Ok after many months (and maybe a sneaky post I retracted) I'm back to say the following: I will no longer be making theories on Gachiakuta.
I loved writing about the series. I don't regret that. But the fandom and the mangaka I both greatly dislike. If I was to list the reasons why I would out write all of my old theories combined. And I've been reading/watching manga and anime since 2012 and have never had this experience of disliking the fans/creator this much before. So you know it was really bad for me to let go like this. . .
. . .I mean the purpose of me reading/watching these series is to enjoy myself, be hyped and have fun. But when I'm angry and stressing almost every week not just because of the fandom but the mangaka herself who enjoys adding fuel to the fire at some point I realised I had to let it go. And so I did. 🤷♀️🤷♂️
What I was trying to hold onto was first warm. But when it became too hot I was forced to let go.
(a wee bit dramatic heh? 🙃)
It was actually shockingly peaceful, the time I was not in that fandom. Actually the time away made me realise it was the common denominator to all of the stress I was feeling over a fictional medium. Which is really not worth the effort after a certain point tbh. 🙈
Me personally: I am quite good at dropping media that no longer serves me. I will hold on as long as I wish, but the moment it starts to burn my hands - away it goes. And this case was no different, even if the manga has potential, great art or a better future ahead it it. It has a future...but I don't really wanna be a part of it, after I realised how peaceful being a fan could be once I stayed away from it all.
And I learnt so much in such a small amount of time writing all of those theories. Some would think me mad for no longer making public the 200+ liked posts I have. . .but in reality would YOU want someone in a fandom who hates it on the low? I wouldn't. (well, that's just me)
At the end of the day it was a hyperfixation tool and way to dissociate from irl problems. But in hindsight I did say from the very beginning this series is not a favourite of mine. And for whatever reason I couldn't put it in my favourites the entire time. Something within repelled the idea even if the 'surface' seemed spectacular. Well. . .my weird ass intuition strikes again. 😶 . . .
Perhaps due to past experiences, I just realised holding onto thorns is not worth the time. So the days of me yapping about this fandom, or interacting with them is over. 🥀 So, what else will I use this account for?
Well since reddit really doesn't like me tumblr seems to be the only place I can write long theories unrestrained. But I'm not a fan of the modern fandom and social media culture whatsoever. I learned that very well since September 2025. So I decided to no longer be platform loyal.
I created a straw page (would you believe I had no idea what this was until yesterday? Clearly I live under a rock😌) to explain who I think I am and what I think I'm about. All of my dispersed online accounts I will unite on that single page, but I won't be loyal to the platforms I host my ideas/energies on.
I tend to be the 'eclectic' type. Seemingly contradictory existence, and yet if you listen long enough you'll know its just my unique identity that somehow manages to fit far flung pieces together. It just is what it is....>_>)
Also I definintely must add lastly I don't really dislike those who read my posts earnestly. All the genuine likes and readers I truly appreciated you, whether you were lurking or interacted with me. This space was truly an experiment - trying to find out my limits and who I am. So thanks for the thanks!
Irl I suck at socialising. It's on the difficulty level of 'dante must die' for me. I just suck at it - plain and simple. I get hives doing it often and take long times to recover. Perhaps irl trauma plays a huge role here. . .makes me feel all over the place but I try. 🤷♀️
So I suppose this space will stay open to write about anything else. Mostly media. I will try not to vent here anymore (it was unhealthy anyways, some opinions are best left on a youtube comment's section 😉).
Anycase I am weirdly hyped over the straw page I spent a stupid amount of time last evening making. (you can clearly tell my shadow is the one I socialise with the most lol). So if you find me disappearing, perhaps that page will be the center of me that sustains through it all.
Also, did you know, I really like to yap? Ok.
Well this is an awkward ending. Oh yeah, here's that page.
Bye. . .for now? Well, I make no promises - I promise you that. 😉
