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TRAGIC: another mutual lost to that yaoi show

I know that when Ilya finally finds out that Shane had put on a suit before their first hook up he's gonna be insufferable about it he'll be like "Shane, kotenok, it's time to suit up we're gonna have sex"

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So does anyone wanna hear about the specific moment in my Irina lives au where during the peak of hollanovs situationship, Irina calls Ilya in the dead of night while Shane is still in the hotel, post-fuck and all warm and lazy with it, except not anymore because Ilya is jumping up and off the bed the second he sees the caller ID and walking into the bathroom and shutting the door, but it's not enough to muffle the conversation, and shane can't speak russian but hysterical sobbing is pretty unambiguous in any language, plus Ilya keeps saying Mama, in a strained, soothing voice, which is equally unequivocal, and Shane is just lying in bed staring at the ceiling, still tacky with cum and sweat, frozen, while Ilya is in the other room clearly talking his mother through some kind of episode and holy shit what does shane do??? Does he leave??? Surely he can't leave.

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And when Ilya opens the bathroom door, Shane gets a glimpse of his exhausted face - not the look of someone experiencing a big shock, but rather someone in the aftermath of a very familiar battle - before Ilya spots Shane, still on the bed, and the expression is gone, something hard in its place. Why are you still here? Ilya says and it's cold and mean and full of sneering disdain and the Shane of twenty minutes ago probably would have flinched, would have been upset and humiliated to be spoken to in that way, would have walked right out the door. But the Shane of twenty minutes ago didn't just get a harrowing look at the great bleeding gash that is clearly Ilya's home life, so instead he lets the sheets fall from his still naked body and says I needed a shower, asshole, like everything's the same. And when he brushes past Ilya to step into the bathroom he thinks he manages to look unbothered, unmoved, like someone who didn't just overhear something intensely private, probably. Maybe.

And once Shane has the water running hot, steam fogging up the glass, the mirror above the jack and jill sinks, Shane doesn't turn around when Ilya steps in behind him. Shane doesn't turn around when big broad arms wrap around him from behind, or when he feels a forehead press against his shoulder. He doesn't think about how the body behind him feels like it's collapsing. He just firms his stance and holds up the weight. And when they step out the shower to dry off and Ilya's face is wet, well. Of course it is. They were just in the shower.

They don't talk about it until they're at the cottage years later

northirish

All mutuals who understand my grand vision shall be entombed with me within my mausoleum if I ever happen to die

swearphil

ILYA WEEK | day 7: free choice

vesnuszki

horny brat shane wiggling and writhing while ilya is breathing hard trying not to come. shane grinding and squeezing and twitching while ilya is seeing the face of god thru that hole. shane has him begging please please please not yet just give me a second i dont wanna come yet send post

twinkwolf

she’s so funny

cliff-marleaus-left-toe

peachyjude

in a way he’s living my dream. on the beach. inner circle of beautiful talented women. hot as fuck girlfriend. buff as all hell. groomer and older sis figure fine as fuck. gets to have simulated gay sex for work. and he has the straightest most perfect nose i’ve ever seen in my life. like okay right cool. cool

griefbespoke

i am perhaps the only person brave enough to say shane genuinely might not want kids. but that's okay i can be so brave about it

#STANDS BRAVELY WITH YOU

samwwise

mutinsfromthemoon

ilya is eagerly waiting for shane to finish his shower so he can just lie on top of him and keep sniffing him for at least 20 minutes straight because he’s absolutely obsessed with shane’s scent. he’s explained the reason why to shane several times now and is cus shane smells best right after a shower and shane’s always like “even without me putting on any cologne or body lotion?” and ilya just goes “sweetheart, you don’t get it? your natural scent is the most addictive thing in the world you’re the best smelling person i know” and shane doesn’t really get it what is so special about how he smells, but he lets it go cus he loves that moment when his husband is on top of him, hugging him and showing him affection and just breathing him in. and of course he’s indulging with everything that makes ilya happy so he’s truly content to just lie there and let him.

ilyapasta

MINE MINE MINE “Why are you telling me this?” that’s MY avoider MY captain obvious MY “im going to ask the question so that I can hear the answer out loud” motherfucker MY “you don’t like me” saying self-depreciating bastard MY big sad eyes big sad story single tear phlegmy voice begging to be held ASSHOLE I’m going to love him keep him tuck him away in my heart, make him a part of my family forever, just you watch.

- Shane’s inner monologue while staring off into the distance when he’s got Ilya cozy and comfy in a flannel shirt snuggled in his arms full of pasta at the cottage six months later

isisisak

so we all agree ilya puts his head under shanes shirt right? you know what else he does? he blows fucking raspberries on his stomach!

its rare enough that shane never fully expects it and he makes a sound thats somewhere between a gasp a shriek and a giggle and tries to push ilya out of his shirt and off of him