𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓁𝓎 𝒶𝓈 𝒻𝓊𝒸𝓀

I fly like an eagle cause my energy is soaring.

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am i an undead, aren't i?

i am living but but but sometimes i have a feeling that i am a third person singular of my life. i am watching over, i am controlling over my body somewhat but... i am just questioning my existence for no reason. i am feeling kinda worthless sometimes. i am trying to keep myself positive but sometimes it is really tough to keep it up. i need some winter sleep to get better mentally. maybe i am just a burden for people i communicate, aren't i? i think that i like to live but what if i am just an undead. when i smile you can see that i am moving my skeleton around, my spirit is burning the air. i am just a simple witch, i like to make some human soup to show my love and hatred for humankind. i feel confused indeed. aren't we walking shit bagz? we are, we are, we are, we are, we are, we are. i am getting hopeless day by day. isn't it the time for closing our eyes while we are lying down on the grass with a cold wind? maybe we can even die. maybe it would not be that fun thing in reality but just visualizing this makes me feel kinda relieved. i want to cry but i cannot, my body gets frozen instead. drinking soup would be nice. the idea of turning into a part of nature... would be a better contribution maybe. anyways, as long as i live, i will try my best. nowadays i might be kinda weak but... isn't it natural sometimes? i am about to faint but i do not want to have nightmares. raindrops are dripping, blup blop oOoOo. anyways... it is time to go, i will rest along with a lavender candle zZzZZ. cya! \m/

~a

[lovelyasf]

blurry and frozen identifying

i feel weird, i have a feeling that everyone is getting further from me in this world and my body and soul is freezing day by day. i am about to faint but i cannot, something is pushing me forward but i feel as if i do not have enough strength for it. i hope the people around me will not go away from me. sometimes my fear of abandonment gets triggered. i want to lay on some grass and hibernate for a long while maybe. i am mentally overwhelmed and sleepy. i am a cheerful person at most but sometimes i am turning into opposite. zzZzZZzZzzZz what is happening, dunno but... hopefully i can see how the spring comes out with a shiny sunshine. i am freezing and my mind is blurry blurry. ~a

[lovelyasf]

Alternate ending for Kiyomi Takada's death

At this scene, at the end of this conversation, Amane Misa threatened her that "you are going to be executed". After Misa said that, I was expecting her to kill Takada by writing her name into the Death Note before having dinner with her. So that she could have been drowned in wine and blood. It would be a better way for her to die.

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vibe check:

- I can't sleep properly

- I don't eat properly (1 meal per day)

- I get upset for no reason

- I cut myself (mildly)

- I hate my appearance

- I don't know what I'm doing for my future

- I don't wanna think about anything

- I go for a walk frequently (but still can't escape from anything)

- I sometimes contemplate my suicide

- I don't think I worth anything

- I feel like I missed out life

- I'm tired of pretending that everything is fine

- I am unable to talk about my problems

- I envy social people (but I don't wanna be a part of them)

- I always think negative (can't see the good)

Help?

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can't die

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[toukyoghoul]

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Buluttan sarkitlar gun batimina dogru kizil kizil isildiyordu, buzul sarkitlarin aksine goge dogru yukseliyordu.

~a

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o̴p̶e̸n̵ ̵t̵h̵e̶ ̷d̸o̸o̶r̸

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call me devil jin bitch ima fiend

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I am a pizza.

You have olive eyes.

You are a part of my existence.

~o

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double wrist slit

pushing hard to the clit

suck my dick

rip

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im so fuckd up