art by reafre
date : 30 Oct, 2021
tools : pencils, watercolour on paper
Suptober21 art prompts by @winchester-reload, thank you for hosting this.
Jack love to play with his pumkin friend.
Dean just left his carved pumkin only a minute. And this little pumkin found it. Yes...both Dean and Cas took the photo of his pumkin boy
It takes 2 bottles of Whiskey and six beers to get Dean to dance.
Cas enjoys it a lot, sure the alcohol thing is something he shouldn't be easy about. But you shouldn't judge if you live on a daily dose of pills. Nevermind.
Dean dancing was something Cas enjoyed much but then, then when they danced in the tiny kitchen to a cassette they found in a car, then Billy Joel's Piano Man would play.
And they would laugh and Dean would be dramatic and use a bottle as his microphone, one hand in the air.
These were the nights where everything would be alright and Cas would feel tears on his cheeks and his tummy would hurt because here he was, Dean Winchester, dancing in his kitchen, to Billy Joel's Piano Man.
To the au in my head where chuck sends 15x18 dean that just saw cas get killed infront of him to the pilot episode and young dean and Sam have to lug around this guy who dosent speak and dosent look anyone in the eyes and is barely capable of keeping it together for five minutes and dean has to look the bleakness of his future right in the face. Sam says the line about Jess dying and dean not possibly knowing how he feels and the only thing older Dean says is “I know” and they look at him almost forgetting he’s in the back seat and then young dean just gets a sinking feeling in his gut cause now he Knows why this future version of him is so hollow.
it’s the way the show fucking hated cas but was like. okay cas you can stay as long as you and dean are just platonic boy best friends. and then dean and cas wouldn’t be just platonic boy best friends so they’d kill cas to try to make dean straight again. and then dean would get so depressed he’d refuse to move the story forward until they gave him cas back. and they did this like five or seven times and then the last time it happened they refused to give cas back so dean killed himself and the show ended. all because supernatural had 50-50 republican and democrat viewership and jensen ackles’ dad wouldn’t let him drink through straws as a kid
Just bringing back the fact that at 20:58 in 11x19, right as Dean has learned the two male hunters he is talking to are married, the bisexual pride flag flashes for a moment on his watch (upside down to us, but the right way up from his perspective). I cant find the original post I liked back in the day so I just went ahead and screenshotted it again. Do what you will with this information.
one of the most hilarious things on supernatural is how they try to convince us that dean knows how to talk to/interact with women. like in heaven can't wait, he's giving cas advice about the date with nora and i can't help but sit there laughing because dean is A LOSER!!!! YOU THINK HE KNOWS DATE ETIQUETTE?????
like literally his entire MO with women is he'll get drunk, look pretty and walk up to women who are also equally drunk and pretty. then he'll say the most ridiculous shit that the straight people on too hot to handle say to each other, and it only works because all parties involved are already on the same page wrt to where this is headed. like man has not been on one date in his entire adult life. i bet the only time he actually went on a date would've been, like, when he was with cassie and he probably did something so weird and insane that she was like omg i have to keep him he'll kill himself otherwise he's a weirdo.
and even the shit he tells cas is like. the most generic crap you hear on soap operas and sitcoms that doesn't actually help anyone so like I guess that insinuation isn't all that strong but it is still hilarious that they treat him as some kind of expert in this kind of interaction when he's probably the worst of them all.
ok IT HAPPENS IN 11x11 INTO THE MYSTIC BUT BEFORE I GET TO THE EXACT MOMENT. context:
1. casifer hand-on-shoulder. intimate moment ALL the crueler because we know it’s a deception. also this comes right on the heels of dean admitting that he has “a connection” with amara—he is evaluating what “attraction” means because he is desperately hoping he is NOT attracted to god’s evil sister. this means he has to think about what attraction DOES mean to him.
2. dean gets targeted by the banshee (because he is vulnerable. yes he WILL obsessively analyze what the shit that means)
3. mildred can tell he’s “pining” and tells him to “follow his heart”
in this episode dean has confronted 1) “cas” out of his jacket and also touching him 2) the definition of attraction 3) the fact that he has been targeted on account of some kind of vulnerability 4) the fact that he is Very Obviously romantically pining for somebody (who we KNOW is not amara, based on writer input). dean is THINKING. man is RUMINATING. keep that in mind here comes the pinpoint
first off...laying in bed trying VERY hard to sleep. unable to sleep. he sits up.
REALIZATION FACES? EPIPHANY FACE?
this moment is so long please i couldn’t fit all the caps in
this moment is so long please i couldn’t fit all the caps in
oh sickening. whatever he is realizing (insert eggplant emoji) led directly to this face. which i cannot name but it’s the same face i make whenever i think about MY life too hard. maybe i will call it Dawning Reality. SICKENING he is sickened and i am also sickened
hello. head in hands. fun fact: other times head has been in hands includes the 15x18 revelation
and then for the final shot of the episode we get...slow zoom on his face...his staunch american man face....cut up and bruised and all alone in the darkness. he is VULNERABLE he is HAVING A MOMENT he is considering the fact that angels don’t have the equipment to care and that whenever they try they break apart.
please let me stress how absolutely long and devoid of any other focus this scene is. we are watching his epiphany and his reaction to WHAT? to what he has been percolating on all day. someone pointing out how heartsick he is (NOT for amara) the way he feels around amara (NOT attraction) so what is his epiphany? what is he so conflicted over? he’s figured it out. connections attraction pining following his heart. the way he feels around cas. the way he feels about cas. he can’t follow his FUCKING heart
more from the script because robbie thompson is SICK and DEPRAVED.
bullet ONE dean will 1) hide his worry from sam. big brother instinct. 2) WORRY so hard. he is so worried all the time please you see this guy (COSMIC ENTITY) after a while (FEW DAYS) and you greet him with grumpiness because what else are you supposed to say? you miss him?
BULLET TWO another piece of the puzzle falls into place. how come dean knows cas better than sam? theyve known each other the same amount of time. open concern about him....but not too open. not TOO vulnerable. mr thompson....
same scene TKO. dean brushing aside the idea of weakness per fuckin usual....yeah ok why is he sitting up late at night and pulling his hair then. “overthinking it” says the ceo of overthinking things
bullet three im dead. im dead already. hes trying to figure something out shine the light on me and im dead this is a fucking epiphany break your heart imprisoned and tortured in love song goodbye
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