💀 MTC aka Deed 💀

I'm a self proclaimed MTN Dew + Monster Connisoure who's a severe Gore, Horror, and Disturbing Media Lover. Currently a wannabe Content Creator wanting to make big projects come to fruition

[madisonthecat]

Introductions! Woo ️🎉

Hey! I'm Deed, a wannabe content creator who loves to dabble into the weird, horror, macabre and Mountain Dew's of the world. I know, a colorful array of hobbies I have, I know. I don't plan on using my Tumblr for much aside from announcing video uploads, updates (possibly), and rambles here n there. Blogging is new for me if you'd believe it. Anywho, I consider my content for primarily mature audiences so anyone under 16 please step away from my socials please. It's for your own good 🙂 So what topics can you expect from me? -MTN Dew + Monster Energy Reviews -Music-related Content -Horror-Related Content -Disturbing / NSFL Content -Amateur film projects -Self-made Style documentaries about my life living with CPTSD ..and many more! My channel n all my other socials are here on this handy dandy link I have a Ko-Fi for donations as well as YouTube has become so far from what it once was it goes against n doesn't support content creators such as myself all cause we don't fit a family friendly standard. I have officially become NSFY (Not Safe For YouTube) That's all I have to say in regards to this intro! Hope you stick around for the fun mayhem cause despite the disturbed topics I dabble in, we still have fun here cause without it, life would just be too morbid

[niximixcurio-cafe]

"1 more time, 1 more time! I'll keep rolling unto!" Some gift art for @madisonthecat

[spookysweaterblog]

[marshmallowgravyart]

Hatsune miku in the invader zim style

[mskdmkldfmd]

My redesign hot take is that if you’re aiming to “desexualize” a female character, don’t make her boobs smaller. You’re implying a lot here.

[emeraldburn]

Instead of shrinking her boobs, try:

Changing her posture to something normal people do (bonus points for slouching/rounded shoulders, a common posture for tall and/or big chested women)

Making sure her outfit is appropriate for the situation (showing skin is not inherently sexualizing, lingerie armor or half-naked-in-the-snow probably is)

Making her torso/waist thicker, maybe even enough that all her organs would reasonably fit!

There are probably lots more options too! I’m not an artist! Just a person with a big chest and back pain!

[madisonthecat]

Hey You!

Do you like Hatsune Miku or Vocaloid in general?

Are you into disturbing media of sorts or are interested in that realm?

Would you like to learn and discover some songs that may or may not reconsider your viewpoints on life or society itself?

Well do I have the series for you!

Join me, MTC aka Deed, as I start a journey where I go over songs that the community or others deem "disturbing" and I rank these songs (on a tier list) to decipher if they truly are worthy of being labeled as disturbing. Enjoy! (Link to vid should be attached to photo) (Disclaimer: This Series is intended for those 18+. Viewer Discretion is Advised. Director's Cut versions of the episodes are available over on my Ko-Fi on a $10 Tier)

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

no one needs to add “sounds fake but ok”, “no”, “well, not me”, “impossible”, etc. to this post. and i’d rather you not.

[duckbunny]

one day you think: I want to die.

and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.

and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun

I want a cleaner kitchen

I want a better job

I want to live somewhere else

I want to live

[zenosanalytic]

The thing to understand is that Depression

Even When It Is Trying to Kill You!

Is Defensive.

Your brain exists to preserve you; it’s just Dumb, and how it goes about “preserving” is determined by evolution’s ‘Good Enough’ meat-and-chemistry mechanisms rather than a firm grasp of biology.

You know how, stuck atop a burning building, ppl will sometimes throw themselves off in a vain hope of surviving? That’s what depression-driven suicide is. You are under THAT amount of stress, often sustained for a FAR longer time. Your brain only understands “Stress”: it doesn’t know causes, it doesn’t know Events, and it only has the one set of instinctive ‘extreme measures’ to fall back on. I made things SO hard on myself for SO Long conceiving of Depression as a Fight I had to Win, rather than a chronic illness in need of my understanding and careful management.

Help your brain. Nurse it. Ask yourself where it hurts and why. Recognize that the desire to die is a symptom, an injury, and not your ‘Truth’. Try to calm it, Try to endure: It WILL Pass. As perverse as it sounds, your desire to die is an expression of how PASSIONATELY you want to get away from the pain tormenting you; of how MUCH you want to LIVE. PLEASE Live!

[passion-of-l0vers]

when u use cgi blood u r literally depriving ur horror actors of enrichment which is essential to their health

[squirrellypoo]

[gudetama-tamad]

[motherdanger]

"kill them with kindness" wrong. SAW BATHROOM TRAP. 🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚 🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚 🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚🪚

[thedreadvampy]

you gotta be able to say "die"

you gotta be able to say "suicide"

you gotta be able to talk about "sex"

they're uncomfortable topics, YEAH for SURE

because LIFE is uncomfortable. Death and suicide and sex and pain are straight up going to happen. not having words for the way it discomforts you doesn't make it more comfortable, it just makes you less able to reach out about it.

even more vital, you gotta be able to say words like "rape", "abuse", "queer" or "racist". cause we fought fucking hard to name those experiences. to identify "rape" as distinct from "sex" and "racism" as distinct from "acceptable behaviour" and "queer" as distinct from "invert"

like the function of communication is not to minimise immediate discomfort. we gotta be able to talk about stuff that's hard or sucks or causes difficult conversations.

[backofthebookshelf]

This is what's so goddamn terrifying about the Internet slowly collapsing into the same 3-5 websites--if Facebook deprioritizes you for saying "sex" and TikTok shadowbans you for saying "suicide" and Twitter X locks your account for saying "racism" we've lost a lot more than just the culture of the old weird internet

[charlesoberonn]

America has a weird relationship with cults where they’re terrified of small cults (or organizations they think are cults) but completely normalized massive cults that hurt many more people (eg: LDS Church, Jehovah’s Witnesses, the Amish, Scientology, most Megachurches)

[charlesoberonn]

To anybody asking if the Amish are a cult, the answer is yes, very much so.

They’re a high control group that isolate you from society. The cult decides how you dress, how you behave, who you marry and how. They control what you know, blocking all information from the outside world. They control how you feel and what you’re allowed to think with threats of both social and supernatural harm. They’re a cult.

[charlesoberonn]

The best method to determine if a group is a cult, in my opinion, is Steven Hassan’s (cult expert and former cult member himself) BITE model.

BITE stands for Behavior Control, Information Control, Thought Control, and Emotional Control.

The more points a group “scores” on the model, the more of a cult it is.

I think this model is the best one for several reasons:

It’s more nuanced than “cult” or “not cult” and doesn’t make false equivalences between groups

It’s versatile, applying to groups big and small, and cults of all kinds, religious, political, financial, etc.

It focuses on what’s important, which is what the cult does to its members, and those members’ experiences, and not on irrelevant details like how uncommon their doctrines are or whether they have a charismatic leader

[charlesoberonn]

This is a great example of Thought Control used by cults whenever they’re confronted with criticism.

[saxifraga-x-urbium]

#you might notice that there are a lot of similarities between cult techniques and those of abusive partners#and that is an important thing to be aware of

yah that goes in the post

[charlesoberonn]

The creator of the BITE Model considers abusive relationships to be two-person cults.

[forgotn1]

It’s important to note that almost every sect of evangelical christianity in the US today fails the BITE Model.

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

anything u need me to be, ill be it for u!

[madisonthecat]

Am I the only one annoyed that YouTubers are being sponsored by TEMU?

Like- I get it, they need to get that revenue somehow but the second I saw TEMU Ads the only thing I thought was "damn it's 2016 with Wish all over again". But.. content creators are being sponsored by TEMU. I never saw anyone promote Wish back then. If anything, I saw people make videos reviewing Wish's products and going "yeah, this is cheap and a scam" If you don't know, Wish and TEMU are like Aliexpress, websites that sell products for cheap as they are most likely a mass producing company / knockoff products massively produced in China idk it kinda gives me the ick that content creator's that I value n support are blatantly supporting a flat-out Scam, it just makes me wonder if I should even care for their opinions and content anymore. With all the advertisements we believed that were legit but turned out to be scams (Established Titles / Kamikoto Knives, Loot Crates, etc.) you would think content creators would do more research on the products they promote I should note- this is not a shade towards anyone, I know the hustle is real and in some cases, content creators don't realize these products are a scam until its too late but I don't think its worth throwing your reputation n respect amongst your audience away just so you can earn a bit of cash. Especially for a app/website that is very clearly the 2020 version of Wish. That's all I'm saying. TL;DR when a content creators sponsors a product, just do your own research before blatantly believing it's a good product, it's becoming glaringly obvious not all content creators do extensive research themselves Personally, I'd rather sponsor small business owners and give em some love n support rather then a big company but hey, that's just me ;)

[platonic-suggestion]

Can we just… normalize teens loving their parents? Like obviously you’re not obligated to if your parents are shitty, but damn, I love my mom. She’s there for me all the time and sure we have rough patches but honestly she’s the greatest. Like. We need teens to know that they don’t have to hate their parents just cause.

[juneleesrikok]

It must be nice to come from a nonabusive family. One that doesn’t traumatized every emotional interaction to the point where you drive away any sign of love as a form of manipulation because that’s all that you were raised with. 🤷‍♀️

[loremerchant]

It is.

[elementalsword]

Reading Comprehension  

[fruitsbasket2001]

but loving ur parents is already normalized and its the kids w/ abusive parents that actually have to deal with misunderstandings and ignorance from others regarding this topic.

[platonic-suggestion]

Hey there, I’m talking about the trope where it’s seen as super uncool to like your parents that was literally pushed on teens through the media since the culture shift in the early 60s. The post has nothing to do with abusive parents. I was abused as a kid and honestly if the trope where teens have to hate their parents to be cool died, then kids with actual abusive parents would have an easier time recognizing abuse this has been a psa

[regenerative-farming]

“if the trope where teens have to hate their parents to be cool died, then kids with actual abusive parents would have an easier time recognizing abuse”

[mileena-loves-coffee]

Teen with abusive parents: I hate my parents

Teen influenced by society: Me too mine are the worst

The takeaway for teen 1: This is normal and it’s supposed to be this way

The takeaway for teen 2: My friend’s parents are like mine

The takeaway for any adult listening: All kids who complain about their parents are just being rebellious

[mckitterick]

this is important

[ice-block]

It’s so fucked up how tiktok culture has made clout-poisoned people turn the public into content, every day I see people minding their business have their entire faces put online for thousands of likes, a couple kissing on the train, a lady dancing across a cross walk, a guy nodding his head to the music at a club, a lady buying a banana at the store, ring camera footage of the neighbors kids being stupid. Just let people live jfc

[ice-block]

I think I may have made it seem like this is about wholesome content (which my sentiment towards that is the same) but most of the time when I see this stuff people are being ridiculed for being completely normal. And I didn’t make up any of these examples btw, I couldn’t find the dance one but only because there are too many videos of people being recorded at cross walks

(Faces censored and additional text added by me)

[eroticcannibal]

Im gonna add this to every post about this i see im never gonna shut up about it. This will get people killed. This will ruin lives. More people live in hiding than you think. So many people are one post away from having to abandon their whole lives. Dont ever post anything of anyone without their consent, stranger or not.

[libraford]

I am a photographer. It is my job to go into schools and take candid photos for the yearbook.

The number of kids that are on a 'do not photograph' list isn't large, but it is a non-zero number. If that kid is even out of focus in the background, we do not use that photo.

If a child shows even the tiniest bit upset that there's a person in the room with a camera, I do not take their photo.

At pop culture conventions, I ask people if I can take their photo. Or if I take a candid of them, I track them down and give them my info and get th3ir consent before posting.

At events like parties, concerts, performances, consent is generally implied because these are photographed events, but if an attendee approaches me and tells me to crop them out then I crop them out.

This makes street photography tedious, but I learned in my very first job as a camp counselor that people have very good reasons for not wanting their photo publicized. There are kids in the foster system with abusive parents. There are adults with stalkers. There are people who might be a witness to a crime.

Even outside of this- I've seen how private persons become memes against their will just by going out in public. Some people are super not normal about meme fame.

Leave people alone. The world is complicated. Make your own content.

[madisonthecat]

Maybe it's just me but opinions can't just be neutral anymore.

When I was a kid I had like- a fav YouTuber and if someone told me that they didn't like them I *had* to defend them and tell them they're wrong. I jokingly did that. Most of the time at least. But looking back that's just so dumb and kid logic.

But that literally is how people treat opinions

People will seethe and rage at something you share, could be the most mundane opinions "I prefer cake over pie" and they will go *nuts* and spend their time proving how wrong you are or reminding you how brain dead you are

Hell, you could see someone share a similar opinion to you but when *you* share it you get deaths threats and are thrown some of the wildest accusations.

Maybe telling people to kys or claiming they are sexist, racist, homophobic, etc. Over a mundane opinion of theirs is.. kinda overkill?

Idk I like sharing my thoughts, but I'm not here to debate. And I think that's where people forget..

Opinions.. AREN'T DEBATES

I could watch a movie review and disagree with a lot of it but I'll just.. disagree with them and move on? Like I can discuss in terms of sharing my thoughts and jokingly say "no your wrong" but I don't want to debate on "who has the right opinion" because that's just a losing battle.

I want to clarify I'm referring to harmless opinions. I'm not talking politics or anything topical.

Idk I love when people share their thoughts, I like it when they get passionate or creative, even if I disagree I don't want to tell them they're stupid or invalid or ffs accuse them of being something and telling them to kys. Jesus. I think people putting their passion into attacking someone over an opinion is the actual braindead way of using your energy. But that's just me.

This is nothing more than a ramble, I just wanted to share an opinion.. on opinions ayye haha

but at the end of the day, I'm happy knowing I don't dwell on someone's personal taste in food, music, media, etc. Cause it's their life, not mine. And long as they aren't hurting anyone or sharing harmful things. I could care less and continue vibing ✌️

Ps. I'm not fully used to Tumblr so apologies if my formatting is weird

[sentimental-apathy]