had jake not let a minor hit to his ego get the best of him, you wouldn’t have spent the last five years pretending he didn’t exist. but now that game was over, following an incident leading you to be transferred over to his university. and after a friend of his takes interest in you, it becomes impossible for you to avoid him any longer.
pairing soccer player! jake x volleyball player, fem! reader
genre humour, angst, fluff, suggestive, childhood best friends au, enemies to lovers, second lead! heeseung, university au
omg ur so good at writing angst i need another toxic relationship heeseung post
❥Genre: Angst (cheating)
❥a/n: thank u so much for your request!! :)) this might sound a bit odd but i don't really like writing toxic relationships cause it feels too real 😭. idk I'm also a super over thinker lol... The name for the other person is made up !! This is purely fiction!! don't take it seriously!!! I am also a really bad writer so this maybe bad lol
You're so overwhelmed with emotion, Karina's words replaying in your mind. "...the way they held eachother, was so odd. i don't want to start something but they definitely have something going on behind your back."
It made everything make sense, the sudden wall that grew between the both of you, the excuses on why he couldn't meet you, even on days when you knew he wasn't, the lack of emotion in his eyes when he looked at you. You didn't want to seem insecure or clingy so you let it go, but now the puzzle pieces were coming together, so quickly you couldn't control it.
Him sitting before you drags you out of your thoughts. The Heeseung you once loved looked so different now, the previously shy man who chased you non stop before your relationship looked like a stranger. "Sorry I'm late." he says shortly, before ordering his drink. You ask him about his day, you didn't want to scare him off yet. His answers felt real but still distant. As his order arrived you watch him eat.
"Who's Cora?" You watch him pause, placing his cup down before looking up at you. "Classmate." "Karina said she's seen you two around, be... buddy buddies." "Oh? we have class together of course we'll be friendly with eachother."
You stare at him, struggling to read the look on his face. You reach for your phone, opening up your group chat with you lr friends, showing him the series of photos they got of them together. His face pales, your fingers helping him scroll through, stopping on a picture of them kissing.
"I... This isn't what-" "It looks like? it's fake? I have videos if you'd like to see them." You sigh. "I won't shame you for falling out of love, but you should have at least broken things off with me first. That hurts so much less than knowing I wasn't worth fidelity." He panics, shaking his head, reaching for your hand, you pull away.
"I can explain, please." "Go ahead, fill me in." you cross your hands over your chest, tilting your head to the side. A series of emotions fly across his face, his shoulders ultimately dropping in defeat. "I'm sorry." he croaks out. You stand to your feet, his hands grabbing your before you could leave. "I still love you, I still feel everything I told you I felt for you that night." you laugh bitterly, swatting his hand away. "The feeling isn't mutual, goodluck with your new relationship."
hi guys!! this is my very first piece of writing! constructive criticism is always welcomed. please don't mind any grammatical/spelling errors. i wrote this at 2 in the morning and just wanted to do something fun. i still have a lot of room for improvement but i hope you guys enjoy!
warning: little angsty
song: we can't be friends (wait for your love) - ariana grande
he was the sweetest boy to you when you had first met. his puppy eyes, gorgeous smile, and brown fluffy hair were what drew you in. his flirty words towards you, and only you, had you captivated in a heartbeat.
that’s why you couldn’t believe what was unfolding in front of you right now.
“oh god please don’t start.” jake groaned as you stared at him with angry eyes. or was it hurt? he couldn’t tell.
“i’m not starting anything! if anything you are! why are you still talking to your ex after the countless times she’s crossed the boundaries in our relationship? i’ve told you how i feel about her!" your voice croaked and you felt helpless.
you had always tried your best to not be that jealous girlfriend everyone hates. but how could you? jake was attractive and every girl tried to get at him. it didn’t help that he was oblivious to the advances the women around him would give. that’s why you would get angry, but never at him.
“how many times do i have to tell you that she came up to me? i was just being polite by having a conversation with her”.
jake was sitting on the couch now. his hands covering his face, unaware of the tears forming in your eyes.
it always came down to this. you voicing your problem with jake entertaining other girls and him trying to reassure you.
trying.
you both were growing tired of the constant arguing.
“jake she was pushing herself all up on you and you just stood there! can you imagine how that made me feel? watching my boyfriend have another girl's hands all over him as if she were the girlfriend?” you were hurt. it hurt. all of this hurt. you knew this wasn’t your boyfriend’s fault. he had always been a gentleman, one of the many qualities you loved about him. but his next words made you second-guess yourself.
“that’s just her character, doll. she’s always been like that from the moment i met her. this jealousy thing of yours really needs to stop, it’s not cute anymore”. jake almost immediately regretted his words as he saw your reaction. he knew he was wrong.
“you think i do this to be cute? am i joke to you?” you cried out.
you don’t remember when everything went wrong. you don’t remember the last time you felt secure in your relationship. maybe you weren’t ready for all of this.
“no, love i’m sorry i didn’t mean that” jake said as he quickly got up and made his way towards you.
“i’m so sorry, i just had a difficult day that’s all”. he slipped his arm around your waist and used the other to wipe your tears away.
“jake”
he looked at your eyes.
no
“whatever you’re about to say please don’t” jake pleaded.
“jake i just think we aren’t ready for this. for us”. you started to sob again.
“i think we need to let each other go. we need to grow and learn to understand ourselves before we can understand each other".
“please” jake said as he dipped his head into your neck.
you let him stay there for a while before you detached yourself from him. it was hard to because jake wouldn’t let go. he knew it would be a while before he held you again.
“i’m sorry jake, i really am” you said with a small smile, trying your best not to completely break down again.
“no i’m sorry, this is all my fault.”
“we both had fault in this jake, don’t blame yourself.”
you both stood there for a moment, observing each other. it was as if you guys were taking in your last moments together.
“i’m leaving now jake”. you wasted no time in collecting your things in order to head to the front door.
“thank you for everything, really. i know things didn’t end how we wanted them to but some of my best memories were with you. thank you jake”.
jake just stood there, still in disbelief at how quickly things had unraveled.
right as you were about to walk out he calls to you.
“can we still be friends?” a little hope is visible in his eyes. he hopes that you say yes so that he’s able to see you again.
“we can’t be friends”. and just like that you were gone. the only evidence of you ever being there was jake’s broken heart.
i’ll wait for your love jake thinks as he slowly walks over to the sofa and slumps down.
short almost drabble like fic where jake dated you because of a bet (you find out). bet fics are my guilty pleasure.
but i’m thinking it’s more of just your reaction? like it shows the emotions you go through after finding out
if you decide to write it, thank you🤭
✈︎ the perfect picture
pairing : bf!jake x fem!reader
warnings + genre : angst. crying.
wc : 1.1k
a/n : I LOVE BET FICS SM BCUZ THEY HURT SO GOOD OMFG + plsss lmk how i did!
Jake’s love painted the perfect picture, the canvas splaying out in a precise manner. The midnight giggles and morning delicacies were nothing more than a distraction, a part Jake played a little too well.
You were blindsided by everything else around you, unable to escape your 2d world. The walls of your heart were crafted by the lies that Jake had sewn into your skin since early on, the needle beginning its stitch the second his eyes met yours.
The gallons of paint were now splattered across the sky, Jake's canvas cracking as the black seeped in through the sections where he forgot to blend.
The audio recording sounded out across your stale room, all air stuck in your lungs as you held your breath, heartbeat behind your eyes as the tears welled.
“LN YN? It’s like you're asking for me to lose before I even begin.” The voice so clearly belonged to your boyfriend, his recognizable shocked tone sounding extra sharp.
“So you’re giving up? It’s not my fault they’ve never noticed you before.” Park Sunghoon, the man who always supported that boyish smile, and your boyfriend's best friend.
“I think they’re a good choice, allows more room for fun” Park Jongseong, the captain of the rugby team, again, your boyfriend's best friend.
“What do I get if I win?”
“Easy. You get this” Even if you couldn’t physically see this scene, you knew very well what Park Sunghoon was shaking in his hands. The bills slapping together as he shook them.
“Deal, prepare to hand it over.” The sound of their hands meeting was your tipping point, vision blurring as the tears fell.
The constricted air in your lungs shot out with your first exhale, chest burning as the weight of your boyfriend's betrayal lay heavy.
The next minutes were a blur of tears and blinding lights, your packed bags landing beside your feet as you hurriedly pulled on your shoes. Your phone buzzing to life in your pocket, messages coming in back to back.
You tried ignoring it, the thought of seeing your boyfriend's contact on your screen creating an overwhelming nauseous feeling.
It wasn’t until you heard a specific ringtone that you decided to fish your phone from your pocket, the loud voice of Sunghoon ringing too loudly across Jake’s apartment.
After hanging out with Jake’s friends a few times you managed to get extremely close to them, Sunghoon in specific. It was easy to get along with him, easy to drown within his sweet aura.
After class one day you accidentally stumbled into him, his attempts to hide his swollen eye coming up unsuccessful. You remembered that day, the day you found out about his fights.
It was as if that evening opened a door to your relationship, Sunghoon attaching himself to your hip.
One day all the boys decided to prank you, changing your ringtones to ones personalized by them. Sunghoon’s voice through his own ringtone has never felt so daunting, you’ve never hated him more.
Your eyes lazily read across his newest message, ignoring the other twenty-seven he’d sent within the last two minutes.
hoon
I’m so sorry, I promise we called off the bet after meeting you please don’t do anything you’ll regret. Jake’s on his way back, please hear him out
Without another thought you pressed his notification, the delivered alert changing to seen straight away. It seemed that Sunghoon was already typing again, bubbles popping up right away.
You ignored him once again, leaving his chat to open Jake’s. There was only one message from him, one sent by him hours ago, right after he left to Jay’s house.
“Never talk to me again” you whispered as your fingers pressed each letter, shakily pressing each letter before pressing send. As soon as the message went through you tossed your phone onto the table beside Jake’s door.
Of course, in hindsight, it was foolish to get rid of your phone, but there’s no way you could continue using it knowing all the memories stored in it.
What you didn’t know, was that when you threw it you somehow opened your emails, the email that contained the audio recording.
And so you left, leaving nothing but your phone. You ignored the looks in the lobby, your favourite neighbours giving you worried looks as they saw your state.
You got into the car, carelessly throwing your bags into the backseat. You reversed out of the spot, leaving Jake without another thought.
Jake could feel the dread in his chest as he entered the lobby, the same neighbours that saw you leave in a haste not yet seeing him and they whispered amongst themselves.
“Is yn alright? She just left in a hurry, she was crying pretty bad” Jake didn’t register their words until he reached his apartment, his hands on his knees as he caught his breath.
He had figured he’d get up faster if he ran up the stairs, the elevator always took ages to get down to the lobby.
He slammed open his door, tears falling once again as he noticed that all your belongings were gone. The only sound in his apartment was his own breathing, well that’s what he thought until he saw your discarded phone.
He walked towards it, jelly knees barely holding him up as he bent down to grab your phone. He felt acid rise up his throat, eyes widening as he heard the audio coming from your phone.
He knew you had found out the moment Sunghoon looked up at Jake with glassy eyes, shaking his head as he tried to get the words out. He didn’t waste a second before running out, ignoring his friends calling for him as the apartment door slammed behind him.
He was too late, he missed you by mere seconds. He didn’t have the chance to talk to you, to explain himself. This wasn’t how he wanted you to find out, he was planning countless ways that he would tell you.
That bet was Jake Sim’s biggest regret, but it wasn’t a mistake. Even if he was given the chance to go back and stop himself from accepting the bet, he would never do it. The time he spent with you was his favourite, you became his favourite person.
He didn’t know where he would go from here, but all he knew was that he needed to get to your apartment as soon as possible. And so he ran back down all flights of stairs, racing to his car as he sped towards you.
He didn’t know if you’d ever forgive him, but he needed to try. He loved you more than anything, even if it wasn’t genuine at first.
Jake Sim loved you, but after today you didn’t know if you believed that. If he loved you he wouldn’t have done this to you.
I just stumbled across this and it’s beautiful. Your way of writing is ideal! Hoping for one day to create something as amazing as this!! Love love love LOVE IT!!! 💕
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₊ ⊹ A/N dont get fooled by the synopses, im pretty bad at writing summaries, they will be rewritten most likely once i published the first installment of the series!
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DEJA VU !! so when you gonna tell her, that we did that too?
nothing hurts more than seeing lee heeseung doing the stuff you both used to do with another girl. Watching him wrap his jacket around her, playing the same song you both liked around her. everything, from the way he touches her, gives her gifts, was a carbon copy of your relationship. does he get deja vu when he’s with her?
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1 STEP FORWARD 3 STEPS BACK will you walk me to my door or send me home crying?
if you had to describe your boyfriend park jongsaeng in one word, it'd be unpredictable. he was a gentleman, absolutely selfless when it came to his loved ones. somehow you seem to be the only exception. you didn't understand then, and you sure as hell don't understand now.
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DRIVERS LICENSE cause how could i ever love someone else?
everyone has warned you about the infamous playboy sim jaeyun, but you didnt pay attention to them. being childhood friends, you knew everything about each other. your flaws, insecurities, and aspirations, you thought that everything was perfect till it wasn't.
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ENOUGH FOR YOU dont you think i loved you too much to be used and discarded?
you tried everything, you really did. as the school's hottest student, park sunghoon was in constant spotlight, might it be with classmates or being the light of the party. and for that, you did your best at making your presence worthy in his life. but deep down, you knew you couldn't compete with the girls who seemed much better than you, people who are enough for him
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FAVORITE CRIME But I say that I hate you with a smile on my face
kim sunoo was the personification of sunlight . everyone knew that! so when your friend introduced you to him you were naturally drawn to his open and kind nature. life seemed to be on your side but all the time and sacrifices towards him, all for nothing.
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HAPPIER does she mean you forgot about me?
being the school president's girlfriend wasnt easy and hell, if you could go back in time you wouldn't have even bothered associating yourself with the club. you two were the dream couple of east high, always being the talk of the school. but when you broke up, pictures of yang jungwon and the new girl started circulating around school. you should be happy for him, right?
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GOOD 4 U maybe you never cared at all?
nishimura riki is an egoistical asshole. thats the first thing ringing in your head when you wake up. being from rivaling dance groups, you thought that being in a relationship with the ace was your version of romeo and juliette, minus the tragedy part. but god, how wrong you were
You and Mark were different you were and extrovert and he was an introvert but there were times when you loved to be alone and be with him talking about life he loved when you were like that
Where did it all go wrong?
When one day, one month, one year passes Will we be living different lives?
The answer to this was a definite yes, you and Mark constantly argued to no end. You argued in public and in front of his label mates and yours this relationship turned for the worse there was no fixing it. Being with Mark effected your work and not in a good way your fans noticed how sad you looked and were extremely worried. As for Mark fans didn’t notice because he kept a smile on his face and pretended as if his relationship wasn’t going downhill rapidly
“Hey Y/N can we talk” Mark walked into the apartment you sat up preparing yourself for what you knew was going to happen
“I’ve been thinking that we should break up we aren’t working anymore we’ve been arguing non stop over stupid things I don’t want to do this anymore” your smile faded but reappeared you knew this was coming you felt it
Biting your younger to hide your tears you nodded “it’s fine I understand Mark” you stood up walking to the door you knew in reality it wasn’t fine in fact it hurt a lot you were so in love with him
You turned around to face him “take care Mark”
He smiled ”take care”
With my hair tightly tied up I’m cleaning up my messy room
You laid in bed memories flooded your mind since you two started dating you were sleeping in the same bed together so tonight was different for you.
Determined to get rid of the memories that haunt you, you take all your photos off the wall and throw the scrap book in and trash can it wasn’t done but there was no use in keeping what would’ve been your anniversary gift for him
And all the people, I look like I’m fine I pretend to be numb and I try to smile
Your group just had a comeback you pretended to be fine so others wouldn’t worry of course everyone knew about the break up you plastered on a smile and pretended to look like everything was okay if people asked how you were you’d tell them your fine and smile they buy it but your members don’t
I keep thinking About our last moment The words “take care” was it for our plain breakup
Today you were getting your things from marks place the finale break up words replayed in your head take care was plain you wanted to say more but didn’t
Knocking on his door you waited for him to answer it felt weird usually you walked in but you can’t anymore
“Hey Y/N come in” you nodded and took your shoes off headed straight to the room to see your things already packed up.....he waisted no time
You picked up the small boxes and headed downstairs where he sat on the couch texting in his phone you place the boxes down to put on your shoes when the words that lingered in your mouth finally blurted out
“It’s not fine” you said it loud and clear
“What” you had no choice but to say what’s on your mind
“It’s not fine Mark I love you so much I wanted to make our relationship work and fix what was broken but you didn’t want to instead you broke my heart i told you it was fine but it’s not fine it hurts” at this point you were sobbing but Mark sat there just looking at you you wanted him to take you back
“You need to go Y/N” he opened the door for you
It didn’t go the way it did in movies they lied instead the girl is still left with a shattered heart and he moves on
a/n: sequel to this drabble from about a year ago, inspired by an anon request!
A lot could change in a year.
After the disaster with Mark, you quickly realized you had a mountain of reflecting to do. Your self sabotage had left you empty and alone, with nobody to place blame upon besides yourself.
In a way, you were grateful for Mark's rejection. It was cold and heart breaking, but who could deny that you deserved it? It was no worse than what you'd done to him months prior.
You'd taken two weeks off of work over Christmas and packed a bag, returning home to your parents' tiny house in a tiny town where you could truly be alone. At first, you hated it. You hated the silence and the reminders of your past. You hated the way your mom looked at you, like somehow she had made a wrong turn to have a daughter like you.
She asked a few times what had gone wrong with Mark, and each time you could only tell her that your relationship had run its course. You wanted different things. Neither of those statements were lies, technically.
But you realized you did want the same things as Mark, you just couldn't stand to admit it out loud. You wanted the quiet comfort of having one person to come home to, one person to open you heart to, one person to trust.
The problem was that you couldn't believe anyone would want that person to be you.
Let alone Mark. He could have anyone he wanted, so why would he want you?
summary: he’s in love with a girl you can never be. you try your hardest to be okay with being second best, but it hurts, and it sucks, and you have had enough.
song inspo: sober by selena gomez / before the storm by the jonas brothers ft. miley cyrus / that way by tate mcrae
genre: angst, fluff / friends with benefits, friends to lovers, college au
warnings: cursing, mentions of alcohol/alcohol consumption, themes of jealousy, slut-shaming, some suggestive content
word count: 11.5k
author’s note: these songs always have the ability to leave me speechless, so of course, i needed to write them into a story. i tried my hand at writing angst, even though i’m terrible at it haha. i hope you enjoy it!!! happy reading~! :]
