LOCKWOOD AND CO WIP I WILL PROBABLY NEVER FINISH!!
ANTHONY LOCKWOOD X GEORGE KARIM (written with netflix show George in mind but it could also apply to book George)
hi hi!! urhhh I've come out of my cave to do my monthly tumblr post! urhh I've had this fic half written in my notes app for the longest time and I finally decided to post it! if u enjoy please let me know, perhaps it will inspire me to actually finish this fic...
TAGS: George Karim x Anthony Lockwood, Anthony Lockwood x Lucy Carlyle, sad gay ppl, tragic yaoi, mentions of sex, mentions of kissing, actual kissing (like once), swearing, kinda mean Lockwood, friends with benefits, poorly (???) written angst
It's torturous, watching them laugh, act like he isn't even there, read books leaning on each other's chest as the other whispers the words in their ear. It was constant. Ever since Lucy turned up, and George didn't resent her for that. Lockwood should have at least had the balls to tell him instead of letting him find out himself.
The touch of skin, the exchange of breath, the sick thought in the back of his head that screams at him 'he doesn't love you back'. The silence of the room after they both finish, the empty praise that hangs in the air like fog, the drunken whispers that in the morning would be far gone when Lockwood had sobered up.
It stung George like acid, he yearned for Lockwood to stay, to lie with him in the morning, instead of rushing off like he usually did. The coldness of his side of the bed was like a kick to the teeth.
It started off as friends with benefits, just a way to relieve stress, but George knew he wouldn't be able to go back to 'just friends' after the night ended. They wouldn't hug, or kiss or really do anything other than the bare minimum, and once it was all over Lockwood would roll over and leave George wishing he could take the boy in his arms and kiss his face until he knew how much George loved him. Instead, he was left with silent tears running down his cheeks and into his ears and the sour realization that he was sleeping with another man, but truly he was more alone than ever.
One night, after a particularly bad argument with Lucy, Lockwood turned up stood outside if George's bedroom door, staring down at his feel sheepishly. He lifted his head, god those eyes, George pulled him in by his collar and kissed him. A kiss that told Lockwood all of the thoughts and feelings George had had about him, all the nights he'd spent alone wishing Lockwood would love him back.
He didn't kiss back.
He pulled back and looked almost offended, as if he wasn't here to have sex. He looked George up and down like he was less than him, like he was something disgusting. "What was that?" He spat.
"What do you mean? Lockwood I love you" George said the last part in a whisper.
"George, you know I'm with Lucy"
"Then fuck off. Just fuck off"George didn't really swear much at people, especially not at Lockwood. "You're acting like you're not here to sleep with me. What about how I feel, Lockwood? What about all those nights I stayed up crying, wishing you would feel the same way I felt about you"
George didn't speak to Lockwood for the next week, actually, he didn't speak much to anyone that week. He woke earlier than everyone in the house, at breakfast alone, then it was off to the archives until the workers had to threaten security on him if he didn't leave, then he'd come home, sleep for a shockingly un-george amount of time and do the same the next day.
ALWAYS REBLOG WHEN YOU SEE SOMETHING LIKE THIS PLEASE; ITS SO MUCH MORE THAN IMPORTANT TO PEOPLE. IT MEANS EVERYTHING TO SOMEBODY AND EVEN THOUGH YOU MIGHT NOT SEE THIS IN THE SAME LIGHT, SOMEONE MIGHT. INFACT YOU REBLOGGING THIS COULD STOP SOMEONE TAKING THEIR LIFE TONIGHT.
not joking if one more of my favorite Netflix shows get taken off the platform I'll explode. PEAK shows like Inside Job and Lockwood and co get canceled, the UK Shameless and Blue Lagoon are all getting taken off. like for what? so Big Mouth and Ginny And Georgia get new seasons
