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Figuring me out– 24/7 work in progress. I’m an adult but don’t care who follows me, though expect to see adult content so beware. This is a blog for whatever, but mostly to help me explore myself a bit and to express myself freely. Anyone is welcome to follow or send asks or interact. I’m a friendly person. Oh and just in case you’re curious:

he/him or they/them preferred but any are okay

alternate names: Desmen, Stiles, or Shiloh

neurodivergent

don’t do discourse

the kin link is specifically for the main user, Des (for everyone else click here)

#about me #mobile about me

cablieu

Particle Tracks in Bubble Chamber

“Tao of Physics”

#g.mp3 #that is insanely cool

one-man-rock-band-hahah

“okay we have been stable for a while, no new members please”

*new member*

“okay really, no new members this time”

*new member*

“guys, no more new members”

*new member*

“god fucking damn it”

birbliophile

made a thing.

#g.mp3

Being a system and specifically an alter in a system is so lonely because I feel like no one knows the real me anymore

#dissociative system #traumagenic system #osdd #fictive #g.mp3 #phm fictive

goon

#g.mp3

#rocky phm #project hail mary #fanart #Rocky doodle #phm #I love this little guy

Like 98% sure we have a new guy

#plural system #plurality #dissociative system #system stuff #traumagenic system #I was pretty sure we were splitting last month but nothing ever happened so I'm pretty sure they finally like 'fully loaded'#or whatever

Like 98% sure we have a new guy

#plural system #plurality #dissociative system #system stuff #traumagenic system #I was pretty sure we were splitting last month but nothing ever happened so I'm pretty sure they finally like 'fully loaded'#or whatever

#project hail mary #phm #phm movie #phm book #rocky phm #ryland grace #rock and grace #playlist #Spotify

When I want them to leave front (leave me alone) I just whip out the trusty AO3 and pull up the most embarrassing fanfics I can find

#tbf this doesn't work on some of them...looking at you Wade #actually plural #pluralgang #dissociative system #plural system #plurality

teaboot

I hate that thing some people do where it's like. "I left my wallet on the table to see if you'd say anything" or "I wanted to see if you'd wash the car if I stopped doing it"

Cause like

I dont know about anyone else

But I am perpetually hovering three inches above the strong subconscious belief that everyone knows what they're doing at all times except me, so if you change your normal patterns and I notice, then I will assume it is an intentional choice with a thought-out plan behind it and I will avoid interfering

And if I don't notice, because I won't, because why would I, because not much bothers me and if you don't say anything to indicate you are bothered then how would I KNOW

teaboot

Alternatives to experimenting on me like a lab rat when you suspect me of being inconsiderate:

"I feel like I'm the only one who does this chore. Can we start taking turns?"

"I'd like you to ask me how I'm doing more often."

"It bothers me when this area stays messy so long. Can you do X when Y happens?"

"I feel like the onus is on me to initiate X, and it's wearing me down. Could you try making the first move more? Like 3-4 times a week?"

"I'm feeling upset right now and I'd like to spend some time with you."

"When X happens, I feel like you're taking my work for granted."

"I'm feeling neglected. Could you do X?"

"I'm burnt out and need help."

"I feel like I'm the only one putting effort into X."

"Do you notice this?"