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i still think about killing myself.

- just thoughts.

How You Know it’s Getting Bad Again

- I get angry over EVERYTHING. No matter how small or “not a big deal” something is, I will blow up and act like it’s the biggest thing in the world.

- I stop responding to messages.

- I will stare off into space for a long period of time and not seem mentally there.

- I will stop smiling and laughing as often.

- I tend to be really emotional and cry over the smallest things.

- I will sleep a lot.

- I will forget to eat or not have an appetite at all.

- I will stop showering as often as I use to and wear the same clothes over and over again.

- I won’t wear makeup like I use to everyday and I won’t care what I physically look like in public anymore.

- I won’t do the things that use to make me happy aka reading, writing, playing video games, socializing with friends, etc.

- I won’t have any energy to do school work even though I really need to do it.

- I become really quiet

I’m sorry, I try to be okay but sometimes it takes over and I can’t help but let it take control once again.

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I’m so ready to stop texting everyone but I desperately want to not be alone. I’m so ready to end it all but I have so much more to give. I’m so ready to just die, but this life has more in store for me than I think.

I need to take time for myself. I need to know I am valued and I need to realise that I’m not as important in peoples lives as I think. I need to find a proper outlet because I can’t cope with this now.