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ac:sophithil. here to share my writing about some dead gays from the 70s. elliott, 25, he/they. @lunarpadfoot on twt

[lunarpadfoot]

you've got to hide your love away - a wolfstar microfic band au

https://archiveofourown.org/works/63176488

[cherrylusstuff]

james, who knows all of sirius's expressions and smiles like the back of his hand, noticing one night how sirius is giving remus his flirt smile, and thinking holy shit.

[twispswatch]

baby remus lupin pulling up to hogwarts never having had a friend his own age, only having his loving smothering mother, his dad who swears in every sentence, and books that have a dialogue that no one actually speaks irl causing him to be the most socially unaware cursing mysterious child that also disappeared once a month

bro would kiss sirius on the cheek and say smth like “until the sun rises again” and would actually not return till the morning freaking sirius TF out

[starsworth]

canon sirius this canon sirius that canon sirius knew a man who canonically cross-dressed (even if for convenience) & did not bully him, did not mistreat him, did not approach the subject with malice or negativity. canon sirius said, verbatim, "if you want to know what a man's like, take a look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals." canon sirius asked remus for forgiveness for not believing in the best of him. canon sirius instantly, without hesitation, forgave remus for believing in the worst of him. canon sirius expressed sympathy for barty crouch jr in regards to his father's neglect and entertained the possibility that barty may have been "in the wrong place at the wrong time" when discussing his crime. canon sirius, when he thought he would be a free man, immediately offered his godson a home and a place with him, even without being aware of the neglect his godson faced, even before he had a home to offer, and he did so by prefacing that he would understand if his godson didn't want to, making it clear he would not try to force him. canon sirius could be cruel, and insensitive, and vengeful, and obstinate—but that's not all he was. canon sirius could also be compassionate and sympathetic and forgiving and accepting. canon sirius was complex, and it goes both ways, in the direction of his faults as well as his virtues. btw.

[lunarpadfoot]

a mother's love: a short piece exploring sirius' feelings after he escaped grimmauld place | word count: 482 | tw for trauma based angst and brief anxiety

For a moment, he allowed himself to mourn what he’d lost, who he’d lost. He thought of the way Effie had held James while he cried, the letters and chocolate boxes Hope sent Remus in the post. The home knitted jumpers Peter always wore, the braids Lily wore in her hair after she came back from holidays. He thought of the makeup Mary had shown him, the powder press that had been passed down through her family for years, the eyeshadow technique she taught him, smiling fondly as she explained what her mother had shown her. He thought of the way Marlene had frowned when he’d explained what his family was like, how she’d gone upstairs to write her own mother letter moments later.

He wondered if it would always be like this, if he’d be watching parents hold their kids’ hands in the street and always ache with this yearning for a thing he never had. If he’d always be awkwardly skirting around the topic of family with every new person he met. If he’d always have to face their fallen faces when it finally came out, a ‘mummy issues’ joke slipped in without him noticing or a “no sorry, my family never did that”. He wondered if he’d always be discovering just how fucked up it all really was, rehashing memories of his childhood as he finally began to understand that what he’d experienced wasn’t normal.

He so often made all of it a joke, a punchline he could throw around because maybe if people laughed, it wouldn’t be such a sad story. But standing in his new room, in his new home, with his new family downstairs, he finally let himself mourn. He ached with all the feelings he’d never let himself acknowledge, the loss of a mother, the want for a love he never had; for a universe where he never had to run away, where he was raised by kindness and goodness. It made his chest ache in a way he’d never experienced, feeling scarily similar to the panic attack he’d had last term at school.

He dug his fingernails in his palms, gripping his hands into fists at his side. The sharp sting of it bringing him back to reality. He took a deep breath. Seven seconds in, four out, just like Remus had taught him. You’re okay, he told himself. You're going to be okay.

Then he walked downstairs into the comfort and warmth of the Potters kitchen, a place that had only ever been filled with love and laughter, where no one had ever cowered against a wall or held back tears at the table. He let the feeling of it fill him up as he sat down next to James, Effie planting a kiss on his head and putting a plate of Biryani in front of him. He was going to be okay.

[wylanlupin]

feb 8th | war | emmary | 260 words | @taylorswiftmicrofic

Mary looked down at the old Polaroid photo in her hand. It was taken the summer before their last year at Hogwarts. Mary had gotten the Polaroid camera from her aunt for her birthday.

Marlene and Sirius were amazed by it and they took so many photos. She still had them all, from her best friends Marlene and Lily, and with the four boys.

All the couples were still so fresh or still secret but so obvious looking at the photos now. Mary remembered how happy she was that Emmeline was there and they were glued together the whole trip.

Marlene made fun of Lily for giving in to James’ charm, and Dorcas and Remus were getting dragged out by their two loves. It was all so much fun and so real.

“What are you looking at?” Emmeline asked, entering the room after being away for hours. Mary sighed exhausted and showed her the photos. “Oh,” her girlfriend breathed through and sat down next to her.

“I miss them too, you know?” Emmeline said and drew small circles on Mary’s shoulder. “How is Remus doing?”

When Emmeline didn’t answer, she looked up seeing her biting her lips. “He’s trying.”

When the War ended, it was a relief at first but it left this big hole in all of them. Nothing will ever be like it was before. “Please stay,” she whispered against Emmeline’s shoulder, tugging her head in the crock of her neck.

“I’m here,” she answered just as quietly. “Don’t ever leave me, Em. Please.”

[tarraing]

emo boy in the luggage rack

[lunarpadfoot]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

wrote a little piece about mary post marlene's death so if you wanna cry over marylene here you go <3

[lunarpadfoot]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Pandora Lovegood/Lily Evans Potter, Sirius Black & Lily Evans Potter Characters: Pandora Lovegood, Lily Evans Potter, Sirius Black, Alice Longbottom, Frank Longbottom, Fabian Prewett Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Historical, Libraries, Alternate Universe - Victorian, but vaguely victorian, Historical Inaccuracy, or we can hope it isn't inaccurate but it probably is, POV Lily Evans Potter, Sirius Black & Lily Evans Potter Friendship, like their best friends, lily evans is a nerd, especially about architecture, Minor Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, frank longbottom/fabian prewett if you squint, Period-Typical Homophobia, not direct homophobia but it is the 1800s so yeah, Internalized Homophobia, But only a little, Fluff, Making Out, making out in a library, Alternate Universe - Muggle, ballrooms, Alice Longbottom & Lily Evans Potter Friendship, Resolved Sexual Tension Summary:

“It can be our little secret.” Her voice had grown soft, sweet, like honey; not sickening but delicate on Lily’s tongue.

“Our little secret,” Lily repeated, her voice barely above a whisper, as if she didn’t dare believe the things they were saying.

or

Lily Evans is sick of attending balls, sick of a future where she marries a man she doesn't like. She also has a tendency to knock down men's egos when they attempt to flirt with her but that's a minor detail. So when a pretty girl who seems to find her comebacks hilarious beckons her out of yet another ball she's been forced to attend, who is she to say no?

(also featuring Sirius and Lily best friendism because I love them)

[juljwoo]

[lunarpadfoot]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Sirius Black/Remus Lupin Characters: Remus Lupin, Harry Potter, Kingsley Shacklebolt, Sirius Black Additional Tags: Angst, Book 5: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, Post-Sirius Black's Death, Grief/Mourning, Hurt No Comfort, POV Remus Lupin, Good Friend Kingsley Shacklebolt, Song: Francesca (Hozier), Canon Compliant Summary:

The death of Sirius Black from Remus' point of view. Mildly inspired by Francesca by Hozier.

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apparently i have an addiction to writing the worst moments of remus lupin's life. anyways! here's some wolfstar angst for those who want to cry <3

[lunarpadfoot]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

remus lupin's christmas eve 1981. aka the angsty thing i've ever written. i'm so sorry

[word-wytch]

I think there's something that needs to be said about encouraging readers to leave feedback.

For me it's not about "tell me my writing is amazing and stroke my ego"

It's more about "please engage with me so that I can experience your joy secondhand and foster a connection with you"

I understand that not everyone wants this in their reading experience, some people are shy and a million other reasons why maybe someone wouldn't want to engage and that's perfectly fine!

But what I'm trying to steer away from is being a passive content creator with passive consumers. What I want to steer toward is fostering a community that is essential to fandom. I want to see your reactions because it makes me feel like I'm a part of something.

On encouraging reblogs —

I understand that not everyone is comfortable reblogging, especially explicit content. This is ok!

But just consider that the only reason you were able to enjoy a fic or fanart is because someone else shared it, and by not sharing it yourself you are potentially robbing someone else of the opportunity to enjoy it as much as you did.

As OPs our reach only goes so far and this website relies on reblogs in order for anything to truly get seen by a wider audience.

So that's really it! That's why I encourage these two things at the end of every story I post. Not because I'm trying to be demanding and "make people feel bad" if they don't do it.

I know most other social media sites encourage mindless content consumption and that's just the way of the world nowadays, but I am from a time when community was at the heart of fandom and I just don't want to lose that.

[aimmyarrowshigh]

But what I'm trying to steer away from is being a passive content creator with passive consumers. What I want to steer toward is fostering a community that is essential to fandom. I want to see your reactions because it makes me feel like I'm a part of something.

[lunarpadfoot]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

This was no drunken act of regret. This was years and years of glances across rooms, exchanged notes under desks, of boys holding boys in dark dormitories when their worst nightmares were coming true. No, this could never be a mistake.

The story of their first night and their last together.

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hi hi!! i have no idea how to share things but yeah sad wolfstar one shot <3 

[godlessondheimite]

it's so funny when people critique dark tropes and plotlines with "this isn't appropriate, people ACTUALLY going through this" because the human condition is like. very much the point.

[mermianar]

my lovingly made raven cycle portraits, based on amazing designs by @valtianan !! we’re buddy reading the series (my first time reading it) and we just finished blue lily. after a little break we’ll read raven king ! can’t wait but i also dont want the series to endd

[yharnamsnewslug]

As much as I love that JK Rowling is being shredded for her transphobia, I'm begging y'all as a trans man to acknowledge that the fucking Hogwarts Legacy game is fucking antisemitism personified.

Jewish people are very often erased from this shit already, ACKNOWLEDGE that the entire game's premise is about it. Jesus fuck.