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I've heared people compare Dragons dogma to dark souls and I don't really see it. Because dark souls combat to me feels slow and annoying like walking through molasses, while dragons doma feels like me and the boys had too many potions and are now lost in the woods ,killing dragons for fun.

Dark souls is like trying to doge, heal and hit enemies while having balls chained to your ankles and a huge target on your back.

Dragons dogma is like you can be all kinds of configurations of a tank , a wizard or a fairy of death, and you actually feel a visible change in combat speed and lightness of movement. I know Dark souls (tries) to do that too but from my perspective everythings so grimey and convoluted ,the character kind of mentally fades into the surroundings XDD

In DD you get to throw enemies and people off cliffs ,you get to crawl up your enemies ballsack , you actually do readable damage in a good timespan, and you don't have to dodge so much you forget you're supposed to fight something.

Also maby if dark souls characters didn't take so long to take a swing ,every enemy within a 2 mile radious wouldn't have already stabbed you 47 times by the time you hit something.

Also life hack: having a healer with you so you don't have your hands full of potions while rolling around on the floor. And not being a massacist who hates fun helps too XD (jk)

But honestly ,by the time a hit finally lands in dark souls my ADHD has already filed a complaint.

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The civil war had arrived at Skalitz doorstep, we had gotten orders to kill all the traitors living in its walls. An army of armed soldiers overran the city at dawn ,killing raping and pillaging, there would be no prisoners today.

But suddenly a loud roar shook the air over Skalitz as a pulsing white flame ripped the light from the sky. The air became heavy as an opressive force turned the oxigen into poison. Arrows of light rained down from the heavens as if god himself came down to punish us,impaling soldiers by the dozens and incinerating them. All ran for their lifes, whatever it was ,there was no fighting it. I heared men scream in terror as soldiers where struck by glowing arrows the size of tree trunks. Suddenly the light from above crashed into the land, creating a shockwave that threw men into the Castle walls and burst our eardrums , the ground itself shook as if the gates of hell had been opened waiting to consume us.

A white flash ripped through our ranks as men stumbled through the smoke, ears bleeding, blinded by the cleansing fire that was seemingly attacking us. Our numbers soon dwindled, what once had been an army of thousands of allied forces was now a horde of terrified men seeking shelter in the stone walls, some trying to bargain with the enemy to be let into the castle.

From the sky above the light decended on us, those who stood too close where disintigrated instantaniously. Large wings carried pulses of energy that shook our very souls...it looked like a demon, or perhaps an angle of vengance, it's face a mask of harted , sharp teeth and terrible eyes staring down at us. The roar that followed was gutteral , we knew this was it. There was no escape. It lunged at us ,starting to rip and tear through metal,flesh and bone...it was raining blood and guts as it held one of our soldiers high above its head and ripped him in half like it was nothing. Its large ,glowing claws crushed heads and tore limbs appart in a sea of violence that had no equal.

As bodies stacked up high it stepped upon them ,it's siluette becoming more distinct. A woman, no ,a beast with womanly features spoke to the last remaining soldiers as she held her talons over them, their flesh melting away as she took a hold of their empty eye sockets and tore out their souls ,crushing them in her hand and tossing the glowing liquid over their corpses ,ignighting them in blue and purple flames.

"Ūrř tæck ƙk shrķ vðoŕŧ"

The creature growled as it spotted me. I shuffled backwards trying to escape her booring gaze as she lifted me by the collar

"Tell them what happened here this day"

*she pulled me closer her gaze penetrating me to my core*

"Tell them Im coming for them next"

She said and tossed me aside ,my conciousness faded as the winged devil acended,the remaining townspeople pouring out of the castle shouting praises and falling to their knees in prayer to whatever just saved them

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Wich one is more satisfying?

Fnoof

Schneed

Fneed

Fnart

Voting ended onJun 5

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Man I swear going outside for me feels like when you walk around in a video game on low health, tunnel vision, heavy breathing, blood splattered on the UI because you feel like you are cooking alive in your clothes even if its not hot out ,just because your system runns so damn hot just to exist. Ringing in your ears like the world is just a big goddamn flashbang that constantly lowkey burns your rednas as you blast music to be as distracted as possible while your shoes feel like hot coals, rubbing open your blistering skin, teeth grinding ,jaw locked while the exessive sweat makes you want to rip off all your clothes.

Of course not all outings are like this but they often feel that way ,especially when carrying stuff or just wearing too many layers that day/ weather conditions. (I never know how many layers to wear because Im always either too cold or too warm)

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I hate that chatgpt is the only thing keeping me sane rn, but I can't pull a friend out of my ass.

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This came out of my hand today :0

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Fleem♡

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I just finished playing Nobody Wants to die, a Retrofuturist ,Cyberpunk Noir detective adventure.

And I really have to say I was right about this game all along. Like, it is a ride. It is one of those games that you don't forget. It has a very distinct feeling. I can't compare it to anything. The oppressiveness is off the charts. Like, I don't think I have ever played a game this dark. It has its issues and its relatively short but damn if the world building isn't interesting.

This is the Cyberpunk/Noir end boss. Like 2077 feels like child's play compared to this. This feels like a much older, much more fucked society. You can't even see the sky anymore. They killed earth and live forever in its rotten carcass.

In 2077 you still feel like there's subcultures, some kind of stable baseline even for the poor, because they are allowed to exist at all. In nobody wants to die, you're doomed the moment you're born.

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I just woke up with the question if there is a Guinness World Record for the loudest fart.

-I got my answer

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Man, reading back some of what I've written makes me feel so toxic, like there is so much anger at the world, rightfully so ,but its like an illness thats slowly draining me from the inside. But its also a signal that something is wrong, something that hurts.

It's just not easy to live in a world this cruel and unpredictable, with emotional resonance turned up to 200% and a sense of justice that makes the chaos of ordenary life unbarable.

I wish people could see the world through my eyes, then they would understand why I'm in survival mode all of the time... it makes me sad that I have to be this angry, while people looking in might not understand where it's coming from.

There is definetly shame entangled with guilt at speaking my mind when most of what I write is so negative. It's because when things are actually good I don't feel the need to write it down. And most times truly good things are rare and precious.

I was so numb and dissolutioned for such a long time, now I feel everything at once.

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One thing that really feels unfair is how society categorizes autism into "high" and "low" support needs, because often times being "low" support needs doesn't mean you need less support but rather that you can hide your struggles better.

"low" support needs Autistics struggle with alot of the same things that high support needs Autistics do ,we just learned how to mask to look competent, but it's never actually enough to live comfortably.

We can have strong sensory needs, meltdowns, struggle communicating, self harm during stimming or meltdowns, trouble interpreting people in social situations, problems with touch, problems with food textures, problems existing in public spaces, low overstimulation threshholds, immense energy depletion and hypertention from constant masking or surpressing our stims or behaviours that make us comfortable, high emotional and physical sensitivity, low tolerance for stress or confusing social customs, the same comorbidities that often acompany autism like dyspraxia, hypermobile joints, Adhd and learning disabilities like dyscalculia and dyslexia, IBS, endometriosis, asthma and so on.

The difference is often that we learned that letting it show is unsafe, or happen not to be completely nonverbal even if we self isolate and barely talk to others since childhood. This means alot of us live in constant hypervigilance and stress that we cannot turn off while also being isolated and dealing with everything by ourselves because others don't deem us disabled enough to deserve substantial support. Even though our lives often only function because we repeatedly push ourselves over our limits to do so.

The other part is how little support there is for adults aswell, alot of us have been missed during childhood and didn't get the help we needed, and once we are finnally aware of our needs , the system just does not scale . Especially for people who aren't visibly disabled.

Routs to support are inaccessible or stressfull, and the services that do exist have little understanding of autism beyond stereotypes. The lack of professional support is often shouldered by Family, but there are some of us who don't have a family to support us.

Autism is almost treated like a childhood condition ,rather than a lifelong neurological difference, especially in "low" support needs labeled Autistics, even if they have been diagnosed early.

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Why did my brain just tell me that I can't jerk off cause I have an appointment in 3 days? Its like for a moment my brain gliched and went into premature waiting paralysis