Weird World
I'm massively vain. And because of that I have very little self confidence, and always think I can look better than I do. Not that I want to be one of those 'regular' sized guys, or that I want to have a six pack... nothing like that at all. My main issue is that I am not as feminine as I want to be.
From about the age of 12, I was fascinated by the female form, and female fashion. Mainly because male fashion is os uni-directional and sickeningly bland. Wow, jeans and tshirts... fuck that.
This made puberty particulary painful for me, because I lost a lot of my more feminine features, and gained broader chin, shoulders, and started growing facial hair. How I hate facial hair.
Science has made it easy to cross the now fine line between genders. Not that I would ever do that, but don't get me wrong, I have thought about it.
So next time I'm checking you out, I'm probaly just in envy and awe of your limitless range of acceptable fashion, and not just some random leetching.
And by the way, if my feelings and thought make me weird, fuck you, and I am comfortable being contained in my weird world. And I have her to thank. I love that I am becoming more comfortable with these feelings, and enough to write them in such a public place.
