitchen sink and wash while he collects his belongings.Â
Levi steps towards your front door as you dry your hands off on a towel hanging from the handle of your oven. You watch as he buttons up his dress shirtâthough he leaves it untucked from his wrinkled trousers.
âThanks again for⊠yâknowââhe stops buttoning once he gets about half-way up the row and gestures vaguelyââall of this.â
You lean your hip against your kitchen counter. âIâll slip a bill under your door for room and board.â
He rolls his eyes, but thereâs a soft sort of exasperation to his expression as he does it.Â
âYou could just knock.â
You smile, and you feel a pinch in your cheeks from how wide it spreads. âWell, whereâs the fun in that?â
You donât see Levi again in the week that follows, as youâre stuck working late each night as you slog towards a project deadline.Â
You leave for the office in the morning when the sun has barely crested, and come home long after itâs set. Youâve been eating mainly takeout from restaurants near your work, and whatever happens to be hiding at the back of your pantry since you havenât had the opportunity to grocery shopâall interspersed with whatever mediocre, half-stale baked goods your coworkers have brought in and left in the staff kitchen for everyone to share.
After one particularly brutal day, you shuffle in the door with nothing but a day-old donut and three coffees in your stomach, though the clock has ticked past eleven. You drop your belongings on your kitchen counter and wonder if you still have that old bag of microwave popcorn kicking around in the back of your cupboard. You ponder this question as you cross your living room to crack the window and let in a bit of fresh air.
Outside, perched unexpectedly just below the window frame on the fire escape, is a brown paper gift bag.
You glance to the right and see Leviâs lights are still on, as usual, but his window is closed.Â
Hm.
You pick up the bag and retreat inside, peeking at its contents as you go.
Inside you find a bottle of white wineâa nice bottle of white wineâalong with a little piece of notebook paper, ripped along the edge and folded twice in half. You peel the edges of the page back to reveal neat scrawl in black ink.Â
This didnât cost 8 dollars.Â
Thanks again for putting me up.
â3rd.Â
(Levi)
Itâs been a while since youâve seen him, what with all the late nights youâve been pulling at the office, and you realize that your last encounter was the morning after he spent the night at your place.
You smile to yourself, shaking your head, and tuck the note back into the bag.
The next Saturday morning, mercifully freed from the project you've been slaving away at, you have every intention of sleeping in to makeup of the overtime you've been banking. Instead, you wake to a strange rustling sound.
It takes a moment for it to register to your hazy, barely conscious mindâa sound so gentle you hardly process that itâs unusual until itâs been going on for just a few minutes too long.
âMrrrrphm!â
Your eyes shoot open.
Now that noise, you immediately know is out of the ordinary.
You creep out into your kitchen on your tiptoes, towards where the rustling seems to be originating from.
Perched atop your kitchen counter, you see the tail end of a four-legged, ginger-furred little creatureâwith its head tucked into the rumpled paper bag containing the croissant youâd been planning to eat for breakfast. Its long, bushy tail sways back and forth happily as it rustles around inside.
âHey!âÂ
The beastâsoon revealed to be a cat once it pulls its head from the bagâhas the remnants of your (now mostly-shredded) croissant hanging out of its little pink mouth. One of its ears is folded unnaturally, the fur around its neck is scruffy, and you realize upon closer inspection of your half-eaten breakfast that it has a snaggletooth.Â
The cat seems fairly sociable though, as it makes no move to run as you slowly approach.
âIâm guessing youâre the illustrious Pancakes, huh?â you say as you reach up to scratch gently behind her ears. âIâm a huge fan of your work.â
The cat lets out a cheerful little chirp, your ill-fated croissant still hanging from her maw, bumping her head against your wrist. You pluck the bit of bread from her mouth and quickly scoop her up in your arms, heading towards your door as she squirms unhappilyâyou donât quite trust yourself to descend the fire escape with such precious cargo in-hand.
Down on the third floor, you rap sharply against a door.
It swings open moments later to reveal Leviâs perplexed face. Glasses on.
âYour demon cat ate my croissant,â you say, holding the offender out towards him.
She meows innocently.Â
âNot my cat,â he replies flatly, taking Pancakes from your hands and setting her down on the floor just behind him. She hits the ground on all fours with a little thump, and trots off happily into the apartment out of sight.
âBut you two look so much alike.â
Levi responds only with a narrow-eyed glare.
Then he sighs.
âSorry⊠she must have crawled out through the window when I wasnât looking,ââLevi reaches up under the lenses of his glasses, pressing the tips of his fingers against his shut eyes as though theyâre achingââIâll buy you another croissant.â
âItâs fine,â you assure him with a little laugh, and his fingers splay under the metal frames of his eyeglasses to peek at you through the gaps. You wave your hand dismissively. âItâs my own fault for leaving my window open last night.â
âThatâs a good way to be home invaded,â the dark-haired man chides you sternly, a little furrow of disapproval making itself known between his brows. His hands drop from his face, only for his arms to cross over his t-shirt clad chest.
âYeah, well theyâd have to pass your window firstâand itâs not like you wouldnât spot them Mr. Sleep-When-Iâm-Dead,â you say, shooting him a bemused look. âAt least youâd have a description to give the cops.â
âAll you care about is the killer being caught? Not avoiding being murdered in the first place?â Levi drawls.
âWell, at least I could end up on a true crime podcast, so long as you agree to be a good samaritan and assist the authorities in their investigation,â you joke. You peek over Leviâs shoulder to where his curtain is ruffling in the morning breeze. âHey, do you mind if I just go out through the window?âÂ
He shrugs, pulling his apartment door open a little wider to let you through. âBe my guest.â
Leviâs apartment is tidy and sparsely decorated, but itâs nearly identical to your own in terms of general construction. Your eyes canât help flitter around the space as you shuffle through it towards the open window, your nosiness getting the best of you. Thereâs a steaming mug on the edge of his kitchen counter that he must have set aside when you came knocking at his door, a closed laptop resting on the edge of his coffee table next to a notebook, and there are bookcases lining the walls as you walk through the living room. You canât resist pausing to take a closer look as you pass by one, and find a diverse variety of cookbooks and reference books on food, as well as beer, wine and spirits on the shelves.Â
Your fingertip traces the gold lettering adorning the thick spine of an immense tomeâV I N.
âMay I?â you ask, peeking over your shoulder as you pry the book from its place on the shelf.
âYou already are,â Levi replies from the kitchen where heâs retrieved his mug, taking a sip. âBut sure.â
You let out a little laugh, cracking open the inordinately heavy book.Â
âYou speak french?â you ask, your tone lilting in surprise as your eyes trail over the language on the page in front of youâforeign, but distinguishable enough thanks to a few words you recognize from classes you took back in high school. The book seems old, antique possibly, and evidently well loved.
âOnly a little,â Levi says noncommittally, but judging by the notes scribbled in the margins of the pages (in the same neat script scrawled on the scrap of notebook paper tucked into the gift bag on your kitchen counter) you suspect heâs underplaying his abilities.Â
You close the book and slot it back into its place on the shelf.
âThanks for the wine by the way.â
âDid you enjoy it?â he asks.
âI havenât cracked into it yet,â you admit, making the last few steps towards the open window. You tap your hand idly against the spotless frame, turning back to look at where Levi is leaning against his kitchen counter. âI had a big deadline this week at work so Iâve been staying late every day. By the time I got home it was all I could do to force myself to eat something before Iâd pass out on my couch.â
Leviâs brows lift, though the rest of his body seems to untense a bit for reasons you canât quite place.
âIâll be sure to give you a full and comprehensive review of its bouquetâor whateverâonce I finally get the chance to enjoy it,â you remark, half-teasing, and he rolls his eyes.Â
He takes another sip from his mug. Heâs still holding it in that peculiar way he held your mug the morning after he slept on your couch. Thereâs something about it that you find almost endearing.
You lift your hand in a little wave, he nods in acknowledgement of the gesture, and then you crawl out through the window without another word.
Youâre on the second step up the fire escape when Levi pokes his head out after you.
âDo you have breakfast plans?â
You pause, turning back to look at him.
You find him peeking up at you with an unexpectedly hopeful look on his face, if not a little guarded.
âWell, my plans are currently partially digested in your feline wardâs stomach, so... no.â
Levi blinks.
âCan I take you out for breakfast to make up for it, then?âÂ
You tilt your head to the side, a flutter of something keen and eager tickling the pit of your empty stomach.
âFine,â you concede, feigning as though youâre hard done by. âBut I get to choose the place.â
Leviâs lips pull down in an unsubtle expression of his displeasure. âYou know that itâs literally my job toââ
âI donât care,â you interrupt him, waving your hand as though batting his interjection out of the very air into which he spoke it before it has the chance to reach your ears. âI donât want some fancy micro-meal from whatever masters of gastronomy you write about. I want waffles. A lot of âem.â
Levi huffs, grumbling something unintelligible under his breath before replying a single, reluctant: âFine.â
âMeet you in the lobby in 10 minutes?â you ask, your lips stretching in a grin.
His own lips purse, and you almost think it might be halfway to a smile. âSure.â
The two of you wind up at an old greasy spoon diner two blocks away that youâve been going to since college, where the staff always make sure to give you an extra perfectly golden-brown waffle. Levi sits across from you in a dark green knit sweater that looks incredibly cozy and, to your utter surprise, a pair of jeans. He looks more comfortable and casual than youâve ever seen him.
âItâs good, huh?â you ask over the table as Levi bites into his own breakfast: 2 eggs, over easy, bacon and toast. You notice heâs carefully separated all three components of the meal on his plate so none of them are touching, and has liberally applied black pepper to the semi-firm yolks of his eggs.
He swallows the bite he has in his mouth, wiping the corners with his white paper napkin. âItâs food.â
You snort a little, shoving another piece of waffle into your mouth. âAre your reviews always so inspired?â
Levi shoots you an unamused look.Â
âCâmon, donât tell me you only eat at fancy fine dining places?â you say, waving your fork around demonstrably. âThis is what real foodâs all about; little family run joints like this.â
Levi purses his lips.
âHave you ever even been to a fine dining restaurant?â he asks you skeptically.
âNo,â you admit, drowning your plate in more of the cheap table syrup. Leviâs nose crinkles in disdain at the sight. The waffles are the same as always: just the right crispiness on the outside to not grow soggy too quickly under the river of syrup you douse them in, perfectly fluffy on the inside.
Fine dining, irrespective of being well outside your budget, has just never been your style.
âSo who are you to judge?âÂ
Now itâs your turn to purse your lips.Â
You stab your fork through a piece of waffle and syrup drips, slow and sticky, as you hold it up above your plate. You lift a brow challengingly as you stare him down across the table. âIf you want to take me out to a fancy dinner so bad, all you have to do is ask.â
Leviâs expression doesnât change.
âFine.â
âHuh?â you nearly choke, though you havenât yet put your next bite in your mouth.
âGo out to dinner with me,â he says.
âThatâs not a question,â you remark, shoving your waiting forkful into your mouth just to give yourself something else to focus on.
Levi huffs exasperatedly. âWill you go out to dinner with me?â
You take your time to chew, the syrup making everything in your mouth indistinguishably cloying, and then swallow. âIâll think about it.â
Leviâs jaw gapes, a look of betrayal flittering across his usually impassive features.
You laugh.Â
âFine, fine. But only if we can go to the national gallery first,â you say, enjoying every moment of Leviâs palpable misery, setting your fork down and reaching for your mug and taking a sip of coffee. Itâs tempered down to a drinkable heat, a little bitter and burnt tasting just like it always is, and thereâs something nostalgic in that.
Levi fiddles with his fork, cutting into his egg so the sunny yellow yolk runs across his white ceramic plate. ââŠI already went.âÂ
âHuh?â You place your cup back down atop the table, on the edge of your paper placemat.
âI went,â Levi repeats himself, though nothing is made clearer through the repetition.Â
âWhen?âÂ
âA couple days after you mentioned it. I was reviewing a bistro down the roadâterrible by the wayââ he interjects, though you didnât ask, âand I had some time to kill afterwards.â
âSo⊠what was your verdict?âÂ
âBoring.â
âOh, come on!â you say with a warm, pealing laugh, throwing yourself back in your seat. âYouâre so uncultured! Didnât you like their new installation on expressionism?â
âIt was a mess.â
âThatâs the point, itâs abstract!â
âIf I wanted to see a disaster on canvas Iâd look at those sneakers youâve got on,â Levi says with a click of his tongue, but his eyes are bright and mirthful.
You peek under the table at your well-loved tennis shoes, gaping but still laughing. âYou are soâ!â
âCan I get you two some top-ups on those coffees?â The waitress who has been serving the two of you steps up to the table, coffee pot in hand, but she seems almost apologetic for interrupting.Â
Itâs the first time you remember youâre in public, and you settle down a bit, covering your mouth to clear your throat bashfully.Â
âIâm alright, thank you,â Levi declines politely with a dip of his head.
âIâll take a little extra please,â you say, and the waitress smiles and adds another bit of steaming, bitter coffee to your cup. It darkens the last few mouthfuls left from your already milk-and-sugared first drink; the deep brown of the fresh brew swirling into the tawny room-temperature remnants of the last.
Your eyes meet Leviâs over the table, and both of you quickly look away, fighting back your smiles.
The two of you walk back home once your meal has concluded and your bills have been paidâsplit at your insistence, though Levi seemed prepared to physically fight you on it.Â
Back at your building Levi gets out on the third floor after a brief goodbye, but before the door to the elevator can slide closed behind him, and you can close the steel grate of the interior door, his hand shoots out to keep them open.
You look up in surprise at the sudden gesture.
âIâm not kidding about dinner,â Levi says, standing just beyond the threshold to the ancient elevator, staring at you with an almost unnerving sincerity.Â
You blink, taken aback by how serious he is.
âWhatâs your cell number?â he asks when you canât seem to find anything to reply.
You relay the digits to him and he scribbles them down into a little pocket sized, softcover notebook he produces from his jacket pocket. Youâve seen him scribbling in it before out on the fire escape, and realize he must take it with him everywhere he goes. Given the shape and size of itâonly a little larger than the palm of his handâyou donât doubt itâs the very book that the note heâd left with your bottle of wine had been torn from.
âIâll send you a message and we can make a plan,â Levi says, tucking the notebook back into his pocket.
âAlright,â you agree and finally Levi lets his hand fall from where heâs keeping the doors open.Â
He steps away in the direction of his apartment.
âBe careful, Levi,â you say to his retreating back as you pull the grated metal door on the inside of the elevator car closed, âor I might think this is a date.â
He pauses, glancing at you over his shoulder. Your eyes meet through the gaps in the metal, and in spite of the distance you can see the mirth in his gaze. âThatâs exactly what it is, and itâs what breakfast was too.â
And with that, the door slides shut between you.
One week to the day later, you find yourself sitting across from Levi in a restaurant that feels almost too nice for you to be patronizing. Levi is dressed in a nice suit, as ever, and youâre wearing in the only truly nice dress you ownâone youâd bought for a friendâs wedding a few years prior and never had the occasion to wear again.Â
Until now.
Itâs nothing like the meals youâve shared on your fire escape, or the boisterous breakfast at the diner on that Saturday morning. Thereâs no bitter coffee or table syrup to be seen, no mismatched plates and cutlery. Itâs quiet, ambient even. All hushed conversation and warm candle light.
But you still enjoy yourself all the same.
And the food is really fucking good.Â
âIâm devastated,â you breathe out miserably into the cool night air as the two of you walk side-by-side along the quiet sidewalk in the direction of your little brick building.Â
Levi had offered to flag the two of you down a cab, but the evening weather was actually quite nice and the restaurant wasnât far from home so youâd instead suggested to walk. Your heels are starting to hurt your feet a little bit, a pinch in your toes and the early-makings of a blister forming at the back of your ankle where the strap of your shoe rubs against your skin, but you still canât quite bring yourself to regret anything about the evening.
Not the walk, not the dinner, not the company.
âYou didnât like it?â Levi asks, a lilt of concern in his voice.
You shake your head emphatically, turning to look at him with a grave expression. âIt was too good.â
âThatâs a new complaint,â he muses, his mouth pulling at the corner in thinly-veiled triumph.
âHow am I ever supposed to enjoy any food again now that I know it can taste like that?â you complain, tossing your head back to look up at the night sky and passing streetlights overhead. Your shoes click against the pavement with every step, but otherwise itâs refreshingly quiet.
Levi laughs into his closed fist. âNow you see my problem.â
âHey,â you say suddenly, bringing your chin back down so you can look at him, âcan you bring me home your leftovers when you go write your little reviews for places like that?âÂ
âNo,â Levi replies immediately, decisively shaking his head.Â
You pout, sucking in a sharp breath as you prepare to plead your case.
âBut Iâd like to take you out again, if youâll let me.â
Heâs not looking at you, his eyes fixed ahead on the pavement as the two of you walk side by side, but you can tell heâs anxiously awaiting your reply with the way his hand is flexing and unflexing at his side.
You feel heat climb in your cheeks.
âWell, if itâs the only way to keep access to that kind of food, I guess Iâd be stupid to say no.â
Levi hums, his gaze sliding to meet yours from the corner of his eye.Â
âYeah, I guess you would.â
The elevator ride up to the third floor is quiet but not uncomfortable, though you both seem to be keeping your distance in the confined spaceârelegated to opposite sides, not dissimilarly to so many months ago when he was calling you out for fucking your atrocious ex-boyfriend too loudly. You could almost laugh at how much things have changed since then.Â
He says goodnight as he pulls open the grated door, sending you a brief look as he steps out.
âGoodnight, Levi,â you return the sentiment, hesitating to close the inside door between the two of you once more. âThank you for dinner.â
âYouâre welcome,â he replies, and thereâs an almost disappointing finality to his words, though you donât dwell too long on it.Â
And then heâs gone.
Upstairs in your apartment, you kick off your heels as soon as you step through the door. You stretch your toes against the cool hardwood floor to let the blood flow back into them before padding into your kitchen. You drape your coat across the back of a barstool, and drop your purse on counter, pausing momentarily to eye the gift bag with the wine Levi had given you tucked away in the corner.
Maybe itâs time to crack it openâif for no other reason than to try and drown the niggling feeling of dissatisfaction you have squirming in your chest.Â
But first, you pad across your living room to open up your window.
At the very same time that Levi opens his, a floor away.
You pull yourself through without thinking, shivering a little bit against the cool breeze as it meets your exposed skin. Leviâhis suit jacket shed, his tie loosened and collar unbuttonedâdoes the same.
You kneel at the top of the stairs, the metal of the fire-escape digging into your knees, and peer down at him.
âYâknow, I still havenât opened that bottle of white wine.â
Your fingers fidget with the hem of your dressâitâs crept a bit further up your thighs thanks to the way youâre sitting. Leviâs eyes have caught the subtle rise, and through you see his gaze on your exposed skin, it soon flickers up to meet yours.Â
âItâs not really a nightcap,â he says quietly.
You huff, half frustrated and half amused, but the sound is entirely too fond.Â
âAre you coming up here or not?âÂ
Levi climbs the stairs slowly towards where youâre seated at the top. That same feeling underneath your ribs that had once been dissatisfied blooms into something else entirely, crackling like a flame inside your chest as you catch his tie between your fingers.
You pull him down with your grip on the dark green silkâslowly, slowly, slowlyâto press your mouths together.Â
The kiss is sweet. Unhurried. Decadent.
Levi cranes down a little further, his hands settling on the landing behind you, caging you underneath him. His proximity is more intoxicating than any of the wine youâve ever shared. The feeling of his lips parting against yours and the gentle imploring sweep of his tongue is more satisfying than any food on earth could hope to be.
One of his hands trails up along your thigh, across that same skin youâd caught him eyeing moments prior. His touch is cold but still it burns. He gives your flesh a firm squeeze.
âInside now,â he murmurs insistently against your mouth, âunless you want the neighbourhood to hear this.â
You pull away, peeking up at him through your lashes innocently.
âAnd what if I do?â
He swallows visibly, his tongue darting out to lave across his rosy lips before it disappears once more to click behind his teeth.
âKnew you were an exhibitionist.â
Thereâs a graceless, frenetic climb back through the windowâwith Leviâs hand cradling the top of your head all the while so you donât knock it against the frameâand then the two of you are toppling down onto the soft cushions of your couch.
Leviâs body weight presses into yours as he hovers over you, mouths rapacious, your hips flush and hands greedy. Youâre grabbing anything and everything that falls within your reaches: his hands on your waist, your thighs, your heaving chest; your own hands in his hair, cupping his jaw, fisting the fine cotton of his dress shirt. Your dress has rucked up around your waist in the excitement, and after a few moments of exploration Levi slowly breaks your kiss.Â
He sinks to the floor on his knees, and your thighs part for him without thinking.
His eyes trace the dark spot on the centre of the delicate lace over your aching cunt, his thumb soon stroking against it with the exact same eagerness as his eyes.Â
âLevi,â you say his name pleadingly as your hips wriggle to get closer to his touch, squirming further down the couch cushion towards him. âPlease⊠more.â
Levi huffs a little; not a laugh, but something a little more chidingâa little more mocking. He leans forward so you feel every hot breath break against your skin on his exhales, his eyes still fixed to that little patch of wetness thatâs caught his attention, the spot only growing larger the longer he toys with you. âLet me savour this.â
âLike a nightcap?â you ask him, aiming for levity but toeing the wrong side of breathless as his fingers follow the lace trim of your panties up along the curve of your thigh.
âAn aperitif,â he rasps as he snaps the elasticated band against your hip, a sharp crack as it hits your tender skin, and his eyes flicker up to meet yours when you hiss. He smirks. âIt makes you hungrier.â
Not once in all the time youâve known him would you have denied the truth that Leviâs tongue is quick and vicious, but never would you have imagined its sedulity between your legs.Â
The flimsy material of your panties tugged swiftly down and kicked away, itâs as though the meal the two of you had shared that evening has been forgotten, a thing of the past.
Levi devours you like heâs been starved.
âFuck, ohââÂ
Your hips jump on the sofa but his strong forearm slings across your lower abdomen to pin them down and keep you at his mercy. Levi glances up at you from his position on his knees, his head bracketed by your thighs, his eyelids hanging low over his hungry gaze. The tip of his tongue flicks against your twitching entrance, laving back up to your clit. The cycle repeats. Itâs filthy and fascinating to watch.
ââLevi, ngghâoh my god.â
You grab for anything, borderline delirious. Your nails on one hand dig into the throw pillow at the end of your sofa while the other knots itself through Leviâs dark hair. You grip both with an equal roughness, but Levi doesnât seem to mindâsuckling with a renewed insistence at the swollen bundle of nerves between his lips.
He reaches up and pries your hand away from the strands of his hair, twining your fingers with his own as he pins it down to the sofa beside your hip. Levi pulls away from your pussy with a string of saliva keeping you connected, slick smeared along his mouth catching in the light of the lamp.
âBe gentle, would you?â he rasps, âIâd like to keep my hair for the foreseeable future.â
âSorry,â you murmur, your chest heaving from the way your breaths come ragged. âIt feels good.â
âYeah?â he asks, slipping two fingers into his mouth. They shine with his spit when he pulls them from between his swollen lips. He leans back down towards your cunt. âHow good?â
âSo good,â you whine, his two saliva-slicked fingers slipping inside of you at the same time.
âGod,â you toss your head back and gasp, those two fingers inside of you crooking in a way that makes you feel so good.Â
âYouâre close,â Levi hums, not a question but rather a factual observation, before dragging his tongue up towards your clit again. His fingers keep curling against your walls with an almost unfair degree of skill, leaving you shaking and breathless.
âY-yeah, gonna cum,â you whimper.Â
âYouâre gonna cum for me?â he mumbles against your clit, goading you as he carefully watches the expressions on your face.
It's not as though you have any other choice with the way heâs playing you like an instrument heâs long-mastered.
âYes, fuck Levi, there.â
One last gasp and the lewd, pointed suck with his lips wrapped around your clit has you melting, your thighs clamping against his ears as your back bows up off the sofa. A strangled, desperate little sound tears out of the back of your throat, and your fingers tighten around his ownâstill entwined beside you on the sofa.
As you come down from your high, you drag his hand up with yours to your chest, pressing his palm flat against your sternum so he can feel how fast your heart is knocking against your ribs underneath the fabric of your dress.Â
Your heart rate has nowhere near returned to normal when Levi stands from his place on the ground, wiping at his wet mouth with the back of his hand as he takes in your spent, trembling state. In one fellâimpossibly deftâswoop, he picks you up and carries you off towards your bedroom.
âHow the fuck are you so strong?â you gasp as you wriggle in his holdâbut his grip is tight and he doesnât waver.
He drops you down onto your bed, and you bounce lightly as you come in contact with the springy surface. You fall back, staring up at him as he peers at you with affront.
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
You giggle a little as he crawls over your splayed form, his body warm as his lips find their way back to yours.
He kisses you again. And again. And again.
Your pretty dress comes off, finallyâleft discarded in a hapless puddle on your bedroom floor to be dealt with later. It's an end unbefitting of the nicest garment you own, though you canât begin to bring yourself to care.
Leviâs fingers trace along the delicate lace of your newly revealed bra and you feel his lips curl up into a smirk against your own. He inches away, peeking down at your chest.
He dips down to mouth along the swell of your breast, his eyes still impossibly trained on yours, and your fingers tangle into the soft strands at his crown as you moan lightly at the gentle touch.Â
He sucks against the soft flesh, before pulling off with a little pop!
âDoes poor Misses Miller know you kept her bra?âÂ
You laugh in response to his teasing words, a reference to the early days of what youâd now call a friendship (if not something else entirely), tugging him away from your chest by your grip on his hair.
He quirks a brow at you with his head tilted back in your hold.Â
You pout playfully, slackening your grip on his hair and letting your hand slip down along the front of his dress shirt, petting over his chest. âYou know, I think I liked you better with your mouth full.â
Levi clicks his tongue behind his teeth, watching raptly at the flash of pink as your own tongue peeks out to moisten your swollen lips. Something shifts behind his gaze, and he leans back on his haunches beside you, reaching up and fingering the loosened knot of his tie.
âDo you trust me?â
The question is a little bit out of the blue, and relatively unwarranted considering only moments prior heâd been three knuckles deep inside of you, but you entertain it nonetheless.
Your head lolls to the side on your bedspread as you look at him curiously. âI let you spend the night on my couch when we barely knew each other.â
He rolls his eyes at your intentionally indirect response, leaning forward until your entire field of vision is filled with nothing but him once more.Â
âDo you,ââLevi pauses with his lips ghosting over yours, soft as they brushââtrust me?â
A beat of tense silence stretches between you.
âYeah.â You swallow lightly after murmuring the word. âI do.â
Levi pulls back again, and reaches up and tugs on the knot of his tie until it comes completely undone, hanging in two separated halves against his chest. Slowly he draws it out from under the fold of his collar.
âThere was a trend in food criticism years ago,â he says, his grey eyes tracking up, up, up along your exposed body while you wait like eager prey beneath his gaze, âwhere critics used to think that you could taste better in the dark. Like the dulling of one sense would somehow improve the others.â
You swallow hard as he leans forward, moving slowly up the mattress towards you.
His tie is still in his hand.
He dips down and kisses you.Â
Brief. Teasing.
âThey thought you could taste moreâŠâ
Levi loops his tie around your eyes, and your breath hitches. You feel the soft slip of silk against your skin, the pressure tightening (though not unpleasantly) as he knots it at the crown of your head to keep it in place. You see only darkness.
ââŠhear moreâŠâ Leviâs lips are right next to your ear; just a ghost of warm breath and his rich, deep voice that seems a little more strained than it had before.Â
Youâre breathing heavier now, or maybe youâre just more painfully aware of the rhythm of your own respiration.
ââŠfeel more.âÂ
Warm fingers dance up along your ribs and you gasp aloud, not expecting the sensation. But as quickly as it appears, that feeling of his skin on yours, itâs gone again. You swallow. His touch continues in much the same way, fingers disappearing and then reappearing somewhere else, leaving you guessing. Leaving you wanting.
You feel goosebumps prickle up along your skin.
âIs that true?â you whisper as you push yourself upright and reach out blindly in search of Levi, though you arenât quite sure where to find him.
âI donât knowââ Levi admits airily from somewhere before you, both nearer and further than you expect him to be. He takes your outstretched hand in his, pressing it to his cheek. Itâs warm to the touch, and he turns his face towards your palm, pressing a barely there kiss to it.
Unexpectedly your bra falls forward, cool air kissing heated skin as the straps fall down your shoulders, thanks to a talented hand that had slipped behind your back unnoticed. You feel Leviâs lips curl into a smirk against your palm.Â
ââbut letâs find out.â
Next is an obscured, indecipherable blur of hot, open mouthed kisses; of gentle grazes and rougher gropes; of moans, and groans, and needy whines that you arenât sure are even yours anymore. Your pussyâs left a wet patch on the thigh of Leviâs slacks that you canât see but that you can feel as the sticky fabric ruts against your clit, your hips grinding desperately against it as he consumes you and whatever senses heâs left you.Â
Itâs infuriating.Â
Itâs immolating.Â
Itâs divine.
âAre you ready for me?â Levi pants against your stinging lips, his hand cupping your chin to keep your face tilted towards his even if you canât see him.Â
âYes,â you mewl debauchedly, rolling your hips against that same crease in his pant leg thatâs been tantalizing you for what feels like hours. You should be ashamedâof your words, of your tone, of your actionsâbut you arenât.
You feel every second of the stretch as the head of his cock presses inside.
You wonder what it looks like, what he must look like right now, but youâre left only to feel.
âOh,â he groans, the deep sound sodden and drunk with pleasure. âAmazing. Fuck, youâre taking me so well. Youâre perfect.â
The first proper thrustâthe in and the outâalmost pulls you under like the currents of a tide. Youâre fighting a losing battle to keep your head above water, to keep air in your lungs.
The springs of your mattress creak as Levi picks up the pace and mercilessly fucks you down into it, your breaths coming in pants broken by moans. You feel your sheets against your sticky skin, his hands twining with yours, his breath against your lips.
âIs it good?â he asks, mouthing clumsily along your jaw as his hips rail down against yours.
âSo good,â you babble in agreement, nodding dumbly as much as you can with such little control over your own body. âFeels so good.â
âI love hearing you say that,â Levi rasps, tucking his face into the crook of your neck and letting his teeth graze over your racing pulse. âI donât think I could ever get tired of it."
He groans as you clamp down on him involuntarily.
Youâre close, and think he must be too when you feel the way his cock throbs inside of you.
âPlease,â you murmur, voice breaking pathetically as you beg. It sounds like youâre near tears but with the silk still covering your eyes itâs impossible to tell whether or not itâs true. âI wanna see you.â
âMake a deal with me,â Levi grunts, his pace suddenly slowing to a torturous grind. Youâre sure that you must be crying now with how devastating the change in pace isâstill deep, but just languid enough that the cresting pleasure in the pit of your stomach threatens to recede.Â
âA deal?â you ask, gasping as your nails drag along the musculature of his back.
âIâll take it off,ââLeviâs touch trails up to your face, the tips of his fingers ghosting over your spit-slicked chin and searing cheeksââbut only if you let me take you out to breakfast.â
Youâre in no position to be making counter-demands, or returning repartee.
âAnything,â you sob, clinging to him desperately. Your hips tilt up in a fruitless search for friction, your nails scrabble along his skin. âIâll do anything. Please, Levi.â
He tugs the tie down, and your bleary eyes sting as they adjust to the light.Â
Finally, you see him.
Levi is practically glowing, bathed in a sheen of perspiration that you can feel when your skin slips against his own. His dark hair is pushed back, away from the lines of his devastatingly handsome face; his strong cheekbones and the sharp line of his tensed jaw. His abs flex as he carves his way inside of you in that impossibly slow grind, a little trail of dark, coarse hair spanning from his navel to his cock, where you see a glossy ring around the base from you.Â
Heâs a feast to behold. To taste. To feel.Â
âS-so?â he stutters, half-hissing from how viciously your core has tightened around him. His eyes search yours, avaricious and wild. âHow does it compare?â
âBetter,â you moan, a tear tracking back towards your hairline as you throwing your head back into your pillows, fighting as much as you can to keep your eyes open, âthis is better.â
Levi laughs, breathy and wanton as the sound might be, and his hands grip behind your knees before peeling them away from their vice against his waist and pressing them back into your chest.Â
He kisses you againâyour mouths meeting desperately though they haven't long been partedâfirst chaste but then sloppily, bullying his way into your mouth like he wants to taste how sweet the words youâve just said are off your own tongue.
He pulls back, a string of saliva stitching from his mouth to yours.
The corner of his lip ticks up in a smirk as his hips draw back, not in punishment but in preparation.
âGood.â
You wake the next morning with an ache humming in your bones and an effervescence sizzling in your chest. It takes you a moment to rouse, properly anyway, but when you do you feel the unmistakable weight of an arm curled around your bare waist, and a warm pressure perched atop your feet.
You open your eyes, blinking against the light that streams in through the curtains over your bedroom windowâbillowing gently in the morning breeze. You peek down towards the end of your bed, and see a little fluff of ginger fur sprawled out across your ankles. When you listen closely you can hear the little rumble of a purr.
Finally, you glance over to your side, and find Levi blinking back at you.
He looks sleepy and dishevelled, a sort of pleasant exhaustion in the rings beneath his eyes that youâre sure is mirrored in the shadows of your own skin. His hair is sticking up unkemptly at his temple, and thereâs a line imprinted into his cheek from where it's been resting against your pillow. Itâs a version of himself that you suspect Levi rarely shows to anyone, and right now itâs all deliriously, deliciously yours.
âGood morning,â your voice is so quiet when you finally risk shattering the stillness of your bedroom with a greeting.
âGood morning,â Levi rasps with a commensurate tenderness, even through the hoarseness of his groggy morning voice.
The city is waking up outside your window, the steady build of noise that will crescendo to a dull hum once the world gets underway. But for now itâs still quiet. For now you can still hear Pancakesâ slightly-wheezy purr.
Leviâs arm around your waist tightens, shifting you a little bit closer to him under the soft cover of your blankets. The gesture is hesitant. Half-committed. Like heâs still leaving himself open to be rebuked.
You smile, and close the rest of the distance yourself like crossing that final step along the fire escape. Traversing that halfway point. You curl into him and tuck your head underneath his chin as you rest your cheek against his chest.
Levi seems to soften slightly. To ease. To welcome your intrusion.
warnings : fem reader, smut (mdni), semi-public sex (in a bathroom at an event), established relationship, makki covers his hand over reader's mouth to keep them quiet, teasing, semi-clothed sex, pet names (babe, pretty girl), cursing, reader and makki are head over heels for each other, reader is implied to be shorter than makki
word count : 1.5k
You remind yourself to offer Oikawa a heartfelt thank you before the nightâs end.
This thought crosses your mind as a thick arm wraps around your waist from behind, pulling you closer to a lean chest that you are only too familiar with. Nursing your glass in your hand, you hide a soft smile behind its rim, biting the inside of your cheek as your boyfriendâs presence envelops you.Â
âHavinâ fun?â Makki asks, pressing his lips against the curve of your ear. You can hear his smile in the upwards lilt of his voiceâsomething that is not uncommon, though it never fails to leave a warm, syrupy feeling swelling in your chest.Â
Heâs dressed fancier than usual for the occasionâa banquet Oikawa insisted you all attend with him while he was in town, having already roped Mattsun and Iwa in.Â
Makki is undeniably handsome in a white button-downârich twill fabric brushing against the exposed skin of your arms, your neck. When you slightly turn your head to the side to glance at your boyfriend, youâre reminded of the two buttons undone just under the hollow of his throat to expose his collarbones, and you canât help but swallow, blinking distractedly. Heâd long since discarded the darker jacketâlikely forgotten over the edge of a chairâinstead opting to roll up the sleeves of the button-up just past his forearms.Â
He grins lopsidedly at your clear admiration, lips tugging up in a boyish grin. His eyesâbright, brimming with something just under the surface that youâre unable to place your finger on just yetâflit down to stare, unashamedly, at your lips.Â
Licking his lips, Makki meets your gaze again, not bothering to hide how he similarly appreciates your nice look for the evening. He squeezes your hips once, twice, under his hands, pressing his long fingertips against you to ensure that his touch lingers. The heat that emanates from his large palms seeps into your skin even through your clothing, and with his lips still teasingly brushing over your ear, youâre acutely aware of the arousal steadily building between your thighs.Â
Your heart stutters in your chest; you find that youâre not immune to Makkiâs roguish charm.Â
Attempting to break the tension of the moment, cognizant of how a lovely event is still happening around you, you decide to answer him.Â
âMmm,â you hum noncommittally, greedily leaning into his touch. Your cheeks feel warm as he presses his face against the crook of your neck, dragging his smirking lips across your pulse point.Â
You wonder if he can feel how it stutters under his affections.
Makkiâs lips are warm, feverish, and you nearly shiver at how he teases, pressing more into his touch. He all but obliges; with a low chuckle pressed against your ear, he asks, âYeah?â
His voice is deep, dropping into a rougher, more obviously aroused tone. It has the effect he probably desiredâyou take a deep, steadying breath, holding the glass tighter against your sternum, grateful that to any outsiders, it simply looks like you and your boyfriend are standing in a sweet, innocent embrace.Â
With hands smoothing down your waist, large palms rubbing against your hips, all you can do is nod against him. Makki leaves a small, wet kiss against your throat. His lips part against your skin, and your breath hitches in your throat when you swear you feel his tongue press briefly against the spotâmischievously, wanting. It has heat surging through your body despite the frigid temperatures outside, desire burning between your thighs almost immediately.Â
Yet, your surroundings pull you away from the moment. With a ball of excitement curling in your chest, you quickly glance around the large room and feel a sigh of relief fall past your lips at the realization that no one pays you and Makki any mind.Â
However, his antics are not lost on you. ââHiro,â you warn, voice low. You take another sip of your drink to calm the jittery anticipation his touch brings, enjoying how the sparkling juice fizzes and bubbles across your tongue, the taste of fruit spreading on your tastebuds.Â
But Makki isnât having any of it.Â
âThatâs my name,â he kisses his smirk along your skin, trailing up your neck until his lips brush, feather-light, against the swell of your cheek. He then stands to his full height, no longer leaning over you, though he keeps his arms wrapped around your waist, keeping you close to him.Â
His words have you scoffing, though there is no bite to your tone. âWatch it, pretty boy.â
Again, your boyfriend merely grins, and you can feel his stare on your body, your clothing, even from behind. âSays you,â Makki retorts, mirth apparent as it drips from his tongue. âYou know you look good in literally everything. This, my shirts, and of course, my favorite: nothingââ
ââHiro!â
You spin around to finally face him, landing a soft slap against his chest to chide him for his words. Youâre met with a knowing, proud grin, and the sight of Makki barely containing his laughter at your faux irritation is enough to have you softening.Â
âWhat? Babe, I canât help it! You make my dick hard.â His arms wind around your waist again, this time settling against the small of your back. You pull him closer, and, true to his word, you feel how Makki is already half-stiff in his dress pants.Â
âOh.â You donât know why youâre shocked; in the many years youâve been dating, the number of times youâve felt Makki, seen all of him, had his cock inside you, is innumerable. You know the effect you have on him because he has the same effect on you.Â
The man is head over heels for you, and youâve admitted the same on many occasions.Â
Makki has a smug look on his faceâas if he knows he already has you wrapped around his finger. With a conspiratorial look, he leans in to brush his lips against your ear again, and once again, you fight the urge to shiver.
âIâm glad youâre having fun, babe, but Iâm bored. Wanna go fuck in the bathroom?âÂ
His voice is thick and warm as he pulls away. He shifts as he hears you let out a small sound of surpriseâthat handsome, shit-eating grin still tugging at his lips.Â
Youâve never wanted to kiss him so badly.Â
It doesnât take much convincing for Makki to drag you to the, thankfully, private bathroom, and you hide a bright smile behind your hand the entire way. Just as earlier, none of the other partygoers pay you any mind, and you thankfully donât run into any of your friends.Â
Now, Makkiâs shirt is fully unbuttoned and hanging off his toned frame, allowing you to feel a brief hint of warmth as his chest crowds over your back. He presses closer to you, a choked groan falling past his kiss-swollen lips as your cunt takes all of him, nearly suffocating his cock every time he rolls his hips.Â
âSh-shit, babe,â Makki pants against your ear, kissing and licking up your neck to distract himself from cumming too soon. âYouâre gettinâ my dick so wet, shit.â
Everything about Makki is nearly overwhelming in the best possible way. A blissful haze of anticipation fills your head, pleasure building and tensing in your body until you feel it in your fingertips, between your thighs, throbbing in your clit as Makki messily drags three fingers across it.Â
You shiver where Makkiâs lips linger at the base of your neck, moaning into your skin as he fucks you. Pumping his cock between your thighs, his knuckles turn pale where they grip onto the edge of the sink, and you can feel the shadow of cool, rich cloth where Makkiâs arm is wrapped around your waist, flicking his fingers over your clit until youâre tightening around his cock just the way he likes. Heâs flushed, a pretty blush spreading from his neck down to his chest, and youâre grateful that the mirror allows you to see how he concentrates on fucking into you, grinding his cock against that one spot that has you moaning his name a little too loudly.Â
A shocked look crosses his face, and Makkiâs eyes go wide as if he only just now remembers where you are. Quickly, the hand that had previously been gripping the counter, giving him better leverage to fuck you deeper, covers your mouth.Â
Your eyes nearly roll as Makki kisses over your skin, distracting and shooshing you from being too loud.Â
âShh, pretty girl. Donât wanna get caught, now do we?âÂ
Makki is still grinningâthe same one you fell in love with. As he fucks you from behind, pressing his throbbing cock between your thighs over and over again, you admire him from the mirrorâhow his hair falls over his brow, how a mischievous, bright gleam remains in his eyes as he stares at where his cock is fucking into your cunt, how his nice dress shirt hangs from his chest.Â
Yeah, you think. You'll definitely have to thank Oikawa for inviting you and your boyfriend to such a nice event.Â
oikawa tooru x gn!reader â why you gotta be so mean â (1.3k wc)
[no-smut november]
âOh, sorry. I thought no one was out here.â
Your quiet time alone and away from the party is interrupted when the front door opens and someone steps outside â not just anyone, but a certain pro volleyball player who happens to be visiting from Argentina. He spots you lounging on the couch that sits along the wall of the house, a strange spot for a fully upholstered sofa thatâs clearly meant to be indoors but a design choice that screams Makki & Mattsun nonetheless. Youâre thankful for the comfortable spot to take a breather from all of the drunken antics going on inside and stare into the empty, dimly lit road.Â
âItâs fine,â you say and straighten yourself out, making room for Oikawa. However, he doesnât move from the doormat and stares at you with a strangely sober expression despite him being flush-faced and giggly right before you had slipped away from the gathering.Â
âYou can sit, you know,â you tell him awkwardly.Â
Still, he shifts his weight on his feet instead of taking a seat. Your brows draw inward, wondering why heâs being so distant when he was so happy and excited to be reunited with the old Seijoh gang.Â
âWhy are you acting like such a weirdo? Itâs just me. We were friends back in the day,â you say. Something anxious prickles in your chest â the exact feeling you came out here to avoid. Youâve never really encountered a quiet Oikawa before, and itâs unnerving.Â
warnings : fem reader, slight smut (mdni), fingering (f receiving), teasing, cursing, making out, mentions of multiple orgasms (f receiving), established relationship
word count : 0.8k
Not unlike most in Kenmaâs life, the way he kisses is lazy.
Soft, pliant lips part as they press against yours, tongue dragging across your lower lip, letting out a soft, content sigh at the taste of the remnants of lip balm. With spit slicking his lips, Kenma parts your mouth with his tongue, pressing down on your own, head rushing with exhilaration at the way you suddenly tighten your fingers near his waist. The fabric of his hoodie bunches underneath your hands, and with a grin pressed against your mouthâalmost smug in natureâKenma leans into your touch.Â
âYou good?â he lets out a chuckle from under his breath, the warmth of it mingling with your own.Â
Kenma pulls away to get a better look at you, and a thick spread of something warm and sweet fills his chest when you let out a soft sound of protest. Youâre no more than a hairs-width away; Kenmaâs lashes brush against your temple as his eyes flutter shut, swollen lips parting when you gently rock your hips down onto the two fingers he has buried between your thighs.Â
âAha,â he lets out a breathless laugh when you clench around his fingers, pressing them knuckle-deep and wiggling them until they brush against the spot that has your body nearly folding around his, head dropping to rest against his shoulder.Â
ââM perfect,â you mumble against the crook of his neckânearly a groan. Your lips move against his neck, and despite the lewd way his fingers pump in and out of your cunt, Kenma canât help the blush that warms his cheeks at the almost-innocent feeling of your mouth grazing his pulse point.Â
Kenmaâs eyes open to get a better look at you, and he licks his lips at the sight of your thighs spreading further apart on his lap, rocking your hips down to feel the rough pads of his fingertips pressing inside you.
His throat goes dry, and Kenmaâs cock throbs against your thigh when you let out an airy moan of his name.
âMhm. Perfect for me and my dick,â he says when heâs finally able to compose a sentence, jaw slackening with awe at the feel of your slick dripping down his wrist.Â
Curling his fingers towards him, Kenma carefully watches your reactions; his sweatpants are ruined from where pre-cum beads and dribbles from the slit of his cock, and the wet spot only grows as he lets you fuck yourself on his fingers, grinding and pulling them deeper inside your cunt. He begins to breathe a bit faster, harder. Itâs all Kenma can do to watch you make a mess on his lap, moaning his name so prettily in his ear for him.
âSo let me ride it. Wanna feel you,â you retort, pulling away from his neck to face him.Â
Your request only further steals the air from Kenmaâs lungs, and at the sight of your eyes heavy with need, itâs almost enough to make him fold.
Instead, Kenma merely smirks, enjoying the way your pussy tightens around his fingers when he drags them down your cunt. âWhat? This isnât enough?â he teases you, voice dripping with something akin to arrogance. As if to punctuate his words, Kenma presses them deep inside you, tongue coming to press against his bottom lip when you immediately keen in pleasure.Â
âY-you know what I mean, Kenma. Let me fuck you,â you attempt to convince him, and the increasingly needy tone in your voice does nothing to aid Kenmaâs restraint. He wanted to enjoy this for a bit longer, but if you keep looking at him like that, grinding on his fingers, he knows that resolve to tease you will crack.Â
Gathering himself, Kenma leans back against the couch, spreading his legs a bit wider and offering you a lazy, lopsided grin. âHm,â he pretends to think on it, smirk only broadening as he continues slowly fucking his fingers into you. âNah. Wanna watch you ride my fingers a bit longer.â
âFuck you,â you immediately shoot him a glare, but the complete lack of bitterness in your tone, paired with how your slick steadily coats his fingers, only has his dick stiffening even more.
Kenmaâs eyes dart to your lips, and a rough sound falls from his mouth when he imagines the sweet sounds youâll let out when he fucks you. A strand of hair falls in his eye, but neither of you bothers to move it aside, too enamored with the moment.
âThatâs not very nice to say to the person whoâs about to make you cum. You should just let me kiss you instead. Wanna feel that pretty mouth of yours,â Kenma says. He leans closer, a hand moving to the nape of your neck to pull you to him. You oblige easily, lips parting to press your mouth to his in an eager, messy kiss.Â
Kenmaâs mind immediately melts; a rush thrills through his body, pressing rapidly against his heart until it swells with affection for you. He squeezes you closer, succumbing to the wet, open-mouthed kiss, moving his lips lazily against yours.
And, while youâll surely complain about him going so slow, Kenma is sure you wonât be complaining about the multiple times he makes you cum, no matter how lethargic his actions.Â
tags: AFAB GN reader (called âangelâ once), NSFT, established relationship, fluff and smut, bath sex, vaginal fingering (mostly clit stimulation; reader receiving), heavy petting, quirk use
wc: 1.4k
âOi! Where are you?â
Touyaâs voice carries through your apartment with an urgency that startles you. Water sloshes loudly against the tub as you sit up straight, blinking away the lavender induced haze.
âIâm in here,â you call back to him. Your ears prick up at the sound of hasty footfalls, stare fixated on the slight crack in the door where it had been left ajar. A cold draft seeps into the bathroom as it widens and Touya pushes his way in.
Taller from where youâre sitting, though hardly reaching the crest of the doorframe, Touya pauses to skim over your naked form â once for signs of hurt or injury and the second, you suspect, for the sake of appreciation. He looks comfortable. A large white t-shirt drapes easily off his shoulders, the collar dipping to expose his clavicle and naturally following the old sutured scars.
His charcoal sweatpants are more fitted. The cuffs stop just above his ankle. You know he struggles to find pants that accommodate his measurements â heâs all leg. Lower, you catch sight of socked feet, the left one solid red while the right is patterned with snowflakes.
âI didnât hear you come in,â you say, crossing your arms over your bare chest to rub at the gooseflesh. âClose that, will you?â
âYour front door was unlocked,â he glares, shutting out the draft with a careful kick. âWhat if a random dickhead tried to break in?â
You snort and look him up and down, âAside from this one, you mean?â
The tendons in his throat flex as he grits his teeth. A frisson of anticipation settles in the back of your spine when he moves closer, dragging the nearby stool across the tile with his foot and sitting beside you.
Magnetised, your body is turned at an angle as you lean toward him. His forearms rest on the lip of the bathtub and the frustration in his expression wanes with a quiet laugh when you rest your cheek against them. Peering up through damp lashes, he cups your jaw and draws you into a kiss.
Warm, his tongue dips along the seam of your mouth. His bottom lip is rough, not that youâve ever minded. You coax him in, deepening, swallowing your name when he groans. It tastes like home.
âMissed you,â you mumble. Touya kisses you again, this time heâs smiling, and you know him well enough to the âI missed you tooâ.
âSorry. Sâbeen a busy fucking week,â he says. Your head tips back as he noses over the swell of your cheek, forging a path to your throat. A soft peck to your pulse point. âWork been alright?â
âYou would know if you ever answered my textsâ.
âI answer!â
âCat pictures donât count,â you laugh into the crook of his arm where he holds you like a cradle, wet skin saturating his shirt sleeve. âNeither do videos of your dickâ.
âMakes you forgive me quicker though,â the bath is colder, but when you shiver it is at the flash of his wolfish grin, gaze all too knowing and incendiary as he sees right through you. âLet meâ.
Touya reaches. The surface breaks, a soft sound echoing as his hand slips into the water. You feel it in the next breath â his quirk. Heat emanates from his palm, syrupy and slow as it suffuses and fills the tub. Gradual, subtle turns of his wrist, encouraging circulation, warming you inside and out.
A moan slips past your lips and you sink deeper until youâre swaddled to the shoulders, and his fingertips are brushing the inside of your thigh. Theyâre hot, twitching at the contact, and then purposeful as he begins to knead the muscle.
âFeel good?â he murmurs, voice low enough that it barely disturbs the quiet. You hear it like cymbals crashing, and his touch moves higher. Tension wrung from your body, youâve no inhibitions to conceal your reactions, and he gets to marvel in just how honest they are.
The water moves, ripples between your legs. Your knees fall further, now braced either side of the tub, and suddenly you are an open book without a spine. âTouya,â his name comes on the end of an exhale. What was meant to be a warning is heard as a plea, and he presses his fingers to your clit as though that was all he needed to hear.
He hums a contented little note. âI wonât even ask you to say please,â and the gentle circular motion begins, pressure light. Touya strokes around your clit, starting small and tight, widening with each pass.
Arousal pools in your belly, spreads, seeking to fill every bit of you. It prickles at the nape of your neck, pushes the air from your lungs as his tentative fingers slide through your folds and spread, deliberately teasing.
Intertwined lavender and smoke pervades the air, condensation clinging to the tiles. You grasp his wrist, the scarred skin rough and pruning. Watching through half lidded eyes, you shudder at the loving hunger in his own, lips parted for heavy breath.
âSensitive?â he wonders aloud, tongue sliding over his canine tooth. You whine as he plays with your entrance, barely dipping in, his fingertip crooked in a relaxed come hither movement. Hips chasing the feeling, you roll up against the heel of his hand and water laps up the bath's edge. He cups you full. âLook at you, all desperate. So fuckinâ cuteâ.
Touya indulges. Squeezes, retreats, smooths over your soft stomach to your breasts where they perk above the surface and back. In turn, youâre kept there; in a fractured kaleidoscope of pleasure and frustration.
Your thighs press together to relieve the ache. The bath oils leave you silken, and the dulled friction isnât enough. âHurry up or Iâll make myself cum,â you complain, voice airy with no real threat behind it. He kisses his teeth.
âLet me have my fun,â you hiss as he pinches your nipple, massaging over the sting with his thumb. âItâs not like I can fuck you like this. Youâve put too much⊠smelly shit in hereâ.
You concede, albeit with a pout, âThat smelly shit helps me relaxâ.
Touya bends, hiding his fond smirk in the corner of your mouth. âYeah, yeah, I get it. Iâll help too,â he nips at your puckered lip, coaxing you into another deep kiss. Dazed from the heat, the fervent touch, the slide of his tongue across your teeth, youâre barely cognisant of the hand settling back between your legs.
You pulse at the first stroke. Touyaâs arm settles around your shoulders to support your weight as you sink into him. Your hips jump. Two fingers brush against your clit, then again, back and forth as your arousal swells.
This time you let him play, build the bridge as he pleases, drawing out the crescendo. Your breasts heave as the feeling swells. Gradually, the pressure behind his fingers grows in harmony with his rhythm. The tension in your body follows closely behind; abdomen clenched, trembling thighs clamped either side of his forearm, toes curled as your hips start to stutter.
âTouya,â you gasp, brows drawn taut as your face pinches. The bath water rocks up and down the tub, tipping over the side. âTouya. Fuck, Iâmâ Iâm closeâ.
âYeah. Thatâs it, angel,â he dips, lips brushing the shell of your ear as they shape around his words. His voice is rough and wanting, erring on a growl, almost like he was just as desperate as you. âLet me see you cumâ.
Itâs always a little more intense when he strings you along. You crest. Searing, the tight coil in your belly releases, and you cling to him as the pleasure pulses through you in waves. He wraps around you, keeping you tethered, gently rubbing your clit in alternating motions until you whine at the sensitivity.
He hums in amusement, and the sound settles around your shoulders. The water is hot again. Thereâs steam dancing on the water's surface in broad, svelte movements.
Touya kisses your temple as he withdraws his hand from between your legs. You canât find it in yourself to complain when he cups your cheek, stroking his wet thumb in an arc beneath your eye. âBetter?â he simpers, tilting his head to meet your lidded gaze. âAm I forgiven?â
Fatigue is starting to wear at your bones. You inhale deeply, wearing a satiated smile, though noticeably empty.
âBed first. Then weâll see about forgivenessâ.
amy!!!! ty so much for the request- i really admire your writing and i hope you like this!!!]
Summary: just a snapshot of your relationship with keishin
Contains: NFSW, 18+, no reader pronouns, reader has a vagina, new relationship/established relationship, soft smut, slight mention of relationship issues.
ukai x reader
word count: 4k
cross posted:Â ao3
The woody vine digs into the pad of your thumb as you pluck another pepper. The repetition has dug a noticeable indentation into the skin, one that makes you wince every time you harvest a vegetable. In the low light of pre-dawn, sun still tucked behind the mountains, you canât see the bruising on your fingers, but you can feel how it pulses. Popping the digit into your mouth, the warmth of your tongue is automatically soothing, so much so that you can ignore the soft taste of soil on your skin.
âI told you to bring gloves.â Keishin chides, barely looking up at you. Heâs squatted a couple feet away, elbows resting on his thighs as he works. The rubber boots, with his oversized overalls crammed into the top, squeak every time he shifts. Pick, squeak, pick, squeak. You open your mouth to tease him, but the way his eyes meet yours, steeled and firm, tell you heâs not in the mood. Cinching his teeth around the worn leather, he pulls his hand from the glove and leaves it dangling from his mouth, lips curled to avoid touching the dust directly. Even in his goofy attire, thereâs something about his focus- the downward cast of his eyes, the hint of his canine over the leather, the steadiness of his hands- that makes your heart flutter. Wordlessly, he takes the glove out of his mouth and tosses it your way. You catch it with a fumble.
cw: cisfem reader. it's smut, but a little sad if you squint, but still smut. piv sex, biting, bruising. Just a lil drabble i reworked lol.
He smells like someone else's soap, a bleak reminder that, even when he's under you, Togame Jo is never truly yours.
His glasses are tossed aside on to the floor, open and face down, so there is nothing to obstruct his heavy lidded gaze and it's deep, green grasp. His sweatshirt is pushed up just enough for you to get a glimpse of where his happy trail ends and his pants are still around one leg, planted on the floor. The other leg is tucked up on the couch behind you, pressed against your ass to keep you in place. You're just far enough above him that he can't quite sink his cock in, instead just clumsily fisting it through your petals, through the mixture of your wetness and his precum.
"Come on now," he says. "Don't make me beg."
But he is begging. His body betrays his nonchalant attitude. His free hand digs into the flesh of your thigh, his downward turned lips part with a want laden breath. You swear there's even the hint of a wrinkle between his brows, the ghost of agony-
"Come on-" Togame's hands both travel up, tracing over your lower back is short, desperate movements. They settle on the small of your waist, squeezing in tiny, rough bursts. "Babe."
You shake your head and he groans, slamming his head back into the arm of the couch. The still wet tendrils of his hair are starting to curl around the base of his neck. His desperation fuels you. You curve your spin and cup your tits, putting on as pretty a show as you can muster, just for him.
"Maybe I want you to beg for it."
"Fuckin', god, come'ere."
You expect him to pull you down, to force you to sit on to his cock, but instead, he jerks you forward. The surprise knocks you on to your hands, and he scoops forward, catching your lips against his. The kiss is deep, breathless, and feral, teeth bumping against your bottom lip as he dips in for more. The hot press of tongue against yours steals your resistance; you fumble below you, fingers closing around his cock as you guide it inside you.
He open-mouth moans into the kiss when the resistance gives and he sinks inside. Togame reflexively bucks up into you, deep enough that you squeal from the sensation.
"That's it." He falls back, still gripping your waist. He uses the connection to guide how you move; he likes a little bounce, just enough that your tits jiggle, not enough that his cock falls out. His eyes flicker between your chest and face, always looking down his hooked nose with a soft, smarmy satisfaction. "That's my fuckin' girl."
The strain on 'my' makes your chest ache-- and your pussy clench around him.
"Yeah, you like being my girl." Togame says, relaxed despite how his cock twitches. "My girl, my pretty fuckin' thing, dripping down my balls, take what you need-"
The grey of his sweatshirt is damped with sweat: yours and his. You ride until your thighs quiver from the effort, until your core is molten and tight with want and the squeeze of his palms somehow burns hotter-
"Slow down, lemme enjoy this." Jo grits out, even though he's the one who's been urging you faster and faster. "Wanna enjoy my baby all night."
You lean back against his thigh again and catch your breath. "Do you say sweet things to all of your girls?"
The humor drains from Jo's face.
"Oi." He sits up too, pressing on to his elbows. He's quick to snatch your chin in his grasp. "The fuck does that mean?"
Those green, green eyes find yours.
"Hurts my feelings, yeah?" He tilts his head to the side when you look away. "When I say my baby, I mean it. My baby. Just one."
His voice is soft enough that you believe him.
But when he dips in to kiss you again, he still smells like someone else's shampoo. You try to focus on anything else: how he ruts up into you lazily, how his breath still tastes of oranges from earlier, how he hums a happy little note when you kiss back.
You want him. Sexually. Obsessively. Solely. You pull away from him and drag your lips down to his neck. His adam's apple bobs against your cheek as you suck a hickey into the side of his neck.
"Aw, shit." Jo's back arches up at the pain and you only suck harder, adding the hint of teeth along with it. "Haaa, okaaay-"
When you inspect your work, the skin is mottled and red, broken capillaries are blossoming: proof that you're been there. The muscles below are tensed as he sucks in jagged breath after jagged breath. Your teeth ache to sink in again, so you do, leaning into the other side of his neck greedily.
"Yeah, do it again. Make it fuckin' trashy." His voice is is low and airy. "Mark me up good, own me."
When you hollow your cheeks, he whines high, arms crossing around your back to hold you tight.
yakuza!suna/escort!reader part 5 - set in the morning after part 2, everybody give a warm welcome to the yakuza universe miya twins, tw yandere behaviour red flags
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You wake to the clanging sound of pots, pans, and the rush of running tap waterâthe telltale sound of cooking, you realize, the closer to consciousness you drift.
Slowly, you rouse from your slumber, blinking against the soft light that diffuses through the curtains along the vast wall of windows at your bedside.
No, not your bedside.
You push yourself up, a tenderness in your limbs that makes them wobble under the meagre effort to lift your own body from the soft swaddle of sheets. The gauzy curtains in Sunaâs bedroom have rendered the daylight down outside into something gentle, but the face of the digital clock on his bedside table tells you that itâs almost midday, and life in the city outside is already in full-swing. You should have left hours ago. You shouldnât even have spent the night.Â
In truth, youâre not quite sure where your memories from the day before end. You donât feel particularly well rested, which makes you think you probably havenât been asleep for very long. What foggy recollection you do have from the very early hours of the morning tell you that thereâs a good chance that youâre right.
You look down suddenly.
You donât have any clothes on.
Your skin doesnât feel sticky though, you remark as you drag your fingertips gently along your bare thigh. Thereâs no trace of grime, or sweat, or any other unmentionable mess that you can detect clinging to youâjust tender aches that you know are fresh bruises forming underneath the outermost layer of your skin. You lift your forearm up to your nose, sniffing yourself lightly. You smell like soap. Nice soap. The same soap you smell on Suna when you mouth along his throat. He must have cleaned you up before he put you into bed, you realize.
You purse your lips in a pensive little pout.
Outside the bedroomâSunaâs bedroomâthe clattering noises continue.
The sounds of activity in the kitchen only grow louder as you pad quietly out from the bedroom, approaching the edge of the second floor landing to peer down to the main floor. Thereâs not a particularly clear view to the kitchen from the upper level, but you see a pair of hands reaching for a knife from the chopping block in the island, so you know heâs there.
âSuna,â you call down quietly, your voice still hoarse from sleep and possibly overexertion the night before. You step cautiously down along the first few steps of the staircase, conscious of a dangerous weakness in your knees, clinging to the railing as you descend.
The sounds in the kitchen haltâsave for the sizzle of something cooking on the stove.
You hadnât been able to find your clothes in Sunaâs bedroom, so youâre still nakedânot that you have any particular reservations to nudity, given your line of work.Â
You reach the bottom of the staircase and look up.
âDo you know where my clothes aââ
It is not Suna that you find in the kitchen.
In fact, itâs not even someone that you recognize.
The dark-haired man on the other side of the apartment is frozen with his eyes wide, staring at you like heâs just as shocked as you are to be standing there.
In the living room, a little bit closer to you, a head of blonde hair peeks up over the back of the sofa with an identical look of surprise.
Literally identical.
âYouâre not Suna,â you remark rather flatly, though it really doesnât need to be said.
âNo âm definitely not,â the man in the kitchen nods, averting his stare. As though to preserve your modesty, he picks up a container of orange juice and holds it up in front of his eyes. Itâs so unsubtle that you canât help but think itâs kind of cute.
The guy on the couch shows no such chivalry.Â
âWho are you?â he asks, a cheeky smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.
ââTsumu at least stop starinâ at her, ya pig,â the guy in the kitchen snaps, and the blonde rolls his eyes before making a big show of holding his hands up to cover his gaze.
(Youâre pretty sure you still spot him peeking through his fingers.)
âI, uh,ââthe dark haired one clears his throat a bit awkwardlyââIâve got a hoodie over here if ya need somethin' to put on.â
You donât know who these two are, but they seem to be right at home in Suna's apartment, so you donât feel as though youâre in any great degree of danger. You consider this for a moment, and then approach the kitchen tentatively.
The man hidden behind the orange juice is gesturing vaguely to what youâre pretty sure he thinks are the barstools along one side of the kitchen island, but is actually a bowl of fruitâbut you find a soft black sweatshirt all the same, tugging it quickly on over youâre head.
âIâm decent,â you remark, letting the gentleman in front of you know itâs safe to lower his citrus shield now that you're all covered up.
âYeah you are,â the blonde in the other room mutters appreciatively under his breath, and you toss an unamused look over your shoulder in his direction. He slumps back onto the sofa, avoiding your gaze.
âSorry 'bout him,â the man in front of you says with a long sigh that gives you every impression that itâs not the first time heâs had to apologize on the otherâs behalf. âHeâs like a dog.â
You hum, glancing over at the blonde again. Heâs looking your way but quickly busies himself with his cellphone when he sees you turn in his direction.
âHe needs better training,â you note, and the dark haired man laughs, loud and sincere.
âI donât disagree.âÂ
The man in front of you can at least meet your eyes now that youâre covered up, and he bows politely in your direction to finally greet you properly.
âIâm Osamu,â he says.Â
You dip down slightly to do the same. âYua.â
âWhat are ya doinâ at our Sunarinâs place, Yua-chan?â the blonde on the couch calls over to you, but you donât bother sparing him a glanceâor offering him any kind of reply.
âThatâs my brother, Atsumu,â Osamu explains, and you nod a littleâhaving pieced at least that bit of information together on your own.Â
âI see you inherited all the charm,â you remark, and Osamu smiles a little shyly, chuckling to himself.
âYeah, but I got all the looks.â Suddenly, Atsumu sidles up alongside you, and you startle at his unexpected nearness. You blink up at him in surprise, all at once realizing just how big these twins areâtall, broad, visibly strong frames nearly identical between them. He smiles down at you, dipping closer to your face and batting his eyelashes sweetly. âDontcha think?â
You donât have time to tell him what you think, as it turns out, because a figure steps into view on the other side of the kitchen that serves as a distraction.
âWhat are you doing in my house?âÂ
Sunaâs expression is severe as he takes in the scene before him, though his eyes seem particularly focused on Atsumu at your side.
âThere he is,â Osamu remarks lightly, and thereâs a lilt of something in his voice that seems like anticipationâlike he knows how this is all about to play out.
âWe were âsposed to meet here after the meeting this morning, remember?â Atsumu says, turning to the man on the other side of the room. He slings an arm around your shoulders, tucking you against his side. âYa didnât tell us youâd have company, Sunarin.âÂ
âGet out.â
Youâve never heard Sunaâs voice so cold in all the time youâve known him.
Impassive, yes. Irritated, on occasion.Â
Never so hostile.
Atsumu opens his mouth as if to complain, but his brother doesnât give him the chance.
âYou heard the man, Tsumu,â he says, rounding the kitchen island and closing that gap between him and his brother in two long strides. He grabs Atsumu by the scruff of his t-shirt and drags him towards the door, passing Suna as they go.
You spot the unmistakable glimpse of a tattoo on Atsumuâs back as his brother tows him along by his collar.
Ah.
That explains it.
âSorry, Suna,â you hear Osamu mutter as the two of them pass the man standing there watching them go.
âWait,â you call, suddenly finding your voice.Â
All three men flinch at the sound, pausing to look at you.
âYour sweater,â you say, holding up your hands where the sleeves of his hoodie have them swallowed.
Osamu smiles stiffly, dipping his head ever so slightly in a nod. âYou keep that fer now, Iâm not too worried about it.â
You let your hands drop, and the twins disappear from view. You hear a bit of bickering, and then the sound of the front door closing behind them.
Suddenly itâs just you and Suna, all alone.
Itâs preternaturally quiet once the twins are gone, their absence acutely noticeable like a storm once it recedes. It makes you shift your weight from one foot to the other nervously.
You glance into the kitchen where thereâs still something cooking on the stoveâseemingly abandoned in Osamuâs haste to flee.Â
âHe was cooking something,â you remark quietly. Suna makes no move to tend to it, so you round the kitchen island and take the overcooked eggs off the heat, setting the skillet on an unlit burner and extinguishing the one it had previously been resting on.Â
You turn back towards the living room, and find Suna has approached you in the time your back was turned to him, closer now than he has been since he arrived home.
âI thought it was you,â you explain quietly after a moment, fiddling with the sleeve of the sweatshirt on your frame. âI heard noises when I woke up so I just thoughtâŠâ
Suna catches your hand in his own, his eyes fixed to the hoodie that you wear.
âI couldnât find my clothes,â you explain, sensing whatâs making the unhappy little expression tug at the corner of his mouth.
Sunaâs eyes flicker up to meet yours.
âI took them to be dry cleaned,â he replies, glancing over to the counter. Heâd been carrying a few things when he came in, but you hadnât paid them much attention. Thereâs a garment bag resting across the marble, and a shopping bag from a familiar store on top.
A lingerie store.
âWell, I took whatever could be salvaged anyway,â Suna murmurs, tugging you into his chest and nosing at your ear.Â
Your cheeks feel warm.
Sunaâs hands slip up underneath the sweatshirt, peeling it slowly up off of your body. You let him do so without complaint, watching as he tosses it aside haplessly into the living room once heâs fully removed it.Â
âBetter?â you ask him dryly as he peers down at you.
He smiles a little, leaning down so his mouth is poised just over your own.
âMuch.â
In between needy, feverish kisses, Suna lifts you up to sit atop the kitchen island, slotting himself in between your parted legs.
âSuna,â you mumble as he mouths his way down your throat, your lips kiss-bitten and stinging. He ignores your call of his name, running his tongue along your clavicle before nipping at it gently. You grip gently at the hair of his nape, tugging a bit. âSuna.â
He pulls away, his expression hazy and his breaths coming fast.
âI should go,â you say to him quietly, and youâre sure the regret you feel is evident in your words. âI have to go home. I have to work tonight.â
Sunaâs expression changes, hardens a bit, he tucks his face back into the crook of your neck.
This time when he bites it isnât gentle.
You moan at the feeling of his teeth pressing into your skin, your legs tightening where they're wrapped around his waist, your hands holding him to your neck a little tighter where they're tangled in his hair. He presses a series of kisses to the spot heâs just marked, soft like an apology.
A chiming sound from the end of the counter tears your attention away from the ache of your throat.
Your head turns towards the sound, but Suna is quick to guide your face back towards his, kissing you sweetly. He leans you back until you're flat against the counter, his broad frame hovering over you like he's shielding the rest of the world from view.
It almost works.
âDid you take my phone with you this morning when you left?â you ask him, panting the question out against his beseeching mouth.
Suna pulls away slightly.
âI took your purse by accident,â he explains. âI didnât realize until I went to pick your clothes up from the dry cleaners. They set it aside in a separate bag.â
You purse your lips, letting your head loll to the side and turning your face away from him.
âI didnât expect you to wake up so soon,â Suna insists, pressing a kiss to the edge of your jaw. âI had to go somewhere for work, and I didnât know it would take me as long as it did.â
He places a chaste peck to your lips.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers against your mouth.
Your eyes search his, but you canât seem to find any guilt behind them.
You soften after taking a moment to mull over his apology, wrapping your arms around his neck, and he pulls you upright on the counter.
âLetâs get you home,â he says, running his hands along your thighs, kneading his thumbs into them every so often.Â
âIf you pass me my phone, Iâll call the club. They may have a driver they can send for me,â you say, glancing towards the pile of your things at the other end of the island.Â
âDonât worry about that,â Suna says, and you tilt your head to the side as you turn to face him again.
He fishes a set of car keys out from the pocket of his joggers, and they jingle as he twirls them around his finger.
âI can take you home myself.â
You pause, hesitating.
He picks up instantly on your reluctance.
âOr I could call the driver from last night,â he assures you, his tone even and obliging. He presses another featherlight kiss to your lips. âItâs entirely up to you.â
Your fingers twist in the material of his sweatshirt, considering it for a moment. You fiddle idly with the strings of his hoodie, twirling them around our fingers until the blood flow starts to slow, deprivation prickling in the very tips.
Youâve never let a client drive you home before.
Never even let a client know what neighbourhood you live in.
But this is Suna.
And Sunaâs differentâŠ
âYeah, okay,â you murmur, peeking up at him shyly. âYou can take me if you want.â