“Is this… the land of the Gods…?”

In my 20s || old lion yells at cloud about fandom art dead presidents and life

[maaltajik]

Welcome to maaltajik I post about silly things and reblog cool stuff and is my internet version of my room. By that I mean everything is said and collected in here.

[arizonaranger]

[nata-natfan]

Diluc and Noir

[capitulism]

The largest mass shooting in American history was a hate crime against gay people. Don’t ever forget that.

[exmellivorinae]

June 12, 2016. Putting a date on this for when it gets reblogged months from now by people who think the post is about something from 30, 40 years ago.

[butch-reidentified]

I am a survivor of the Pulse nightclub shooting, having grown up in Orlando and just turned 20 a month prior. If you didn’t know, there were several families who refused to claim the bodies of their relatives due to their sexuality. One family even had their relative’s name removed from the memorial. Murdered by the same hate with which their families reject them in both life and death.

Many, many people celebrated Pulse. We were told we deserved it. That it was God’s punishment for our sin of loving the same sex. We are sent messages like these I received in 2018:

We in the community often call the victim count 49+ to include the survivors who couldn’t live with the pain.

The event was never officially declared a hate crime or targeted homophobic attack and is rarely listed as one in databases.

At our vigils for those slaughtered, Extremist Christian groups showed up to protest, holding signs like this:

ID: Me kissing a woman I was casually seeing in front of an angry looking man with a “Sodomy is Sin” sign.

Please understand how much more than just a mass shooting this was. We are still to this day harassed and told we deserved it by some.

This year was the sixth anniversary. The first couple years I received dozens of messages checking in on me on 6/12. Year 5 got enough news coverage for people to think to reach out to me. This year it was my therapist, the woman I kissed in that photo, and a couple of other gun violence survivor friends. People are forgetting already.

[butch-reidentified]

With the 7 year anniversary <2 weeks away, I figured I’d reblog this

[apocalyptic-cake-deactivated202]

Listen up!

You see a post like this? Where OP might hurt/kill themselves? You hit that button that I circled

Hit that.

Click Suicide or Self-harm Concern

Yes.

Fill in the rest of it, and hit submit. The "content you reported" will fill itself in

Tumblr will follow up and help them.

Warning: this is only for mobile. If anyone knows how to do this for desktop, please add it!

This could SAVE SOMEONE'S LIFE.

YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE NOT TO REBLOG THIS.

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF IT DOESN'T GO WITH YOUR BLOG'S THEME.

And yes, REBLOG. Liking does no shit at all. This isn't ig.

You reblog, people see it. You don't, people don't see it. This shit's that simple.

This could save someone's life. It's not a joke.

[gyrsaker365]

This isn’t some ‘oh yeah sure it could’.

This could legitimately do so.

Don’t you dare fucking scroll past.

[obscureoldguy]

This is good stuff to know!

[socxsuallycruel-deactivated2022]

please, please, please reblog. reblogging will take one second of your time. meanwhile it could save someone’s entire life.

[giuliafc]

please reblog!

[ninjnerd-anaklusmos]

REBLOG RIGHT NOW. As someone who has been in a rough patch for a while, I can deeply understand the severity of this!! Please reblog, it only takes a second. You can save someone's life. You can be a hero, bring the change that the world needs to see!

[boomie-123]

REBLOG RN. RN. THIS COULD SAVE SOMEONE, YOU CAN BE THAT PERSON!

[djungelskogbearofficial]

important !!

[thefranticfreakshow-deactivated]

This has been something I've struggled with for a while now. If enough people had shown me that they actually cared if I lived or died, maybe my state of mind would be different. Maybe I wouldn't have done some of the things I did to myself, that I deeply regret now. Everyone matters, no matter how insignificant you may think you are, don't pick up that blade. Please. It will ruin you. This is important. Please reblog. This can save lives. This can help so many people. This isn't a joke. This is a serious issue that people need to be more aware of.

[yourlocalgummybear]

Please reblog!

[polar-bear-strength]

I only have, like, four followers and they all follow my alternate account, but I want to make sure everyone sees it and reblogs.

[idkwhatswronginmylife2112]

Do not become a statistic on the worldometer website please.

[ifeelpissed]

Had multiple situations involving friends almost committing, as well as one that mentions it a lot. So I don’t take this stuff lightly. Please re-blog if you see this, thank you.

[ivanmp4]

yall BETTER be reblogging this shit.

[maaltajik]

Nintendo will do everything but fucking remaster Twilight Princess for the Switch, arguably the ONLY Nintendo console that could either stick to the OG GC format or even the Wii’s stupid motion controls. But alas, here we fucking are. FireRed and LeafGreen. Wow. The original Kanto remakes reFUCKINGreleased who’s excited

[maaltajik]

Also I don’t care if it was technically remastered for the Wii U the Wii U sucked and TP deserved a better import console. Remaking it for the Switch with Wii motion controls would be fun and nostalgic and not the first time Nintendo has remastered and retrofitted motion controls onto an older game that didn’t fucking need it (hi OOT3D!!) but no. Nope. FireRed and LeafGreen

[maaltajik]

Adding to this as there is a rumored OOT remaster in the works yayyyyyy

[maaltajik]

Great

[maaltajik]

It's been a long few days. I need a iced vanilla oatmilk latte

[parrcepan]

the thunderclan gossips

[maaltajik]

Nintendo will do everything but fucking remaster Twilight Princess for the Switch, arguably the ONLY Nintendo console that could either stick to the OG GC format or even the Wii’s stupid motion controls. But alas, here we fucking are. FireRed and LeafGreen. Wow. The original Kanto remakes reFUCKINGreleased who’s excited

[maaltajik]

Also I don’t care if it was technically remastered for the Wii U the Wii U sucked and TP deserved a better import console. Remaking it for the Switch with Wii motion controls would be fun and nostalgic and not the first time Nintendo has remastered and retrofitted motion controls onto an older game that didn’t fucking need it (hi OOT3D!!) but no. Nope. FireRed and LeafGreen

[maaltajik]

Adding to this as there is a rumored OOT remaster in the works yayyyyyy

[maaltajik]

Started watching that Goat movie and mannn. Black furries bro you can't get any better than this. Furry culture as I knew it would usually flatten any visible culture, but still there was an undercurrent of whiteness perpetuating the fandom. So being a furry online was almost like a way to mask my Blackness and just be Me. I'm so glad that Black furries are becoming mainstream idgaf representation is epic as fuck

[maaltajik]

Just finished the TP manga and mannnnn. Link questioning his role in the triforce’s destiny. Midlink. The fact that Link and Zelda are worlds apart but share the unique sorrow that is knowing that they’re forever bound and forever doomed to act out this chaos over and over. All three of them knowing that. Midlink. Wolf Link literally ripping out Beast Ganon’s fucking heart? Metal. And huge shoutout to Himekawa being a Wolf v Beast truther because every other walkthrough on YT likes to use Human!Link during that fight. No. The canonical and best way to kill Beast Ganon is to also become a beast, full stop. And finally, Midlink.

[maaltajik]

Just wanted to add to this but I rlly enjoyed how much the topic of hatred is brought up in dialogue between Link Zelda and Ganondorf, particularly towards the end of the manga. They know they're doomed and they can't do a damn thing about it. The dread/shock/awe of Link realizing how much Ganon hates him. Awe, maybe even horror, because by the end of the manga, at the end of Link and Ganon's last duel, Link contemplates what good killing Ganondorf would be; he'll be back anyway, and so will he and Zelda. Zelda literally says that "Ganondorf has extinguished his own life"; Link didn't even kill the bastard, he more or less conceded. Ganondorf knows he'll keep coming back, but he's so driven by greed that he abandons questioning this cycle at all. To him it's just a pause in time; centuries, decades, eons - all pauses end inevitably. And he'll be back to do it all again until he wins. They know they're all coming back to play this out again, and they can't name this hateful force, the reason behind this insanity. Ugh Twilight Princess makes me physically ill. I've always sort of felt that defeating Ganondorf in TP felt... unsatisfying.. and now that I have a developed frontal lobe and a basic understanding of Zelda lore, I understand why the ending feels unfinished and unsatsifying, beyond the fact that I can't play any further past Hyrule Castle, that there is no actual post-game. Link Zelda and Ganondorf are trapped in this ancestral hell and they're doomed to repeat it. They all know and understand this and I think the atmosphere of both the TwiPrin manga and game capture the dread of this idea in a way that other dark Zelda games like Majora's Mask or Wild/Tears don't (despite the latter games literally playing off the fact that everyone knows they're condemned to fight for eternity). I think it's the smallness and relative familiarity of TwiPrin that invokes this dread of being trapped because we can see so much of OOT in TwiPrin. The locations, gimmicks, events in the story, the music (hey Malon!), the scene layouts. The deja vu isn't just for little story throwbacks; this is us reliving variations of the same story aghhhhhh TP makes me so fuckin illlll dude

[thetwixxie]

why do the coolest kids hate lloyd?

he’s being bullied!

[maaltajik]

Here to vent! Yay! Ummm..

Today I spent 12 hours on my phone. 12 hours of screentime, could be shortened to 11 since I have YouTube videos running in the bg and I’m not necessarily watching them… still though. I had a ton of free time today and I had planned to draw or read and I did end up drawing. Not as much as I’d like. I rarely get the space and time to dedicate to art, and it’s because I have such bad phone habits. Constantly checking, scrolling, looking for just one more video. Even as I’m typing this, I went back to check my likes on Instagram. It’s quite frustrating; last year at the beginning of December I stayed off Instagram for a full month. I remember how uncomfortable I felt when I allowed myself to use it again. I should’ve stayed off. I don’t feel rested, I feel anxious that the small window I had to exist and enjoy some non digital hobbies has closed and I’ll go back into my monotony of work and school. I just can’t pull away and I’m starting to feel ill. Maybe writing this on tumblr instead of a journal isn’t exact helping the problem either lol. Well, it’s gonna be May (lol) so maybe I can restart. For a while tumblr was convenient because I had relatively low engagement and it’s harder to get stuck in scrolling loops. But now I get more likes and rbs so I instinctively check back for more. So tumblr has to go. This might help me with writing my blog post for my fashion side blog actually. I’ll just have to use my phone to get pictures. I’m pretty tired and I’ve already said too much I gotta go to sleep

[were--ralph]

Hey! how make much did you make an hr on your first job and what was the job?

[maaltajik]

Neurodivergent but not really but refuses to get tested because I doubt the truthfulness of any objective statement about myself and behaviors. I guess I can live the rest of my life like this

[maaltajik]

I’m my biggest enemy and it’s frustrating. I’m also my biggest asset because I know I’m fully capable lmfao

[baradragon]

speaking from a place of privilege (good url)

[baradragon]

some of you should not be reblogging this

[assdad]