[lua-pele]

did it help when I went away? isn't that what you wanted?

[sadmates]

They don't need me in the way that i need them, and i think that's the most painful thing i've ever experienced.

[zexox]

Somedays I want to pull my heart out of my chest just so I can stop feeling this way.

[forestaflame]

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

[thechaos217]

[nuttybarzz]

Note to self

[blackbluecherryblossom]

i’m tired. but not just “didn’t sleep” tired. soul tired. bone tired. like my body keeps going but nothing inside knows why.

[nostalgiaishere]

[m00wd]

Sometimes you need to sleep, sleep a lot. Not to escape, but to rest your soul from your feelings. Because everything, absolutely everything devours you. Completely.

—Brain

[smilingresty]

The older you get, the more you realize it's not about who knows you the longest, it's about who makes you feel seen, heard, understood, appreciated, supported, and loved.

[smokefalls]

I carry your wounds because I want to remember you.

Sanna Wani, "Princess Mononoke (1997)" from My Grief, the Sun

[lua-pele]

[lua-pele]

Habang buhay kong pagsisisihan na hindi ko nagawa yung mga bagay na dapat kong ginawa habang nandidito ka pa.

[lua-pele]

Palit ng tiles at pintura. Hindi pa ako nakakarecover sa pagod ng November tapos December dagdag pa. Grabeng busy 🥹 20% lang nabawas sa phone battery ko.

[lua-pele]

Hindi na rin ako makapagreply sa mga post 🥹 maybe gagawa nalang ako ng bagong tumblr pero hindi ko 'to ide-delete. Same following parin, so, this is my last post..

[lua-pele]

I let you see the parts of me, that weren't all that pretty

[lua-pele]

Hindi ko maintindihan bakit ako yung laging mali?

Ako yung taong napaka-clingy na i would do anything to please you, h'wag ka lang lumayo at magalit. Hindi ko kayang manulak ng tao palayo. Pero bakit laging end-up ako yung mukhang nanunulak?

Dahil sa distant ako?

Sobra ko kayong piniplease at sobra n'yo rin akong tini-take for granted. Dumidistansya ako kapag nararamdaman kong ayaw n'yo sakin. Hindi n'yo narerealize yung actions n'yo na nakakasakit? Minsan tinatanong ko sa sarili ko, ano ba kulang, o may mali ba akong nagawa?

Palagi n'yong sinasabi na tinutulak ko kayo palayo. Bakit laging sakin ang sisi? Ang sakit putangina.