♥ Just living my life ♥

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I had a semi stressful day so I wanted to color for a bit. Coloring really helps me reduce my stress. I know a lot of you follow me for my witchy vibes, book of shadow updates, so I will be working and hopefully posting an update of my book of shadows tomorrow ^.^ I hope everyone is having a great day so far ♥

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I took the time to draw this AND paint this all in one go tonight. I really love the way it turned out, but I hate that its off center >.<

I used winsor and newton water color, colors used were red, yellow blue, white, and black. I then used colored pencils, prismacolor. Then I used a silver and white pen to finish the outline process (the white outline)

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This is a dream I had. I wanted to share this experience with all of you. ^.^

A dream, a soft voice, this place was warm and full of divine presence. It was a place I had been to many times but had never seen. The people there were familiar in a sense but their faces were strangers looking back at me. Walking barefoot across the soft green meadows I saw the divine kingdom from afar. Is this paradise? Have I died? Did I astral travel? The suns warmth felt like a hot summer day in July, the skies were clear with soft wispy clouds overhead. The smell of the flora flooded my sense. The strangers were there with me, walking ahead and motioning for me to follow. I remember how warm the stones felt once we made it to the main road that lead to the kingdom ahead.

I woke with a start, the sun was shining through my window as I took deep breaths. This experience, I can’t pin it down to just a simple dream. Does anyone else ever have vivid dreams like this, that still feel real after you wake up? I always feel like I am walking around in a haze for a few hours. Originally posted on FB, I wanted to share my post on Tumblr as well.

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I'll be leaving soon (UPDATED)

Update: I have deleted a few of my social media accounts. I still have Tumblr and my Facebook though. I will continue to post art and other occult related content. I want to thank everyone that reached out to me and for helping me through with the kindness of their words. Kindness really does matter ♥

I am actively deleting all of my social media.

I feel this is best for my mental health

I feel like it will be more healthy to meet real people

I don't really see the point in posting on micro threads anymore

I want more time to write to people that matter. AKA letters written by hand to those I love.

This account hasn't really provided me with the support I was needing, so its time to cut it off.

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Discord is Horrible >.<

I will no longer be joining other discord servers based on the amount of harassment I have gotten from that platform. I have not joined a single server is YEARS, because I was afraid of the toxicity that they would bring. SO...stupid me, I decided to join some servers, I joined a total of five servers that were tagged "SFW, 18+, LGBTQIA+ friendly, Safe Space, Paganism, and friendly staff" and a few other keywords. You know.....places you would think people wouldn't be pricks in. So..I joined, and one of them I actually got invited to a VC. All was going well until I mentioned I was a graphic designer/artist in college. Suddenly I was offered a job by the owner, I said no thank you, he decided to harass me because I declined his offer. During college and after college I work with companies, because thats how I can get insurance. I don't do freelance because thats how people have screwed me over in the past. The owner got offended and I was verbally attacked while in this VC. He called me a liar and attacked me for not having a lot of money to start my own business. Essentially attacking me for going to college to get myself a career. If I do anything within a server it will be a server that I personally run or a server that someone else runs that I trust. Sorry for the rant post I just really had to get this off of my chest T.T I am going to go cry now. Thank you to all that read my post.

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This is my Type of Witches page. I just made this today so my hand is officially dead lol. I only included four types, I know there are more but the four I wrote about are the four paths I often am associated with or work in. I am really loving the split page theme I have been using, I might use it for the entirety of this BOS.

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I painted this today, I am only use the primary colors as well as white and black. So its a lot of fun using winsor and newton water colors and learning to mix them ^.^

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This is my Goddess' page. This is my first time steering away from using pinks and golds in my headers but I felt it was fair. Since Hekate (Hecate) has a more dark aura about her. As for the spelling I have always spelled her name with a K, I am not sure if that is correct or not. So I just went with my gut on this one.

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This took me 2 days! >.< I used Clip Studio Paint and messed around with the water color functions. I am iffy on the background though.

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Depression...

I have been trying to get back into art because of how lonely I feel. I have to choose my words carefully, and I can't actually say what I am going through. But, this feeling of being alone, it eats at me. I once found people like myself within paganism. Now? Not so much. I practice European Paganism, and many pagans do not. I feel like I can't find a connection with anyone. Perhaps I should get better at being alone. Sorry, this is a depressing post, but I wanted to get this out of my head so that I might have a chance at sleep.

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The Wiccan Afterlife page is very important to me because...idk 17 or 18 years ago I was initiated into a Wiccan Practice and have followed this belief ever since. I follow the Wiccan Afterlife ideas more closely than I do the Underworld, but I believe both are important to understand. Since of course both of my Patron Goddesses are in fact Greek. So this page is very important to me ^.^

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This is the page that discusses the underworld and the levels of it. I felt this was also important since it give me an understanding of where I "might" go. Some people may be offended by the "might" but I believe there are several plains of existence and that the underworld may just be one of several. Still, its very important to me to understand what it may be like on each level. The symbol was something I found on pinterest and incorporated it into my over all page design.

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Hellenistic witchcraft, it is the study of witchcraft with the understanding of how the ancient greeks would have done it. This includes the worship of the 12 Olympians. I wanted to include this because my Patron Goddesses are Aphrodite and Hakate (Hacate).

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This is the next set of pages of the History of Witchcraft.

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History of Witchcraft page, need I say more?

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I wanted to create a page as of why I have returned to witchcraft. I feel like if you are a long time witch like..me who has been doing this for 15+ years. Sometimes you may stop practicing, and I feel like its important to explain why you came back to it if you took a break from it.

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My Book Blessings page xD I liked how it turned out over all. This is my first time recreating a BOS in a LONG LONG time. So for me, I am happy with this result.